Showing posts with label NO excuses but an explanation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label NO excuses but an explanation. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

It is virtually (literally due to virtual reality imposing confines to my brain through the technology/drug interface) impossible for me to collect my thoughts and write coherently or even begin to access my creative thoughts due to: hacking/drugging/mind control technology/stress and gang stalking.

I also repeated a few ideas within the same sentence in the last post (I wrote that hackers were responsible for hacking, or something like that, I am not lazy but sick and always drugged up from stalkers breaking into my home via mechanical arms through the many panels that jut out from the walls of this studio which is a surveillance/torture atmosphere.)

I am glad I have a place to live, glad that I am not in a worse situation.

Gratitude for what i have. Glad I can write on a laptop that is "mine" although tampered with.

But unable to focus, concentrate, access the ideas I want to express. Always something "else" comes out when I begin to type. I know but cannot prove that technology is "beaming" or "pulsing" brainwave blocks and neuron-firing hinderances into my brain while I type in this very spot. Every time I get up from the laptop I "remember" what I had wanted to say.

My mind is rife with ideas and creative concepts when I am not sitting in front of the laptop. Once I get on, my brain is wiped clean like a slate (tabula rasa).

This also happens in public while I'm under attack by gang stalkers. I am unable to count basic sums and the list goes on and on.

Thus, while I make no excuses I do attempt to "explain" why my posts are so.....oh, for me unreadable. In retrospect I know there are subliminals implanted through this tecdh and other parts of my brain absolutely blocked from accessing my real creative and intellectual capacity to communicate.

My beautiful malibar spinach plants being killed as well as a kale plant. This is food I am growing on my patio and as always, chemicals sprayed so the leaves are sagging, the plant slowly dies. After growing it for 2 months. This has been non-stop ongoing every plant, every single one I buy seeds for since they kill all potted plants instantly I can't afford to continuously pay for potted plants any longer. Every seed I plant begins to grow. Once it reaches blossom or edible state, it gets killed.//All morning the moment I woke up were the 2 English haters racist bigots part of a team which has been slowly poisoning me to death like my plants---connected to absolute wealth but like their partner out of London, are so convinced they are entitled to steal and rape and rob anything they want out of me and use it for themselves. Rushing to join into the pan-eurohate team with american nazis rushing to join in---insults abuse---I responded then I posted something about sexual abuse racism imperialism---so they sprayed the plants which I just watered one hour ago which were strong and healthy. Now withered. The poisons make the plants forever unable to tolerate sun they are like rubbery, sagging and never recover. This is FOOD for me it's FOOD because they cut my money off. They made me disabled by mutilating poisoning and fracturing my vertebrae, all with their teams of their up-and-coming who all want a world where no one can ever aspire for anything and all is put into English compartments and German nazi hierachy, the good ole boys and their good ole days. So they just kill my plants on a non-stop basis. Flowers, edible foods they kill and kill. They kill any animals I have as pets they kill my body they kill and are smothered with applause by the nazi coaltion controlling the American media and political spectrum. Americans rush towards them with huge goo smiles of devotion and starry-eyed reverence and glare at me in utter rage hate and sneer smirk are delighted to help these nazi bigot euros to rape torture and all can steal ideas out of me, rape and torture whether I agree or not. They were murdering me while I was "agreeable" because I was so drugged without any knowledge of the ugly sickness they truly are and thusly I was pleasant in a hazed mental state of fake "love" but could never stand the people when I met them in reality, in person. The English creep they are partnering with, who is married to the daughter of the director who shitalina trash skankalina's daddy worked with for the movie Deliverance--I was situated across the street from that rancid creep back in 1987 when I visited London on a tourist visa and a travel card for a Euro vacation---I think that system is not longer in use but at that time a student could purchase a Eurail pass and travel almost anywhere in the Euro-zone (before the Schengen agreement, I think so hard to type not going to look it up). I was just traveling without having studied the realities because I wanted to experience my travels not as a tourist. thusly this filthy creep DANNY MOYNIHAN--see his wife who is the daughter of the director of Deliverance--a filmi set in the South with the bigot KKK nazi daddy of trashalina ugly not-jolie the sleazy dirty sick imposter stealing my ideas as Moynihan had been doing years prior to obtaining a partnership with dirty nasty Whorewood to obtain millions of dollars in funding to manufacture "blockbuster" award-rigged trophies for ideas stolen from me, or undoubtedly others as these are cliche-racist bigots all, one-and-all who have no concepts other than avoiding taxes playing rich domination sexual titillation selling sex selling violence selling victimization and raping to steal ideas murdering me to steal ideas in a horrific poisoning scheme. /Two english wealthy men arrived to steal rape and rob but not as rapacious and sleazy and violent as ugly arnold the filth you all continue to keep around to inflict nazi programming and much more nazi violence when you continue to hand that filth lying scum more money and power and media exposure. All the nazi filth of whorewood revolve around him to just grab everything they want to obtain but aren't talented enough to actually win by quality alone so he can just grab it all by the p-888sy and claim to be the superiority of the planet---all handed to this pack of rats without question by the leeches looking to revive their flailing careers and their money portfolies and etc. //

The blocks, attacks and hacks to my keyboard and brain (always under attack when I fight to pound out through the miasma of hacking interfer...