Wednesday, December 2, 2020

Hitler (1938) and Stalin (1939 + 1942) won Time Magazine's happy, celebrity-genocidal Person/People (but I say pig ape fascist racist rapist murdering whore-of-the-Nazis) of the Year award, once again, this year 2020. The genocidal tyrant iconography has been splintered off into black, white , male and female multi-colored/socio-political fractals but all emanating from the same SOURCE and organization (ultimately when the divisions and names are reduced to the onus of power). Hitler has died a happy peaceful death in Argentina thanks to post WWII American protection. Joseph Stalin was nicknamed "Uncle Joe" by adoring American fans, who were glad that the truly humanitarian Communists were killed off by the Totalitarian lying regime that took the name and the power and created a despotic Surveillance and oppressive State apparatus termed the CCCP and is now just called the Former East Soviet Bloc Countries plus Russia. The Whorewood movies make a big deal out of portraying Americans as having rescued the world from what Time Magazine had endorsed before all the info on their genocides and hate plans were made more public (years later). The actors play heroes rescuing America for Democracy. They teleport me with Nazi/fascist protocols and hate themes and outright references to genocide and the Holocaust aimed at me. The former Time Magazine genocidal leaders are long dead, but their legacy has won once more and won big in the minds of the viewers and readers who are not cautious and believe and trust in what they are demanded to believe in (with have a happy day as the mind controlling slogan, selling yet another commercial product to the "masses"--a Communist term by the way). Genocidal fascism and death squads and Holocaust representation has won Persons of the Year Award once more, a never-ending tribute to "them" for almost 100 years thanks to Time Magazine's brainwashing of the population, they never go out of style.. Unfortunately, the people who are not familiar with The Big Lie concept are beguiled and seduced by these images and "believe" that these are actually legitimate care-takers of Democracy and of humanity! Thanks to media publications like Time Magazine.

 



**the usual brain-altering tech and laptop hacking forces me to have to add this up front (plus the inevitable hacker rewrites which make my writing completely distorted and turned upside down in intention and meaning--). In the aftermath of fighting to think, type and express myself earlier, I remembered that there is yet another person who has "won" this award who has been behind the scenes for many years now. I get endless videos of this man on my YouTube channel on the top page, he's littering my page now daily. There was another performer/artist from his ensemble who I highly esteem, who I believe was assassinated because he would not play "the game" that enables these fakes into highest position as philanthropic underwriters of "Democracy" and "Freedom" and all that entails as consumer products sold off on the market to the tune of millions or billions of dollars. Thus, there are three people in/directly involved with teleporting and having my raped, poisoned with fungus on a daily basis (inserted into orifices of my body and in my food and I must breathe it in because it's sprayed all over my room) and thus, they are slowly murdering me in this stealth fashion. All put on Time's great influencers of American society for this year --AGAIN. AGain and again, publication, award ceremony and lead position I see "them" being handed all front-page accolades. All I can say is that, once more to reiterate: let the future be a new horizon for esteeming people who are not fakes and I must quote Trump in saying (and he stole this concept from my writing, actually) let there not be FAKE NEWS and media performers pushing altruism in the name of stealth hate organizations operating from behind these "puppets" (pig ape whores). In the longer post below, which I ground out because of the hardness of the keyboard and the increasing impossibility of typing due to the malware algorithm--I "forgot" to include the 3rd person in that 2020 listing-and as for the others, I have no idea if they have also participated as I believe there are many others who do not actively attack me in teleportation but certain either view the videos or conference calls observing these hateful and violent ugly and sinister teleportation attacks upon me, or they offer advice, or look the other way and thus are held as potentiates in the inner circles of power and then awarded.

I am now in the "dizzy" and nearly fainting stage of the brain-altering attack and must stop. I discovered upon reading part of the title of this post and then a few sentences down into the post that my brain had been blanked out and I "lost" the thread of my concepts and thus there were huge gaps in my ideas as I fought to express them.


I also urge the people (I mean pig ape whores) who continue to proliferate and pollute my internet with your faces, which are abhorrent to me, and your movies and videos to please stop doing this, as I have been writing about how odious this attack is for years. You all persist as this is your avenue of promotion, but you are DISGUSTING and I can't stand you hacking and staining my internet searches and your personalities and faces create a nauseous disgust in me and having to see any of you is a rotten pollutant when I am searching for important news clips on YouTube.

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Two terrorist "actors" who have teleported and attacked me are listed as Time's "People of the Year 2020." Both make openly vociferous and vehement statements of anti-Trumpism to the yearning yawning black hole of the media press. The sad reality, reality that I need someone to provide video-recorded evidence to prove, however having been tortured and teleported by them for a few years along with a huge never-ending increase of their goony loony cronies in H-wood and beyond: Without Trump, ALL OF THEM, the most famous charity humanitarian A-list celebrities many of whom have participated in this--and many are the most outspoken and claim they represent the "Democrat or Progressive Party"--they would not be in this position or have had access to this hate and torture, bigot and racism technology (or how it is being utilized by these unscrupulous posturing apes). One is "black" and one is "white". Another one who has indirectly been involved represents the fight against racism. The attacks upon me are the most vicious racist attacks and all stem from outright parallels to genocide from Nazis. ALL of these people/pig apes participate in attacking me and all have obtained promotions and endless media celebrity endorsements and political as well for these years they have participated in this, either openly or indirectly but they have made their presence and participation known to me, as part of the contractual obligation they have made with their horned-partners (I still believe the powers that are behind this ultimately stem from foreign infiltrator sources determined to "divide and conquer" and create chaos and take over more and more control over the United States. These are the pig apes who appear to have absolute control over at least large segments of the H-wood rotation of the same actors, in their ever-tightening monopolies, encouraged and sponsored by adamant genocidal racist/rapist anti-American funding partners in their huge multi-national conglomerate partnerships.


I didn't know pigs were people, but The Nazis controlling Time who are subhuman posturing "elite" pig apes consider them as such.

There is another one who is indirectly involved on the same list (he has never made his presence known to me, but is tied in with some of the worst predators).

I believe it was in 1931 or something that Hitler also was voted as Time's Man of the Year. The point is that these "people" are supposedly chosen because they have made great impact on American or world culture in some way. The real impact that the terrorists participating in torture, rape and endless violence against me, glaring in hate, ordering rape, disfigurement and poisoning/drugging of me as the yell at me (the black male, fighting for every underdog cause on the planet especially when it can promote him into this coveted position as a representative--thus $$$ big big money for his role) screaming undoubtedly angst at the bigot racist Trump who is his benefactor and friend, outside of the cameras. Same for the white male who makes endless public statements descrying Trump but is responsible for handing him the technology to torture me--the quid pro quo agreement of these non-gentlemen has generated endless lead roles for both, top priority and endless media coverage and now these awards and prizes from the Nazi-controlled media.

These fake news/media terrorists are listed more highly than the US President and Vice President in the sequencing of the photos---the top positions go to performers.

That is America today. I wonder if the new administration will produce anything more representative of reality and of the human race in the reality of determination to actually care about issues outside of representing a huge billion dollar industry iconography tied-in to political (aspirations) and control and representation.

The merging of politics with these celebrities is another "recipe for disaster" that has gone on unabated for so long.

I try to disentangle these lies with the reality of this nebulous technology forced upon me. I have no stake in either the US Government or in H-wood so when one of these actors on either of the divides influencing the public proves to be a THREAT TO NATIONAL SECURITY as these terrorists are--I feel obliged to try to fight this. They are also a threat to my life, however so many people are being victimized I wonder if anyone can hear me outside of the din of the endless cries for help that are only increasing in exponential fashion through America and indeed throughout the planet--due to people like this who are being AWAREDED AS REPRESENTING THE "BEST" OF HUMANITY AND THE "BEST" OF AMERICA AND IT'S FIGHT FOR FREEDOM AND DEMOCRACY.

The people I have only referred to are extremely violent and racist (yes, even the blacks who are being trained to be anti-Semitic or whatever other race they are being promoted by Nazis to hate and attack--for them, as their minions) and....it's very disturbing that I remain absolutely silenced like this.

I write this now to try to once more urge people reading my posts, as I know there are some or many but invisible to me--to please not continue to allow this usurpation of the media by Nazi forces (or whatever groups they belong to--from whatever countries).

I can only say that this push to have people absolutely violent, lacking all moral consciousness, engaging in tyrannical elitist practices and promoted for pursuing a genocidal agenda should not continue to be promoted or pushed in the media as these Time people of the year--you can bet that the resurgence of Nazism in America, which was not a small faction during the 2nd World War at all---this high regard for Hitler and the ensuing Nazi subculture that has risen in the last few years from a kind of subdued radicalism to almost mainstream populism and death threats and violence are now openly proclaimed in the streets and in the social media networks---it's publications like Time's People of the Year which honors these veiled threats to freedom who are touted as being esteemed personalities has only served to create this now open threat to "Democracy" that so many of the "liberal" media are complaining about. The "liberal" media is one of the greatest sources of pushing these absolutely violent fake "liberal" personalities in the first place.

I do hope that the new Administration will at least covertly work to undermine this insidious fascist Nazi control over the media and to quell this very deadly trend that I seem to be the only one to expose--and of course, I am "silenced" and then my ideas are stolen by these pig apes who then are instructed to turn the ideas into more Nazi propaganda after they attack and violate and help to rape and encourage these Nazi propaganda ideals through their fake "altruistic" charitable "liberal" fronts which are so carefully packaged. All the pig apes have to do is posture and lie and that is ALL they are doing. Millions of dollars paid out to these worthless whores and creeps and parasites---they are just that from years of being tortured by them when they don't have to fake their rotten fake personalities for cameras for the duped or not so dumb public which remains in abeyance and "stands by" for the ultimate signal to wreak death and hate upon these groups they are only secretly willing to destroy--which also includes those of their "own races" who don't conform to the mediocrity that their group demands of them. They are trained to sing and perform, which they do. I also claim that there must be others in the shadows of the media industry waiting in the wings who could probably perform MUCH BETTER WITH MORE SOUL AND STYLE AND HAVE SOME ACTUAL CONVICTION OF THE CLAIMS THEY MAKE ABOUT THEIR PROFESSED CONCERN FOR SEXISM, RACISM, DEMOCRACY, FREEDOM (FOR PEOPLE NOT FOR NAZIS TO GO OUT AND KILL AND RAPE AND TORTURE--AND THAT REALLY IS WHAT THEY ARE FIGHTING FOR IS THAT "FREEDOM").

Tuesday, December 1, 2020

A warning to viewers like you, coming to a theater near you (the theater of your mind, body and soul sunk into a black hole). Dire warning for humanity.

 I think my last post, written and published today, was badly redacted by hackers. I can't take rewriting every post I am not only sick of doing this but I can't go through reading this chaotic pathetic mess of pathetically begging the planet to stop torture and disfiguration and home-break-ins and violence endlessly directed at me by highest ranking people in the media and in government. Year-after-year and I'm still going on. i can't read it any longer, and then, the rewrites by hackers is dismally depressing how badly they rewrite and change meaning. What they delete and omit becomes a strenuous effort for me to "remember" what I had been trying to write in the first place, as my brain is always under attack whilst I am writing and retrieving the concepts requires a lot of effort under the strength of the remote neural attack I experience while I sit in front of this laptop. I believe there is some implanted technology being blasted directly into my brain that is integrated into this laptop (and most or all of the computers I use at internet cafes, or people follow me around carrying hidden remote tech creating a similar or same brain-wave alteration, whatever it is I do not have the exact term for the application or effect.


The below has been Copied and pasted from MY Facebook post a little while ago, today:


The money I should receive by 12 pm every month--but shows up most months, sporadically, at 5 pm, or 3 pm---I have to wait until 5 pm usually for the money to appear on my account.

I have received NOTHING this month. I have not gotten any notice from the government, nor has my mailing service alerted me of any notifications from my government account.
Hackers block the amount in my online banking service. They are blocking my money and this is deadly for me.
If anyone out there is a white hat hacker please stop this block of my money or stop the people responsible for blocking my very vital money supply which should have shown in my account hours ago.

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TWO MINUTES AFTER I WROTE THE ABOVE POST MY MONEY APPEARED ON MY ONLINE BANKING STATEMENT. I don't know if I should say "thank you" to the invisible support system or whether it was a "glitch" (doubtful). I am living in a very deadly zone right now, as the person accountable for attacking me is in a very bad mood and needs someone to take it out on. Plus I am a kind of security token for them to further exploit and after years of torture and violence not only from him and his group, but from his predecessors (in H-wood) and before that, it has never ended. Like any Freedom-loving person, I want to be "free" to live my life in peace without being forced into a domestic violence torture situation that I never "allowed" to happen to me, choose or got into willingly. Please let me live in peace without this Hell being forced upon me. I want my cat returned--La Moux, the cat in the photo that represents my page here above--Trump has her some place and is using her as collateral. She is my most beautiful precious child I just want her back alive. There are other cats but she is my most beloved on this planet and please get her back to me and also that I have a safe home living ALONE and not in this predicament that is abhorrent and beyond description for how badly I never want to help these people to have more power (all of them participating) and all that I have ever loved they have destroyed, stolen and broken in my life and killed off the rest that had formerly supported and loved me.

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My last post read like a redacted deleted chaos post. Hackers deleted and had a great time rewriting and turning it into a mess.
I am experiencing pretty bad DOS disruptions today. I was trying to simply open a page and for over 15 minutes I have sat watching the cursor spin around and around and the entire browser froze. I closed it and the page remained on the screen.
Hackers here--the sensation is of someone on "crack" spasmatically rewriting and deleting like a sick maniac--or worse. I don't feel like writing about how loathsome "they" are at this moment.
I face great uncertainty and I really need support and defense and to live in a safe home. I never want to have a "baby" with any of these people, and besides, they ordered part of my uterus cut out and I can't understand what other "experiment" these attackers will use to try to force a baby out of me when they forced a partial hysterectomy on me while I was unconscious and sleeping in my own room as the terrorists broke in, under order of this very group attacking me (out of H-wood and in DC) and it's so abominable I can't describe it any longer--after more than 8 years of writing about this non-stop since 2013 on Facebook (or earlier) I really think people get the idea but the concept of actually doing anything to block this group from torturing me any longer appears to be an alien concept to all or most readers.
I wait for America to not descend into a completely backwards condition of chaos and organized murder and destruction of the country and it's principles and concepts of "Democracy" and "Freedom".
If you people allow this technology and these torture murder squads (aka "gang stalking" groups) to continue to accumulate these torture and surveillance weapons and technologies, probably most of the tech is unaccounted for and other private firms are replicating the technology. This WILL AND IS ALREADY a huge catastrophe and will turn into a conflagration of death and coups and paramilitary massacres in the streets of America unless people STOP THESE GROUPS because they are tied into the Neo-Nazis and other groups (also on the "Left" but I do not mean "Anti-fa" which I consider to be an arm of the alt-Right fascist movements--their agent provacateur used as rationalization for marching in the streets with semi-automatic rifles willing to shoot and kill and then promote the killers--as is already happening now).
I urge people to consider that by silencing me and by hiding this technology that, although many of you reading this may want to have America turned into a hate and despotic state, you may be a victim in the future (as most people in this day and age can only become alarmed if their own security is at risk, while other principles that should concern people are completely blotted out--such as compassion and care and concern for society and it's smooth-functioning rather than personal gain and greedy aspirations--even if that entails a group prosperity but enhanced by oppressing other groups only to claim supremacy within the society. However, this proliferation of these covert technologies I have described will turn into a veritable blood bath and the victims may be you too, in all your complicity and silencing and allowance and greed (and really apathy and disregard for Life and sanctity of human dignity afforded to other human beings).
what's so odious is that some of this hate and evil technology is being lauded by people who claim religious and spiritual hegemony and that they are of highest moral standing in regard to the usual Judeo-Christian values. It's an abomination.

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Again---bad hacking in the above post. Also, my brain is being "zapped" by their brainwave altering tech so my thoughts that I write come out as broken in sequence--like my brain/thoughts are being turned on and off as if someone is turning a switch on and off. Gaps and blank spaces where conjoining words should appear and entire concepts are lost as my brain is literally for a fraction of a second "erased" or I could be made "unconscious" for a fraction of a second. This group uses the tech to force me to faint--it has happened before--I think they are forcing some kind of brain or neural firing in a kind of 0.01 fraction of a second time lapse of functioning and being zapped into an extremely brief state of unconsciousness--or something akin to this sort of blanking the brain for less than a second while I am writing, or speaking. In public places I lose the ability to count simple numbers like 9+4 I just get stuck on the wrong number and my brain blanks out and I can't count---but while I am not in public I can do it instantaneously without a second thought--for these easy calculations at least. Right now I wanted to write this: the people who are the worst culprits who have attacked me are not just the supposed "Christians" but---those who make the loudest splashes and noises about fighting for all the egalitarian concepts of a "free and open society". They embrace these technologies of oppression, suppression, torture, rape, domestic violence imposed upon an innocent victim, and mutilation as punishment for saying "no" or questioning or not doing what they want--a complete form of mental and physical--absolutely embraced with full ardor by those who make the biggest social commentaries in the media and other arenas and theaters--claiming endlessly how they are fighting and fully incorporating this technology into the arsenal of their aspired-for mega-billion dollar conglomerate consolidated monopolies that they plan on ruling the planet with. It is happening now. This technology will be at the forefront of their stealth operations, behind the scenes.
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Monday, November 30, 2020

Love lost and regained in the sands of duality and retained through eternal spiritual blackest and lightest enduring flames. Love is the solution to mind control. Love is used as a trap to lure victims into mind control operations. Love is still an energy universal and never wasted. One must remain vigilant and aware of how mind control operations operate.


 


As mind control operations in the public consciousness are completely silenced by the real victims, and not the fake news pundits explaining the hate reality to the dumbed down viewers who can't get access to "alternative" sources such as myself--as people like me drugged up to the point of drugged hysteria and lack of all protection or defense are BLOCKED from all public view, the writings, the rantings, the ability to function--as society silently obeys and turns away to obtain their "information" from the enlarging chorus of commentators, writers and advocates of this huge mental restriction brain-programming global protocol: relegated to either not writing anything at all or writing in the hopes that what I write on a copyrighted blog is somewhat "safe" from the inevitable hackers who allow loveless parasites to steal all and anything they want from me, my home, my body and my life: understanding that all I write is stolen by loveless parasites, I still copy and paste what I wrote today on Facebook under the influence of hacking and mind control, operating upon me akin to opening my brain like a "truth serum" sieve while I have to, every time I write (or speak to anybody) find myself struggling to fight against hackers changing words and rewriting/discrediting after I write or publish. I write this here because I have published a "copyright" mark which is supposed to protect me somewhat from the inevitable hackers who allow loveless parasites to steal my ideas and words verbatim. I write this because the love I have expressed to people I would rather destroy is never wasted energy, nor are my words wasted here although people I would rather destroy are hacking in to steal all so they can use and steal whatever possible from me. My words ring out into the universe and my intention is clear, and like Love never wasted, that people have sucked dry, I remain cold but never love's labor lost. The people who suck out and drain are the love's labor lost who tell themselves and each other that they are the "winners" in a power contest of sordid sorts. They are the opposite.

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Love used as a weapon to essentially create a "slow kill" operation, the "Honey pot" operations akin to hacking through back door portals--and yet, love is always a constant and love is the cure. Yet, with information blocked and censored, many others will die in their attempt to find love in the midst of a loveless technocratic revolution designed for mass murder and genocide albeit all displayed as love and charity and benevolence. Love in it's many forms, from the victims who emit this energy that the hate technocrats suck in and drain and then kill the target afterwards SLOWLY and in covert, undetectable (thus "legal") fashion. All such death combined with love. The shadows of the night are dimmed by the white light of the day's cold play and productivity consumer consumation that drives the energy that is lost from Love.


I write an ode to Love in it's pure form, in the shadows of night, unrequited or returned, it remains a purity and a constant in this universe of the Earth despite all your/my/their/our hate spawning a greedy corporation of DEATH technology designed for the luxury of a few while the rest are lured in by love's labors lost but never dissipated and always true despite all the hate undertow bringing the victim to it's watery slow drunken disillusionment.


Never, thus, be dismayed by the predatory parasites who drain and suck out love. Your love/my love is pure and their hate and malicious malevolence is driving the corporate force for forced love-drain in my/your/their/our collective brain(s) or lack thereof. (! lol). 

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Love is the antidote to their hate/your hate. Love is not wasted but love spent on a parasite is deadly and they suck all they can out of you/me/you/they/WE. 


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Without further ado, what I wrote today on Facebook which is my first attempt at writing personal thoughts/poetry for a very long time since loveless parasites have only stolen all I write and say for over 10 years. I have decided that I continue to push my energy out instead of having it stolen and sucked dry and bottled for compression by downpresser loveless hyenas and parasites who delight in rape, torture and all kinds of nefarious crimes but are exalted in the public opinion and in society nevertheless.

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This little poem, just below, was written by me. Since so many are stealing my words and concepts, I don't know if I write THIS IS COPYRIGHTED whether that can be legally binding for loveless parasites to stop STEALING MY CONCEPTS AND WORDS BUT...
as I want to save my work and Facebook allows for some of this, and I want to express this outside of my blog (or maybe I should just publish this there anyway which is "copyrighted" but still a portal of loveless parasites to steal and rob and rewrite and etc).
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Love
like Energy
can neither be lost nor gained
It flows
It goes
Some people treat Love like
a drug you snort up your nose
caked with lies
heaving pornographic sighs
Are you one of those
through which the desecration of love flows?
Or are you one
who follows the sun?
A course of cyclical peace
bringing dualistic sheep fleece
Considered a weakness for macho men
Otherwise turned into a comic sin by the den.
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"Leise flehen meine Lieder Durch die Nacht zu dir; In den stillen Hain hernieder, Liebchen, komm zu mir! Flüsternd schlanke Wipfel rauschen In des Mondes Licht; Des Verräters feindlich Lauschen Fürchte, Holde, nicht. Hörst die Nachtigallen schlagen? Ach! sie flehen dich, Mit der Töne süßen Klagen Flehen sie für mich. Sie verstehn des Busens Sehnen, Kennen Liebesschmerz, Rühren mit den Silbertönen Jedes weiche Herz. Laß auch dir die Brust bewegen, Liebchen, höre mich! Bebend harr’ ich dir entgegen! Komm, beglücke mich!"

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GUTE NACHT--from WINTERREISE (Franz Schubert)




GUTE NACHT/GOOD NIGHT
(hello lol goodbye lol--my words of course! One must laugh at these serious Germans after all!) Of course, it's all serious as hell reality.
"I arrived a stranger,
a stranger I depart.
May blessed me
with many a bouquet of flowers....s/he spoke of love...the Mother spoke of Marriage...now the world is so desolate,
the path concealed beneath snow.
I cannot choose the time
for my journey;
I must find my own way
in this darkness.
A shadow thrown by the moon
is my companion;
and on the white meadows
I seek the tracks of deer.
Why should I tarry longer
and be driven out?
Let stray dogs howl
before their master’s house.
Love delights in wandering –
God made it so –
from one to another.
Beloved, good night!
I will not disturb you as you dream,
it would be a shame to spoil your rest.
You shall not hear my footsteps;
softly, softly the door is closed.
As I pass I write
‘Good night’ on your gate,
so that you might see
that I thought of you."
The crippled singing of stunted situations sinking and sorrow but somehow delight in the solitude of a snowy, dark night wandering alone feeling REFRESHED AND FREE! (Again, my interpretation and words). Growing and raising to full form in the freedom of not conjoining in the confining crippling norm of domesticity. (i.e. NO BABIES with any loveless haters or parasites or people of that hate organization that has surrounded my life with their filth for generations of slime and scum exalted in society and by society. Loveless parasites. Let there be an end to them NOW and FOREVER).
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Einsturzende Neubauten (Blixa Bargeld) SAND from album Halber Mensch (Half-human):



...from another often very melancholy German musician/artist--Blixa Bargeld sings SAND as all is temporal in human affairs (for some people, for those who love and can't love simultaneously):

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Musik of Franz Schubert (and others)





Wilkommen und Abschied"
heist 😊) auf English
Hello and Goodbye
filmed in Stuttgart/created by Franz Schubert with text from Goethe.

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The sweet, sad farewell to the lover's parting at the first light of a Golden Dawn: to have been loved and to love during the thousands of black eyes of night, hollow trees resounding sighs of delight, brightness within the warm folds of utter blackness of night, turning to the morn, the rays portending a severance, reminders of the night's joys and love not lost and never lost even when gone, remits the sorrow of separation in the bright, rosy spectrum of the day's harsh light. (my words, upon reflection that love, no matter how and where obtained, remains a true light within the folds of the darkest depths of that repose of Night and all that portends and signifies...even if love is unrequited makes no difference in that love has not been wasted and love remains a true, "ever-fixed" mark in the darkest times and can be shattered and sent into fractured light in the brightest rays of piercing light).

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...and THAT (above) is why Schubert has been classified as part of The Romantic Era of classical music! Goethe, of course has to include darkness brought into the focus of The Light as it is his eternal theme for which he is famous.

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FAUSTIAN

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Not sure if Faust is so romantic, and luckily that book (or treatise or pseudo-religious text) was written prior to the Romantic Era, or, not considered as being fully part of that genre. Duh. Not exactly a romantic comedy was Faust or not romantic as hell.

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Goethe's Wilkommen Und Abschied translation from German-English. Notice how far astray our modern forms of loving poetry in pop culture, as trivial as some of it may seem, extend far beneath triviality and have gone below this former infinite exploration of the soul as connected to the universality of love, inevitable death on many levels, departure and cohesion--obscuring contrast, obliterating scope, depth and meaning of infinite possibilities of love.

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Willkommen und Abschied

Es schlug mein Herz, geschwind zu Pferde!
Es war getan fast eh’ gedacht.
Der Abend wiegte schon die Erde,
Und an den Bergen hing die Nacht;
Schon stand im Nebelkleid die Eiche,
Ein aufgetürmter Riese, da,
Wo Finsterniss aus dem Gesträuche
Mit hundert schwarzen Augen sah.
Der Mond von einem Wolkenhügel
Sah kläglich aus dem Duft hervor,
Die Winde schwangen leise Flügel,
Umsausten schauerlich mein Ohr;
Die Nacht schuf tausend Ungeheuer,
Doch frisch und fröhlich war mein Mut:
In meinen Adern welches Feuer!
In meinem Herzen welche Glut!
Dich sah ich, und die milde Freude
Floss von dem süssen Blick auf mich;
Ganz war mein Herz an deiner Seite
Und jeder Atemzug für dich.
Ein rosenfarbnes Frühlingswetter
Umgab das liebliche Gesicht,
Und Zärtlichkeit für mich – Ihr Götter!
Ich hofft’ es, ich verdient’ es nicht!
Doch ach, schon mit der Morgensonne
Verengt der Abschied mir das Herz:
In deinen Küssen welche Wonne!
In deinem Auge welcher Schmerz!
Ich ging, du standst und sahst zur Erden,
Und sahst mir nach mit nassem Blick:
Und doch, welch Glück, geliebt zu werden!
Und lieben, Götter, welch ein Glück!

Greeting and farewell

My heart pounded, quick, to horse!
No sooner thought than done;
Evening already cradled the earth,
And night clung to the hills;
The oak-tree loomed in its misty cloak,
Towering like a giant, there,
Where darkness peered from bushes
With a hundred jet-black eyes.
The moon gazed from a bank of cloud
Mournfully through the haze,
The winds softly beat their wings,
Whirred eerily about my ears;
Night brought forth a thousand monsters,
Yet I was buoyant and bright:
What fire in my veins!
What ardour in my heart!
I saw you, felt the gentle joy
Of your sweet eyes flood over me;
My heart was wholly at your side
And every breath I took for you.
A rose-red light of spring
Framed her lovely face,
And tenderness for me – O gods!
This I had hoped but never deserved!
But alas, with the morning sun,
Parting now constricts my heart:
In your kisses what delight!
In your eyes what pain!
In went, you stood there gazing down,
And gazed moist-eyed after me:
And yet, what joy to be loved!
And to be in love, O gods, what joy!
Translations by Richard Stokes, author of The Book of Lieder (Faber, 2005)

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***as always, upon writing the above, as I attempted to re-read, I had to type in words that hackers had deleted. I struggle to get my hands to move as my motor skills are blocked by the brain-altering tech. It is very hard to think clearly, and like an algorithm, the longer I attempt to write and think ,the worse the attacks become or the effect blocks my cognitive and motor functioning. I can't expect that having corrected the typos hackers inserted that once I publish this there will not be another new rash of hacker inserts and deletions....***

Sunday, November 29, 2020

I continue to be slashed by mechanical arms to the bone nightly. I spend my life cleaning up sprayed (by said mechanical arms) filth polluting my environment, plus fighting to clean poison the "stalker" terrorists poured secretly into my food; eventually breaking into my home every day to poison and drug my food which has turned into years of fighting to eliminate hard, caked poison latched into my spine and muscle interior .10 years of fighting this, alone, while being tortured (i.e. heart palpitations going on hours daily, every day. Tears pouring out of my eyes due to implant attacks, daily for hours, going on for years--just to mention two plus insertions into my body and under nails, and more and more and more covering my entire body)-- with health care blocked/denied, even when I was covered I was lied to and left without decent health care and attacked by doctors in clinics and poisoned by them too. Lied to everywhere. I remain: without earning capability due to blacklisting and attacks that never end, and never enough money to live on. All for basic survival without endless poverty and sickness, all health care all avenues for having any single thing that isn't filthy, stinking and broken and ordered upon me (as they also kill animals I love, and have stolen my cat La Moux who I want returned alive and healthy immediately--) and all ordered to be denied me by billionaires and millionaires who have stolen ideas using this high tech top secret warfare surveillance and torture "mind programming" technology---plus torture and plus intellectual property theft going on without pause for over 10 years or longer from this one same group still attacking me. I remain alone fighting for my life: but GON'T GO OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE DO-NOTHING READERS (THE DO-NOTHING MEME i CREATED AND HAS SINCE BEEN COPIED BY A WORLD LEADER): DO NOTHINGS, do not go outside your comfort zone to help me in any way, as you have always been doing. Unless you want to also join in the gang attacking me and get promotions just like them for celebrity status and lead roles and promotions! Don't do anything because IT IS NOT AFFECTING YOU IT'S ONLY HAPPENING TO ME AND OTHER "LOSERS" WHO YOU WANT TO SEE DESTROYED BUT EVERYTHING SUCKED OUT OF FIRST BEFORE THE FINAL DEATH BLOW. Because I used to compete and beat the parasites, they have forced this role of "loser" upon me with poisoning and torture and a WORLD of people DOING NOTHING to stop it or them or to help me in any way. All silent and obedient and willing and able to assist for the security of your society. It's in a bit of a tizzy if you are not ultra wealthy at this moment but if you survive the genocide then you can assume that you and all will GO BACK TO THE OLD NORMAL IN A VERY SHORT TIME and that watching me cry out and beg online for HELP FOR OVER 8 YEARS WHILE NO ONE DOES ANYTHING TO STOP THIS BUT HELP IN EXPLOITING ME can NEVER happen TO YOU IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN TO YOU. Keep doing nothing because soon IT'S ALL GOING TO GO BACK TO THE GOOD OLD NORMAL DAYS JUST WAIT A FEW MORE WEEKS AND THE ANTIDOTE WILL APPEAR LIKE A SIGN FROM HEAVEN THAT you are safe and keep LAUGHING ABOUT HOW i AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP FOR A DECADE ONLINE BECAUSE NO GOVERNMENT OR SOCIETY OR INDIVIDUAL WILL STEP IN TO DEFEND ME. SO KEEP ON waiting for your hope dope to kick in to the old normal situation when you kept ignoring me as you are all doing now, but watching as your favorite digitalized and edited icons represent MY IDEAS as their own as you celebrate the "liberalism" that they portray and you can all feel safe that this IS ONLY HAPPENING TO ME and the death all around YOU NOW, it's just temporary and technology has NOTHING TO DO WITH THE MASSIVE SPREAD OF death and all is going to be well and wonderfulicious when the Age of Aquarius brings in more life-enabling technology to help you to cheer in psychopaths, abusers, rapists and Nazis and Imperialists posing as altruistic concerned "liberals" as you follow and believe and believe and laugh and laugh alongside them at me and others like me who are being tortured to death by technologies that you laugh about because it's happening to "losers who deserve it or did something to deserve it" just like now, there must be something like a curse upon America but soon it's all going to be okay and you can go back to the OLD NORMAL and just keep laughing at people like me being tortured in plain sight and absolutely ignored and silenced and tortured with dismemberment as you DO NOTHING (and even that two-word accusation has been stolen FROM ME and used as a discrediting accusation by THE PEOPLE WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO REPRESENT THE PEOPLE LIKE ME but never do.... and the Age of Aquarius is just going to bring in MORE OF THEM AND FEWER OF PEOPLE LIKE ME..OR EVEN YOU so keep DOING NOTHING DO NOTHING DO NOTHING as I write about dismemberment and torture asking people to stop this and help me and stop this and stop them and stop them as you cheer them on while electromagnetic pulses tell you and inform your choices but you are so deluged you have no clue absolutely NO CLUE SO YOU CONCEDE AND YOU BELEIVE AND YOU LAUGH AS i detail this and you DO NOTHING AND THE OLD NORMAL IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER WHERE YOU WON'T EVER HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT BEING AN UNDERDOG POTENTIALLY DEAD EVER AGAIN.

 YOU

can NEVER BE TARGETED

it will NEVER HAPPEN TO YOU

it only happens to be because obviously I must have 'DONE SOMETHING TO DESERVE IT"


THEY KEEP ON attacking my keyboard and brain while I type, the usual and endless discrediting tactic used when I am writing and speaking


I continue fighting for my life to stop the mechanical arms but these terrorists keep ripping off and breaking through and using solvents to unglue and then reglue all I paste to try to stop them from breaking through the tape and paper I glue on cupboard angles of panels that have already been pasted, glued, pounded with hooks and tied together with rope/strings but cut inbetween with laser technology so nearly one-millimeter mechanical arms can get through and one single mechanical arm can wreak endless damage to my body and my home. It is UNBELIEVABLE BUT IT CAN NEVER HAPPEN TO YOU never never just keep on smiling and wait in LINE to attack me and others like me and keep laughing with the perpetrators as they torture, rape and steal ideas, property and money and then KILL AFTERWARDS and just keep doing NOTHING because TECHNOLOGY IS GOING TO ENHANCE YOUR LIFE AND SOON IT'S GOING TO BE BETTER AND BETTER. The pandemic has brought on the Age of Aquarius and technology is going to explode into your home, body and brain and I think that has been a most CALCULATED corollary of this situation for the new technocratic  paradise of Aquarius demagoguery dumbed down aristocracy and genocidal duplicity.


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I got up from this table housing the laptop and after 30 minutes of doing other things, walking nearly crooked because I felt so light-headed, so dizzy, nauseous, my brain under such attack by their implants and tech and lingering drugging---nearly fainting as I sit here even right now after 30 minutes of walking around trying to alleviate this remote influence  on my brain, motor skills and my brain functioning which is now at a very low level. My writing because hyperbolic, rambling, hateful and enraged and incapable of cool, and clear concise rendering of any concept or idea. It just turned into the usual hate rant and then hackers deleted and rewrote, as they always do, to ameliorate what I had written so it read opposite of what I had first written. Important words thus were deleted and I tried to stagger through the title of this post. I rambled on and then went to this section to write the usual post or prefix to my post--always trying to negate their attacks upon my credibility. 

I feel so ill from the brain attacks right now, like almost fainting at this point.


The teleportation "skits" remain hateful, violent, hinting at death or homelessness, abuse, yelling betwixt me and the usual culprits teleporting me (years and years going on and on without end, shunted from one of them to the next and then back again, for a decade by now from this one group).


Thus, reflecting on my writing I can say that it is less than half of what I am capable of and more than 75% influenced by remote and outside haters affecting my brain and motor skills and the keyboard.

The teleportation is also a death experience as sleep is a healing phase for the body, and in addition to deadly poisoning and then recurrent poisoning on top of my nervous system being shattered daily by hate and abuse, the perpetrators you all cheer on are laughing and partying in their new production studios and lead roles and awards that line their livingrooms and studios encased in gold trophy stands--and beauty treatments for them all continuously while they keep ordering my hair to be shorn, frayed and damaged and falling out, stinking of putrid fungus and odors--if possible, they would continue to have me raped by my landlord and the white Europi-ape men who proliferate here to get free rent and assist in damaging my body and home and breaking in with their mechanical arms through the panels of the walls to rape and disfigure me, all not just for free rent but free new businesses. Teleported to endless hate and violence matches between me and your Aquarian friends with all their technology that they (mis) use for personal and business "highs".


The Stock market is now geared towards a very exclusive tiny and ever-narrowing harrowing group of violent genocidal holders of the gates of society. The numbers of dying and dead and impoverished has been magnified by a percent I can't calculate as I have not found calculations (but there must be some and easy to obtain but I can't find such information). The direction of a technocentric society has been achieved in this pandemic phase of the technocratic coup that not just one individual wants to use as a weapon for a power grab over society and "Democracy". 


And  my brain is "spinning" to such an extent and fighting to pound down on the keyboard is so strenuous I am stopping here. 

I can only surmise that my thoughts are being scrutinized and any idea stolen that these haters want to steal. The contract entails only stealing even unique words or extraneous to the main paradigm thought patterns, to be stolen and reinserted "into the matrix". 


However, I write this out "to the void" of the potential future readers who, in the safety of not having to act out of line, but still wanting to change a system that threatens them (but will conform to it once their demands for "equality" are met with tantalizing endorsements and promotions and lots of money and property--and then they kiss up to the perpetrators and that is the main mind programming situation that is being foisted upon EVERYONE.

And this idea will be stolen, as all my ideas are stolen (and often "my ideas" are ideas I heard or read and concentrated into a few sentences, which is all I can get out. Once I get on this laptop forum my brain is shuttered by the remote tech and microchip implant configuration. I just can't go on.


Waiting for a remedy waiting for people to block this death cycle that so far, after 10 years of writing about it in detail day and night and day after day, I see that no one still is willing to step in and do anything. Everyone acts like I deserve this and it is normal, while at the same time they are crying out for justice and demanding racism be eliminated and they never consider what is happening to me: racism, hate, rape and torture--to be anything they should be concerned about because I'm not black. My culture has shunned me, and I am being transposed into the cliches that this group that shunned and also attacked and still attacks me are supposed to be, which I never conformed to nor ever wanted to participate in and never really have, except for a few experimental forays and investigations into various cultures and religions not just what these bigots tell me I am supposed to be a part of, forcing their hate labels upon me and drugging, torturing me to accept a lessor status than them, while they are stealing ideas from me because all they do is conform to cliches, stereotypes and do what they are told (nearly exactly ) and thus, have no original ideas whatsoever (as it seems from being tortured and then ideas stolen by them from me--for years and years from a revolving group of them, these actors, writers and politicians--and then unceremoniously left to be murdered or they try to covertly murder me afterwards)

and you all watch on and on doing nothing

I am now so dizzy I can't focus or concentrate any longer. My hands can barely type and the keyboard is so blocked I can't get the letters to print out unless I pound down with my entire hand on single keys.


I am under so much dehabilitating brain-altering tech it's like I am falling into an intoxicated rambling hate zone. I can't write more, and now hackers are blocking the template so what I write is "lost" as the page won't scroll down to show my writing any longer.


When doses anyone ever stop this or defend me? I must ask again. It is now approaching the Age of Aquarius but it appears to be a more primitve and sinister society that can never do anything but allow death and hate to penetrate from highest levels onto people "like me" who are silenced and tortured targets. I now cannot see what I am typing as this is being blocked by hackers.