Wednesday, June 16, 2021

Why is it so embarrassing for men to study feminism and the violence towards women that they take as their entitled "privilege"? They study and study so much of everything except for this one avenue of their sense of power over some animal domesticated. The teleportation is one aspect where their hate and violence fantasies can go wild. Please listen to a this clip at least get a different perspective for this 11-minute video instead of your endless numb and callous programmed hateful responses without any introspection whatsoever.

 ANDREA DWORKIN & ANTHONY BURGESS/AFTER DARK/LATE NIGHT TALK SHOW. 1988.




Why is it so embarrassing for men to study anything related to feminism in the crowd teleporting me? I can't begin to describe here with all the interference and threats I have how violently misogynist the men teleporting and raping me are. How absolutely blank they are when it comes to analyzing anything related to women's empowerment, and in fact their fantasies are so focused on eliminating my power and through their hate towards me they seem to be empowering their fellow fascist female counterparts who also participate. It's a complete orgiastic ritualistic revelation on the part of the entire group to penetrate and torture a woman as a form of group hate and catharsis for the violence they have in regard to sexuality. If I could begin to write my short story or ideas on this..its' so threatening to them it's so hard to get anyone to begin to think about what they are doing. I have spent 10 years and longer in endless screaming and physical violence fights with one man and his wife/daughter/female lovers/male lovers/partners on the degradation that they impose upon me for their own sense of manhood restored somehow. Nothing shatters their sense of entitlement and the lack of oversight or restraint on the part of the politicians and the people who are supposed to protect society in some part also demonstrates how deep the hate for women is and what lies are endlessly fabricated by these sensual stars and the fighters for freedom but part-time rapist bigot haters.

Please listen to a few lectures given my Andrea Dworkin instead of stealing the ideas to put out some cheesy fake movie about how you are fighting against sexist men while you continue on a personal level to fully empower the worst of sexism that this technology is affording you to expunge your hate and violence fantasies out upon an INNOCENT person--

It also might behoove you to upgrade you level of intellectual pursuit and acumen, deary rapist, violent, hater men out there who are smug about the US government handing you the dream technology you have always fantasized about having the capability to commit every crime against the sleeping victim with all your hate fantasies poured out upon me as your bigot Nazi women laugh and applaud and make "love" to you afterwards. I do wish some of you would elevate your mentalities and improve your capability and desire to think intellectually and listen to some real intellectuals whose output far exceeds your farthest fantasies of having anything truly significant to perform about life or love or humanity.

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*I do believe that Andrea Dworkin was poisoned and a targeted person and she was not "obese" but instead, I believe, poisoned slowly to death with the bloating and hardening poison that I have been fighting to eliminate for a decade which glues into the body like cement but bloats up on top of the hardening chemicals which form an interior "plate". It is impossible to detect until all the chemicals have been drained from the body. I truly believe that Andrea Dworkin was not an ugly and fat woman filled with hate by any means. I know that most people who see her have that instantaneous assumption about the "fat dyke" but I know about targeting and covert assassinations just a bit more than most of you and how they operate.

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THE TAMING OF THE SHREW

Hark ye to the old tradition! 

He commeth to quell and tame the beast of the wild animal she-whore who regardeth all Men as unfit for betrothal or at least only fit for a mean and low brothel. 

She commeth sweet and demure and stealeth the kiss from the death mask looming over the shores of love's labour lost and the lost labor party. Conservative she dons her place at the grace of the sanctity of society always willing and never saying no.

=
Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton's pre-demise performance of
William Shakespeares the
Taming of the Shrew
how the rapists associate the shrew with the Jew
who must be you in disguise
posturing as the dominator
circumcised
prescribed
 energized by
submission
but never fulfilled therein

the ritual must remain a solid fixture
in your cantankerous elixir of nichts her


GET HER GET HER GET HER GET HER
 rape her beat her repeat her demean her delete her

get her show her who's boss
after you're finished you don't give a toss

what a game for the insane

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btw blamers and haters:

I do not insinuate that I am a "shrew"
years of systematic torture in a program of rape and attempted murder
have made me a bit cantankerous towards people utilizing the same formulaic principles of oppression towards me that the murderers and other haters have used against me. If only you would think outside the system a bit and be a bit more like an authentic personality I might not try to defend myself almost to the death against anyone using these same formulas of torture and suppression and complete obliteration of my rights as a human being. 
The pleasure-principle attached to social climbing and career promotion appears to be more powerful than any authentic sex drive and it is so overpowering to the people involved that they have lost all their humanity. It is a shame that they are supposed to represent any values of society or humanity in the field of entertainment or media and are being put at the apex of the push for social commentary via these movies and entertainment/music specalurarama dramas.



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Our dear Shakespeare in Central Park revival of The Taming of the Shrew which is even more machismo than the Burton/Taylor version.


Once married, the husband proclaims pointing at his newly wed wife:
"I will be Master of mine own
She is my chattel, my house
She is my Goods
My household stuff
My field
My barn
My horse
My ox
MY ass.
MY ANYTHING."

The rest of the movie--I mean theatre performance
is of creating a domestic and loving good wife
who adores her husband after fight and trial by torture and punishment and release from pain and suffering.

Part 2 of the 400 year old play that is a man's final fantasy before he plays that role of the husband who may stray like Shakespeare did to his wife to whom he desecrated his "2nd best bed" in his Will after his death. Did she mourn him truly at that point of his long years of departure to play in London and play with his lovers and write sonnets to them all, boys and girls, while she waited at the house taking care of the domestic chores?
Had she been subdued according to this treatise on how to obtain a good servant wife?


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I cannot live with You (640)

 - 1830-1886

I cannot live with You – 
It would be Life – 
And Life is over there – 
Behind the Shelf

The Sexton keeps the Key to – 
Putting up
Our Life – His Porcelain – 
Like a Cup – 

Discarded of the Housewife – 
Quaint – or Broke – 
A newer Sevres pleases – 
Old Ones crack – 

I could not die – with You – 
For One must wait
To shut the Other's Gaze down – 
You – could not – 

And I – could I stand by
And see You – freeze – 
Without my Right of Frost – 
Death's privilege?

Nor could I rise – with You – 
Because Your Face
Would put out Jesus' – 
That New Grace

Glow plain – and foreign
On my homesick Eye – 
Except that You than He
Shone closer by – 

They'd judge Us – How – 
For You – served Heaven – You know,
Or sought to – 
I could not – 

Because You saturated Sight – 
And I had no more Eyes
For sordid excellence
As Paradise

And were You lost, I would be – 
Though My Name
Rang loudest
On the Heavenly fame – 

And were You – saved – 
And I – condemned to be
Where You were not – 
That self – were Hell to Me – 

So We must meet apart – 
You there – I – here – 
With just the Door ajar
That Oceans are – and Prayer – 
And that White Sustenance – 
Despair – 


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I felt a Funeral, in my Brain by Emily Dickinson

I felt a Funeral, in my Brain,
And Mourners to and fro
Kept treading - treading - till it seemed
That Sense was breaking through -

And when they all were seated,
A Service, like a Drum -
Kept beating - beating - till I thought
My mind was going numb -

And then I heard them lift a Box
And creak across my Soul
With those same Boots of Lead, again,
Then Space - began to toll,

As all the Heavens were a Bell,
And Being, but an Ear,
And I, and Silence, some strange Race,
Wrecked, solitary, here -

And then a Plank in Reason, broke,
And I dropped down, and down -
And hit a World, at every plunge,
And Finished knowing - then -






Monday, June 14, 2021

Terrorist report, June 15, 2021. POISONING, insertion into my body with stinking fungus, rape during teleportation and death threats and threats to comply and "go along" with being exploited to the maximum by David Garrett, Robert DeNiro, Joe Pesci, The mafia partners therein plus Nazi cartels, the Gottis and et al plus the H-wood celebrity thug group.

 In order to stop the severing of nerve endings, capillaries and blood vessels, tissue and muscle into every toe and joint of my feet, which this group has been doing for over half a year, I have had to resort to sleeping in light pants which have an elastic band and a tie-around string/cloth. I have sewn pieces into the foot area so the mechanical arms only can cut into my feet by going into the waist area. I tie knots as tightly as possible and try to stop the mechanical arms, which has not stopped anything. I wrap layers of packaging tape around my toes and then put a piece of tissue and tape and wrap that around plus I have sewn a double pair of socks which are of an elastic material, stretchy but tight, so that the mechanical arms can't breach this area and this also is breached. I have begun to wrap wiring around the bottoms of the socks at the ankle level to stop the mechanical arms and the areas are still being breached. The mechanical arms are getting through the layers of materials I have pounded into the walls and floors, ceiling for over 2 years to stop the destruction of my body and the terrorists entering my room to rape and nearly dismember my body and put my hips and spine out of alignment, poisoning my food and putting fungus into my hair, food and vagina every single day. That scenario has gone on and on for years--YEARS every single night. I have spent all my money and time fighting this and writing about it.


It is continuing now that I am wearing an enclosed area around my waist they are putting what smells like rotten meat into the crotch area and I am infected all the time from it. In order to not have my toes severed off or completely dislocated I must do this.

These terrorists then teleport me and abuse and rape me and threaten me. THis is ROBERT DENIRO who is a most VIOLENT AND UGLY SINISTER PERSONALITY along With pesci who is not as awful but still a criminal and has done very awful things, along with the Gottis and the rest of this group. 

David Garrett is raping me and threatening me and I respond as if I am "in love" and wake up knowing that this is the most powerful mind control operation I have yet experienced from this group since the last time I could not control my natural urges to have intimacy and love and contact with another person--I have tried to control my reactions but this man Garrett is most persuasive and threatening as well. If there is any sort of human contact between us, the hateful instructions of this organization has turned what may have been some kind of halfway decent interaction between two human beings into a race, pornographic exploit situation lacking all compassion and concern and love, respect, tenderness and it's all about these people obtaining more promotions out of trying to break me as a human being.

They are using violence towards me with gestures of extreme violence using the teleportation as well. That is coming from DeNiro who is very, very violent and threatening and murderous and has been exploiting this contract out on me and like so many of the celebrities has been obtaining  awards for his movies year after year and won't stop and is so greedy and nasty that it's a real mafia hate contract that reveals the ugliness and decay of that industry to the max. He only represents publicly what privately must be a most sinister organization and group of the most foul, anti-woman, anti-American pro-death squad mafia movie hate destruction of all possible divide and conquer foreigners out of Europ-a-land and other nefarious countries. The utter lack of humanity is astounding and this trashy organization is behind the decades of movies glorifying death, mafia and hate and racism that is behind so much of the current death culture that has pervaded America.

But they are smearing what smells like dead meat into the crotch area of these pants I MUST wear because they were literally cutting my toes off slowly night-after-night like this.

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They are fully rotten and ugly putrid parasites upon me and I want to tell you David Garrett that the sweet beauty of your musical talent is also connected to the sexuality that you live by and allowing these nasty rotten hate-mongering fascist bigots to control you and tell you to abuse me (or maybe you don't need much to do this and have done this many times before in your life and this is just a continuation--like so many of the German people I have met who are acting in almost exactly the same way so I think this is a cultural remnant of Nazism).

You are destroying your own talent but maybe you don't see it that way. DeNiro is a murdering bigot hater and a truly evil and violent sick personality and I really need someone to intervene and stop this group of completely destroying my body and life and home any longer as they have been working and obtaining awards year after year for this heinous filth series of crimes they are committing against me. All of this is FULLY SANCTIONED BY HILLARY CLINTON AND NANCY PELOSI. They are foul rapist conniving women who unfortunately "represent" the Democratic power and the "feminist" struggle for women to compete in major politics. Both have been involved with this, but Pelosi is a mafia agent and fake slurring her concern for "The American People" and like Trump, I find her an utterly repulsive personality but for completely different reasons as Trump brought this mafia Nazi shit firsthand into this contract and they are all still waiting for me to be so oppressed and abused that I go and "marry and have a baby" with some bigot who is torturing me to death and undoubtedly has extremely malicious intent towards me, which David Garrett absolutely does have. He is threatening me to go to Germany and have a baby with him so all of these rotten people who have tortured me using this teleportation technology can get their big bonus from this organization of rotten and filthy people who are controlling them and handing out these prizes and awards and contracts. 

IF DARK MONEY NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED BY CONGRESS AND BY PEOPLE CONCERNED ABOUT DEMOCRACY AND AMERICA THEN THIS ANGLE OF THE CORRUPTION NEEDS TO BE STOPPED and stopping them from exploiting me is absolutely going to help in stopping the corruption that is threatening American Democracy at this time.

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*please note, as I have written of for years regarding my "living" situation: the room I essentially was "forced" to live in, because all opportunities are blocked for living space except for one or two results that come in from this organization, as my finances are likewise blocked electronically and money stolen from my purse while sleeping and etc--all attempts to earn money or have a career have been 100% blocked by this death/terror/rape/mafia/Nazi collaborative effort that is a global threat to humanity at this point in time:

this room is not only a surveillance unit, but every space of the sides of the walls is covered with faux plastic walls/cabinets that have panels that are one or two millimeters thick that are removeable and are used by terrorist "neighbors" to insert mechanical arms through and are easily taken up or down and latched into place from the other side of the walls. Both "walls" are impossible to secure because the material used as the faux cabinet and wall structures are doused with chemicals to make them soft and breached--the plaster in the "ornamental" wall indents and structures cannot be hammered with nails, nails simply fall out or the plaster crumbles so I can't hammer anything into the walls. Some of the wall surfaces that I need to hammer metal hooks and tie rope to secure the panels from being opened from the other side(s) of the walls are so hard that nothing can penetrate the walls (unless I used a drill, which I don't have I also have been so bereft of money I have not had enough money to eat while fighting to pay for items to plaster on the walls to try to simply ascertain how or where the break-ins are occurring). There are areas of the walls that are impossible to pound or screw hooks or anything to secure them from being opened from the other side of the wall, in other words as this entire studio has been refurbished to create an endless series of tiles, cracks and impossible to secure panels due to what I have just written above. The ceiling also has holes drilled into the surface for "lighting" that has huge gaps of space around holes behind the holes of the lightbulbs in ways that are completely easy to penetrate by someone lifting boards from the ceiling above. There is no limit to how this group operates to pry and violate a space and insert mechanical arms, which only require something like half an inch or less to penetrate. 

The terrorist enter into my room to dislodge any flimsy materials I have glued and hammered into the most easy to conceal areas and the room is replete with them. 

I have not enough money to move and I have done nothing but move for decades in order to live in peace.

The mafia and nazis involved in attacking me at this point--with their countless minions being employed to do the filthy and nasty attacks for them, and the personally filthy acts they are performing themselves in these hate skits of teleportation.

I am under severe threat of not only losing my toes and being made permanently paralyzed by these attacks on my toes and feet, but they have tried to knock my lower teeth out, make my hair permanently balding and have smeared chemicals on my skin to damage it for YEARS. They have cut into my fingernails on my hands so badly for so many years on a nightly basis that I have lost the ability to use two fingernails which are permanently damaged and don't grow and are essentially dead--part of the nail is completely cut off and won't grow back the nerve endings have been cut completely out. This group of H-wood actors and this mafia/Nazi cartel has also had part of my uterus cut out while I was unconscious, drugged up and teleported and thus could not feel the act of violence, was so drugged up I felt no pain afterwards. The list is by no means complete of the physical violence and damage this group has inflicted upon me. The list of ideas they have stolen from me while blocking my ability to think and write or get anything done on any level and the money they have made out of both exploiting and torturing me for years (a decade by now of just this one group, and countless people prior to them who are still a part of the exploitation) and I remain here writing once more appealing for my country to not allow this slow murder to continue on and on. 

David Garrett is pressing very hard for me to move to Germany where I will be gang raped by his friends (he has already done this a few times already). The technology forces reactions out of me that are not consensual nor are they "my" words or deeds. Under this kind of threat and pressure and the years of isolation and celibacy and the torture and pain and suffering and the fight to heal while they are torturing me and furthering injuries to my body, the technology stimulating my body and this man who is a sexual predator proves a combination I can't fight at this time by myself. They have stolen my cat and killed animals I loved and have taken care of. I remain absolutely targeted and shunned and attacked by every single human being on the planet and have no sanctuary or place to go and no money to defend myself. As so many people are suffering from and this organization is responsible in so many ways for the suffering and deaths of so many people in just this last year alone--with their complicity to the organization to which they respond and follow instructions from.


nEW yORK dOLLS Trash don't let those rotten old men wankers tell you what to say. TRASH just throw their hate and ugliness away. TRASh. DON'T LET THEM control your mind or what you say. Trash throw them away and their wives and keep the world in a state of free play that is gay, merry, clean and bright. TrAsh I mean spiritual bliss and not their rotten trashy piss on the planet. tRASH, THROW that hate organization away. trASH, LET THIS cleansing occur today and forever throw the TRASh mind controlling dirty foul dregs away.

 

New York Dolls - Trash. (1973).



"Don't throw your love away.
Don't throw your life away.
Don't take my light away."

(my lyrics)
don't do what wanker haters say
TRASH becuz' they spewin' trash
to take your life away
trash
don't let them tell you what to say
trash
don't let the trash tell you how to pray or prey or play
TRASH
won't let you take my knife away
trash
why won't you trashy wankers go away?
Trash
let me and my baby play
trash
you're the one and only
are you going to stay?
I don't want to just play
trash
I don't want to throw it away
trash
don't throw your love away
don't throw your life away.
Trash
baby be cool
and don't let the trash tell you what to say
trash
don't let the trashy old men wankers
tell you how to play
do your life your own way
get rid of that TRASH
and throw it away
trash
throw those loveless rotten old men wankers away
and all the hate and violence they have to say
trash
get it away
trash
throw it away
baby, let's just be happy and play
with or without you I'll do things my own way
and get rid of that TRASH
that's telling you to be like them
TRASH
put it in the can and keep the planet green and clean
with or without you, I'll be my own rightful Queen.

(my cover of The NY Dolls who know a lot about trash and NY).

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(My cover of Fuck the Police by NWA who know a lot about the trash of the police with their "good" citizen pigs and their racist, sexist, violent gigs).

Fuck the police
same organization
interior negotiation
sometimes your closet relation

Fuck the police
grandizing schemer
say they want the world cleaner
by making your turf meaner
raping in order to demean her

Fuck the police
representing the "good" citizens
who make sure the destroy the denizens
who are the peasants and plebeians
struggling to clean their filthy dens
that the "good" citizens have turned into pig pens.

"Yo Dre, I Got Something To Say" | Straight Outta Compton | SceneScreen






A reverse regurgitation.

 

Lydia Lunch & Rowland S. Howard ~ Black Juju



A REVERSE REGURGITATION***ALL OF MY LURID POSTS TODAY--THE SEXUALLY BASED ONES BEGINNING WITH LYDIA LUNCH'S *FUCK* VIDEO ARE NOT NOT NOT ANY ASPECT OF MY SEXUALITY BUT AN EXPOSE OF THE BASE AND SICK SEXUALITY OF THE TELEPORTING CULTURAL HEROES THAT YOU ALL LOVE AND DEFEND AND PROTECT while they try to force their filth and hate upon me as if that is me and not them. I am merely putting out videos that honest women have put out when being "sexy" according to the dictates of rapist bigots was NOT the enforced-through-violence absolute code, codified by a slew of sleazy pop stars and celebrity symbols who represent nothing but what I posted since the video *FUCK* BY LYDIA LUNCH TODAY. I am merely making a statement about THEM and not ME. That is the general rule of thumb for all my videos that appear lurid or sarcastic, which I am not inherently like but releasing the sleazy greasy filth that is continuously dumped on me by people of that same substance who appear clean and jovial and shiny and plastic-coated romantic for the media and the press, adored and protected and the need for them to turn that fake smile into a hideous grimace of rape and hate upon me is something, apparently, society needs in order to continue to put fake fantasies upon pedestals.

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Kill Your Sons - Lydia Lunch



Set your little boys free from suckling their entire lives
Hey mommies-your little boys are vicious rapists
what have you done to make them that way?
What haven't you done?
What have you done?

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Lydia Lunch Retrovirus - Burning Skulls



It's just another f**ed up trip with f-0ed up pop singers but when it comes to expressing something that goes pop explosion in your head
Very few can match Lydia Lunch--

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The Accüsed - Have You Never Been Mellow




I met one of the band in Seattle just before leaving for Germany back in '91. I sold him the rest of my Humbolt County joy ride before crossing the great divide between San Francisco and Germany. I look at photos from that time and I only rememjber that the dude I hung with for a little while had reddish hair and I can't identify which one it was at this point. He drove me around Seattle as we smoked that last precious bag I had which I have not had the pleasure of repeating as I have not been in the Humbolt County line of acquisition since that time. Oh whst a glorious ending that was to my time of living San Francisco (traveled to Seattle to take the flight was actually on my way to moving to Seattle instead I rerouted to Germany).

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The Accused- Psychomania



THIS IS GREAT GREAT MUSIC NOT MUSICK !!! Back in the "grunge" days of Seattle back in '91. Clubs I went to in San Francisco at the time had band after band that was similar and I hung with some of them in The Mission District (mostly all gang stalker basturds but still okay to hang with for a short time and good Humbolt I purchased as well). Oh well, the good old days gone now the hard driving rhythm pounding grinding and the mosh pit seem taken over by replicas. I am cynical I have been out of the loop for so long due to poisoning perhaps I am wrong and there is a fragment left of that energy. But if you listen to the raw energy here you will know that this is not the same now as it was back then (how I miss what I almost took for granted). At least it cheers me up a bit compared to the s*** I see on my endless media streams of the ennui that has been forced upon the global consciousness as being the only "art" available and all the underground appears to have vanished.

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I believe (it was a hazy, Humbolt County last smoke day so memory is hazy) but it was I think the dude on the far left who I met for that one day who drove me around as I smoked my last Humbolt dream bag and now I somehow regret not having stayed in Seattle but that's Life....(I had to go to Germany and change my life entirely for many weird reasons). I recognized his photo in the band album cover during that general time period but I can't find that poster online and I think he's very changed even in this photo from when I met him. Maybe he would remember it.) Not saying this guy was or is "my type" but he was a cool person to meet and talk to even if he was part of this insidious dearth of gang stalker terrorists. He was not as horrible as the more well-mannered "gentlemen" of our media circus sensational desensitizing romanticizing.

Sunday, June 13, 2021

The divide between Hollywood and the US Government is very thin indeed.

 "Joe Biden explains how he'll handle Putin meeting." CNN. June 13, 2021.




President Biden: "Look, I know this is going to sound somewhat prosaic, but I think we're in a contest. Not with China, per se, but a contest with autocrats. Autocratic governments around the world. As whether or not Democracies can compete with them in the rapidly changing 21st Century. And I think how we act, and whether we pull together to act as a Democracy is going to determine whether our grandchildren are going to look back 15 years from now and say, 'Did they step-up?. Are Democracies as relevant and powerful as they had been?."


This also applies to the "dark money" forces controlling the Hollywood actors and the associations therein. Try to look beyond your mere selfish aspirations for power and control and look at the future of the world and freedom from tyranny, mind control oppression and murder and rape and torture and intellectual property theft. What you consider your bright, shiny future is actually a deep and dark black hole sucking all opportunity out of the planet's resources and ideas into one, huge cesspool of pornographic imagination hate and murder repeat formulas of chaos and death.

The divide between Hollywood and the US Government appears to be very thin indeed.

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This means that all of you actors, famous or not, all the producers all the people who came from "nothing" and rose like the emblem of the "American Dream" are selling that dream off to future generations because you want a monopoly and easy promotion by your "Dark Money" handlers who instruct and train you in fascist methodologies--in particular with this mind control and teleportation technology which so many are clamoring to gain access to this instantaneous ease-of-transport into higher rankings of the industries you otherwise were not automatically inducted into. The reason you had to struggle to gain access is due to the American tradition of helping people to achieve their goals by the Capitalistic struggle for status and power, which was granted to you because others fought, died and have operated in politics and in other ways to keep that system thriving and alive. You are now killing it and although your children may also gain access into higher rankings than they actually deserve upon the merit of their true capabilities, and you all want an aristocratic system based on power and the assumption of supremacy only due to inheritance and a structure that is enforced by murder and mind control oppression rather than the freedom of thought, action and the chance to compete and succeed.

Jackhammer drilling in the room beneath mine which just yesterday had a trash shiut skank yelling with threat for using a baster to eject water at a 30-degree angle onto the grass bnelow, arcing over the ledgtes, in the pouring rain at night black visibility. They are every single day hosting drilling pounding and hammering the drilling is into cement and wood and steel--it is stell they are drilling into every day for hours every day with all the windowss open a few feet away from my patio. The white trash piece of shit male who is some europigape nazi paid in full by the filth of whorewood to inflict mutilation which is deadly--it is murder and cutting my fingers off literally--at the cuticles and nail beds I can't use my fingers to do most basic things any longer---a few times I manage to stop the nighttime cutting into the huge, deformed fingertips which are sliced into nightly with little mechanical arms through about 6-8 layers I use for protection to try to stop the mechanicamo arms from slicing into my skin and slathering the skin with extremely damaging chemicals so the skin curdles like I am about 100 years old--liver spots are everywhere from toxic poisoning to my body liver and kidneys they poison and drug me every day so I react to their hate stimulii which are continuous on a non-stop night and day basis 24/7 for over 20 years literally every moment of every day u nder assault. The white trash filth ape makes horrid coughing choking noises evewry time I peer outside on the edge of the doorway threshhold looking at the birdless and dead area but with some trees--they kill any animals hwich venture outswide my window---there had been squirrels they are gone, and other animsl there had been many birds literally none appear they make it a dead and pollution zone. They laugh when they cough and sound like they are enjoying abusing having me beaten tortured mutilated the skank brown skinned shit crap who service these white trash shit pigs-the same thing in worewood from everything like ikamala to cardi b to the white trash who are loathsome like these dirty stalker shithead not-celebrities--the girl slave skanks laugh and giggle because the white male instructs them to exhibit delight at torture. This is how I have been forced to live for over ---how many decadse by now? Watching the fuckers lecturing on their pulpits now about fiigh5ting trump after years of them profiting in multi-millions for having organized this so white nazi trash will continue to put them on a pedastal of being the iconic black and "feminist" iconography of "change and hope" but for me it's death and torture mutilation they will never stop exploiting me nor will they ever, ever ever stop this contract out on me whichj PUT THEM IN POWER in the first place---I mean the presidential power--president after president then candidate for presidents no-stop in a long list--every single one for thew past 20 years has shown up to laugh, giggle and sneer in contempt that I am fighting their endless exploiation of me--there is no partison quality they are all acting in unison on this point of their diryt seflish little secret. So this is the best I can get after years of writing posts every day asking for help asking for this fucking murder to be stopped asking for someone to help me live in peace at the very fuckibng least but no, they must go on how can these fucking whore apes continue to be in the spotlight if left without artificial nazi funding for their every contrived fake presentation of fighting fascism once it's been clearly defined in the public it's imposssible to deny--but when I was writing about the rise of this penicious system in the seame terms they are using now, thyey had me beaten raped and tortured without end--coming to laugh at me like this shit they sent to laugh openly coughing making stupid ugly noises when I am outside or just looking outside and stinking filth I must clean as I fight to heal from internal poisoning none of this leadership shit woulued ever stop someone else had to do it and then somehow I am fighting to not be killed still. They have left me with no living options in a few months (3) I must move they have ciut my disability money off for no real reason I saved money in my bank account which is allowed under their regulations and they have kept my money off for over 20 monhts only to rape beat and torture me on a 16-hour schedule because trump can't win unless he is forcing me into dire abject poverty and destitution and abusing me and poisoning me to death and laughing about it openly as more and more join in.//The sick system will remain even if you get a few replacement nazi liberals into "power"'---powerless spineless will remain but yelling and thumping theatrics will prevail carrying over from the midterm promises. The superficial movie you can all click on will appear as hope and change for the post-midterms the miracle of not alllowing trump to send thugs to rampage the capitol and then keeping him out of all, literally all legal accountability will remain. Even if anything ever possibly happens the slightest little admonition legally speaking, the same thugs who profirted off having me tortured so trump could remain in "power" to aid them in their off-shore crypto money storage schemesa will remain. The torture of me will never stop my entire life. There is nothing resembling any stop whatsoever from any of the candidates. Teh"heros" who offer free bus fare or the promise of a "democratic socialist" revolution of not allowing white trash men and women to continue to trash teh constitution, government and put the country into death spiral debt and warfer recouping the losses they have accrued from teh greed, ugly sicik selfishness will remain and I am the go-to for them all to get free every stupid ape performance of terror rape torture so more trump and his gang can rape without end mutilate and torrture and there will be no epstein files any longer all is so protected that it's impossible even in this age of surveillance (for everybody else) nothing will touch this group of miscreants (putting itmildly). ///I remkain cleaning stinking filth sprayed by the white trash man in the room beneath mine who makes ugly coughing noises as the brown slave skank crap in the rooms near him make the most stupid sick "sneezing" noises that are so unbelieaable and sick and stupid but this gets them free rent. This dirty filth nazi shit from russia or wherever that filth is from sits on the patio shouting/talking for hours and his dirty nasty brown slave whorews shout and yell and slam and yell at me---the stinking filth has been sarpayed on my patio as usual there's muck and filth from a completely cleaned patio yesterday---putrid dirty muck put on the ground---I had watshed more stinking clothing they had earlier sprayed with stinking putrid filth substances--hanging to dry the water dripped to a clean floor--returning muck,hairs and debris mixed with the water so it turned into a gunk-like slime coating covering the entire patio every corner. They put water stench everywherre the water dripped on one specific part of the patio about a 3-foot in diameter area of water dripping from 3 items hanging. The patio was clean now the entire area is wet sopping with muck and hair and filth in eveyr corner. //The items Ikeep outside to use for my damaged hair and scalp treatments are coated with black growing fungus--poerfectly clean when I put them out but from last night to today they are coated in black fungus growing about 1/4 of an inch in one day of nothing hpapening whatsoever from the bleach-sprayed clean bowls and items I use to try to recessitate my comepltely damaged hair. Hacking is so bad Icn't type and they have blocked function of the computer so mnay times and when I must turn the frozenm laptop off for the 25th time in half a day---the creeps begin shoutingj--I begn to shout in my room to shut up after just endless attacks--the shit filth out of whorewood shouyting loser the yapping dirty murdering bigot piece of shit form depp is there every day to inflivt it's ugly sick sleze on me so it can feel clean of it's filth and ugliness--dumping it's ugly sick bad energy on me they all do like demons thowing thieir ugly filth om me using demons to inflict more torrture--my fingers mutilated and bulging with near bloody red welts on every ginger as I fight every day to stop the muytilation of my body while in deep sleep after they injefct oison into my bladder which I urinate out and then the poison goes into my blood stream as they yell bitch loser and insult everything I am thinking, looking at. Their top "quality" for couch casting is in abusing me this is all they require to become lead performative shit mdicocrities glorified and glamorized--with lack of actual really beautiful spirit talent throughout the shit of whorewood this is what is requuired to "make it". //otherwise, the fucking midterms are a few days away but as usual the same heroes of america are lecturing, hacking their lectures on my youtube promising that once the demo-rats win they will resume the torture of me so all the liberals can inflict their version of abuse torrture rape ewxploitation and destruction slow murder on me so they can continue to get air time, broadway shows and book promotions tours about how wonderful they arein having put in legislation and their "fight" to save america and how they are fighting so hard to stop the tyranny of trump and his gang--theyh have, of course, nothing whatsoever to do with the rise of this filthy shit they claim in exasperated bewilderment. the audiences cheer as if everything is a happenstance political parade they can cheer on or boo at will.