MOre blocks to my life, time and energy thru hacking blocks to every kind of financial and material solvency. 45 minutes of clicking and waiting for pages to open for a simple search for some essential oil to help heal my poisoned body---and the hacking is so endless that I have spent most of the last 45 minutes backspacing pounding the frozen backspace key slamming it down with a crunching noise because terrorists replaced or broke the relatively brand new keyboard (replacing the other pretty new keyboard just a few months ago) but the pages are frozen won't open. I try to click on the "price" index and I click on the scroll down tab and one product on the list appears. i backspace and a search term I had used much earlier appears--they are making the back arrow function for going to former pages turn into double or clicking applications but they just keep me clicking on the broken mouse which they broke 2 months ago, I can't click on the mouse to get a page to scroll down either the mouse will not work when the internet is connected but when I manually click on all the internet functions into disabled the mouse works absolutely perfectly. I thusly must fight literally to scroll down because they are freezing the mouse function the page will not scroll down. I am endlessly waiting for pages to open up as well, the are slowing down the connection speed to about 50 times slower than the actual speed which has instant connection but they slow it so I wait 30 seconds to over one minute for one simple page to open after they block functioning of the keyboard (must pound every single key out, literally pounding with my hand down and even that produces different keys appearing on the page due to the hacking to the system). My life has been spent fighting to use the internet to get the stress of murder via these technologies and drugging out of my body and system, and fighting to accomlish anything is nearly impossible to get a single business or email business chat or function done without a hacking typo and rewording and interruption is literally impossible--I mean im-poss-ible they block every kind of professional application and use for every single thing possible continuously and just for spending my life fighting to get anything done is blocking time i need to get other things done. I am expressing the frustration as these multi-millionaires in addition to poisoning me almost into total death paralysis dismemberment torture and abuse without end using voice-to-skull (*they are still doing it today but not as loudly as usual, it's very subdued today but still present now that I can recognize it's presence. Earlier I had wondered how I had such weird thoughts rotating in my head but now i recognize that people are literally "Listening" hacking into my brain my cochlear inaudible vibrations picking up the words and making comments always about killing myself with sharp objects I am holding or using and I know that tom hardy is still there due to the obnoxious sleazy filth of his "suggestions" he is really foul. CAn't get the demon off me, the crew must get their endless life-sucking torture on me for more awards prizes and telling me that i am some kind of "loser" for not having done more than fight for my life to use internet while on online classes at graduate level for 6 years while they blocked poisoned my body nearly to death (had to be rushed to the hospital in Fellbach, Germany for near paralysis one week before fleeing to a place where I could have people literally pound the poisons out of my body via massage; standing on my back large heavy massage women standing on my back trying to break the hard poisons latched onto my spine in a hard shell; I felt nothing could only feel a bit of pressure while they stood on my body digging their feet into my body with all their strength to break the hard poisons. Women weighing perhaps 120-130 pounds and shifting weight I felt nothing but a little bit of relief when I heard the loud cracking noises. they kept the poisoning up non-stop for another 15 years , the same hateful parasites laltching onto assaulting me now threatening to kill me endlessly for defending myself against their contract and their endless delight at torturing me to obtain ideas for more victim turning into hero narratives and feminist diatribes and fighting against tyranny exclamations that i make under drugging truth serum and my body shitting out these same poisons they put in years and years ago, the same criminals out of whorewood (england since trump got into office, not hiding behind the a$$-list americans any longer but outright imperialistic overtake without having to operate in the shadows any longer--to the glowing approval of all involved demos and repubs all cheering it on endlessly. So I am wrirting because of the endless amount of time wasted fighting to simply type and do searches for anything online--hours and hours today it's been over 1 1/2 hours simply in having the internet turn on and rushing to turn the router on and off to re-establish connection then struggling and waiting for 1 minute for a page to just open then backspacing and slamming the backspace key down with my pinky--which has been half severed off the fingernail has been half cut out and the cuticle is gone so it is just a loose fragment so pounding with this finger is also risky and then they also are making the upper case shift key on my left-hand side make a continuous beeping noise because when I press this key the hackers have installed some detachment hack so the usb port literally goes on and off constantly beeping with the microsoft function sound very loud and high-pitched literally so continuously it's like a crazy robot making bleeping noises for just pressing one time the upper case shift key. All this and much more. I still have not obtained my search for now one hour--so many other things to do in my life than this. I need this oil to heal from the damage to my body they inflicted while I collapsed due to toxic shock from the last chunks of hard poisons ripping out of my back from the years hence of having this poison poured injected and raped pounded into my body as deeply as possible. I am just writing to get the frustration out. I keep waiting for someone to stop them from blocking my attempts at financial and any career solvency and for over 16 years of writing in despair that this has been ongoing for over 30 years and still it's not being stopped. even the daily tragedies of the trump administration have brought only marginal response and that is only if someone can get something out of me by continuing this terror block to my success my life and my career finances and all communication (I am speaking in a broad sense of being stable financially and in business, the term "success" is a clear distinction in financial terms but not in all facets of life, but I use that term because they want me completely "crushed' on all facets as much as possible). To just use the internet to obtain something, although I have limited access and I am grateful for what I am barely able to accomplish but still there is a huge long list of OTHER THINGS i REALLY WANT TO AND NEED TO GET DONE that for the past 7 months have been dormant as I struggle to retain my energy from hours of death threats rape beatings and verbal abuse by teams of white males safely ensconced in their 'success" mansions and careers of high (dubious) distinction and their "feminist" wives lounging in the background feeling so entitled watching me get sexually abused by their loving doting husbands as they seek to obtain ideas about women's empowerment which I continuously struggle to grasp onto as they try to crush break beat and rob and block all my avenues for any "success' in the realm for which they are asserting more domination and total control over. Their women help them to attain this by representing "equality" in business they are all delighted I am being thusly blocked while they steal all can of ideas which they cannot fathom in concept because they only obey and follow and viciously assault me for being turned into a target. they use all excuses against me but mostly that i am "poor" and unable to "succeed" which of course, they ensure for every single click every single transaction every single phone call all is obstructed with malware hacking blocks my brain rendered so incapable my nervous system amped-up into nearly histrionic frenzy of breathless stress from hours and days of all communication being blockekd while I am told that if I don't respond within 4 days they will cut all my survival finances off (or they imply; that was a few months ago I fought every day to get simple wifi connection to just make a few phone calls literally to save my life; i was so exasperated that I could not concentrate they used the vulnerability of the stress level to use backdoor hacking into my brain (overwhelmed perfect vulnerability for subliminal content for "behavior modification") which, by the way, is the tool being used constantly in America with one tragedy and shock and life-threatening attack after the next--upon the general public but especially for those they ("they" meaning most of you, by the way) can't stand to see have a chance to compete and better or win). So I am writing out the stress, every key stroke is a battle to get a word out, every click means i must fight to wait for the page to ever-so-slowly open up every attempt to get a scroll-down option bar to work without other items appearing, the last page disappearing I must go through the search terms once more back to the beginning--over 5 minutes later, etc. But, still very grateful to have some internet service at all very glad that internet is still somewhat at my disposal but spending so many hours fighting to get anything done whatsoever and in most critical times the hacking and blocks to my brain and communication functions is devastating. The agencies I phoned which are hostile towards those without money are also trained to simply hang-up on me if I get over-anxious and can't speak calmly; this also is part of the attack on all systems my brain my nervous system and under this kind of stress I begin to repeat in exactly an exasperated and stress-out way the vocal tone and verbal choices (not my vocabulary it comes spitting out like hostility and fear and anger) and then they hang-up on me, giving me the impression that I may be denied life-saving help after fighting to simply reach them by phone for hours and hours per day, for days and days this has been ongoing (and for years). I can't express how difficult it was to study online at graduate level. I literally went to one place amongst a lot of 4th Reichsters and it was literally dangerous JUST to get access to fast and reliable internet service. I almost was poisoned to death as a result of trying to retain my autonomy and not get screwed literally and figuratively continuously for the 6 hours of study I had to resort to because the poisoning and drugging made concentration and focus for reading at such peer-reviewed and statistical logical analysis and research paper writing almost impossible so I sat and sat fighting to concentrate to try and attempt to absorb the material due to the poisoning. Only to be nearly killed by poisoning the last semester of the program and then having to rush to the hospital and leave that place to go to this place where internet is so badly hacked that I can't get anything done regardless--even with my supposed Master's Degree (which is being held until I pay some amount of money I cannot repay because the Loan department gave me a type of loan I had never requested they forced it upon me and I could not cancel it once i saw that it was not what I had chosen--and then I was told to repay some of it after I had finished the requirements for the program--Masters Degree in Criminal Justice---. Instead, I sit barely able to function I have books I want to read and items I want to read and things I have to do but fighting to heal and the old poisons seeping into my blood stream if I do as much as a single stretch makes me so ill I only can sit in front of the laptop while the MEN who want to rape beat and torture me and force everything they can possibly exploit out of me with absolute derision asking me for ideas perpetually calling me a stupid b-word beating raping and then non-stop death threats for every object I am holding--tom hardy is the culmination of 16 years of me literally fighting to get these hateful leeches off me--he is the most violent the most long-sustained abuser of them all--the true representation of the brutal force of genocidal imperialistic overtake of another country. Using the themes of racism upon me antisemitism and kiling me endlessly they all have done this with relish and their cherry on top is endless oscars awards for my ideas about how to fight horrific oppression in all realms--unable to write anything my brain is so blacked out by poisons drugs and non-stop deadly assault upon my subconscious my consciousness and stinking filth I am surrounded by cleaning cleaning my body so frail and broken down sagging fractured body parts severed body parts unable to just do anything unable to eat without being told how and what to eat and not to eat as if I am sick and fighting to devour heavy food so the poisons will latch onto the food which is heavy and I eat is like shoveling it in due to the physical pressure of pounding food down a constricted blocked hole so the blockage will be put through a kind of pressure vacuum thusly trying to suck it out of the intestines and parts of my body--they make endless 'eating like a pig" comments about how just how "low' they claim that i "am" from the endless assaults they never stop inflicting upon me. Literally never-ending. LIterally never-ending nothing ness from the society which has fully put this system into power and protected it with silence and approval and promotions for all who comply and go along and the most violent are put into the most top upper positions of their little ranking field. Because I can't scroll forward the mouse is not working the keys are barely functioning so the rest of this post is a bunch of words I cannot highlight and then delete the functions are so blocked. //t m

 Years and years and years and years of waiting and waiting while fighting and fighting to get a single human being left on the planet, after the surveillance and death squads poisoned cancered suicided and killed off the ethical intelligentsia and the compassionate people imbued with some kind of spiritual alignment with decency if anything is remaining in society in all countries at this point. The 4th Reich has completely obliterated any people with ethical compassion it appears that the falsity of all the stances postulated using old themes and cliches is so abundant and anything of actual real value has been sucked dry left to rot in unspoken annals of buried history

waiting for any member of the united states government or society to step up and NOT completely lovingly support terror hate leeches feeding off destroying my life, and many others have been KILLED in ways that are silent death all drugging and accidents cancers and those who had some kind of spirit or soul have been long eradicated

all the posturing about goodness only applies as far as the arm-leech leash of those in power--all must obey and be held back if they dare go beyond "following the plan" and all instantly go into a black hole mental and spiritual zone of absolute murderous violence almost the second they gain access to this money and group who hands all the lascivious all they had hoped for and more if they only exhibit endless violence insults and hate at me. Some of these men initially are shocked at the sexual and verbal abuse the scum ape pig "men" inflict upon me but the very next day they begin to spew insults at me along with their former loosely aligned questionable "partners". If they so much as exhibit any sort of warmth of friendliness or actual real help at me they are dismissed instantly, they get their cheap lesser version of the prize of just not being invited to display any semblance of humanity towards me. The rest claim they are "helping" me as they sit for years watching me exercise and when I fight their filthy vile "German" based "friends' who may have some genealogy based in some German ancestor that is all they need to become genocidal bigot fascists almost without a second hesitation as their excuse for absolute breech of all law, and goodliness towards other human beings.

It took me so long just to write this few sentences it has been 2 hours of me fighting to get a few searches done

the hate death demon spewing technology probably with the vile never-ending leech of my life force tom hardy who is only the violent lever his partner "friends" are pulling on this most violent personality who is delighted to be promoted and paid in millions for dumping his problems his hate his rage out on me--I have done nothing to procure this reaction from him in any way, only to fight and write about the lifetime of English assault upon me. They behave and are programmed to believe that I am worthless don't deserve anything as they rake in MILLIONS AND BILLIONS of dollars for the ideas they tortured and stole from me and are still torturing me to obtain more. 

even some stinking clothing they have put in the garbage room as my "reward" for them obtaining endless media promotions and even the presidency is "too much" "too good" for me==the rape and torture brutal beatings is "what she deserves" for writing endlessly in my blog about how they stole the concept of barbie from me while they were going to the oscars for the babylon concept I wrote (although loosely I wrote about whorewood being a babylon)_ and while they were doing that, they put out once upon a time in whorewood from the ideas I wrote of charles manson and mind control, using some of the themes, making reference to my (great) "uncle" who wrote many of the Lucy Shows and many other shows but all little insider hints as to the actual hate contract out on me

and they can't stop they can't stop doing this for even a single moment of my life. Not a single member of congress has done anything but join in. Today somehow the endless death threat hate life-sucking abusers have not been draining my life force all morning, as years and years and years and years of this has been ongoing literally every single morning all morning into mid-afternoon. So insteaad they blocked my internet as they always do anyway for hours until the endless attacks resurface into my consciousness of all the sleazy sick blocks to my life my "success' in having anything as I fight now in the next stage of trying to not have all what tiny bit I have left taken away by social security. I will once more have to go to an internet shop where they have (the last time) a group of about 6 people firstly blocking my path in the store (walking directly into me with threatening glares of hate) blocking the keyboard in the internet shop and then lying to me speaking to me with sneering giggly lying ugliness with that "demonic" glare of weird blackness in the eyes of the smirking sinister agents sent to assist with the terrorism. Trying to get anything scanned and sent in a fax means they will block the pdf file and rename it so I can't find it in the hundreds of files they put on the laptop just for the occasion of forcing me to ask for help in retrieving the files I had saved with english titles referencing what they were--the files are instantly renamed with weird code and turned into blurry and crooked mess and in the wrong direction but the internet shop agent refuses to open the files and my brain is blasted so I am in a state of complete nervousness while at the same time, I have had to fight to use my laptop to get any of the work done for just a few pages of information to be filled and out sent back in "within 4 days" of receit of the forms sent to me at the last minute with my mail not being delivered and I was left out of information until I almost had no chance for any sort of established resolution of the problems to my finances that this group forced upon me in endless loops of mistakes and drugged-up nervous "mistakes' on my part so raped and tortured in the meanwhile with utter life-threatening rape torture poisoning in the sleep and morning hours of teleportation 

and now, it's going into 3 hours of me writing this an dfighting to search for 2 items on an online ordering site with the browser being literally shut down twice having to spend more than 20 minutes in just waiting for pages to open (or more) key functions literally so stiff and the backspace key like frozen stiff and my money drained and my time and life drained (fighting to get my basic subpoverty disability restored after 7 months of non-stop rape torture my hair turing grey and hours spent in fighting to use the internet after years and years of fighting to get my masters degree and decades writing about this torture and discrimination system where by no one no one no one no one in government responds to me in any way other than callous contempt sneering murder threats and what can i get out of you die and you are nothing sneering laughing politicians on all "sides". Society fully going along with this all my life. Turning to "minorities" who sream into the cameras for their presentations that they are fighting racism turning to media podcasts and movies about women claiming they are fighting rape culture and discrimination

they violently assault me laughing with the white men who are brutally raping me laughing partying all obtaining more media represntation

they have made the backspace key so stiff that it is like I must hammer it down it crunches upon my hardest impact with my pinky with the half-severed out nail and completely severed out cuticle nail bed from the sickness of laying unconscious on my bed unable to put on the layers of socks and compression socks and tying and wrist braces and rubber bands on my feet and head must cover my mouth and make someting they can't penetrate to cut more gum tissue to the jawbone and jab into my teeth and then trying to make it so they can't use the tiny mechanical arms to slather more hair-=destroying chemicals and etc etc it is endless.

I remain fighting to type and I have the next hercules task of downloaded about 8 pages of a very simple easy form for social security which will mean I must go to the internet cafe try to get them to copy the pdf files onto my fax number without them turning the pages into crooked positions while blocking my access to even opening the files--literally unable to open the pdf files from the computer shop laptop after they "scan" the forms and then rename them because they are jacking the forms up and I can't even open to check while my body is literally trembling from brain attacks and nervous system attacks by the groups of people sitting staring malevolently at me from the little tables behind me---walking into me with glaring looks of violence as I get up after struggling to use the computer which is hacked with the same malware that is endlessly hacked into my computer so the keyboard malfunctions I must pound with all my might the system slows down to a snail pace--I must wait for the agency to maybe respond and wait and wait and wait while under non-stop death threat by white rich males and their "feminist" female partners (children, spouses, "friends") who laugh and glare with hate endlessly having me raped and poisoned and drugged and laughing as they are smug they are championed by the united states government protected in all this as more and more people want to just destroy anybody who doesn't serve them as "kings and queens" or "gods" (depending on race gods for white and kings and queens for blacks).

And then the FACT that they are merely disgusting filthy parasites upon me, and I have never seen anything of superiority out of their filthy holes and sleazy nasty ugliness so glorified what plastic surgery and pompous support can do

they are handed every kind of deal and promotion by the nazi and mafia 4th reich for this behavior and for allowing politicians to get untold millions or billions through all the black money channels to steal and rob abuse torture it's all protected concealed 

meanwhile they are blocking opportunities for their hated dark-skinned minorities on an alarming pace--those people who happily assaulted me for all my life, some of them are now facing deportation or decline in their expectations of opportunities, but for the most part none of them are facing anything but continued endless free wealth for just behaving like parasitic hate nazi mafia leeches on me and this system is expanding daily.

Surveillance and block to travel movement thought and action is now a persistent openly expressed threat by the 4th reich you all put into power. So far all of you reading this are smug about what you have obtained glad you are in the elite clique smirking and laughing about my 16 years years years of endlessly begging the planet to stop poisonign and rape to death while stupid ugly sick shit whores are stealing my ideas from a lifetime of reading research study and experience--blocking my functionality on all levels mentally movement physically sexuality is now turned into a circus rape and abuse spectacle that white pig ape "men" are thrilled to be joining in the nazi blonde women dancing around in elation 

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MOST of the democrat "leadership" who are blasting out their 'fighting trump " slogans as the next upcoming election is now in their sights---have fully participated and partaken of this contract out on me for YEARS AND YEARS they watched me fight as they laughed, glared with utter hate and contempt at me while their "friends' in whorewood had me raped poisoned and mutilated. I would write daily asking for help, they would respond by appearing then sexually abusing and physically mutilating me yelling extremely violently at me and then being featured as the main "fighters against trump" who are poised to "win" in the next elections in one year.

they remain--I was just physically and sexually assaulted by another one in the last month---another white "christian" male joined in I was raped by a gang of white suburban-looking 20-something males as i was alone in some room---all under observation by the politicians who are making all the soothing lectures to the distraught public about how they care they are fighting so hard--so hard 

they get hard when they want to rape me they are overly excited they are nasty and hateful towards me as I fight and fight not only for my life but also for my country they have sold out to whorewood sleazy stupid apes who have nazi bigots paying them billions of dollars in awards for helping them to fully infiltrate--elon musk was one of those fully aligned iwth the shitalina pig ape pitt group--as i recognized his stance very soon after he made his appearances at smug fellow torturing nazi bigot aimed at me in the private nazi mafia cartel of whorewood apes and pigs you all cherish as your superstar fighters for heroic plots feminism (derived from my writings and the torture extractionf or years and years)

all politicians have done is glare at me with hate make death threats had my body mutilated and hugged and embraced the shit of whorewood to whom they obtain media appearances with

you can see shitalina pig ape pitt standing on the stage when obama was made president---and obama had been involved in tis campaign agianst me from his early campaign days while I still live on south beach--it's a very long story but they used all the hacking apparatus

the violence they have all poured on me has been me ceaselessly fighting for my life not only to heal but to stop the murder which none of the politicians I am aware of ever stopped

after years of begging for the poisoning to be stopped the rape had not stopped and the torture has sort of stopped for a few minuters today

after years and years and years of me writing about the ultimate result of them doing nothing--and it's happening now. I don't know if their greed surpassed their ability to discern threat level assessment which is the job they really are hired for--not to wait until the too late phase as they have done

so talking about competency--I wrote of the inevitable result it has happened and is getting more pernicious threatening to all society at this point every dya

I wrote of this they laughed they "smacked" they "Jacked" me off around raped beat abused had me so badly poisoned I could not see my toes from the huge bulge of hard poisons with bloated cottage cheese bulging black poisons buried in my abdomen as I begged evey single day for someone to stop the poisniong and torture to death--writing that this group of mediocrity and bs were going to put faszcist nazism into power with concentraton camps and that elon musk was a seriously violent genocidal nazi infiltrator and 

I was beaten tortured raped ignored laughed at mocked insulted poisoned raped beaten and for hours per day, now for years per day non-stop day and night

I am unsure if what you call competency is what you could label these politicians who are the most famous on the democrat sie but surely this situation has been engulfing my life all my life many decades so this was a pre-calculated result an they are all aware of it.

Were always aware of it, always worked within it. 

And so, I wonder if my use of internet will ever be actually comparable to what is available to all the nazi bitots who have instant search results and not hacked not blocked not stymied perpetually not their living spaces turned into perpetual stinking rancid toxic waste dumps every day filth is sprayed into my home my clothing and as uch intomy body as possible

the mind filth of shit like tom hardy and filthy dity stupid sick shitalina and the u gliness and supidity of this group of stinking filth from whoreowod, their every action shows how incmoparably low-brow disgusting sleazy and mentally corrupt for any higher level of art of meaning

the english stealing old motifs which they studied in their art schools and the americans only being brainwashed into feeling that they will be above the "trash" of american society if they torture me endlessly slowly into destruction and horrid death, as symbols of destroying the potential for change and progress of independent thought and of something other than white pig ape shit culture usurping all and stealing all and creating ghettos and death squads and imperialistic genocidal regies with them only put into the intellectual categories

the nazification of england has produced repetitious blathering hateful bigots trying desperately to get original ideas going through me, for ezamjple vey few other people have been so completely sold out by my 'Jewish" family which is so filled with hate and loathing and self-obliteration they only care about spewing out children as blonde as possible obeying and lovingly having me tortured to deah for approaval--you can see this same sort of trait system in some of the most vocal supporters of kamala harris who rushed to join into this attack upon me---some do not have families like mine who so openly espouse actual murder of their sister or children as mine have been traumatized into performing openly and being paid and promoted for--as the only sort of recognition of their "worth" to the 4th Reich. The Jewish community is collectively enthralled to hand me over a darker-haired Jewish woman with sort of "olvie" toned skin not blonde but that is the racfist program the Jews are very much integrated into following especially out of Israel (open racism in that society and hostility and just broken fractured in identity)

I have no affiliation with that religion or the group. The really beautiful people of that diaspora are no longer what has replaced them are jewish men working to have nazi blonde spouses with hate and derision for me and then working to get their niche into the 4th Reich by very violently assaulting me giggling an dlauging along with the ape pigs of whorewood and their local chapters of nazi 4th Reich inc.

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The entire time I was fighting--the kind of fight that the self-professed "fighters" for "Democracy" claim they are "making" when they triumphantly proclaim that elections are coming we are here finally to rescue you from t-rump torture regime! yeah! The kind of fight of trump ordering the teams of death and hate in this building to block my internet so I cannot make phone calls, trying to get out of a literal social security death trap in florida which they orchestrated replete with yelling abuser lying Field office agents completely making a fraud of my situation. They were supposed to phone me for an interview appointment due to the trap they set when they blocked and hacked into my online social security account when "they" were preparing for the surveillance big brother social security slashing so they nuclear-bombed the online site so you are under their AI tech surveillance tech the moment you get online into their site. They will know your location and even if you are spoofing the IP Address and will send you that information back to your email address registered through their system. It is called Login.gov it is supposedly secure but the hackers already hacked into my system and often alter the template for the website or block me out completely or use my log-in codes so I am missing codes the next time I try to log in. They blocked me from accessing the new site, and I was in pain, had been under attack as usual I phoned into the site the main site was lied to sent on a spiral goosechase phone attack until I was instructed to phone my local field office to generate a response as to why my online log in was not working--no one else could help me, they said I was locked out until I phoned the field office. Once I phoned them they used a tactic that has been used non-stop with the officer hesitating, making loud sighing noises into the phone, then yelling at me with derision and it turned into being forced into a phone interview. 

A while later, after trump came to office, I had this interview I gave permission for access to my direct deposit account ONLY. they accessed all my information I am unsure if that is legal or not because they requested if I allowed access to my direct deposit account I said yes, only to that. but before that they were supposed to phone me, not the other way around for the appointment. they never phoned. I called 45 minutes later after being told to phone in about 30 minutes and now I realize it was because the agent who was trained in the abuse tactics was already on the phone busy. I phoned at the time almost one hour after they were supposed to have phoned me. That was lie #1 and then subsequently it was lie after lie from them, even sending me a letter with official stationary from social security stating that my benefits had been reinstated. I won't say more but I had been told to make a direct payment in person using a cashiers check to their field office, which I am unsure if that is legal because it is all done through a pay.gov system or by phone answering private questions, as secure as they could do for such an immense system. I was lied to then not just twice but repeatedly.

But besides a few more lies I can't go into because they expose vulnerabilities, I will just say that the time that I waited for 5 months to receive information on what to do was met by daily rape torture and extreme yelling death threat abuse by tom hardy with shitalina smirking laughing and teams of english rushing to violently abuse me as I reacted in rage and physical violence to get them off me; after years and years of beatings rape and attempted murder via poisoning and rape pounding the poisons as deeply into my unprotected unbraced body for full impact and penetration of the poisons. Murder, in other words like the lies of the field office in mimai shielded and disguised by thread-bare lies of "authority" sort of despotic. Me writing daily about being killed with politicians rushing to embrace the shit whore group celebrity slime filth and then threatening my life with glaring hate; all being featured in documentaries and broadway plays (hillary shit) and etc the entire time non-stop media presence of the creeps attacking me (AOC you can bet was a prime media spotlighted terrorist working for the 4th Reich and then obama and his family for decades obtaining all kinds of media attention tv shows with celebrities who also stole ideas from me--they all work as a "family" of sordid sorts.

Not to get into the usual rant, but....back a few months ago the dire deadly situation of what trump out of his florida fascist compound political system had devised was for total criminal exploitation of me with government agencies literally abusing and lying outright to me with trump threatening to have me killed for saying no to the endless rape and torture contract out on me, which he became president for having participated in and muck became the filth sullying america to destroy it from within and all the nazi dude bigots of america wanting to become bonafide rapist entitlement white superiority and the nazi women and all the minorities servicing them all want this elaborate plantation luxury euro-based plantation system with everyone else servicing the or being killed off and all stolen from all and whatever can be plundered. That no one stopped them before trump because obama had to get his book tours and michelle and their spaawn had to get tv shows about blacks rising up violently against white superiority in disgusting murder tv shows also demonstrating black women as violent serial murders killing their own and kissing up to blonde nazi beyonce--just a disgusting horrid example of the mind programming for mass murder and black nazification induction into genocidal white plantation kkk lynch mob mentality of inclusion. you can absolutely add crockett out of texas into that mob mentality.

However, I fought literally for my life to get out of that jurisdiction and the entire time tom hardy with shitalina and trump, who is as reliant upon this contract out on me for his continued success in demonstrating brutality towards people like "me" who pose a threat to unquestioned white pig ape "superiority" by just being able to generate original ideas for blank hateful smug pieces of stupid ignorant shit like shitalina and pig ape pitt and their cohorts and all the platitudes and cliches and sequels they are reliant upon but can't even succeed in rehashing the same themes unless they are participating in this mind programming contract so they are put into lead "winning" prizes every oscars and golden globes and for festivals all is paid for most of the true talented work is done by others they just play their usual sleazy dirty nazi plastic surgery posturing pig ape selves and then having tortured me to obtain ideas they can sort of suck in the vibe and then spew it out with constructed scripts and posturing bs and endless glorification--the nazi teams are also instructed to cheer and applaud because they, also, get included in the lucre money -sucking genocidal death machine they are propping up by supporting the mind programming into nazification via whorewood movies and entertainment media and then into politics. 

So they must cling on or "die" symbolically they were not winning before they globbed onto this contract, I mean not from their production studios they also had to use the ruse of me too to get the "Jew" weinstein out and replace the vacuum with nazi-controlled studios but put in their name(s)

trump must cling to this contract so it was death threats and me literally fighting to use my internet while I was shitting poison out from detox and exercising to have the strength to deal with all of this, day and night, night and day, day after day after day after month after year

so hardy began screaming with death threats into my brain inner ear for hours upon hours per day while he had my internet locked and blocked off. It was a matter and still is a matter of life-and-death literally to have my disability money reinstated not to become a "sex slave"poisoned teleported gang raped abused and all my ideas stolen tortured to death abused to death with people watching on this "sport" with applause and promotions for all who join in (democrats galore in addition to the most nasty white crusty men of the republican party, a few younger ones as well but trickling down to the usual black and brown and vehemently yelling performative house members and etc the list goes on "forever")

my hair turned grey from stress I was being murdered, as I have written before. 
After I finally managed to obtain a move to Cali I then made the drastic mistake of watching the news and seeing with alarm that the midterms for which many are hopeful for a change and a stop to this tyranny (although I realize it won't happen if this current spate of politicians remains in power, especially the demo-rats the list of names I have written of but I can't even know how many are really behind all of this torture apparatus to me it appears to be 100%...?)

I finally changed and then watched the texas redistricting fiasco and made an ai chat question whether crockett was involved and instantly--meaning like that night or the next day she appeared yelling screaming rushing at me until I reacted with utter rage to shut up--I was in the routine every day of rushing violently at the endless daily and nightly rotation of abusers as I fought them off me.

Hardy there threatening yelling and raping me non-stop as I fought for my life. But then I became absorbed with the california redistricting proposition 50 thingy situation--what to call it, for me it's a thing because I clicked on the videos watched the interviews of newsom and the texas house reps and then presto magico newsom joined in the team of abusers----and because I did not instantly provide him with sex salve obsequiescense (sic) I was attacked he brought in the people I had been fighting off me he brought in and had people who had been attacking me all my life (my family) I rushed at them violently to shut up finally--my entire psyche had been so "traumatized" that violence was the only reaction I could engage in any longer it has been me writing about rape and torture non-stop for so many non-stop years that finally the only thing left was physically to try to get them off me--they rush at me grabbing raping hitting slapping

now they are brining in huge body builder men and I am physically disabled

newsom hissed in disbelief that I am actually disabled but it was the discharge of life-threatening rape which spurred me and fight-or-die testosterone which gave me that "energy" and the rest of the day I would sit in a painful stupor in front of the laptop screaming at hardy to shut up and hitting this huge lug of meat which did not even budge or when he did he would assault me very violently---

and I had by that time moved to california and then--newsom brought TRUMP back into the group when I had tried so hard to get him and them all out. Only because I watched the videos about the california proposition 50 and the attempt to not let trump redistrict the midterms into a gerrymandered republican continuation of outright fascist nazi tyranny. Instead newsom who I now know, I "knew" this before but so much drugging abuse and violence has been inflicted upon me I "forgot" he had dated or something like the the wife of don jr.---won't get into names and typing is very difficult so writing correctly will engender the hacking of the upper case key which sticks and the computer beeps furiously even when i pound on the key to get it to stop--and the terrorists have also hacked a block to the backspace key as well so it's very hard to pound and backspace while they are hacking incorrect letters into words I type correctly

so newsom brought in the old gang of terrorists as his advancement and then joined with bannon and hegseth who had taken their turns threatening to kill me having their family assault me yelling "loser" constantly having my home made broken down stinking and having my disability money cut off for saying no to enslavement torture rape and my ideas stolen out of non-stop torture information extraction whiel they all get deals promotions parties joy they can become president remain in power forever their children too!

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2 hours fighting to write about a 400 word set of sentences, and that is probably more than is actually there--about 3 tiny paragraphs of single or double sentences stating my situation as politely as possible about being lied to by their Indian river field office in miami (social security) showing proof.

Hackers blocked not only the keyboard so it was incessant slamming the backspace key, but my brain was rendered so confused due to the attacks on my critical thinking so I repeated sentences "forgetting" that I had just written them above. I then finished and scanned the letter seeing that words had been rewritten so the meaning was like imbecile grade school level incompetence (perhaps dyslexia? cognitive incoherency they forced the letter to appear as) and then I had to pound and fight to reword it, seeing that they had added fragments of sentences onto other sentences making it appear that I was repeating non-stop the same sentence in various parts of the letter. I clicked on "send" to myself and upon receiving it scanned and saw that more additions and hacks and rewrites had been done. I had to fight and am fighting nonstop to get past the blocks to the keyboard function (so hard to pound down every single key with my entire hand my fingers and palm ache from pounding with all my hand strength and then having to backspace and retype because pounding with my entire hand still does not bypass the hacking

2 hours to write a simple letter but mostly to delete rewrite at least 6 times due to words they added and my brain being unable to get past their subliminal word "salad' they mix into my thoughts using inaudible mind control mess into my subconscious thought process.

I can't detail how much time it takes for me to write and compose a single letter with only a few basic sentences in this manner--hours and hours and hours fighting to pound down and retype the redacted elements of absolute discrediting. It never ends. The ape scum who have stolen my ideas have no problem with typing their banality of evil mediocrity and their hate-filled scripts and screeds and etc.