Wednesday, August 27, 2025

Working on becoming a zen master beyond human endurance: techno-terror non-stop using Social Security my lifeline as a torture tool. I received notice that I have messages in my online social account. I am now unable to access my account unless I use a VPN. Hackers have literally blocked all access (or the DOGE forced this change, but I suspect that it was is hackers) so I must use a VPN. The source I have been relying on, free accessibility unlimited--is now blocked. It won't connect it worked perfectly the last time a few weeks ago (less than a month ago). I tried to use a different VPN after having asked an AI bot which was the best free online option. As soon as I began to click on the download process hackers turned my wifi off. All lights on router were connected the remote blockage to my signal often keeps the router appearing like connection is on but on the laptop it's off. The laptop signal for wIfi likewise appears on but no sites operate. This happened 4 times for every attempt to log into my social security account while the frustration grew after 45 minutes of turning the router on and off, clicking and waiting and getting up, they began to attack my nervous system because I could not remain composed and calm throughout this process so the "backdoor" hacking into my nervous system, formerly composed and calm from a morning of only stupid sick teleporation skits while in deep sleep--not people being murdered which happens in many of the more distraught grasping abusers who rush to join in so they can get what all the "friends" in their secret society have obtained by non-stop years of abusing poisoning torturing raping abusing me for defending myself against ape rape with violence etc. It was me being put on a toilet while people in the room sat there being creeps, smug and sleazy and nasty I am so used to being naked and abused in front of groups of terrorist politicians and celebrities, who love to make nasty comments about my body while I am undressed mocking abusing it's a showtime for them all! I woke up in pain from the exertion of cleaning stinking filth and muck the anguished aspirant for promotion inflicted upon me for not instantly gratifying his demands to provide him with instant promotion and my human sacrificial laying down of my life for his endless glorification. I had done too much, so I was in pain as well. I thusly had to take some semi-opiod pain killers this morning also my system flush with a very gentle albeit opiod pain killer (kratom, at least organic! Hopefully not too badly sprayed with toxins). //I had fallen asleep in my drab but very comfortable exercise and cleaning clothing waiting for my bank client relations terrorist to phone me to make sure that the 8 times I have requested tha

HYPHEN be inserted into my apartment number for my address, which they refuse to do correctly although when I fill out the online secure form through their message center the many multiple attempts I have made appear as blue scroll down addresses that were already input into the system. In short, they are deliberately writing my address incorrectly because it has an elongated form containing a  hyphen between apartment numbers. From the 8 attempts i made repeatedly throughout the past month, one single letter was sent to my mailbox with the correct format. Instantly the bank sent another letter with an address "change" with the wrongly written address. I got on Facebook to request through a different system, without having to pay $5-10 for a voip phone call (so I can't call them collect, they have an option for collect calls but it won't use through a voip app)

and thusly, asking facebook message center, which is listed on the bank's contact information there is no email address provided or even physical address I believe. One must go through that route, only to be told that the person assigned to me who had sent me a contact request letter was the person to deal with (duh, I wrote to them that this person is not responding to my attempts for her to phone me)

I finally wrote back to the facebook person that the contact is not responding to any request for a phone interview for her to phone me at an appointed time, and I asked angrily what the problem with the bank was that it cannot correctly write an apartment number such as xxx-xxxxx including the hyphen after I wrote it in my personal account, after being "hung up" on in the online message center (the terrorist relay my every email and message chat to terror agents who cut the wifi connection after they make vague and incomplete responses, thusly I must fight to establish wifi connection for the next 15-30 minutes to actually receive a somewhat realistic or halfway correct answer. They told me to use the personal account address change and I did that. They could not input the address correctly after the 1-3 day wait (the wifi turned off when I asked for an address change through their "secure message center" beforehand I was cut off after the agent wrote that I should use my personal page and not go through the message center to change address-the wifi was turned off instantly and after 30 minutes I gave up, and then just went into my personal account to change address). After a week my address had been input like a demented person with no understanding of mailing address wrote my apartment number on top of the address field, as in name/xxxxxxxxx/street apt xxxxxxxxx/city/state/zip


literally they put the 8 digits of my apartment number on top of the address field then the street and then again the apartment number then city and state etc. It was so unprofessional it was disgusting. I then tried it again online and once more they put in the address wrong. I got into the message chat system and was told that i should input my address through their secure online message chat system and not through my personal settings address change field. 

I input address changes 6 more times through the chat until I finally asked them to get a manager to contact me so it would be input correctly. the chat agent told me he was trying to locate a supervisor and to wait. I told him I need someone to go through the actual protocols of their bank and for a manager to send me an official email with their telephone number to establish contact and a time for them to phone me

that resulted in waiting 8 days for the manager who never responded and then getting in desperation into facebook to try to reach anybody else, who told me to contact the person who had not responded. I told them that this manager ("Lisa" and the normal routine is for the managers to include the first letter of their last name as in Lisa F.)

but she just put in "lisa" which is not the professional bank policy the managers never just put in a simple first name they always include an initial for last name. I wrote the angry message to the facebook agent who told me to "have a nice day" which is what I tell the nasty abusive social security agents after they abuse and yell at me, and I respond with "have a nice day" so now this group is deflecting that attempt to end a hateful negative discriminatory exercise in crime against me with that ubiquitous American phrase.

I wrote for her to phone me at 9 am (yesterday) her time--and nothing happened. 


then getting into my mailbox which was, as usual, the moment I clicked to view the box the internet wifi was turned off for 20 minutes as I began to become exasperated I finally obtained service, only to go through what I described above. Only to see that it was official verification that I am paying the money my family sent me as an inheritance so they could try to lure me into having contact with them; their lawyers used hacking terror tactics and lies throughout the process my entire "family" had a group mailing system attached to the lawyers so they all had access to my account. Unfortunately at that time I was not thinking of their hacking propensities nor did I understand the true malevolence of this group. I had a vague feeling but as a mostly positive person I just thought that they might be antagonistic but not deadly murderous conniving and influenced by their nazi spouses who are in for the money from my family---with zero concern about me. This has been translated into the nephews and nieces of the very violent siblings that i left a long, long time ago.

But, they manufactured this crisis of social security red flagging me cutting my disability payments off in March and literally lying yelling asking me to pay all I had in my bank account, in person, to a Miami Field office (on biscayne blvd) to empty out my account before considering whether to reinstate my benefits.

Every contact and letter I receive which I must click on various pages to obtain, has the terrorist hackers turning the WiFi off constantly, every few seconds while I am in the process of trying to log in with my one-time-code, then the wifi is cut off. I become naturally irritated but the level of stress from literal vicious abusers and users trying to render me homeless prey to their rape sex trafficking fellatio physical violence usary hate abuse information extraction poisoning drugging hate and then disposed of--in whatever form they want to kill me off or just pass me to another friend who also wants a free bump-up on it's career. 

My body begins to tremble because of the microchip implants in my spine or I should say embedded perhaps within the hard poisons that are rock solid which the current line-up of terrorists waiting to feed off everything about me--for free of course they are told I am here to service them in every way as a slave my ideas which they have won oscar awards for and nominations they only have to make sure to have me poisoned drugged and rendered mute in any way possible so they can firstly claim the ideas as their own secondly to stop me from having any chance whatsoever to compete and then to destroy me so the concepts and the source of the alternative concepts are obliterated no record left and me tortured for not obeying being abused raped poisoned to death without fighting back.

All the technology they use is in constant combination of blocks to any system so I become angry then they begin to transmit nervous system attacks and brain attacks so I cannot "handle' the stress and then the years and months of my sub-poverty income now being taken away with me waiting for a decision for my life which the u.s. president the speaker of the house former now just a senator another senator the homeland security top official the current speaker of the house two more senators and the rape poisoning murdering bunch of celebrities and rapists laughing glaring with hate saying first the people who have stolen my ideas will never pay me anything for the ideas or the years of torture--all is gratis for them courtesy of the united states government. Second my disability payments will never be resumed and if I try to change my address or really fight to have them reinstated and thusly block them from forcing me into slavery and murderous rape fellatio slapping being called names without fighting in my defense they will have me killed--but they were poisoning and abusing me to death for years by the way but not acknowledging that.


They forced physical fracturing of my spine because the microchips in my brain and along my spine (in my throat as well) force me into a somnulant state disassociated from all physical sensation while I am helplessly asleep, inert and being either teleported to a different location which also shifts my consciousness and bodily sensation; like my vital functions remain keeping me alive but all pain and mutilation I feel nothing; also suffused with drugs and poisons which are administered in various ways such as food poisoning and also insertions into my bladder while I am in deep sleep, unconscious and lacking all physical awareness in my "prime" sleep body while being telpeorted to abuse in the different location.


they made me become disabled in this manner and while having me drugged and poisoned into internal suffocation of my organs paralysis of my spine (the poisons literally solidify into a huge labyrinth-serpentine-shaped block of hard poisons which there are no herbs in the American medical establishment to dissolve so I can work as hard as I can to break them once the herbs i now am able to barely afford --of course, now living off the stimulus money and every month i saved money and this is what I am living off now---and i can't obtain any of this in any western country and if so, the quality I suspect will be much diminished what i now obtain is fresh and much more potent than the exported herbs which are beautifully packaged extremely over-priced compared to the level I can obtain or could obtain here, I believe perhaps i am wrong but america is an unholy unhealthy place and any alternative healing is for wealthy people, in Asia it is believed that working people are a vital customer base for this herbal system so they are not relegated to horrific death by their country's medical establishment(s) as in the United States. 


And so, I finally got into my account only to see essentially receipts for the money I have been paying back from this inheritance, because my family organized this in conjunction with the hate group of whorewood to have social security flag me, then scritinize everything about my life to render a decision whether to cut my sub-poverty albeit survival money due to these factors of (and at this point, I cannot divulge more vulnerabilities)


the dehumanization and lack of empathy as exhibited across the board of american administrators of law and of art is so unbelievably life-fuck sick and deadly sleazy selfish all higher ethics and morals are more empty than anything anyone could ever imagine. It is not just my situation but the examples of this lack of humanity and murderous exploitation and sucking in of all resources money pouring into their top echelons of their cartel so the lower vicious ranking of all their minions and those aspiring to reach the white light apex of their hate pyramid scheme renders society into a vicious soulless constipated death machine of greed acquisition.


The technology could so enhance human life, and the wealthy and those who are viciously life-destroying lacking all beauty of the spirit and soul but are trained in how to lecture beautifully to the opposite--


the rest are being traumatized into not questioning their falsities although only a few selected are put in positions of public awareness all calculated to dim the stress of the dim realization.

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This morning, before I saw the notice of letters in my social security account ("messages") I had to spend 30 minutes of fighting to get internet connection every time I tried to log into my mail account. I got into the main page, and as soon as I clicked on log-in the wifi was remotely disconnected. Of course the signal appeared on in the lower right-hand corner of the screen, and the router lights were all "on". I had to disconnect the cable, turn the router off and on, connect the cable, walk back to my chair across the room. Please bear in mind that I have spinal fractures they put my hips out of alignment after raping me nightly in this room under the first t-rump administration using his good partner putin's terrorist white male (trash) creep body builder muay thai fighters who were given keys to my apartment by this landlord; I nearly died trying to secure the panels and the front door when a chair I had used slipped and my head missed hitting the corner of the table as i fell backwards (because terrorists are spraying grease on my floor brown and black grease which remains permanant--also on the walls, on my clothing, on all ornaments into my food on the bathroom tiles so it's brown sprays dripping off the tiles blackened and this stuff can never be removed not using any cleaner scrubbing it does nothing using the most extreme brushes wire etc) but not to digress, I nearly was killed due to this grease sparyed on my floor and I fell on a huge bag of plastic bags I have next to my table because I save all plastic bags for reuse; otherwise I would have been killed years ago in this room fighting for my life to stop the break-ins that shitalina has laughed about mocking how my body is so broken down--formerly very athletic beautiful she made sure to dismember and disfigure me --she also organized having part of my uterus severed out while I was in deep sleep then poisoning my food having huge hormone growth "men" pound poison into my body in both teleportation and deep sleep inertia comatose state as they poured injected this hardening poison into my body, which seeps into every tissue and bone fracture so solidify like a serpentine internal straightjacket of immobility then internal suffocation of the intestines and total paralysis. Laughing about me shitting stinking piles of brown goo black poison out daily and continuing to poison me while torturing ideas out of me. It goes on and on this filthy dirty whore is lavished with praise by the white male rape cartel the ugly dirty white females associated with the pig ape men are giggling more then elated that this is happening to me so their "go getter" "men" can dump their vicious murderous impulses on me or others similar and they get cherished because the hate they all have in common is diverted to other people. that is why former slave holders and the nazis (i.e. if you see photos of american southern slave plantation owners how they posture in superiority poses it is due to having people to dump their murderous and wrathful hate upon while cherishing their likewise sleazy dirty female consorts white trash now in modern society glamorized by whorewood

sorry for the personal statement I realize most of you reading my blog are of the plantation mentality and love that system consider yourselves the elite but I would argue completely the opposite using fact based on your deceptions and mind programming death cartel using torture and murder as your main means of claiming your superiority blocking access is your secondary means.


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so today spending maybe 1 1/2 hours or 2 hours trying to access my mail and vital life-or-death information with non-stop DOS attacks on my computer and router. That they have also altered the mechanism for wifi connection so the system appears "on" and thusly I can never tell if the wifi is on or off makes for me getting blocked at every critical juncture to accessing information that could mean death or life for me (or rather, just to avoid a more horrid future of total financial ruin along with physical and my home being destroyed repeatedly with stinking filth which I am too paralyzed and in pain to clean as these men who order this after dumping their black-hearted sexual violence and abuse on me demand that i clean it up as they use mind control and stress to attack me--they attack my nervous system until I clean the filth they order their complacent and "good" brownie terrorist brown-nose partners to pour into my body life and home


I tried to get into WNYU which formerly was alternative music but since the trump administration in 2016 the station has turned into a horrid mainstream albeit unsuccessful pop music band venue mostly resorting to old and tried "alternative" subculture bands which were on the mainstream side rather than the truly original and defiant and musically complex bands--it's so horrid now that I try to listen and even their "flashback" type shows are so bad and the bands are so mainstream "underground" and it's been the same type of reducing all mental construction of original and critical thinking to obtain compliance in bot performative obedience in the guise of alternative "Underground". The whorewood celebrities are so vacant in regard to anything other than their sleazy posturing nazi k-rap movie founation and their theft of my ideas so as to usurp any sort of real alternative cultural awareness but intermixed diluted and destroyed by their plastic surgery posturings of superiority the nazi postures intertwined makes for the repetition of conformity to authority despite the seeming outward relinquishing of domination by white male bigot rape and genocide culture--(this means for all other minorities not merely "feminist" endeavors to sell off rape culture disguised as rebellion against--and white females and perhaps some of their "good" black counterparts are the main representatives of female empowerment outside of entitlement sexual abuse against minority women which is pervasive and fully approved of, in particular the white trash skank scum of whorewood are extremely anxious to be selling my ideas off as their own and having me beaten raped poisoned mutilated turned old and broken down by non-stop hours per day of rape beatings death threats for actually imbibing my ideas which they have stolen adn then turn their male partners into rape hate murder bots fully automatic haters like flipping a switch they all generate extreme sexual and racist violence against me almost all identical told what to do they comply because they have been doing this all their lives, for however long their mommies allowed them to indulge in their pornography because that's the way boys are---the "good" mommies would say (I am just visualizing a scenario I have no idea but they are all immersed in pornographic rape and hate fantasies I am not their coming out party for their misogyny cravings like addiction).

I tried to get into 2009 archives from a show which I KNOW has been saved and I can click on the year for all the crucial chaos shows and will obtain the thursday show. But, since I have already recorded and saved the shows from before July, I see now that while I had checked repeatedly for shows in August and onwards which were in the "play" mode--all the shows for the entire day for the rest of the year have been deleted---they appear with the playlist but "no file" appears. Just suddenly, within the last month because I clicked a few weeks ago and checked and decided that I would just casually record and save the shows at a later date. I had been fighting yesterday to get into the WNYU archives and thought precisely what i wanted to save and download--and the wiFi was turned off as usual just as I got into the wnyu site. My internet remained off for as usual another 30 minutes i struggled to get on and did other things being told with caustic hate to clean the filth that had been sprayed in my room by the person responsible for ordering the "good" brownies to do it for him (they get free rent, and whatever else for doing this filthy work)


they deleted all the shows for the rest of the year--august until january of the next year. Every single show from the entire day was also blocked, which means they could not either have time to separately delete the shows for the particular time slot per once a week they just deleted ALL SHOWS entirely from all the thursdays from 2009 from my system. 


Instead, I though how can I find some good alternative punk compilations online or how can I go through the playlist and record the playlist and create my own file? Because every single app and function I use is either blocked from download, corrupted so it doesn't work properly or if it works once, will never work again they hack into every thing and block future functions.


I got into YouTube and VOILA! There were lists of "lame" punk recordings by the male white k-rapsters who proliferate my system because I had put a few of their former 80's and early 90's punk songs to amplify my writings. Where are they now under the trump tyranny? they are hacking into my system to get media coverage if I am careless enough to make the same mistake I have been making for years which is to click on the k-rap these terrorists hack into my social media or even to see it is dangerous., If I visually "see" them (I don't mean just punk, but the "feminists" like jane fondu a most hateful bigoted racist abuser with her german rapist friends rushing to abuse me when I don't just placidly accept her insults and demeaning comments etc)

the alternative mainstream terrorists--

and so, because this group can "hack" into my thoughts, there is another plethora of "punk" band compilations to make up for the block to the DJ I really enjoyed listening to from crucial chaos from 2009 (perhaps in 2008, and that year is completely blacked out they took the shows off as well for his slot)



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I'm just wondering how many more streaks of grey hair, signs of aging and decay of my body because of non-stop death threats poisoning rape abuse and death threatening stress I must undergo--how many more grey hairs now due to this endless barrage of hateful loveless immature life-sucking bot-like adherents to just following orders will be destroying my every waking and sleeping moment with hate, interruptions and in our modern digital age blocking access while assaulting my nervous system and brain as I begin to yell in rage at the computer and fight to get access to my mail to get into social security --the hacks to accessing everything in particular that i can no longer use the vpn I had been using, and the social security website is now hacked so I can't access it without a vpn. Then trying to obtain a new vpn was met by the internet being turned off repeatedly for the next 30 minutes, only waiting to see if they have cut my money off for good, are warning me about something, what more after my family used an inheritance to get my disability payments to be stopped so they could rush to join in with shitalina pig ape pitt cartel including all the top politicians in congress either in the wings, or the new administration has brought on new terrorists who must make their hateful displays of violence and threats at me--every new administration brings on more senators and hateful nazi bigots with nazi tattoos and their families in "good christian" denunciation of me my life and helping to terrorist me into grey streaks and old age as shitalina lavishes praise and applause is welcomed by all the politicians as a great boon to their portfolios the constitution they study with diligence rather than the U.S. constitution


and thusly, how much     MORE are they going to pour heap and dump on me? 

but it never ends. Because at this moment i believe I am the only person actually in reality FIGHTING against this overtake by fascist nazis and I have been for over 16 years (and earlier in my life when sent to germany and by bigot white shit trash "men" who drugged abused raped and i fought back; when I didn't fight back they just made sure to destroy much of what I had, stole items from me, made sure to let me know they only really loved white trash creep women as part of the protocol they woulud bring on blonde women to do this who were not their "real" girlfriends, etc) so I fought back instinctively they are using all this tech whether I approve or not to "crush" my spirit and soul. I get then politicians from Congress ALL of the presidential applicants and nominations rushing to slap hit have german nazis point sharpshooting rifles at me with glaring violent deadly hate (that would be one of the top progressive democrats I am referring to when I wrote that she was in the crypto-currency scam and was making public statements about all the poor people being kicked off social security, which she and many of her cohorts in congress worked diligently to accomplish so no matter what state I am in they will enforce this for the empire of media k-rap they all expect to endlessly bolster their professionally trained speeches about democracy and freedom and for the repugs it's for christian values while they are raping me at the same time because I read tarot cards and worked at the lusty lady due to republican closure of health care and their entire group having organized my spine to be fractured all health care denied whether I have official medicaid insurance which did almost nothing for the years I was suffering with poisoning denied me health care and even the most basics I was abused at medicaid offices and etc it was torture to go into one of these medicaid offices--one chiropractor used extreme violent "adjustment" practice which is illegal it was an attempt to seriously injure me, knowing I had no way to sue for damages and etc)


but to continue, because I have to fight to obtain any health care that actually will do anything, I had to do a few things utterly drastic to save my life and for that my family organized this endless scrutiny of my situation by social security to stop all my payments---taking back the inheritance even the repayments is suspect at this point

but beyond that, to have any political representative that actually cares about anything other than pocketing all the illegal dark money bonuses for their endless greed and to find any sort of modicum of decency or soulful love for humanity on any level would be almost a miracle at this point.

The techno-terror is also instilled into the hearts and souls of the soulless celebrities who are operators of deception working for a government determined to install a plantation slave system with homebound concentration camp brain implant torture mechanisms also of slow horrid murder while they have covert surveillance and teleportation technology to inflict grievous murderous harm with death squad goons from your neighborhood just drooling to break into someone's home, rape and destroy and plunder and they get some loot to boot.



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Terrorist, through-wall mechanical arm mutilation report: bald spots covering most of my head once again because for the past month, and for the last 2 weeks almost every day I am unable to spend the back muscle strength (gone from poisons ripping out of my spine, literally at the most critical bone structure level of internal tissue--due to years of struggling to remove hard as rock poison from chemicals poured and injected and pumped into my body so it would seep into the interior of my body. the same filth celebrities are there to have my body ravaged with mechanical arms while I lay in utter exhaustion deep healing sleep too sick to move, just laying down to sleep like 99.9 % of all human beings are able to do without fear of mechanical arms or people rushing to destroy their body due to MICROCHIP BRAIN IMPLANTS forcing me into non-sensation unconscious mode. they can cut parts of my body out it is as effective as neurological anesthesia for the most severe of surgery. They have severed out part of my uterus while I have been in that state; fractured vertebrae and have sliced under my nails every single night for over 17 years (I am almost unable to block this despite years of struggling to put blood-flow constriction layers around my hands and wrists to stop this I cannot block this attack 90% of the time. but I was too sick to do more than simply lay down in utter sickness and sleep, during the day into the night all night then the next day just collapsing while tom hardy spent hours insulting abusing yelling death threats quietly making endless extreme violent murder threats all day--I could only put on a soft cap over my head which they just lifted up and doused stinking grease into my hair and then hair follicle destroying chemicals. the hair texture is extremely damaged and most of the hair I spent over one year fighting to regrow (most will not regrow I could not figure out how to prevent home break-ins and then how to protect my head from the creeps ordering the scum to incise into my gum tissue and pour hair damaging chemicals plus stinking grease; when the ape rapists had ability to break into my room they would put my spine and hips out of alignment and pour semen and stinking sewage water into my body into my hair; steal my money spray filth on my clothing and destroy every pair of shoes so the heels were worn down at a 45-degree angle and the shoe soles coming apart so I was always walking on crooked shoe soles--to augment the crooked spine and fractures they also committed against my body in this perpetual nightly comatose state. ///So I slept and was teleported I could not diminish the sick and stupid sleazy death hate death energy skits that shitalina and her crew of europigape scum trash low-level parasites from the "upper crust" of English society, bringing in a lout like tom hardy to inflict his miserable hate and racist violence upon me undoubtedly he is a nazi in some organization and fully under the myth that being a white english males makes him superior to me in all respects but does not stop in extracting ideas out of me because he, like most of the english, exist in their mental boxes of regulated conformity to their hierarchical assumption to supremacy and so must everybody else if they can achieve this--using mind control that is one of their goals. //My hair which, before I was too ill to leave my body so exposed last month, it had grown back a great deal but they have literally used hair follicle remover technology to yank the hair follicles out using hair laser removal tools--I believe my scalp was dotted with bumps from the hair follicles having been literally removed while I was unconscious and unable to defend myself; that was about 3 years ago after a german sick fuck rapist pig ape used pornographic hate rape upon me, which shitnegger the austrian sick fuck nazi governor of california had fully sanctioned (this was the first year of biden, actually so it was years ago time is so repetitive with one rotten white trash shit ape pig from europigapeland after the next inflicting hate and pornographic violence upon me. I tried to fend him off, this German sick fuck all the pigs of this group surrounded with applause and a huge tour for him around europe ensued instantly after he began violently raping me (that is the standard reaction for all the shit rapist scum who attack me in this hate technoterror system). I began after weeks of saying get off me and stop then finally calling him a pig and get his greasy pig meat off me and etc and they then had most of my hair pulled out while in deep sleep mode every day hair falling out--it is now mostly gone once more. Taking a shower my head is almost bald again hair falling out the texture of my hair completely damaged from 2 weeks of being too ill to do more than fall into sick sleep from poisons ripping out of my spine and back and rib cage and then an accident because in this most vulnerable state tom hardy went on and on never ending death threats while my entire spine was in this state of extreme vulnerability of the stability of spinal structure and muscle strength---in a way none of you can understand I am certain (and none of you care all I have done is write to get this oaf sick fuck off me for the past 7 months of near death being abused so badly my hair has turned grey and now he had my hair damaged and sprayed stinking filth not only onto my hair and clothing but around the area I was sleeping into my shoes so I would wake up with inutterable stinking foul stench that does not come out of fabric without great exertion and multiple cleanings for days---from hardy who spent no minute exploiting this most serious vulnerability for the shitalina stupidity must have this contract because that ugly sick trash filth going back to her sleazy posturing stupid movies that never won much notice on the level of Oscars and suddenly MY IDEAS bringing dirtynazi shit skank after shit like pig pitt and shitalina and dumb whorren mirrage and the entire english cartel to the oscars and the vicious violence to obtain permission to prove what violent life fuck genocidal nazis they are by endlessly stealing all they can from me destroying the rest and mutilating my body without end--they can't achieve anything without doing this to me it would seem because of the endless 2 years of extreme violence endlessly inflicted upon me in a surge of violence once they all realized that rump was going to return and he was still in control. The demo-rats rushed to join in until the very last moment when the repug shit took over bringing endlessly crocket into this contract always violently abusive towards me at least verbally for her endless 'rising star" promotions in the media. Political entertainment she is, american truly yearns only for this apparently. And so, most of my hair is now completely ruined. I still have a dangerous amount of poison in my body and eventually if I ever can heal from endless life destroying life energy sucking tom hardy and his english shit filth bucket crew of wealthy"aristocrats" plus the never-ending stupid filthy vileness of shitalina and dirty nasty pig ape pitt endlessly clutching onto destroying my body and life for their sleazy sick endless oscars and awards--both of them having stolen ideas from my former creative writing (I only write about this situation now) and going to the oscars obtaining millions of dollars in the process and then having my sub sub poverty disability cut off because they must have this contract. Using dirty sick sleazy shit stupid hardy to abuse me without end and his nasty dirty wife they are a team of hate and english bigotry a la nazi national front england--violent hooligan extremely bigoted racist and violent. americans really want him to move into america and take over for more nazi training and otherwise nobody does anything to stop this or him from doing just that and the rest of the truly dirty nasty life fuck genocidal english shit you all worship claming you are "part english" and therefore they are welcome to come in and take over fuck everything up--they put musk into power none of you ever stopped him and when I wrote about what he really has proven to be, you just ignored me. Now keep on ignoring me when I write that shit like this group from whorewood is a life lfuck disaster for america keep on doing nothing as i wrote for years "keep doing nothing and see what you will get" from this group NOW you are seeing and STILL YOU DO NOTHING.

  Not that any of you care, it's my "problem" I did something to deserve it, you all say, and it will never happen to precious...