Thursday, February 6, 2025

3 hours of fighting to order online---the site is blocked. A system recovery (more than 1 hour of "reset" on Windows 10) has resulted in the very same block to functioning. All the while, detoxing (=shitting out) black poison from the "plug" of hard poison I managed to break off from extreme effort in slow isomeric exercise while taking detox substances--all organic and not chemical stuff, items I can't afford but must pay for to fight for my life. I need to order a case of Red Bull otherwise I have no energy to fight the non-stop 15 years of detox which the filth trash whorewood group kept laughing as their filthy death squad minion operatives had my food and body poisoned, put out of alignment, raped, fungus in my food hair my furniture into my vagina and etc for over 15 years of me fighting and writing online about it every single day to silence and more filth and crap coagulating as a huge pile of stinking SHIT to torture rape and fu ck me over. Now 3 hours of fighting to use my laptop. If the WiFi is not turned off within 5 minutes after a 3-hour fight to reset and restore the system, the external remote attack on my router, or some internal chip or component of my laptop so the router is fully on and the system shows clearly that all is "on" but the signal has been blocked--non-stop every few minutes they do this. I am trying to order a case of Red Bull so I have energy to fight this toxicity that nothing else helps in the fight to have some energy to detox and fight the endless HATE AND ABUSE from the never-ending rotation of the SAME SICK FUCKS from Whorewood and Congresswhorewood who have obtained endless media promotions book tours awards non-stop production companies replacing the Weinstein mass murder operation of antisemitism replaced by white trash bigot rapists--all cheered on by all the blacks latinos and everything conceivably else in Congresswhorewood and in Whorewood itself and of course, all of society as still not a single person can ever come to state that this is not just unAmerican it is not just unconstitutional to the extreme degree that this violates every Golden Rule of society that it is a preemptive strike of genocide--but nothing matters but the blind greed of the pig apes you all keep cheering on.

 So now it's three hours later and I cannot get the page to function whatsoever. Typing is the usual blocks to keyboard function as my brain is rendered in a state of rage, instant exponential rage after the next abuser bigot claiming it is a good wonderful zealot performer of all the God-given lawless laws of hegemony--

Meanwhile, the apes who are ordering this, silently sitting "multi-tasking" while silently observing the destruction to my peace and my ability to render a single thing in modern society--as the apes of Whorewood are all observing in the background. This next abuser is playing "good cop" to the psychopathic shit and scum, telling me that cursing is a "sin" but meanwhile supporting rapists because he and they are all racists is "GOOD" and that they have "Gawd on their side" because they are White supremacists including all the non-stop rotation of black "activists" and Latino and black and Jewish "feminists" all cheering this on as they are heralded in endless appearances after bashing me psychologically, as viciously as possible with murderous threats and hate while smiling into the faces of the white rape entourage handing them all the awards they have constantly been handed for the decades of participating in this attack upon me from the more sidelines--as the front-row participants except for a few "token" extremely famous blacks are relegated to back-row participation. Not that they care about having to sit "at the back of the bus" of the racist lynch mob techno-terror simulation they all are glorified in being included in the ever-enlarging "exclusivity" of 4th Reich Nazi hate crimes.


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I begin screaming because I have taken Kratom, a drug, the leaves of which relax the body muscles and help me to detox as this group of hyenas produce so much muscular and energetic stress that is deadly I need a muscle relaxant. I distrust chemical drugs (pharmaceuticals) so greatly knowing that there is evidence-based research on some of the famous drugs, finally resulting in harm to liver and kidneys (if research is ever done, I have heard this endlessly from acupuncturists and all other herbal medicine practitioners). With the literal lifetime of endless poisons injected into my food and body, I am fighting to not have liver cirrhosis or extreme kidney failure because the amount of greed of the pig ape scum and shit endlessly attacking me is co-equal to the amount of poisons on all deadly levels that they order and infuse my very existence with. The toxicity and stupidity of the hate bigots in and of itself is toxic enough to kill anything that is sentient or even artificial (the  bad energy would create a negative ionosphere, I suggest) .


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After another 6 hours, after having slept for over 15 hours yesterday due to the toxicity of the detox which has lasted, from the day of exercise in a way that appears slow and weird  from an observational perspective, but internally is monumental in it's internal force and the "plugs" which are never-ending within the huge hard-as-stone structure embedded into my spine, extending literally from the crown of my skull down my spine into my toes--arms, fingers, etc

and breaking off a tiny chunk has required over 4 days or longer of being inert, in a perpetual sick daze, unable to function except to fight to clean the endless destruction to my home that the mechanical arms render on a nightly basis--tearing spraying stinking filth, fungus and muck everywhere. 


And I'm trying to order this case of Red Bull because there is something in that concoction that enables me to be able to move, and often it aids in detox. The sugar and I think there is some vitamin B essence but it is an energy boost that nothing else can compare to. I have stopped drinking coffee and tea years ago. I rely on Red Bull but to have to carry huge cartons of it is extremely painful and hard on my fractured body.

Repeating years of blocks to my internet but the attacks in places like stores is like the "old days" of which I began to search endlessly for some sanity in the planet for any assistance. After more than 15 years I am back to the origin of the sick attacks that this new "American" and his cronies (German Nazi and French and English) are instructing him on). Oddly, asking him how this is making America great obviously the point is to render people like me so powerless that even trying to get a single thing done without making me enraged and to suppress the rage and then to claim that cursing makes me very bad, indeed., Calm like any abuser, he sits doing his multi-tasking because this contract, to which he sprinted on the day after his ascension to this powerful position, means his endless family and group will be included in Whorewood and media and the empire has embraced him. I am besotten with Europigape shit and filth who are vicious violently dirty and nasty once more, as happened when the Italian and English filth ape pigs were raping poison into my body and ordering non-stop murderous attacks upon me (not just poisoning but the stress accumulation).

In trying to order the Red Bull and a few other items, this man is sitting doing his actual real work for which he was given despite some objections by a lot of people. Oddly he is more 'benevolent" than Obama, Raskin, Pelosi and AOC, Kinzinger, Schiff combined. That is not saying much at all, but in this endless murder situation it is significant. 


However, he must get his free deal and so he is animated in his stoic presentation of doing probably 3 things at once while ordering me to be attacked so I can't order this product to arrive by tomorrow--the deadline is long gone. I began at 10 a.m., it is now 2:20 and the blocks to ordering after doing a reset function (clearing out the old windows, reinstalling a new Windows) supposedly, but all has been so corrupted that nothing short of a complete overhaul of the system going into Bios will only achieve about a 10-minute window of the possiblity of bypassing this endless block to me ordering what I really need.

And that goes for all else that I need to do. There is endless hacking of more bullshit practitioners into my YouTube channel. The opportunist YouTube bullshit cadres of lying scum are never-ending and I can't find any single other alternative as literally all my information is being controlled and monitored so I can't get information outside of their system. That goes even moreso for any AI use I make where the results of sabotage to information-gathering are instantly recognizable.


The whore apes of shit and filth the pig ape cartel of celebrity fucking crap are watching this man play "good cop" while reducing some of the former endless abuse but of course including his own brand. The result after taking kratom leaves is me losing my control because Kratom is a drug, similar to Marijuana I have forgotten exactly what type of "class" the leaves are, but they are affecting mood and control. It is intended to relax me, but in this instant of over SIX HOURS today of this rotten fucker asking me questions and sucking ideas out of me so the pig ape shit can continue to suck as much out of my mind as possible because they are pure hate and stupidity blank emptiness and bullshit crap following orders and posturing in Nazi poses with endless plastic surgery imitation of Nazi features made in replica by an array of plastic surgeons, the "best" handed to this worthless overpaid bunch of shit and their family members after they all gleefully abuse me slowly to death, every day.

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So I can't order anything now unless I clear out the entire system, which could take another 4 hours if it works even. The price for the items I tried to order also has come out completely wrong, almost doubled. Every other site possible works except for this one particular site, in which it is so slow and then wrong information and blocks render a spinning nothing as I try to order the products I need for healing, which are too heavy for me to lift. The keyboard right now and my brain are also under attack so I am cursing, unable to function.

the sinister ugliness and sickness is ever-present every day from this group of sick fucking shit and the bad energy is like a death pall hovering over the stench of their filthy greed and life-fuck energy that they feed off every day they go on and on. Parasites glorified. The end of the country has been in effect for many decades already, but now it's ugly sinister head is just barely beginning to show through the cracks of a false calm of a sea-bed of glaciers just waiting to tear through the tin can of the facade of a sane society--the Titanic which is never supposed to have fallen this quickly is now sinking but they are all assured that what few lifeboats remain they will gobble up as they party over the rest drowning.

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Update: after having released the stress by writing, in hopes that this situation would be somehow addressed in some positive way--I got my "reward" for writing in rage and hysterical cursing--which was their "plan" all along. They render so much abuse and it is, in it's cumulative effect, so deadly on my nervous system--my body, my face indeed shows the signs of extreme stress and depression. My cheeks have been under non-stop attack by tears forced out of my eyes due to the microchip implant in my throat which can force everything from non-stop tears to swell out of my eyes, rolling down my cheeks (they used to force this while I was in heavy traffic, which obviously is a murder attempt) but the skin on my cheeks is so damaged from over 15 years of this ongoing. Every single day there is at least on attack on my eyes and tear ducts so tears are ongoing and ever-destructive to my skin and eyes. My cheeks have sunken in, my nose looks pronounced now I look like Kafka-esque oppressed "Jew" that you see in the endless horrid photos of Jews who, before the Holocaust, had endured repression abuse and the features are now ingrained into my face, whereas they were not at all before the onslaught of in particular the American filth from Whorewood with their endless Europigapeland cohorts (controllers, actually they are controlled to a huge degree but the awards they claim they are entitled to, they are just Pavlovian bigots awarded for allowing every entrance into America every piece of dirty nasty elevated k-rap out of Europigapeland, the most notable Nazi countries which all have emergent Nazi leadership in control at this point (and of course, Poland Belarus and all those other countries on the border of Nazi-land and Russia, trying their best to display every Nazi fascist leadership government in order to "belong" to the wealth club of NATO.

They stopped the block of the purchase of the few items I need for healing and for my life, which otherwise are too heavy for me to lug around and drive around. I slept over 15 hours from yesterday afternoon until this morning due to the over-stress on my body from breaking an internal hard "PLUG" of poison out, which ever-so-slowly enlarged and then came out, bringing 30 years' worth of trapped mind control drugs and hardening poisons and toxins that have been buried inside my internal system(s) probably too many to list as I am not so well-informed of biology and all the internal systems--endocrine lymphatic--all the cancerous regions have poison infecting my entire body from the years of the whorewood group pouring this poison in through all their nazi teams and minions wanna be Nazi white supremacists joining the " club".

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I have now ordered the goods. I ordered some food it could be poisoned. I have to take this chance. 

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I still await the dread interview at the very end of this month with an agency that is in the public eye and media for cutting out people who rely on that funding for their lives. I have done nothing but fight to get health care which I could not obtain in the place I was, and now I could be made homeless. That was the deep sleep "skit" I was forced into last night in the midst of detox deep sleep, theta, with me being homeless and begging to not be forced into homelessness. The white ape grey-haired man who was sitting as the supposed "landlord" ignored me telling him that I was about to become homeless unless he stopped the action. I was made homeless anyway. That was the more " benign" of the deep sleep attacks, as this person I am only vaguely referring to as Mr. Hegemony is ordering this upon me, for his and his teams' promotion in collusion with the Whorewood murder and endless psychopathic violence group.

I am "thankful" but with the Kratom and detox and the need for some kind of stability and the looming threat and the stress from over 15 years of non-stop fighting for my life and all could be taken from me for fighting back, and of laughing about how the celebrities who have been part and parcel of endless murder heaped upon me lost their nasty dirty homes while they have made my home stinking unlivable toxic death traps with rape and non-stop mutilation of my body--every day for over 15 years

as I was thrilled that at least one of them lost their f-ing mansion they never deserved in the first place (another nepo-extraction trickle-down f-over meaningless bigot, portraying itself as a charitable concerned adolt in some push for publicity and "helping" children of sex trafficking or was it abuse? Knowing damn well (using the term deliberately DAMN) that I have been my entire life attacked--but so glad about it they all are. so determined that I NEVER ever ever ever get out of being abused and tortured exploited and destroyed until my very last day on terra firma if they could they would)

so I laughed and they have put me into a situation of facing losing the tiny bit of financial security I FOUGHT FOR in the first place, while they poisoned me so I could not function could not enjoy the Graduate Degree I fought to earn for over 6 years while they were poisoning me to death but extracting ideas out of me, including the 6 years of studying criminal justice and responding to the criminality that is rampant amongst all from bottom-to-top of this structure.

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And so, I reacted in desperation. I wrote in rage, I cursed I insulted them, the kind of hate and rage that feeds this machine and displays my uncoiling and unraveling into slow mental illness death and whatever else they want to force upon me

Otherwise, if I had not written about the block to ordering what I need and cannot physically handle carrying to my home from the store, because I slept in deep healing sickness from having gone shopping for a few hours, which this group turned into a stress hell so my energy was once more put into a rage hate which I tried to negate but could not. They attack my nervous system while they are blocking basic functions that almost everyone else on the planet has no problem with except for the targets like myself.


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Extreme drugging/nervous system attacks via implants along my spine & into my brain--8 hours of literal non-stop abuse from this English And nazi team of another senator from congress, the same rape enabler who is the front-runner face of anti-violence against women and me2 rape culture to oust the jewish weinstein so her company and the rest can overtake h-wood --antisemitism so openly expressed that obviously Nazis and virulent racists are behind this contract out on me. My brother stating that only I will experience violence, with his full participation and that Germans are trustworthy not racists it can't happen to him. for using sexual and physical violence against me instantly after more than 30 years of never having seen him, never contacting him except for him smirking about a situation the nazis forced on me, he is lunging at me to gain more promotions and allowance to get everything for free for handing me over to murder, essentially. Me, drugged so badly I cannot stop reacting to every question, hours of asking me for ideas as the English scriptwriters and director and the endless leech parasite this ugly sinister putrid creep female who is endlessly pushing violent beef-body-build "men" out of europ-a-land to violently rape me, the more abusive and humiliating the more they are praised and awarded; she is the representative for the United Nations and for Chuck Schumer in all legislation against rape and domestic violence against women. Put deliberately there really to give permission for rape if it's racist-based rather than anything else. beloved so greatly by the grateful rapist thugs surrounding her, the minority minions lavishing praise making antisemitic comments at me--Jews in particular are very hostile and laughing smirking it can only happen to me, not them. The drugs are so insidious that are injected pumped into my bladder while I sleep--must get up every night to alleviate what they inject so I am drugged--it is a nasty horrific murderous chemical and drug forcing hate, along with extreme shifts of my brainwaves I can't even control my breathing--my entire spine is coated in hard chemicals in which microchip implants directly affecting my spine are buried from the 3 complete surgeries I have had---(the hardening poisons made my spine crooked, the terrorists fractured my vertebrae while I was unconscious after they orchestrated mostly harmless "accidents' and in the deep brain implant state, I am rendered completely unconscious and unable to feel anything (drugged to the extreme the next morning with pain killers and numbing chemicals). 8 hours another day of this ongoing with me finally screaming in rage fighting and hitting the people responsible for this--the senator who came years ago to abuse yell fascistically at me, now threatening my life for having rushed to physicall attack him after shouting to go away go away go away. They all remain until I rush at them lunging in fury. The dirty nasty sick female who is connected to the English monarchy has been relegated to bring every fascist nazi english abuser and hater to assault me possible in the celebrity zone, there are so many---all are clamoring to get this contract and to participate from all minorities in congress who rush at me violently to white supremacist congress haters--this one very close to the source of much discontent for those slated to be excluded from life in general---very pompous about his entitlement to torture have me raped and poisoned, they all are. My brother smug and behaving like I am still being beaten and abused by him at the age of 14 when I left the hate situation my family had adopted because my mother was trying to get "in" with an "Italian" but American married man, the "Italians" in this tiny family-controlled cul-de-sac had installed mircophone relay systems so they could listen to my family abuse me (this was in 1978 before the internet) my brother was so violent I phoned the police and left that house the next day--forever. I saw him a few times, I had the blank mind controlled drugged assumption that he had "grown up" but alas, he lives in the perpetual abuse state having ensured I am stuck everywhere I go as he is promoted for endlessly ensuring my destruction, lack of health care. My family offered me an inheritance in a creep way 2 years ago, I saved the money but declined to have any further contract with them as they were abusive just in connecting me to the lawyers distributing the inheritance (I got the absolute lowest amount of all members)--and this they used to have social security cut off my income and it's been off for 6 months while I am fighting to have it reinstated and they worked with the 4th Reich to have this done. I was screaming at him in rage, as the hate parasitic rape cheerleader who is beloved by all senators presidents her sleazy and disgusting 16 years of stealing my ideas so her blank and hateful lack of personality can be embellished by my years and lifetime of reading and study, so that nazi white supremacy can appear like it has originality and any kind of creativity outside of endless repetition of murder revenge and upcommance plots which they rotate every year in their awards categories, until they latched on to stealing my ideas, and now torturing me as I scream ideas because they are so revolting their image their ugly sinister presence is so revolting--and I cannot stop responding instantly to their endless probing questions intermixed with extremew murder threats and then inquisitive questions and every thing I do, from going to the bathroom eating taking healing powders all my exercises for healing I created they are stealing and using as their own invention; so much that I do is original and not a copy I learned, they are stealing torturing and asking for ideaws literally non-stop. I cannot stop talking I can't stop responding. the drugs, my body is like enmeshed in not being able to breathe independently the technology and drug interface is so overwhelming. The smug and smirking dirty ugly sick skank sits smiling as I scream and fight for the 2nd year in a row of literal daily screaming and rage at English hate bigots assaulting me for over 8 hours per day--0the rapist who beat tortured and mutilated me, has had my plants killed is threatening my life then making sleazy sexual comments, sitting next to this foul and dirty ugly sick creep skank always they are partners probably as with all the men who rape me she tries to suck my life force energy out by having sex with them as well. Some of them at least--they sit next together all the men who rape me next to her, after she has had me poisoned nearly to death, still fighting to heal every day. My body aging rapidly she is laughing, the men make endless sneering comments about my breasts while I am naked as they sit for hours watching and commenting on all I do. Once i finally "break" after the 6-8 hour mark of literal non-stop literally every single second for over 6 to 8 hours without a moment of them shutting up for one single second with death trhreats abuse insults and probing questions I scream finally to shut up and die I scream hit them rush violently. It is torture and the senators are smug threatening to kill me constantly for lunging at them screaming to get off me to fuck off that they have already been killing me via poisoning and torture for years. It goes on and on. I might be able to "ignore' them if they were not drugging me so severely and my body racked with implants along my spine forcing a reaction that overwhelms my breathing and concentration--the implants are definitely in my brain and along my spine---without a doubt they force my muscles to spasm while people are slamming doors--the effect is unmistakable and has happened for years in this same sequence I do not flinch at noises like this, it is artificially created generated and forced upon me. They are so ugly and appear so rancid rotten stupid ugly and sick I scream that they are disgusting that I never want anything like them around me not for a minute much less 8-10 hours per day,e very day, then stupid sick teleportation skits of hate death and homelessness and me being abused, being put in stupid situations in an "edit" mode so I am waking to being in some negative situation in the middle of a posture I never created, like a movie edit stopping and starting my consciousness can be started and stopped with a press of a button in that state.//I am trying to work a way to not be overwhelmed, because these filthy sick creeps are meaningless scum in my opinion but I react as if I can't stop, and I literally cannot. //I ordered a music player and they blocked everything possible for every music player--this one supposedly came with no memory but they had it jacked-up so the memory is invisible but it is hacked and is turned off remotely like all the rest of the players they continue the death and torture deep sleep states. My body is aging my hair greying my body withering because of the energy this ugly sick skank sucks out smiriking and laughing. They keep asking me for ideas then destroying my finances so I have nothing. I am still waiting for the decision from social security whether my disability payments will be reinstated or not. They lied to me for 6 months, my family had my inheritance taken away and then my disability as well; this was a ploy it was not some random accident and they just arrived when I was being violently raped by the last lrapist from europigapeland with ugly skankalina presiding as they "made love" to each other sitting next to one another attacking me mutually--now it's the next one, the same thing but his English is much better so his verbal abuse is for 10 hours or more per day--endless extreme violent threats, violent abusive ugly rape, supposedly implying that I "deserve" it for fighting to save my life from this. My brother doing everything he can to protect the 4th Reich and that only I wil lbe a victim of any racism never he. I went into, in truth serum drugged torture microchip enhanced stress hate truth serum mode how nazis are definitely pursuing another genocide against jews and in america they want to pour in and create nazification of the already nazified and ocmpletely overtaken america by europigape nazi filth, and I am trying to quell this as much as possible. The denial is pure stupidity this ugly sinister creep I want nothing to do with, he creeps me out I am so disgusted by him it's a visceral reaction of disgust--and his smug pomposity that he's going to get more and more and more out of murdering me smiling stupid sick ignorant--denying that nazis are taking power that they want to destroy jews. I keep shouting how stupid he is, he threatens to break my arms. If there is, as I said today, any person the most violently and murderously inclined towards me it will be my family--as they are so groomed to murder me and have been working to achieve this with full applause endless promotions money poured into them as being symbols of jewish nazi partnership---they are the most threatening and the most dangerous--and so sick and stupid it's unbelievable trying to explain how they are putting nazis into power who will take away their homes if they want lebensraum--all I say they deny and shout with whining insult that I am stupid--I remind them that I lived in Germany for over 5 years because they were trying to kill me by having a metal rod made loose in my spine so my uncle bill could get "permission" to publish his gay magazine echo in Phoenix so they had me body fractured so I had no choice but to return to them, asking for help and health care--they made sure I got nothing they tried to put me in prison for a charge of theft of jewelry (I had no car, the situation was at night miles away from me with no car and buses all stopped and etc) and they had just killed the italian american mafia thug my mother had married talking the same night he died on the day he was leaving her and the house they had jointly purchased he wanted to save since he poured the bulk of the deposit from his money--and etc.. in a murder frenzy they were--I left with a metal rod loose in my spine and had to try to survive this until I left america for germany in 1991--I told him that i had to go to germany for years to try to survive the last murder attempt they had made on me, and I speak german lived around germans only speaking german met nazis know their mentality they have not changed their edicts to kill all jews and jews in america are a target. Told I was a stupid bitch death threats and it can't happen to him, only to be because i'm a "bitch" etc my disgusting brother and his nasty spawn brought to torment me, completely programmed to ask me "why" germans are intent on another genocide, which I said to him a few days ago, he was given a script for what to repeat so the english fuckers sitting on those chairs could steal the screaming ideas I spewed out unable to stop reacting--smug ugly shitalina smiriking adn smug the violent abusive fardy the tom actor not a cat or cool sitting next to his "Lover" as I know that is the endless program of dirty energy leech shitalina--and it goes on and on> I am trying to not react bvut when I do react after the 6 hour mark I become violent to get them off me, then they all threaten my life and it goes on and on--information and ideas they are taking down as I scream them and scream and fight. My hair turning white my body aging and breaking it's murder. I am still paralyzed from the poison they all poured into my body as they had the poison raped into my body and then torture so I can't heal--it's murder.