Showing posts with label NO excuses but an explanation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label NO excuses but an explanation. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

It is virtually (literally due to virtual reality imposing confines to my brain through the technology/drug interface) impossible for me to collect my thoughts and write coherently or even begin to access my creative thoughts due to: hacking/drugging/mind control technology/stress and gang stalking.

I also repeated a few ideas within the same sentence in the last post (I wrote that hackers were responsible for hacking, or something like that, I am not lazy but sick and always drugged up from stalkers breaking into my home via mechanical arms through the many panels that jut out from the walls of this studio which is a surveillance/torture atmosphere.)

I am glad I have a place to live, glad that I am not in a worse situation.

Gratitude for what i have. Glad I can write on a laptop that is "mine" although tampered with.

But unable to focus, concentrate, access the ideas I want to express. Always something "else" comes out when I begin to type. I know but cannot prove that technology is "beaming" or "pulsing" brainwave blocks and neuron-firing hinderances into my brain while I type in this very spot. Every time I get up from the laptop I "remember" what I had wanted to say.

My mind is rife with ideas and creative concepts when I am not sitting in front of the laptop. Once I get on, my brain is wiped clean like a slate (tabula rasa).

This also happens in public while I'm under attack by gang stalkers. I am unable to count basic sums and the list goes on and on.

Thus, while I make no excuses I do attempt to "explain" why my posts are so.....oh, for me unreadable. In retrospect I know there are subliminals implanted through this tecdh and other parts of my brain absolutely blocked from accessing my real creative and intellectual capacity to communicate.

Agony TORTURE of tears brimming out of my completely devestated skin structure around my eyes and the torture never stops on a daily basis, my cheeks like sandpaper has been rubbed against my skin for years which the tears pouring out of my eyes has altered the skin and facial structure and this is done 100% of the time every day for hours until I begin to write about the torrture. They then go into hacking torture as I try to alter my brainwaves and while I am watching anything any vulnerability of any mention of anything related to any of this 500+ member celebrity and politician and etc crew just out of h-wood partnerinng with congress and the mafia and the nazi party, so this is always in effect and mostly the people who are assaulting me I watched perhaps a clip of them months or y ears ago, or decades ago watching movies hacked onto my cable tv while they had me so badly drugged I could only lay watching tv in a drugged state--could not clean except stinking clothing while the yhad me poisoned to death raped beaten while in deep sleep. This same group the exact same people since at least 2013, decade or more later after endless years of them obtaining oscars where they NEVER had any of these top awards in their entire careers but rushing at me with extreme hate to obtain more as an addiction--demanding that I am "supposed" to automatically service them in every way as a slave with only more abuse and torture as my reward and nothing, they destroy and take all away it is done by millions of people globally who operate with them, but all could NEVER have been accomplished without the full FUNDING AND PERMISSION STRUCTURE BY THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT which is constantly, constantly sending celebrities who are buying out politicians to do the bidding of euro-nazi mafia and nazis out of france, england and germany , et al. Today fighting to copy links on how to restore my absolutely destroyed, hacked computer since I literally cannot obtain anyone willig to not infect my computer as "help" when I go to any computer shop I am abused openly discriminated against lied to openly with hate and derisiion, smirking and smiling the men and women glob around to get their white nazi approval promotions. ////////

**I am into 2 hours of fighting to copy and paste links from an ai chat on how to restore my bios and all that the hackers have had their mi...