Wednesday, June 17, 2020

It is virtually (literally due to virtual reality imposing confines to my brain through the technology/drug interface) impossible for me to collect my thoughts and write coherently or even begin to access my creative thoughts due to: hacking/drugging/mind control technology/stress and gang stalking.

I also repeated a few ideas within the same sentence in the last post (I wrote that hackers were responsible for hacking, or something like that, I am not lazy but sick and always drugged up from stalkers breaking into my home via mechanical arms through the many panels that jut out from the walls of this studio which is a surveillance/torture atmosphere.)

I am glad I have a place to live, glad that I am not in a worse situation.

Gratitude for what i have. Glad I can write on a laptop that is "mine" although tampered with.

But unable to focus, concentrate, access the ideas I want to express. Always something "else" comes out when I begin to type. I know but cannot prove that technology is "beaming" or "pulsing" brainwave blocks and neuron-firing hinderances into my brain while I type in this very spot. Every time I get up from the laptop I "remember" what I had wanted to say.

My mind is rife with ideas and creative concepts when I am not sitting in front of the laptop. Once I get on, my brain is wiped clean like a slate (tabula rasa).

This also happens in public while I'm under attack by gang stalkers. I am unable to count basic sums and the list goes on and on.

Thus, while I make no excuses I do attempt to "explain" why my posts are so.....oh, for me unreadable. In retrospect I know there are subliminals implanted through this tecdh and other parts of my brain absolutely blocked from accessing my real creative and intellectual capacity to communicate.
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Forced to live in financial destitution and desperation despite 6 years of grad school and also a lifetime of paralyzing poisoning which the celebrities gleefully had pumped into my body along with deadly toxins directly injected into my bladder, my hair, my food clothing and all furniture--every day, for years and years and years, literally all and constantly. I am now forced to not be able to use the internet or earn any money as prices have doubled or tripled. Paralyzed in agony physically most of the time fighting to rid my body of instantly hardening poisons (relatively instantly, they bloat, and then other agents are added to harden the bloating chemicals, sometimes by injection and sometimes through poisoning lacing my food. Laughing, mocking my body, the same celebrities have been pumped up with money in millions as they steal my ideas constantly year after year with torture and murder they respond with hate and mutilation rape and beatings EVERY SINGLE DAY it is torture to death. //The landlord I am forced to deal with is EXTREMELY VIOLENT extremely sleazy a rapist sick fuck who has tortured me here to the point that I almost was killed while fighting to pound hooks into the cupboards in a desperate and almost futile endeavor to stop the mechanical arms from entering my room through the entire walls covered with one-layer of flimsy particle board layers between my room an the next; no wall all has been replaced by faux cupboard lining all he walls except for a few paces where the thick concrete with steel beams are behind the refrigerator. IN the absolute desperation to stop endless break-ins with just mechanical arms I was on a chair pounding hooks into the top layer of cabinets, so stinking that any dishes or anything comes out with permanently-stinking odors and all plates and eating utensils are poisoned in such a manner--all items in the closets sprayed with foul stinking permanently stinking odors. The chair slipped because the goons entering into my room continuously spray greasy brown goo on the floors The chair slipped and my head instantly fell backward as the chair went sideways forward o on the greasy floor which the terrorists had sprayed so often grease, browning and staining the floor and the coverings I had made to protect from anything being lifted up from underneath the floor-as I have no idea how much they altered the room configuration. I nearly hit my head falling back in a split second with the chair pulling on the slippery greased-up floor and the corner of this hard table was less than one inch from the back of my head, and my spine severely damaged in the cervical as well, it would have killed me. I had put a huge laundry bag beside the table which held the plastic bags I use and re-use to save the environment. It instead saved my life as I fell into the soft cushion of this bag. That is the extent to which I was fighting to stop the endless myutilation, which I still cannot stop despite years of fighting this. The landlord is turning three times of asking him about renewal into a fascist dictatorship exercise in abuse. I have no way to move really, but the choice is mine to make to remain until he comes to abuse me in person as he says in February but all prices and all options mean that the little healing I can afford to pay out-of-pocket will be restricted, along with the Trump tyranny of endless attacks by the money I barely get to barely survive. I could list the extreme hate and violence of this foul landlord, the same murder operation that other landlords al my life have happily engaged in, all understanding that this is a murder operation, as do the vile terrorist MAGA "liberal" celebrities you all adore and cheer on, always handing them more allowance to put more fascists into power. .So far they put Kamala Harris and Trump into these high positions through this contract out on me only because I clicked on Facebook in 2015 and also watched some videos when Harris made her entrance into the race in 2020. For just searching the news to get information I Have been tortured almost to death by the hate that rushed to get their conracts out of this deal of abusing me to death, poisoning me to death, raping me to death...etc abusing me to death in my own living space as people watch on laughing about it in delight that it's so free and easy and they get free rent, new rental properties, careers enhanced into unbelievable status--the glob on leeches all endlessly on and on and on to my death.

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