Wednesday, July 1, 2020

Wrriting on Facebook to try to get the hacker audience to respond to another plea for assistance

This is partially explained in the copied and pasted post below. I had really intended this blog to be a short story/fictional account of the situation and to make it a form of literary consumption. Instead my brain is blanked out by the microchipping or the attacks and I am stuck writing in a very prosaic and repetitive style about "compplaints" about torture and violence directed at me. My brain is under very strong and horrible attack from I believe some technological component embedded into this laptop.

I post this because it has relevance to the modus operandi of the stalking organization and how I have to fight alone and endlessly damage my hands and body to clean while the stalkers also smear damaging chemicals on my skin every night when they break in through the panels of the walls with tiny, milimeter in diameter mechanical arms and wreak havoc and this also allows the freont door to be opened from inside and the stalkers come in and insert fungus into my body and  hair, sheer hair and cut hair off my scalp, cut my skin to the bone to cause blood flow disruption, insert objects under fingernails (for years, the same nails every single day for years to the point of absolute disfigurement)

here is what i wrote: It is important although as I wrote, my brain is blocked from a creative approach to writing and depiction. This is also intended as the people attacking me are stealing ideas I write of but blocking my ability to compete against them in any form. They also disfigure my body and drain my health and vitality and then also claim they are more beautiful and that etc etc, they make insults all the time and also insert subliminals that are especially hostile that I can hear at very silent moments hissing like a soft hissing stream into my ear of insulting words and phrases.

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These internet hacking attacks also take the form of when I highlight just to try to copy and paste from Faceboook to this blog. After I highlight a long paragraph, the hackers block the last few words from being copied. I have to begin again, as the cursor is again blocked. It takes four or five times to highlight and copy for the entire post to get copied. Just one more example, plus keys appearing twice when I press them once, another hacking attack on the keyboard that happens almost every word.

The time to type takes at least 6 times longer than with a normal keyboard (actually I type extremely quickly and this reduces the speed to more than 10 times the time it should take--or the differential is much greater I type so well adn quickly and this has been blocked FOR YEARS and I can't stop it. I can't write at my creative potential I am stuck sitting herre day after day fightign to get anyone hacking into my system to actually stop watching on and support me and block these attacks put meinto a safe home.

Years of writing and no one has ever done realistically a damn thing.

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Five hours after my monthly stipend was electronically transfered into my bank account, the hackers continue to block the amount received. It shows up as zero although it's already been transferred into my account.
My heart is under attack, there are palpitations from electronic attack/torture.
Sick from detox, and sick of endlessly cleaning for hours and hours every SINGLE day the stinking filth the stalkers spray and pour on pillows, blankets, clothing and cleaning up the filth they poured on my skin, body, hair and into my body.
Sick of writing about it because no one will admit or help me in any way--writing on Facebook which provides an entertainment porno zone for stalkers to laugh about as they read that NO ONE ever supports or does anything to protect me.
Sick of this but I have to write, because the stalking protocol to continue to force me to write is that the attacks are always so seriously and potentially deadly that I write and the particular attack reduces and another deadly attack takes it's place. After I write about one attack, it is stopped temporarily and unless I write, the very nasty attackks never stop.
It's as if the entire world has become a haven for Nazis and stalkers and there is no resostance anywhere on the planet and everyone is a covert agent operating within the boundary of that system.
By the time people realize they are under attack as well and it could pose a threat to their lives...until then, the cycle of violence never ends. A perpetual form of domestic violence, state-sponsored terrorism, and sheeple doing nothing and as blank as zombies on every single level.
People always need a witch hunt or a target. Those shouting in the streets for justice are themselves part of the stallking (many of them).
What will it ever take for anyone to ever defend me, I wonder?
All I do is write about this and I try to stop writing on Facebook, which is by now like a public urinal of people hacking into my private page and stealing ideas and attacking me for my thoughts, while stealing concepts and then attacking me for writing them. Then there is the league of do-nothing perverts who enjoy watching "someone else" get tortured instead of them (the black sheeple in the streets who have, in my over 50 years of living in the US and abroad, all those black sheep have ever done is watch and do nothing or mostly participate in the stalking protocols, which are racist and filled with hate and discrmiination. How many black are going to conitnue to hiss anti_semitic slurs at me or punch me while Germans and Nazis watch on, instructing them, as they get front page headlines every day for "fighting" by gyrating in public singing for the Plantation of Whorewood and being paid in millions adn billions for it--while they put photos of themselves laughing into the camera after they attack me for Whitey Nazi?
How many "feminists" will it take to ever screw in that lightbulb of, "Gee, maybe I should actually help her not get raped by violent rapist misogynist men who happen to also be my husbands, sons and friends?'
How many more posts must I write before this is stopped by any reaonsable human being who actually has any concern about human rights instead of their own rotten asses and what they can get out oof participating in this contract?
How many years longer must I fight and clean up filthy grimme and fungus and fight for my life alone endlessly cleaning up the stinking filth every single day forhours and fighting to use the internet fighting for my life and perpetually asking for help over and over to no response ever...?

I had intended to write, but the exacerbation of negative emotions allowed the hacking to "hack" into my thoughts and bypass the thought: my hands are like ugly and huge from continuous cleaning and hand washing from filth that I never put on anything. I have to spend hours every day just cleaning up filth the stalkers input only so I don't have to breathe it in when I must seal the glass doors of the patio shut every night (and also can't leave the doors open when it gets dark, as tiny mechanical arms also enter through my room in the dark and spray stinking filth on my clothing and blankets and furniture when I am doing something else. The light for the patio I sealed over with material so they can't insert an arm through the light fixture, only for them to make the brand new buld burn out within one hour of using it. I had already sealed off that fixture which is so high on the ceiling it's dangerous for me to climb on something to reach it. That is how meticulously I must search for ways the stalkers use these mechanical arms to break through any crack, tile, floorboard, corner of anything. There are multiple light fixtures within the room itself as well with holes into the ceiling, where anyone from above can lift the floorboards and insert and spray all  kinds of things. Everything must be sealed off. I can't replace the lightbulb withoutt having to breakk open the very tight seal I had made so nothing can be broken through that tiny one litttle area, leaving me to have to fight now unsuccessfuuly for the next few areas on the conerns of the patio ceiling where they are lifting up the planks, I have glued paper, all kinds of objects, put growing vines over the area so the little arms can't get through. The vines are now dead and the stalkers literally rip them off the areas I have tried to cover with this growth to block them from opening up these areas.

I have been writing on Facebook for years about these attacks and if I mention this to anyone they attack me viciously with claims that I am crazy, the police are violent about it, no one offers any support whatsoever anywhere on the planet.

I see these marches and demonstratins now and it's unbelievable to me what utter bs the celebrities the blacks in particular are who are participating in this contract out on me and being rewarded by Obama, who also has participated in this situation and remains silent like all of them. All getting promoted for participation in a Nazi genocidal contract. As long as it' s not for blacks like them, they don't give a damn they put photos fo themselves smiling with their new promotions on my personal page searches on the web.  As i continue to fight this, literal self-proclaimed white Nazis are attacking me with these same black "activists".  All of t hem together are obtaining huge businesses, movie starring roles, new tv shows they host, etc etc etc. I see it every time I get on IMDB or search on the media as they make it clear to me what they are obtaining (as part of the targeting protocol, just sort of to rub it in more). As people do nothing about it, they are protected and all assume a  psychopathic smug attitude knowing that not even Joe Biden is going to do anything about this situation, whether he is elected or not. Their attitude of complete protection and how they can get away with rape, torture and this endless violence is only 2nd to the nasty common people who attack me in the public places in leiu for the wealthy who order these attacks, who in turn are operative puppets for the very evil vile controllers who are on higher levels of the "pyramid". You can see J-Z nearly worshipping the pyramd shape for his stage performances. He's one of the attackers as well. But endlessly singing for millions about how much he's fighting. There is a commercial using his "New York" song but Phuket has replaced the New York theme. I bet they obtained mansions with sea views for calling me all kinds of deadly genocidal Nazi names with that German actor who also is good friends with pit and t-atino (can't use their real names it's too hard to write of them as human beings. They have dehumanized me so much that I can't see them as human beings and use their real names. 

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more from Facebook I wrote today in rage, and this is intended to exert pressure upon me to write and release this stress. All day i have struggled to get this laptop to upload protection, to surf and I have spent HOURS just either cleaning up their filth they sparyed into my room, described endlessly (for years), and fighting to use the internet to see wherre my money is, and fighting with the sickness of detox and my body is now reaching a very thin stage because the poisons have latched all the way directly into my skeleton, and there's STILL more so I am very ill and now every day poison is coming out and it's so old, so toxic, I can't move and the combinatiion plus the mind control plus my cat has been stolen for years and all i do is worry about her and want her back and MY OWN HOME IN SAFETY and this terorism and torture--why MUST IT GO ON AND ON FOR YEARS AN DYEAR WITH NO ONE EVER SUPPORTING ME ? Goddamn YOU READERS.

I was not even going to write today, but this endless fighting to clean up stinking filth the stalkers pour into every piece of clothing and blankets and pillows, every day on an don hours and hours and my hads are withered and ugly and look old and like they're water-logged and like I'm a cleaning lady who has spent a lifetime cleaning. this is more than 7 years of perpetual cleaning daily of clothing and fighting to keep what I have paid for and not have to throw every single thing I buy that they destroy away--cleaning up filth and my home is endlessly filthy I can't keep up. NINE YEARS of detoxifying while they tortruree me, keep me blocked economically so I can't afford a doctor, put me in accidents and leave me without the ability to pay for any treatment, disfigure my body every single day so I am broken down and scarred up with balding greasy hair every single day---. I had wanted to not write today but the attacks have been since waking to this moment at 6 pm and my money has not appeared, I have been sitting here for HOURS fighting to use this internet which yesterday operated, today it's not. Endless hacking and fighting and not being able to get what I need to fix the problems the stalkers create. YEARS OF WRITING ON FACEBOOK I have tried to stop writing even today, and finally I have to try to get anyone to help me. If I don't write these attacks remain and they are DEADLY. I must necessarily write adn the shit cycle NEVER ENDS CAN'T YOU GODDAMN READERS EVER COME TO MY DEFENSE RTHERRE IS MORE THAN BLACK PEOPLE BEING DISCRIMINATED AGAINST BY WHITE BIGOTS and your famorite starz in the media are bullshit creeple who participate in the worst Nazi take-over of America probably in the history of the United States.  While you all do nothing (most of you are Europ's and want America destroyed and as another prostituted colonized slave plantation like Phuket and Thailand for you to take over and dictate to as these whores in whorewood welcome you all in because they get a few immediate gratification deals you hand them (planning on taking it all away from them or their children eventually after you invade and colonize to the full cheers of the Americans who hail Nazi culture)

tired of writing these theories and yet, it's so obvious and yet, everyone participates in it, but they don't want black people to be killed in the streets now the blacks are so happy that I am being attacked they are so happy to shift the crap onto someone else.



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While I wrote, I could not access the financial concept, "direct deposit". I was trying to "remember" what the term was and my brain was absolutely blanked out while I was writing. I also had intended to write a few other more interesting descriptive terms than the "feminist lightbulb of ,Gee,...etc etc whatever I wrote above, which was not my words my brain is under some kind of attack whereby the stalkers bypass various "circuits" of my brain's normal functining and insert their own words. I'm sure the experts reading my post have some understanding of this principle since it's being employed all the time whenever I try to communicate in any way, in any form on any forum. The light of clarity that by allowing one person to be raped, you are sanctioning rape culture. Their internal rationale I believe is that if someone else gets raped and attacked by these men, then "they" the women are safer and happier and feel a great sense of relief that there is now a new avenue for domestic violence to be splintered into a new set of people instead of the customary domestic violence situation hitherto the gang stalking and teleportation. The good old days when there were actual slaves that could be raped, beaten or killed. Now it's all this huge drama disguised as "normal" civilian life, with the dark secrets of this technology being handed out to extremely violent people who have learned the arts of smiling huge smiles inpublic. I also "forgot' to write in the above post that the black people who insert photos of themselves smiling are photos that are personally attached to my various media searches that have been hacked into the templates of the sites to appear as "normal" posts. Theses are exaggerated gestures, often nasty and ugly into the camera, or like gloating with captions that have a resonance to my situatioon with these particular people. They are thrilled that violence is being directed at me instead of them, and they can rise if they participate with the bigot whites. This goes for the blonde feminsts and their children and everything else under the sun. At this point there isn't a human being out there who isn't attacking me for this system who wants a free and easy promotioin into high levels of society. How many people would that be? Just imagine yourself. So I sit here waiting once again for my money. Again the laptop is corrupted by malware and I have no means to fix it, as the computer store refuses to give me the recovery disc that should have come with the laptop. Lies abound. Again I have spent hours today cleaning up the filth that the stalkers pour on everything possible every moment they can insert these mechasnical arms into my room. Again I am sick from poisons pouring out of my body all day. So sick I have not been able to take a shower for days because it's too painful. When i have any energy, i must clean up the toxic filth that has been sprayed on everything so as not to have to inhale it when I close the patio doors at night so the stalkers can't just get in through that opening of the floorboards above. This is a literal diagnosis of the way the stalkers enter my room, not some hypothetical guess. Altthough because no one ever approaches me with ANY support, I cannot get any evidence alone with this group breaking my equipment and hacking into everything and breaking all I own and making all inoperable and no one willing to admit this is happening to me or help me to obtain evidence--it would take at least one other person to help me but no one on the planet is willing. so I write again entertaining the bigot crap that is hacking in and "enjoying" watching me with the endless writing and nothing ever stops this crap no one ever defends me I sit here cleaning and cleaning up stinking filth. The president makes jokes about it as he still is waiting for me to finish healing while fighting against more poisoning endless accidents his bigot male friends concoct when I fight backk against their endless attacks and sucking out information to use for their dirty and foul ugly pig selves for their own promotions. They make jokes about me having to clean--they can watch me clean day after day for hours upon hours the stinking filth their creeps spray into my room at every given chance.

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30 minutes later and much hacking correction time spent:

And my money justt arrived in my account, only 6 hours late. It's hard to describe how living in a foreign country and not having money come into a direct deposit account can be rather unnerving, as all resources where I might have to contest any block to my funding are half a planet away.

this group tries to get me to react in rage or misery every single day. And every single day the attacks are so sustained that it's finally impossible not to reach out for anyone to intervene to very dangerous situations, like heart palpitations being forced due to technological attack systems hidden in the next rooms or within this room. Financial destitution also is a deadly circumstance this group is endlessly forcing upon me. I have no other options but to write, and once i get on these laptops, besides endlessly backspacing to correct their hacker inserts and blocks and spaces and keys not operating, my brain as I always write is under so much attack that I degenerate into hate rants and such easily mundane verbal expression it's just a ranting never ending silent scream into the computer, instead of interesting ideas and concepts I want to write about. When I am able to formulate or format these concepts, THEY ARE STOLEN by the assinie parasites who plague my life so they can obtaiin free ideas and then torture me afterwards and all that entails --blocking my functioning and then aspirations and all chances. I have been nearly killed when trying to attend grad school by cars hitting me and nearly killling me. It just put my hips out of place and etc. My spine is by now fractured by nightly break-ins as people literally try to break my spine. Fractures and spondylolysthesis from people attacking me while I"m drugged up and comatose and inert from the MK ULTRA "alter" states.

HELLO IS THERE ANYTHING RESEMBLING HUMANITY OUT THERE WITH ALL THE HUMANITARIAN BLACK MEDIA PERFORMERS WHO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT DEFENDING BLACK PEOPLE FROM DISCRIMINATION AND MURDER, WHY ARE YOU PARTICIPATING IN THIS CRIME AGAINST ME? Obvious for money, greedy selfish nasty and when I am teleported them, like all the people who teleport me, they never offer information never respond to any question never demonstrate the slightest of intelligence. They remain silent and just suck out as much as possible, on que from their instructions. Thus they appear stuipd and violent and dumb. I have no idea if they actually have any higher intelligence at all and after years of some of them going on and on brutalizing me, they only appear like dumb and violent greedy abusers. This is the blacks who are now prominant in the media as well as the whites I have endlessly been writing of for years and years. The group is now so huge I can't count them all any longer (and my memory is always blocked by the microchip or implant or remote tech...?)





Malware and hacking has increased since yesterday

I have spent more than two hours simply clicking on pages and trying to install updates and download music and I wait while the cursor turns into a spinning wheel and the pages freeze. The YouTube downloader which worked perfectly yesterday is now so blocked I have had to delete the app, reinstall, and then wait for it to open and it won't do that now.

That is the usual and typical daily attack just on the internet.  Always the recovery disc is either broken, stolen or not put into the box after I pay for the laptop. Any recovery disc I order will be suspect and I would have to order online, which means I can't go to any physical location to inquire about deficiencies in the disc should there be the inevitable blocks or inoperable components (almost a 95% certainty).

I have not assessed my body for more scars, cuts, bruises, stinking substances smeared into my hair, skin. I have had so much damage done to my hair I no longer brush my hair (also they spray stinking substances on my brushes and I have to throw brushes away at least once a month). My fingers right now are not going to keys I am trying to press.

The attack is probably stemming from some internal chip or attack system embedded within the laptop itself, "tweeking" my brain with it's microchip implants.

Every single thing I have written today, the preceding days and all the havoc, chaos and destruction has been an ongoing situatioon for years and years.

It's not going to change in the near future.

I remain cleaning up stinking filth the filthy stinking stalkers, under order from the filth who are wealthy and bigot black, white, feminist, blonde, black, male, female, etc the list is endless of the sick people ordering the filthy parasites to go into my room and destroy everything  possible. All I do with my time is clean up filth they spray, pour in and the damage to my body has taken over 9 years of daily paralysis while under non-stop 24 hour torture. The internet, as I attempted to write above, is "just" one more component of total destruction of my life.

That is the jist of the mind-controlled typing I can barely manage to get out on this laptop for this blog.

My real creative ideas remain blocked. Whenever I get in front of these laptops, anywhere, (as I am under non-stop surveillance, all things I do randomly are met with unprepared spontaneous stalking agents trying their best to immediately hack into the spur-of-the-moment system I try to get onto. I cannot "think" of what I want to do in order to avert the stalking blocks to any internet or e-interaction. The hacking takes less than 2 minutes at these spurious moments when I attempt to block their hacking. Otherwise, they are already prepared whenever I get onto any system I have arrenged to go to. I have had to attempt to type at internet cafes for over one year due to my last laptop being broken by stalkers (under orders of the brat pit actor who...I am tired of writing about them, I will copy and paste what I wrote the last time here next time, if the laptop operates any longer. I never know.)

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As I attempted to type above and got into a long tangent and then as I was about to begin writing about brat pit (brad pitt, the actor and his wife, who is his shadow perpetrator wifey who is as violent as he is, but always behind him but stealing my feminist ideas to make her fake alternative movies, as he has done as well). They ordered my laptop broken when I asked for justice and that they be stopped from hacking into my system (I asked the nebulous Facebook hacker readership, which is as nefarious as the pit couple are, or far worse actually extremely menacing genocidal vile violent nazis who attack me here in Phuket and everywhere in the United States--the pit pair are just a plastic-coated calmed down wealthy version of the worst white trash rednecks you could ever not want to get in anycontact with).

My brain is also blocked from accessing what I want to say. I just remain at a kind of surface level of communicatory skills. Barely accessing any real cognitive depth or analytical or creative functioning. Once I get off the laptop and out of range of the chips and microchip triggers, the creative ideas come back flooding in. It is literally impossible to type anywhere with all the hacking to every single system I manage to get on; as I wrote, it takes less than 2 minutes for the hacking organization/stalking organization to locate my random attempts at any internet station that I have not already used (there are only a liminted amount of internet cafes here in Phuket).

My blog will remain like the revolving circus clown parade of one description of heinous filth smeared into my body/room/clothing/internet and the dirty and nasty ugly people who attack me (the plastic-coated ones are ugly when you see them in teleportation. Even when they appear as 'beautiful " I can see and feel the ugly evil they emit and behind their masks I can see their real emotional expressions. The greed and stupidity appears in ways you can't see in normal 3-D space and time. 

That is giving too much information for the Whorewood parasites to suck out and use as their own concept. This also has been an ongoing component of the endless traumatization, so an open "back door portal" into my brain can be used to suck out and coerce creative ideas as I theolosophize and psychologically analyze the people, the situation, the political content

and then this information is taken by these absolutely formulaic parasitic actors and writers and used as their concept.

They have been trying to suck out more sexual passion out of me but they have been so vile and disgusting--these rotten "men" and their nasty abuser "feminist" wives and children and girlfriends--that I have completely turned off. Not much to miss because the grasp of life in no way depends on being sexually accessed by loveless parasites using sophisticated technology because they lack all love, beauty and soul and heart and need to abuse someone in order to suck it out (which their "feminist" couterparts then collaterally suck out in a mutual attack system of loveless couples who need to abuse in order to feel alive).

It's not such a novel idea. This is one of the real reasons that MK ULTRA is so popular with the people in positions of power who have long ago lost their sexual desires and replaced all with sadistic parasiticism and feeding off power games in order to feel invigorated.

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The hackers/stalkers/techs can also attack whatever microchip implant is in my brain, or the remote tech (as I do not know exactly how this is being done, but I do know that there is a tiny lump on the right side of my skull , near the apex or crown, that the hard chemicals extend into my skull through my cervical vertebrae).  I am unable to use my fingers to press keys. It is not completely stifled but I have to hesitate and slow down to "remember" where the keys are. Also the hackers have inserted malware to make the keys double and the space bar to not operate, which also adds another layer to the block to wriiting or creative thinking or intellectual capacity.

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And the reason I say (wtite) that this ongoing story is simply never ending, is because of the never-ending nothing that the people around the world who see what is happening to me do: nothing except participate or let it happen to me.

Some of these very same observers also are microchipped, under mind control programming (a huge swatch of every population is always socialized into normative formations, but the technology is so advanced and so stealth that people have no concept that they are being targeted as well as me.)

People also love a witch hunt and murder/assassination group orgy.

No one ever protects me and thus I repeat these same things over and over for years and years, always not writing the short stories I want to (also threatened by the nasty creeps teleporting me who want silencing and endless promotions and endless ideas to suck out of my energy and life force and brain and creative content--as they appear to be non-studious idiots who are violent puppets of a very insidious global regime).
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over 5 minutes of waiting for a page to open in this browser. The "updates" from Microsoft have been slowly churning nothing for over 3 hours and it's now at 93%.  

People just watch me fighting to clean up the stinking mess the stalkers put in my room; they watch me fight against a few hundred creeps stalking and pushing into me from around evrey corner. They swerve and walk directly in front of me in huge groups so I can't get around them; this is continuous while I am shopping. Every store has agents wearing the Thai costumes of the service agents (they all wear uniforms, so apt for a military dictatorship and coup d'etat system and Martial Law governmen, run by European Nazi investors.

And they watch on, the people order this upon me watch from laptop computers as all is under non-stop surveillance and attack. From thousands of miles away they observe their stalkers attack me while my brain is under this blanket of attack. I smile and laugh while they insult me, I can't grasp the fact that they are inisulting or attacking me. I answer every question without pause, using words I have never formulated or thought of.

NO ONE EVER DEFENDS ME NO ONE EVER APPROACHES ME
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and that is the essence of this blog.

I can write creatively when I hand write, but the hard chemicals embedded into my spine and back muslces make writing anything for any length of time impossible. Also the microchips make my arms and hands slightly shake, I can never write legibly. I also get extremely tired after a short while as my nervous system is under non-stop attack while I am struggling to hand write creatively. The silencing is a complete deletion of my social standing, as is the discrediting effects.

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

Wrong impression. Not the "small town" mentality but a global pandemic of racism and gang stalking.

Another false impression offered in the "alt media" is that things like racism and overt discrimination are the purview of little redneck towns in "The South". That is to say, I do not agree with this video. I used it because my internet connection is very slow due to hacking and it was the first video to show up under the subject I posted on the search line in  YouTube. Needless to write, it was a "plant" and themes about WACO that I have heard other and real alternative substantiated news sources from differ greatly from this woman being interviewed by this man in the video/on air. Also the accounts of the Oklahoma City bombing by McVeigh also differ from accounts that have been verified by other sources. I should take more time to sit through and wade through the slow connection speed and the endless planted videos on YouTube to find more appropriate examples of what I am intending to display. I DO NOT AUTHORIZE THIS VIDEO AS ACCURATE OR MY SHARED OPINION. This is merely an example of what I disagree with.

Like the "alternative" Nazi stalkers I mentioned in the last post, the famous media personalities "fighting" for justice (the disgruntles white males who want to become the CEO's but are stuck in poverty or not able to have the chance but believe they are entitled nevertheless).

This misnomer about racism being more visible in the redneck South or the small towns creates an illusion that there is more freedom in the larger cities.

Without having to delve into more depictions of how the "big stars" and big city players are as or even more racist than the people I encountered in The South, when I lived in Gainesville, Florida for three years. The racism is so overt in H-wood it's like an unspoken theme that has erupted in the movement to have more black stars represented at the awards season. For good reason, except that those who are picked and selected are done so for the same reason that alternative but not alternative fascist-controlled, Nazi owned media circus conglomerate and "alternative" tentacles of the said organizations sprout up to counter the fears of the public into a sadative calm that all is well, the problem exists only in the confined little redneck towns and CERTAINLY not in "sophisticated" places like Beverly Hills or Washington, D.C.

A reflection on the fashion and the mannerisms of coached behavior, acting skills, behavioral adaptations to cloaking intentions. Methods of disguise.


"Why" am I under violent assault continuously? (Reader parenthetically asks silently whiile reading my blog).

The assulat on me three days ago has nearly severed my left toe. I was assaulted when the stalking organization had a stream of oil trickle down the steep hillside I must necessarily drive down. On braking near the bottom of the hill, the oil caused the brakes to stop operating and the bike wiped out immediately. The bike fell on my left foot, where stalkers at night broke my left large toe (many years ago, back around 2009). Since then, nighttime stalkers have been severing skin tissue between the webbing of the left large toe and the next toe, and also pushing the toe ever more to the left so by now it's at a near 45-degree angle nearly causing the other toes to shift leftwards as well. My entire left foot is damaged and the bone connecting to the large left toe juts out of the ball of my foot, extending outward.  The people resposible for breaking my left large toe are "ex-pats" living in Rawai, Phuket Thailand. I rented a small room in the house of a Swiss (but "Italian" background) women who had once been the president of the charity (money-laundering Nazi organization) The Lions Club. She told me in the two days I rented a room in her house (intending to stay long-term) that when she first moved to Phuket, she had almost no money. Now after having been president of this "charity" organization she owns a huge tract of land with mansions that she rents to foreigners on their endless long-term vacations (derived from money stolen from victims of the Holocaust, and other bank austerity laundering schemes that finance the endless lifestyles of the criminal Euro-p Nazi stalkers, which is almost all of them I have been around who come to Phuket for endless vacations and paid-for pensions and investments and a Nazi government now controlled by the "investors" in a military coup government. Oh, not able to write that it's a bad thing to do according to Thai law but that is the real situation). There was a German couple who lived in a small house near my rented house in Rawai (or was it Nai Harn? I never get the city lines straight it's almost the same tiny area). A GERMAN COUPLE WHO ARE SCUBA DIVERS by profession. They have lots of reptiles in their house. One of them either had the Thai slaves break my toe or they did it themselves. The Swiss/Italian woman is old and has hip problems so I doubt she could commit the deed herself. However, the German screeps are probably the culprits, and second suspects are the endless Thais surrounding these white supremacist Nazi attackers, like fleas popping off rancid stinnking pig carcases (as they are dead souls inhabiting filthy spoiled meat bodies). My "immature" ranting espectially after all the endless attackks that have gone on for years and years means I can't just write that they are nasty and mean. I get into enlarged hate rants. It's an alleviation of stress because I remain paralyzed for themost part by poisoning people like this also contributed to for my now bedridden and poisoned state. However, for anyone who cares, please destroy these people I just mentioned if possible. I prefer them gone and off this planet. thanks!@ ranting rage.

I really had intended this blog to be a creative writing and money-generating affair in the internet. Due to the drugging that I can't stop as home break-ins remain, and the paralysis rendering me incapable of physical exercise to alleviate stress, and the endless series of attacks and no support system or even one human being (all animals I have loved killed or taken away) and no one approaching me except to exploit and use and attack. I write these ranting rage posts and all is exacerbated by the drugging. I am not able to express myself creatively with these technological attacks on my brain while I sit in front of t he laptop. I am not able to hand write well and for any length of time due to attackks on mynervous system. I thus write and relieve stress by calling these pig ape pieces of shit the crap that they are.  They are all calm and composed because they vented their miserable hate and racism out on me behind the cloak of invisibility this stalking group affords them. I remain like a victim of domestic violence, hysterical and writing about it trying to "reach out" to no one, as no one ever approaches me wth any support and even domestic violence shelters are havens of domestic violence gang stalkers. The stalkers  even have their children attack me in domestic violence shelters and then attack me for trying to stop the children from hitting me. All is protected by these shelters (I had to go to shelters when I was applying for benefits due to poisoning, which I didn't know was happening to me. I was poisoned non-stop in places that are supposed to shelter victims of attacks and thus the system is every single place and there is no haven or safe place)>

THUS I write to relieve the stress. Plus, this group wants me writing about the misery and living in misery and I am being brainwashed/mind controlled into writing every day. The stalking terror group (aka Nazis) want to hear me writing about misery every singlle day, and every single day no one ever comes to me with any support. Years and years. 

So read on, you drooling  perverts.

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This new assault, like the many nighttime destructions of my body I have described for years on Facebook, too weary and under too much hacking interruption (keyboard is always non-operational but barely manageable to write while I have to backspace to correct hacker inserts, this is every or every other word, plus having to pound down on the keyboard as the keys are made stiff by the malware).  When these actors and writers out of H-wood teleport me, after years of being raped, tortured and then discarded by one after the next.. It used to be they would play their game of drugging and then raping me while I was brainwashed into believing it was "love" (drugged up, extremely with their drugs you can't understand how powerful the drugging and tech interface is). But alas, the extremity of the "experiment" now entails that they are globbing on like parasites because of this "baby" contract out on me, so they never stop and of course, I wrote earlier that they acrew more bonuses and promotions the longer they attack and assault me using this "covert" teleportation technology in combination with gang stalking groups which are plentiful to the levels of millions upon millions of gang stalkers in a global system unchecked by any legal authority source. 

I will probably repeat all of the above so many times it will be routine, as it's the most common theme I must try to avert in writing. Trying to get into the more important aspects of this situation.

They attack me with accidents, assaults on my body while I am in this unconscious and incapable sleeping/teleportation state. The stalkers are by proxy abusers for the men and women who, with all their money, simply watch videos of me being tortured and disfigured and scarred up and blemishes and poisons and things smeared on my skin and hair, hair sheered so I look partially balding, etc etc

I am fighting back after a few murder attempts from two men (both Europeans--but I call them Europigs in my Facebook page, and pig apes for all the people involved as their humanity is absolutely gone by now. This is their behavior, I have been forced into a loathing and disgust stage of my view of them, these terrorist teleporting movie stars (the list is long, name the most prominent in Hollywood at this time and most likely you will come across at least one, or a friend of a friend of the teleporting pig apes and Europigs who are really mostly all Nazis and that is no exaggeration)

Thus, three days ago they created this accident when Johnny Rotten, aka the Sex Pistols front singer teleported me to inquire about my personal healing modalities. Asleep, teleported and under hypnosis after recurrent annual/daily/non-stop drugging with mind control drugs infused into skin patches or my food from stalkers I can't get out of my room (another long story, have I written about it yesterday and posted or tried to post about it with hacking interference?). I realized that my hypothesis I intuited years ago, after doing a bit of study on the subject of the murder of Nancy Spungen, and how Sid Vicious appeared to be drugged up and under "suicide" programming. This was at a period of my life when I started to assess how or which celebriities who were truly "alternative" have since been wiped out by what could be assassinations by the same source that has tried to murder me, and others I have known who were alternative and true rebels.

So many are dead who once opposed this onslaught of genocidal Nazi culture and the ensuing "dumbing down" of the media. Entertainment is a mind-numbing instead of revigorating experience. Filled with death and cruelty and rape and pornography as methods of mind control.

I studied the Sex Pistols debacle and my intuitive assessment after watching the videos on Youtube about Sid & Nancy, watching the Hollywood version of the same, which was absolutely a personality character assassination of the couple based on prejudice (i.e. as the couple kisses in the film, trash descends like rain around them apparently falling out of the sky, as a truly desultry romantic connotation of filth and trash and dirt that these characters are suppoosed to represent, the connotations are indelible).

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I suspected that Mr Rotten himself may have been one of the perpetrators of a dual murder and then mind control suicide programming stint. If not him, then people near him. That was my suspicion and drugged up from mind control drugs insinuation. I wrote in the comment section of a mr rotten youtube video that I wondered if he was responsible for the murder(s). He replied that I am "crazy", which is the most common accusation leveled at MK ULTRA and mind control and gang stalking victims. Truly discredited. That also is the case for many a truly anti-authoritarian media personality of the past (they no longer exist in mainstream media). Now that the Vietnam War has stopped compulsory and mandatory military enlistment (aka The Draft) the pigs I mean the kids of America only wanna party and don't want to be worried by rebellion against a system which allows subordination and blacks and poors and others to have to defend the country while they shout and sing punk songs about how they are rebelling (for a short while) against mommy and daddy and then going off to get a good job and invest and get rich and live in places like Thailand where they can get "laid" almost for free on vacation.

A very cyncial paragraph above. Please excuse that I am human and need to vent the anger at what I have experienced from the "Left Wing" white (and black and all other races) stalkers who are just rapists and murdering bigots carrying out a false "liberal" media circus entertainment ritualistic nullification of anything truly "subversive" threatening their comfort or security.

I now fight as much as I can against the endless tirade of rapist-after-rapist teleporting, then getting rewarded and promoted for trying to force a drugged up reaction of drug-induced/technologicallly induced "love" out of me (I am also of course perpetually lied to) and then after they suck out my energy, then they ABUSE and torture me. When I react in rage, they get even more promotions.

Thus, with this mind reading technology---SNYTHETIC TELEPATHY, MICROCHIP IMPLANTS, VOICE-TO-SKULL TECHNOLOGY--I merely "thought" to myself that this punkster famous person is being drugged and poisoned to death.  Almost immediately he teleported me and asked me for all the healing secrets I had to privately, with all finances blocked, ability to pay for any medical service blocked and denied with stalker "accidents" which could have maimed or killed me abounding for years and years---I told him a few very good pieces of advice which I had to suffer and nearly die to figure out by myself (while under non-stop torture from pig ape rapist after rapist cloaked in the "secrecy" of teleportation and the gang stalking Nazi network).

The attitude of mr rotten afterwards was of ENTITLEMENT and that it was his due to just suck out, drain and take out of demand, without a single iota of gratitude expressed afterwards.

When I awoke, and realized what had happened, I thought that he was exactly just like the Nazi Danish man who had murdered his bandmate in a frenzy of a power struggle, just as he was getting booted out of the band due to internal power struggles. Nazi bigots without an easy Jewish or minorrity target (this all happened long ago before the onslaught of immigration from damaged countries with their waves of brown-skinned and devestated Syrian and other darker "minorities" easily targeted by white supremacists.  The similarities between the two was more pronounced because they were both attacking me in all the various modalities of gang stalking, teleportation and all the other internet and various means literally on the same day. The extreme Right and ostensibly the Left blending in one system, all operating together in the same media complex and both attacking me with vicious violence, hate and negativity simultaneously was such a synchronistic moment that I had to forumlate an idea for a short story about both of them. The next day I was teleported to  mr rotten who then threatened me, "I'm warning you" in a tone that implied serious threat (as I surmised earlier, I think he may have been responsible for the murder of Nancy Spungen) and I could feel the real danger from this man, who appears so glib and jolly but is a deadly personality and much worse than Trump in terms of represeed hostility and violence. While Trump may be able to order the deaths of people using the military, the rotten mr is ready to spring at a moment's notice and undoubtedly has some experience in the matter. This only confirmed my hypothetical view that the murder of Nancy was indeed theoretically connected to the power struggle of this "punk is dead" sell out posturing poseur. Now he's in Hollywood with the billionaires and oh I'm sure he can't wait to get more mansions and deals and still playing the compassionate "liberal" all the while.

I too have a short fuse, but my instantaneous rage occurs rationally, as in stemming out of never ending torture going on and on to this very moment for decades,  when it comes to men approaching me to exploit in this system. Immediately after he threatened me I began screaming, "Die pig!" at him.

The next day, upon waking and going out to buy food, the "accident" happened. My left toe, which I described above, is now pointing even more dangerously to the left and is in very bad shape, to the point that I require surgery. Of course, the pigs I mean the stalking organization has blocked each and every avenue of financial solvency for me, I live on the edge of homelessness every single day. All attempts to earn money result in a waste of time, if I try to earn any money online. If I try to work in a "normal" work setting, many of the men in these work places try to drug and rape me (and then spread the word around, the stalker bosses who hire me in the first place to destroy my credibility).

I am constantly fighting one of them after the next. In the last two weeks there have been three "new" white males, all famous in one way or another, all of them putting out public statements, shows, YouTube presentations, tv shows about how they are defending "liberal" values (or values against encroachment  of an overarching authoritarian system).

Do I need to express how hypocritical that is? Of course, they mean for white males and the violence, abuse, absolute destruction of all and I mean ALL HUMAN RIGHTS obliterated for me is, for all the stalkers and the teleporting agents, the black men and women now "fighting against racism" and the women fighting against rape culture--they act and behave as if my fight is a crime. That by fighting against their bigot disguised white Nazi male husbands and buddies in this system, who help in promoting them because they too are faker than anyone outside this system could imagine (hard to imagine but the lies are so exaggerated in comparison with what they are like in private when they are handed technology to vent their torture fantsies upon someone else, and for profit?!!! And for promotion into highest spheres of their snake oil trade? And oh, the hormonal rush the PLEASURE for them too and beauty enhancement as well. How people blossom out of the power of torturing someone else!

And thus, my foot is now completely disfigured, I need surgery and I can't even afford food I need to eat well and healthy. They have blocked all that.

I thus reacted in rage to this rotten creep who is undoubtedly now getting his new promotion for attacking and disfiguring me like this.

I wanted to add something very pertinant as well: a few years ago I published a video of this rotten Johnny when he did a tour of London on a bus. His act of performing the outcast black sheep, fighting in anarchist style against the English bombardment of modern architecture and the imposition of the "American" beauroocratic style on English/London life and landscape. How he has been blacklisted by the US Embassy. Oh, the disenfranchised and discriminated-against liberal punk rocker, the performance appeared so genuine and I could feel this sense of relief that not all the anti-authoritarian people have been killed off and some are still kicking it in the media, as some kind of relief from the hype of the glossy charity porno mainstream starz.

Alas. The same game I bought into. That is why his first attempt to scam information out of me worked so well for one single time. I did not know him, essentially that was why the hypnosis and teleportation worked ONE SINGLE TIME while I was asleep, teleported, drugged up, under duress, and then sucked dry for  information and then discarded to be tortured by his nearly identical opposite twin Nazi anti-Semitic partner in this teleportation torture and rape situation that has forced me to write endlessly for years about and to which no one ever responds with protection.

I still want to write a short story on this subject. I realize that in front of this computer, and indeed all computers, I am affected by some kind of tech which absolutely skews my brainwaves and ability to focus and write in the style I really am capable of.

I am trying to convey the more universal scam of the media when "alternative" people are presented. It is more acute when they play the downtrodden outcast who is fighting against oppression. Very similar to exactly what I myself am doing right now!  When the attacks are real and unjustified as the attacks are towards me (I have not harmed anyone I just do my best and compete and win very often when not so imposed upon, and that, to this group, is enough rationale to have me destroyed/murdered/raped and then discredited afterwards when I have to vent the frustration and stress and am physically handicapped by poisoning and thus I write and am not able to formulate thoughts and it all comes pouring out with their subliminals pouring out as well. A full discrediting effect.

When a wanna be rich and famous type puts out their performances of being the "under dog"--such an oft-used plot device in H-wood movies: and how they are applauded especially when they are white males fighting women ("bitches") and minorities "rapists like Weinstein" by the white males and women notably who have their OWN production companies they want to see replacing that of the "Jews" in Hollywood.

Jewish Nancy of the Sex Pistols was murdered. I believe it was SHE who was the real impetus of the real revolutionary thought of that band.

Riding on the crest of that wave for over 40 years now. I have to be the one and only person able to try to express what violent assumption of power this media personality operates behind? Is there no one else alive to try to describe the deed who isn't silenced or dead by now?

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After walking away from the laptop I realized that I had been blocked by mind control tech from writing about a point I wanted to get out. Here I am again revising. My brain retains the information and then after the bombardment of the tech is not within such immediate range (blasting into my brain while I sit at these laptops or computers in all settings; internet cafes, etc. I am under non-stop surveillance and there is no place I can go which isn't prepared for some kind of attack or assault, in all locations, global.

When I was threatened to not publish a short story about the comparison of the Right and Left (but ultimately one-sided white male power structure aka Nazism in this modern era) musicians--as I was in this nearly unconscious state of teleportation, and my reactions to their endless threats, rape, assaults (slapping, hitting, punching, rape, homeless skits because of the financial straits this group has rendered me into and other types of sexual assault by people I don't know, all similar to "dreams" in this nascent unconscious "MK ULTRA alter state" while teleported and drugged up. My reactions to being threatened by now are of immediate rage and violence since these "men" have tried to poison me to death, raped me while I was being murdered (by them and their stalking crews under their supervision) as I needed to not have more poison pumped into my body. Years of daily 24 hour torture, and yet another new white male attacking me within the space of two week period and my immediate reaction to him was, "Die PIG!". This is a foreigner trying to impose a silencing restriction on Freedom of Speech, in a situation of absolute encroachment of all human rights, enforced by a fascist, Totalitarian Nazi system (with a slew of Communists as well and other factions of this group, all with various names and symbols but all ultimately belonging to one group, according to regional variations and assimilating their particular cultures into this one huge mainframe paradigm.

There is more I can write, but hackers are forcing me to have to backspace to correct their input while i am literally pounding down on keys while attacks on my brain make memory a thing I can't access. Thoughts are wiped out and all I can do is stop at this point and wait until I can access my thoughts once again (that means getting up and stop writing and even turn off the computer and it all comes back like a rush).

Video of Russian hacker that was blocked from my last post



The format of the "add YouTube" link was completely different as was the format of my very last blog post hacked, altered and the format absolutely different from a fresh, clean page (this page). The video appeared immediately upon a new search on a clean (ostensibly, unhacked) page.

here it is. Two minutes explanation.



HACKERS ATTACK MY GRAMMAR AND CONTENT AFTER I PUBLISH.

I am forced to use WiFi although I asked the landlord to install a private line. Due to economic privation I do not have the choice to try to have any kind of secure internet connection.

This video is a very quick and easy snapshot of the complexity of hacking. Within any secure private connection (as mine is supposed to be, but of course it's not the laptop can be altered so what should be a private and secured line is actually part of a huge circuit controlled by WiFi). I want to insert a YouTube video and as I wrote yesterday, the hackers are blocking the video and another video in another language is coming up when I try to upload this video.



Last night I posted the entries regarding Kamala Harris, gun control commentary (which was a demonstration of the blankness of how my brain is under attack and can't formlate my extensive capabilities of composition).  Just now I had to reword this first sentence, seeing that the mind control blanks out my memory whilst I am typing/writing. Repeats of concepts and words is a common when the attacks on my brain are aimed into my cerabral cortex and other aspects of the brain-mapping this entails from this group.

I also yesterday included a series of "keywords" at the top of the blog page. This is because I think Google analytics would or might pick up on the terms so any or more or some people in the cyber-universe might have access to my site should itt be available to the public and not closed off by hackers. I probably have zero chance to publish my wriing and have it visible for any real public viewership. The hackers repeated certain words I had written three times within the context of my list. They emphasized terror when I had written it once, in the published page I surveyed this morning, the word "terror" had been hacked into and published three times. Etc etc...

ALSO PLEASE NOTE THAT HACKERS CHANGE MY GRAMMAR AFTER I PUBLISH. They delete commas, periods, change capital letters at the beginning of sentences into small letters. This list goes on. They change words to change and alter the context of a sentence. 

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I surveyed what I had written and the format was fine. This morning, upon opening the blog, the format has been turned into huge gaps and spaces between paragraphs, words inserted (like the word "so" at the beginning of sentences, which I did not include or add or if I did, I was extremely drugged up from the poisoning).  Incorrect grammar had replaced what I had typed correctly. This type of attack is a non-stop recurrance of any and everything I type or write and publish and post.

I wanted to write short stories about the foul actors, musicians and writer/directors teleporting, assaulting, raping, torturing and then sucking ideas out of me and I am still endlessly cleaning up the filth the stalkers spray in my room, fighting to heal my body (now they are breaking my left large toe again, after daily cutting into the web of skin between the large toe and the second toe--every single day for years this has been going on to destroy the toe--which is now so bent to the left my other toes are shifting). I was put into another accident three days ago and the injury to my toe has resulted in further slippage of the toe into the other smaller toes. The cutting of the skin (to the bone) daily has resulted in blood loss so the area is extremely vulnerable. Then the endless accidents these repulsive famous media whores create when I fight against them, as I just did with rotten Johnn of the defunct Sex Pistols, a most hideously fake and repugnant lying and violent personality. I wanted to write a short story about him, and only thought about the concept. He teleported me and threatened me with very serious intent. I had thought he had Nancy Spungen murdered as a form of power take-over after the band was going to split up. I wrote a post regarding this in a comment on this foul nasty rotten creep's YouTube video many, many years ago. He responded that I am "crazy". I know that the same "mind control" torture system was in full operation back in 1970's and this sick creep knew exactly what he was doing when Sid Vicious was "suicided". I have been forced into extreme drugging and "suicide programming" when I was absolutely drugged up in a way that would require a complete artistic rendering and synthesis into an almost psychedelic impression of what the unreality is and was for me (and still is, to some extent).

I wrote about this on Facebook, and I see that the format changes to a blank white page when I copy and paste what I had written on Facebook. I do not like this effect.
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All that I had wanted to write in this post has not appeared, my brain is under attack while I type and I believe it is due to some technology embedded into the computer/laptop system itself and being "beamed" into my brain while I sit directly in front of this contraption. 
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These revolting creeps who teleport me, famous in the media and around the world, political leaders and personalities on all sides of the political spectrum (in my case, I am surrounded by the fake "liberal" opposition to the supposed "right wing" conservativism of the "Republicans". It's all a complete farce and spectacle, this charade. Thus, the sick creeps teleporting me, who are smug and smiling and gloating about having carte blanche to teleport, torture, rape and have millions of goon squad death squad (mostly minority brown/black skinned people vying to get promotions into the white power structure--which includes to a great extent the black entertainers and the few black politicians who exist in this media domain).

They are so confident that nothing but rewards and promotions will acrew from the longevity of their sustsained attacks upon me. Some of them go on for years and years attacking me and then stealing ideas after the torture and drugging "forces" a reaction out of me, where I philosophize as I do in all these posts about how their modus operandi for media psy-ops operates. The "liberal" rapists, bigots, black Nazis are even more smug about the White ones,.....almost but not quite. As they are supposed to represent the "Left Wing" side of the one-sided Nazi Order in the media, they torture me endlessly in a succession of one after the next in order to get power points (like it's a game and they also acrew points in some promotional ladder pyramid scheme if they continue to torture me for years and years with the "covert"--meaning NO ONE WILL COME FORWARD TO DEFEND THE TARGET BUT SEEMINGLY EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT IT AS EVERYONE AROUND ME PARTICIPATES AND IT EXTENDS IN THIS SYSTEM UP TO THE US PRESIDENTS--in a row, one after the next--and the SMUG attitude they all have, which I just experienced with this rotten nasty English blonde-haired murdering bigot bastard (using terms he might use) the smug sauntering type of posture he wore for this private photo-op into higher power in the Nazi media GmbH corporation--as I expect that this vile creep is now going to get his own fake "alternative" or "liberal" tv show or some "prize" like that. This is the typical never-ending scenario that I have witnessed for years while this technology is being coveted by people around the world and the perpetrators are being put into highest positions.

Therefore, even in this election period, the smug posturing of the rapists, attackers and their wives, children and cohorts means that when or if Joe Biden comes to power, not much is going to change except the faces in the media circus news output. Not much when it comes to State-sponsored terrorism that this contract out on me entails, with MK ULTRA torture, "mind control" poisoning and drugging and torment, rape and violence while TELEPORTED on a nightly basis, absolute comatose physical state while being teleported as my body (where I am actually sleeping, my body is literally splitt in twain in some etherial splitting but I remain an inert, unconscious body in the prime state where I "live", and then I am physically present in some other area but with extremely limited sensations and abilities to comprehend certain aspects. I do not know if this limitationn is due to the technological interference with my brain, or an effect of the teleportation and the physics of my body being so manipulated into two beings in two locations --simultaneously. I do know this is how the technology operates as my cat (who has been stolen and is being used as a kind of blackmail to induce me to, when I ever heal, have a "baby" with one of the rapists, who will thhen supposedly return my beloved cat to me once they obtain this baby which will bring some kind of huge bonus or promotion to them. I doubt they will do more than murder me once they obtain this baby.

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I am unable to focus and write what I had intended. When I hand write the words come out at a much higher level of creative conception, but the physical limitations I have with hard chemicals embedded in my back--and yes, it requires back muscles to hand write, the interlacing of neurons and sinews requires a bit of the old skeletal muscle structure---and it actuallly hurts to sit up. I need a dictation phone thing, perhaps that might help. Here in Phuket I have never seen a store, electonic or otherwise, that carries such devices. Any online order is a huge risk for me as all electronics are broken and manipulated to have all kinds of tracking and brainwave afffecting technology. I suspect I have a microchip implant in my brain which these creeps can "tweak" when they want me to be silenced or made inarticulate as a form of discrediting.

Monday, June 29, 2020

2nd Amendment rights and false diagnoses by gang stalking personnel preventing gun purchases.

This is yet another post derived from a sporadic response to a video I watched with interview of Kamala Harris. I like her personality but this video shook me out of the dreamy hope that she would represent something anti-bigot anti-white male anti-gang stalking. These are just by-words for the concepts and the huge enormity of the situation is far larger than this mere few paragraphs on the subject. -----
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I do not support assault weapons in the hands of any consumer on the market, black or otherwise.
However, when I listen to this lecture by KH, I feel less certain of her as VP than I posted yesterday or 2 dayz ago
I realize I am uniformed in many ways due to not having a computer or much access to information for over a year. Despite all that, always beleagured by the stalking situation and fighting against it and sick and bedridden.
I think she would have too heavy an Executive Order hand in matters she is determined to attain.
For example, as a target, I have many discrediting factors on my record and none of it has anything to do with any single thing I have ever done or not done. All was determined when I applied for benefits due to the poisoning, and a lot of nastiness was afffixed to me by "stalkers" who did assessments of me (this is NOT an excuse for what has been or not been determined by so-called "experts").Due to the stalking situation, I may not qualify under any background check and could not purchase any gun.
My life is threatened on a daily and continuous basis and yet I would be denied any access to gun ownership should I need to defend myself I would be ineligible (if I could afford a gun, that is due to the blacklisting and economic sabotage)
Kamala harris is too harsh and unflexible in her emotive stance (verging on hysteria) in this video on gun control; and the tremor in her voice is a bit too extremist and unrelenting for my (personal) sense of calm or security when listening to her impassioned lecture. This is a performance on a stage to sell an emotional appeal that I think is the product of coaching by her advertising agents.
The 2nd Amendment should alllow citizens to defend themselves should enemies or the GOVERNMENT pose a threat to life and liberty. That definitely applies to me as a target and I should, according to the laws of my citizenship, be allowed to defend myself (certainly when stalking groups are "allowed" to poison and try to kill me in car accident after acciedent to cripple or damage my body, just as examples of the daily threat I am forced into by this sick and disgusting group of gang stalkers--most or all of you hacking into this page and reading this.
I should have the means to defend myself against your ugliness and sickness, you filth reading my posts and hacking and trying to suck out information, any energetic thing you can steal from me with full assent from the government and "society".
With these kinds of restrictions people who are targeted would further be disenfranchised and discriminated against. The culprits are fully "allowed" to have guns to maim and kill and all condoned by the gang stalking groups which follow the creed of the Constitution but conform to every unConstitutional deed possible and without end.
I am not sure I would want the beautiful MS Kamala Harris to be VP. It's very difficult to tell from outer appearance in photo-ops who or what is most qualified. I aml, like so many , sucked into the endless hype vortex called "hope" and pulled into believing that something that has been manufactured as a media construct is actually a redeemable and righteous leader.
All the fodder input by the media and I want to believe that a black woman can actually not be anything but concerned about human rights: it's a fallacy I think and KNOW by now what is most important is learning about how and what a person says and does in many settings and situations.
Most telling is when a person is stalking or more accurate: when they teleport you, oh "boy" oh boy oh boy you can see what a piece of shit the person really is.....
nasty
I would be exempt from purchasing a gun legally I think after all the stalking discrediting of me and my attempts to find legal protection and then the "system" turning my appeals into incriminations against my character. Thus, although I have never attempted to buy a gun, I might have to face being rejected due to the "system" putting false labels on me (and just doing that, not with any real or medical or LEGAL justification).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNzur_RQe4k


Rant #2 (posted on Facebook today after being traumatized by the daily break-in by stalkers and the result).

The stalkers broke through my flimsy cabinet "security" system last night. Months of harming my body so badly from pounding in screw hooks to plastic-coated horrible, cheap and nasty faux "wood" paneling which covers the stalking portals designed to appear as cabinet walls inside cabinet spaces. The mechanical arms they push through the already multi-nailed down edges and middle parts of the huge panels, the outside of the doors also locked tight with hooks (and rope/pvc string apparatuses I created) except for ONE single area which I can't finish due to the detox which leaves me bedridden as hard poisons rip out flesh and flow through my body for elimination (carrying poisons and toxins petrifying for decades in hard internal shell casing that is latched into my skeleton.
One single area I could not finish. For days I have been inert and staring nearly comatose in front of the laptop screen because I simply cannot do any more than this after more than TWO YEARS of fighting perpetually, day after day, bedridden after they break in and put my hips and spine out of place and continuously drug me to the point of paralysis and a comatose waking zombie state
One space has only pvc string and something leaning against the open cuboard door area. It is so extremely hard to pound anything into this fake wood plastic stuff--I tried to pound in nails because there is a tiny space between the edge of the door and the hinge area, leaving enough space (one milimeter space ) for a mechanical arm to get through. As I type this the hacking interruption is continuous I have to backspace to correct inserts almost every word
I had to hand wash piles of clothing sprayed wiith horrific stinking fluids--akin to rotten meat or something as foul as that--continuously sprayed on everything in my room (furniture, curtains, clothing, sheets, blankets, inside drawers, everywhere all the time--every day they can get in, every moment they can get in, years and years wiithout end of this same thing going on and on with me perpetually cleaning when able to get out of bed).
they then call me "crazy" when I react to both drugging and this unending attack system (the above description is one tiny facet of a huge endless 360 circumference attack system, 24/7 global
ha ha, people are so thrilled and they get away wtih it NO ONE EVER HELPS THE TARGETS they just slowly die horrible deaths designed to appear as natural diseases and fungus toxic shock and cancer adn etc etc
clothing that was clean and smelled great yesterday now that I had to hand wash yesterday, a huge pile of it, and the pile of stinking clothing from these attacks never ends-it's like an endless pile of clotthing as soon as I clean one batch there are endless handfuls of more clothing sprayed wiith this stuff--if I manage to get them out for a day or two with my endless pounding and nailing in screws and tying them to every single edge and corner and middle space of the panels (which doesn't work, they have created a very flimsy fake sort of "wood" plastic covering which they can easily bed and insert their mechanical arms through--the back area is affixed like hard wood and, unlike most of the paneling in the very middle of the huge panels, is so solid you can't budge it. But in the middle it's like flimsy and you can knock on it and it resounds like a hollow little drum. The stalkers put some hard wood with this very malleable extremely thin fake plastic-coated wood covering, and I believe they just fasten some latch (I have heard latches closing with a click in the middle of the night as objects are inserted into the spaces --objects like insects for example and then the horrific stinking sprays on clothing and they tear and break things in the room with these arms and open the doors as people get in to destroy my body and slowly murder me in this fashion
One tiny little area was not sealed off because i simply have not the strength or muscles any longer to continuously harm my body in poudning in and screwing in hooks into extremely hard panels both on the interior and exterior of these panels lining both sides of the walls
I tried to pound in tiny nails into the open cracks of the hinge area where the doors of the cabinets open and need space to revolve to open the door. I pasted some paper and nailed in tiny nails to secure the paper/decoration stuff? so the spaces would not be penetrable. The nails literally would not go into the wood and bent and then flew out of my hand because the tip of the nails were bent nearly 180 and absolutely destroyed from just trying to pound a nail into the surface of these horrible and ugly nasty panels (which the stalkers smear grease and stains into after I clean up from theiir last attacks)
once I leave this studiok, which is inevitable if I want to have food to eat or water---they go in and make a mess, and then I return and spend over one hour just fighting to tye and make secure the room again (it takes me on average over two hours prior to leaving the room to clean what is stinking and the mess they make with these mechanical arms--I am so endlessly busy I never have time to work on how I look, what I am wearing, I'm so exhausted I spend all my time all my life cleaning up this stinking mess because I have to seal the studio patio doors at night and also tie two sets of bicycle locks (they just broke one I just bought and now i have to jimmy-rig it just to try to close it--they pull out the lock from the casing and then reinsert it so it moves and I can't get the lock closed and have to pull and maneuver just to get it closed. I threw out one that worked last week and this lock worked perfectly until this morning, when the floor is filthy from dirt sprinkled everywhere. The covering I put over the planks of the cheap and ugly fake wood flooring are slashed by now thousands of times and sprinkled with grime and filth in every spot they slash into so it's literally ripped up and sticking up all over the fllor. I am detoxifying nearly to my bohne structure by now from over NINE YEARS of detoxing from poisons this group put in my body all my life
and I just wrote of some sick and nasty media clown personality who tried to have me seriously injured after trying to suck out my health and healing remedies, which none of his Nazi bigot racist buddies ever helped me with financily as they stole and broke all my equipment and my body and torturedf me to obtain as much information out of me as possible because they are unorignial fake "Liberal" Nazi media constructs who have been torturing me for years, or longer,to steal ideas and then destroy me and my life and home and everything I have worked for
some new bigot creep has joined into the by now over 30 actors and directors and singers and "musicians" (crap music) the latest is known for his supposed alternative stance due to 40 years ago his partners (who are now dead, the really alternative ones) actually puttting out the "subversive" concepts and this screaming nasty clown singing about it and then eliminating his competition
and now used as a symbol for this, using the same protocols as the rest of the bigot KKK Nazis and black Nazis and Feminist Nazis and Jewish Nazis and Latino Nazis and "alternative" Nazis and MIllenniual Nazis and Communist murdering bigot liars and genocidal factions abounding
asking me for my healing remedies which I had to discover with no money, almost no money, by myself while his buddies he is parrtying with right now were having me repoisoned, tortured, raped, disfigured myimmune system breaking down from stress, etc etc asking how he can heal his bloated body while now, yet another one this horrrid nasty persoonality has participated and if he was the person giving the orders for the last possibly fatal accident (as the bottom of the hill is a heavy and dangerous traffic zone. Both sides of this entrance into the condominium is hidden by two very high walls so you can't see if cars are coming at the bottom of the hill--and vice-versa, the cars can't see people approaching the bottom of the hill. I could have fallen into traffic and been hit and killed.
this is what this bloated nasty pop musican ("alternative" ) person ordered, or his Nazi partner who makes no hidden secret of his Nazi affiliation (for publicitty purposes to get into the entertainment milleau in H-wood, he's now "reformed" and now a compassionate YouTube personality who wanna wants so badly to get into the mainstream American Hollywood scene--as they all do, nearly drooling
and vicious deadly atttacks on me and then responding with absolutely Nazi violence is a huge way these p-a's are and have been using to get promoted by demonstrating how they will absolutely destroy other people using this technology, but more importantly, by conforming to the Nazi genocidal policies--in order to be put in higher ranking and positions in both poltitics, in the media, and in general in every facet of society (around the world this system has already been absolutely established and the murders and genocides have been taking place for longer than the onslaught of the Nazis in Europe back 80 years ago).
So, I'm writing this again, once again after spraying more bleach on clothing that smelled like perfume yesterday--this morning waking up to cuts in my arm, my hair stinking and greasy and hair cut out of the back of my head (again, years of this now going on and on, but at slow, incremental stages so all appears "natural" )--cuts and bruises in my legs, etc etc all the years of me describing all of this WITH NOT A SINGLE RESPONSE OF SUPPORT exdept for maybe a few people who do a little bit and then receded into the security of doing nothing but assuring themselves that they are not total complacent supporters of what they espouse publically they are against (if they can even do that)
which means most of you who are reading this and ascertaining what is going on and "care" but just can't do anything
so I am writing this in this seeming futile state after just fighting alone for years to get anyone to get me into a safe place to live where this shit is not going on and on and on and these pig ape clowns are not allowed to be handed these technologies and have access to the shit pig parasites doing the street level attacks (most "normal" civilians)
Many of them reading my posts.
My brain is under attack and I am backspacing non-stop to correct the hacker inserts.

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This most recent car attack/potential murder situation/"accident" (with oil drizzled upon the road descending to the bottom of the hill, in a tiny stream on a hot, sunny day). The motorbike of course sliding out from under me in the necessary braking at the bottom of the hill, breaking the rear view mirror and also slight injury to my foot. the perpetrator now is enjoying his pig promotion and laughing with his Nazi wife and Nazi buddies while spouting off about how he cares about justice in society for the media circus he has undeservedly obtained from eliminating his competition and assuming the mantle, alone, for being the sole originator of the punk movement (while sorta humbly doing so). NOT humble in a private session with teleportation, but demanding and obnoxious and bullying and violent (and then either he, or the Nazi out of Denmark, or one of the 30 or more actors who have already trie dto have me killed in accident after accident after torturing me to obtain ideas for their mainstream personalities turned media sensations of "feminist" ideology turned into Disney movies and stuff like that--with condescension asking for information with no gratitude expressed whatsoever--while I was sleeping, under hypnosis, and unaware of his real personality or intention. Only upon waking and re-assessing the situation could I fathom how callously nasty he really is. the next day I thought, only CONCEIVED of the idea of a story which I can't begin to write--so sick from being drugged up and detoxifying and pounding in screws into impossibly plastic surfaces (two hooks to secure one spot--tying with all strength rope and fastening also takes great back muscke strength which I do not have because every day poisons are loosening and slowly ripping out of my back and muscles and sinews and joints so I am literally losing muscles every day and then harming my body by continuously screwing and pounding in these hooks to try to stop disfigurement, rape, stinking fungus inserted into my hair, vagina and food and poisoned and drugged into paralysis and then tortured and emotionally attacked so I write and write and then detail all the concepts I have studied about feminsm, and politics, so meaningless haters who steal and rob from the real creators can be paid in millions for the farces that are created around them to deceive the public into hoping that "change" is going to finally happen. The "change" appears to only strength the cultprits' position and leaves the viewers and consumers in a hazy fog of incapacity emotinoally and intellectually as they follow and "believe" that they are in trusted and good hands. Or they are secure in knowing that the lies are continuously being covered over by the media as they continue in their death squad hate plans, which continue unimpeded by any government source or legal agency around the world. And thus, hounded by them, I write these posts about the tortures they are doing. They are still being handed all access to attacking me, but I wriite becausea supposedly the "young" are going to set things straight and the "old" are going to fight losing their security--or some such set of excusees to get people to fight in the streets for the inaction of the more financially secure--or something like that, really I'm under all kinds of attack while I write this very post so it's nearlly impossible for me to get anything out. As I elaborate upon every time I write so this should come as nothing new to anybody familiar with my endless posts about people never doing anything to stop this crime against me. Oh yes, under these "mind control" attacks I diverted from my point: I was disgusted by yet another whorewood creep and so I thought of a story, he with his group of synthetic telepathy and voice-to-skull technicians was able to simply "listen" to my thought structure (oh yes, there's also microwave hearing technology)--and theatened me the next day upon teleporting me--about not publishing or writing about his hate and negativity and lies and what I saw was a mild form of a more repugnant personality endlessly put in the light of being this witty English punk rocker who has lots of jokes and is witty and CARES so much about humanity (as long as it's white males and their Nazi blonde Nazi women who aren't going to have to work or fight for anything but want to comfortably create some "art" and not have to fight or get dirty and work like a pleb but have an artistic life --that's his "set" and I have been involved with people like this, have been myself, so it's no surprise to me. However, he tried to have me killed or someone near him did it for him because I called him a pig and began fighhting with him. In the last three weeks there have been THREE NEW WHITE MALES attacking me, all famous in one way or another (some more nefarious for their fame than others). All now have profuse kindly anti-authoritarian advice and commentary to make. All have hit, punched, threatened to kill me for saying NO and making jokes about them and screaming at them to get off me and that is the result. Instead of flying locusts surrounding me, it's like a series of nasty flying pigs all flying at me in succession for the last three weeks. They continue to put their crap into my body and home and into my internet, all now are part of the main H-wood group and undoubtedly have been handed investments and business opportunities as a result of this kind of violence directed at me.I don't want to write their names but they are hacking in anyway. So is their group which is by now over 30 famous actors, they sit in row after row staring as one pig after the next assaults me as I yell and fight back.

Ongoing physical mutilation terrorist report: the slashing under my fingernails and cuticles so that elevated bloodied swelling continues, the fingernails and fingers swollen, cuticles completely severed-off my toes and fingers, in addition to poisons put on my toenails to harden the nails into coarse, hard plastic texture never-growing deformed twisted and blackened. The mechanical arms are constantly going underneath all the layers of protection I wear every night also into my scalp to make hair fall out--falling out in clumps once more so the little bit left on my scalp is mostly gone.//While ugly shitalina the filth torture prostituted Nazi bigot of Whorewood with the German ape scumbag rapist her ally in utter genocidal violence, promoted by Trump and the Nazi 4th Reich and Gotti dynasty mafia with Stallone, et al (gmbh ltd English monarchy ltd) and once the slash under my skin they inject poisons, or foreign substances or materials so the "mind control "terror regime can continue for HOURS upon my waking from hate skits forced into my sleep state while being teleported, while they are slashing into my body and my consciousness is teleported outside of my "prime" body.//Every day dirty ugly shitalina has her rape dirty foul "men" and herself laugh about my breasts while I am getting undressed--the poisons she laughed about having her dirty nazi scum and brown and black and jewish minions pour into my body every day for the past 15 years, with my family, neighbors, and the 4th reich death squads having done this for decades priorr to this filth creep (but her dirty Nazi daddy was involved in this contract out on me back as early as 1974 or 1975, probably 1974 when my step-father the highly skilled poet writer professor was involved with the author of Deliverance in a poets seminar in Atlanta and returned extremely embittered, and he had to change his priorities of writing he then partnered with one of the English terrorists back in 1987, in London when I went there for a summer post graduation of college--and this man is intimately connected to the English royalty as a painter and his wife is the daughter of the director of Deliverance--partnering with dirty shitalina and pit ape pitt for over 15 years but ordering my family's targeting, my poisoning (which did begin before they got their filthy leeching apparatus sucking apparatus onto my life for their endless promotions) I was sent to live across the street from this English bigot back in 1987 in the organized hate structure, and my step-father was also involved in this orchestrated plot for his own promotion. But beyond all the greed and sleaze of this group including my own family, I must state that this ugly dirty whore has looked at least 20 years youjnger while I look 30 years older from the parasitic leeching off my energy, having dirty men rape and beat me as she watches on smiling and laughing along with dirty foul shit ape pig pitt and ther est of the apes and scum of Whorewood and Congress. The joke is that my breasts are not plastic surgery like ugly shitalina's and the jokes are endless after abuse death trheats this German ape endlessly punching my head and face, getting the crap of the Steven Tyler group connected to Stallone's Italian--all with English Italian French and German fascist Nazis rushing to join into collaboration of their take-over of Whorewood with dirty u gly stupid shitalina and pig ape pitt put endlessly into the Oscars every year, as they have been taking turns since their clutching onto my life for this contract back around 2014, taking the tech from Depp and putting Musk into power along with T-rump. The rest is " history" but you all keep silencing this situation so it's more death squad censorship.

  I put compression socks on my hands on top of layers of materials so my hands feel squeezed into crumpled shapes upon waking/. The ape shi...