Wednesday, July 1, 2020

Wrriting on Facebook to try to get the hacker audience to respond to another plea for assistance

This is partially explained in the copied and pasted post below. I had really intended this blog to be a short story/fictional account of the situation and to make it a form of literary consumption. Instead my brain is blanked out by the microchipping or the attacks and I am stuck writing in a very prosaic and repetitive style about "compplaints" about torture and violence directed at me. My brain is under very strong and horrible attack from I believe some technological component embedded into this laptop.

I post this because it has relevance to the modus operandi of the stalking organization and how I have to fight alone and endlessly damage my hands and body to clean while the stalkers also smear damaging chemicals on my skin every night when they break in through the panels of the walls with tiny, milimeter in diameter mechanical arms and wreak havoc and this also allows the freont door to be opened from inside and the stalkers come in and insert fungus into my body and  hair, sheer hair and cut hair off my scalp, cut my skin to the bone to cause blood flow disruption, insert objects under fingernails (for years, the same nails every single day for years to the point of absolute disfigurement)

here is what i wrote: It is important although as I wrote, my brain is blocked from a creative approach to writing and depiction. This is also intended as the people attacking me are stealing ideas I write of but blocking my ability to compete against them in any form. They also disfigure my body and drain my health and vitality and then also claim they are more beautiful and that etc etc, they make insults all the time and also insert subliminals that are especially hostile that I can hear at very silent moments hissing like a soft hissing stream into my ear of insulting words and phrases.

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These internet hacking attacks also take the form of when I highlight just to try to copy and paste from Faceboook to this blog. After I highlight a long paragraph, the hackers block the last few words from being copied. I have to begin again, as the cursor is again blocked. It takes four or five times to highlight and copy for the entire post to get copied. Just one more example, plus keys appearing twice when I press them once, another hacking attack on the keyboard that happens almost every word.

The time to type takes at least 6 times longer than with a normal keyboard (actually I type extremely quickly and this reduces the speed to more than 10 times the time it should take--or the differential is much greater I type so well adn quickly and this has been blocked FOR YEARS and I can't stop it. I can't write at my creative potential I am stuck sitting herre day after day fightign to get anyone hacking into my system to actually stop watching on and support me and block these attacks put meinto a safe home.

Years of writing and no one has ever done realistically a damn thing.

----------No one world wide no one.

Five hours after my monthly stipend was electronically transfered into my bank account, the hackers continue to block the amount received. It shows up as zero although it's already been transferred into my account.
My heart is under attack, there are palpitations from electronic attack/torture.
Sick from detox, and sick of endlessly cleaning for hours and hours every SINGLE day the stinking filth the stalkers spray and pour on pillows, blankets, clothing and cleaning up the filth they poured on my skin, body, hair and into my body.
Sick of writing about it because no one will admit or help me in any way--writing on Facebook which provides an entertainment porno zone for stalkers to laugh about as they read that NO ONE ever supports or does anything to protect me.
Sick of this but I have to write, because the stalking protocol to continue to force me to write is that the attacks are always so seriously and potentially deadly that I write and the particular attack reduces and another deadly attack takes it's place. After I write about one attack, it is stopped temporarily and unless I write, the very nasty attackks never stop.
It's as if the entire world has become a haven for Nazis and stalkers and there is no resostance anywhere on the planet and everyone is a covert agent operating within the boundary of that system.
By the time people realize they are under attack as well and it could pose a threat to their lives...until then, the cycle of violence never ends. A perpetual form of domestic violence, state-sponsored terrorism, and sheeple doing nothing and as blank as zombies on every single level.
People always need a witch hunt or a target. Those shouting in the streets for justice are themselves part of the stallking (many of them).
What will it ever take for anyone to ever defend me, I wonder?
All I do is write about this and I try to stop writing on Facebook, which is by now like a public urinal of people hacking into my private page and stealing ideas and attacking me for my thoughts, while stealing concepts and then attacking me for writing them. Then there is the league of do-nothing perverts who enjoy watching "someone else" get tortured instead of them (the black sheeple in the streets who have, in my over 50 years of living in the US and abroad, all those black sheep have ever done is watch and do nothing or mostly participate in the stalking protocols, which are racist and filled with hate and discrmiination. How many black are going to conitnue to hiss anti_semitic slurs at me or punch me while Germans and Nazis watch on, instructing them, as they get front page headlines every day for "fighting" by gyrating in public singing for the Plantation of Whorewood and being paid in millions adn billions for it--while they put photos of themselves laughing into the camera after they attack me for Whitey Nazi?
How many "feminists" will it take to ever screw in that lightbulb of, "Gee, maybe I should actually help her not get raped by violent rapist misogynist men who happen to also be my husbands, sons and friends?'
How many more posts must I write before this is stopped by any reaonsable human being who actually has any concern about human rights instead of their own rotten asses and what they can get out oof participating in this contract?
How many years longer must I fight and clean up filthy grimme and fungus and fight for my life alone endlessly cleaning up the stinking filth every single day forhours and fighting to use the internet fighting for my life and perpetually asking for help over and over to no response ever...?

I had intended to write, but the exacerbation of negative emotions allowed the hacking to "hack" into my thoughts and bypass the thought: my hands are like ugly and huge from continuous cleaning and hand washing from filth that I never put on anything. I have to spend hours every day just cleaning up filth the stalkers input only so I don't have to breathe it in when I must seal the glass doors of the patio shut every night (and also can't leave the doors open when it gets dark, as tiny mechanical arms also enter through my room in the dark and spray stinking filth on my clothing and blankets and furniture when I am doing something else. The light for the patio I sealed over with material so they can't insert an arm through the light fixture, only for them to make the brand new buld burn out within one hour of using it. I had already sealed off that fixture which is so high on the ceiling it's dangerous for me to climb on something to reach it. That is how meticulously I must search for ways the stalkers use these mechanical arms to break through any crack, tile, floorboard, corner of anything. There are multiple light fixtures within the room itself as well with holes into the ceiling, where anyone from above can lift the floorboards and insert and spray all  kinds of things. Everything must be sealed off. I can't replace the lightbulb withoutt having to breakk open the very tight seal I had made so nothing can be broken through that tiny one litttle area, leaving me to have to fight now unsuccessfuuly for the next few areas on the conerns of the patio ceiling where they are lifting up the planks, I have glued paper, all kinds of objects, put growing vines over the area so the little arms can't get through. The vines are now dead and the stalkers literally rip them off the areas I have tried to cover with this growth to block them from opening up these areas.

I have been writing on Facebook for years about these attacks and if I mention this to anyone they attack me viciously with claims that I am crazy, the police are violent about it, no one offers any support whatsoever anywhere on the planet.

I see these marches and demonstratins now and it's unbelievable to me what utter bs the celebrities the blacks in particular are who are participating in this contract out on me and being rewarded by Obama, who also has participated in this situation and remains silent like all of them. All getting promoted for participation in a Nazi genocidal contract. As long as it' s not for blacks like them, they don't give a damn they put photos fo themselves smiling with their new promotions on my personal page searches on the web.  As i continue to fight this, literal self-proclaimed white Nazis are attacking me with these same black "activists".  All of t hem together are obtaining huge businesses, movie starring roles, new tv shows they host, etc etc etc. I see it every time I get on IMDB or search on the media as they make it clear to me what they are obtaining (as part of the targeting protocol, just sort of to rub it in more). As people do nothing about it, they are protected and all assume a  psychopathic smug attitude knowing that not even Joe Biden is going to do anything about this situation, whether he is elected or not. Their attitude of complete protection and how they can get away with rape, torture and this endless violence is only 2nd to the nasty common people who attack me in the public places in leiu for the wealthy who order these attacks, who in turn are operative puppets for the very evil vile controllers who are on higher levels of the "pyramid". You can see J-Z nearly worshipping the pyramd shape for his stage performances. He's one of the attackers as well. But endlessly singing for millions about how much he's fighting. There is a commercial using his "New York" song but Phuket has replaced the New York theme. I bet they obtained mansions with sea views for calling me all kinds of deadly genocidal Nazi names with that German actor who also is good friends with pit and t-atino (can't use their real names it's too hard to write of them as human beings. They have dehumanized me so much that I can't see them as human beings and use their real names. 

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more from Facebook I wrote today in rage, and this is intended to exert pressure upon me to write and release this stress. All day i have struggled to get this laptop to upload protection, to surf and I have spent HOURS just either cleaning up their filth they sparyed into my room, described endlessly (for years), and fighting to use the internet to see wherre my money is, and fighting with the sickness of detox and my body is now reaching a very thin stage because the poisons have latched all the way directly into my skeleton, and there's STILL more so I am very ill and now every day poison is coming out and it's so old, so toxic, I can't move and the combinatiion plus the mind control plus my cat has been stolen for years and all i do is worry about her and want her back and MY OWN HOME IN SAFETY and this terorism and torture--why MUST IT GO ON AND ON FOR YEARS AN DYEAR WITH NO ONE EVER SUPPORTING ME ? Goddamn YOU READERS.

I was not even going to write today, but this endless fighting to clean up stinking filth the stalkers pour into every piece of clothing and blankets and pillows, every day on an don hours and hours and my hads are withered and ugly and look old and like they're water-logged and like I'm a cleaning lady who has spent a lifetime cleaning. this is more than 7 years of perpetual cleaning daily of clothing and fighting to keep what I have paid for and not have to throw every single thing I buy that they destroy away--cleaning up filth and my home is endlessly filthy I can't keep up. NINE YEARS of detoxifying while they tortruree me, keep me blocked economically so I can't afford a doctor, put me in accidents and leave me without the ability to pay for any treatment, disfigure my body every single day so I am broken down and scarred up with balding greasy hair every single day---. I had wanted to not write today but the attacks have been since waking to this moment at 6 pm and my money has not appeared, I have been sitting here for HOURS fighting to use this internet which yesterday operated, today it's not. Endless hacking and fighting and not being able to get what I need to fix the problems the stalkers create. YEARS OF WRITING ON FACEBOOK I have tried to stop writing even today, and finally I have to try to get anyone to help me. If I don't write these attacks remain and they are DEADLY. I must necessarily write adn the shit cycle NEVER ENDS CAN'T YOU GODDAMN READERS EVER COME TO MY DEFENSE RTHERRE IS MORE THAN BLACK PEOPLE BEING DISCRIMINATED AGAINST BY WHITE BIGOTS and your famorite starz in the media are bullshit creeple who participate in the worst Nazi take-over of America probably in the history of the United States.  While you all do nothing (most of you are Europ's and want America destroyed and as another prostituted colonized slave plantation like Phuket and Thailand for you to take over and dictate to as these whores in whorewood welcome you all in because they get a few immediate gratification deals you hand them (planning on taking it all away from them or their children eventually after you invade and colonize to the full cheers of the Americans who hail Nazi culture)

tired of writing these theories and yet, it's so obvious and yet, everyone participates in it, but they don't want black people to be killed in the streets now the blacks are so happy that I am being attacked they are so happy to shift the crap onto someone else.



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While I wrote, I could not access the financial concept, "direct deposit". I was trying to "remember" what the term was and my brain was absolutely blanked out while I was writing. I also had intended to write a few other more interesting descriptive terms than the "feminist lightbulb of ,Gee,...etc etc whatever I wrote above, which was not my words my brain is under some kind of attack whereby the stalkers bypass various "circuits" of my brain's normal functining and insert their own words. I'm sure the experts reading my post have some understanding of this principle since it's being employed all the time whenever I try to communicate in any way, in any form on any forum. The light of clarity that by allowing one person to be raped, you are sanctioning rape culture. Their internal rationale I believe is that if someone else gets raped and attacked by these men, then "they" the women are safer and happier and feel a great sense of relief that there is now a new avenue for domestic violence to be splintered into a new set of people instead of the customary domestic violence situation hitherto the gang stalking and teleportation. The good old days when there were actual slaves that could be raped, beaten or killed. Now it's all this huge drama disguised as "normal" civilian life, with the dark secrets of this technology being handed out to extremely violent people who have learned the arts of smiling huge smiles inpublic. I also "forgot' to write in the above post that the black people who insert photos of themselves smiling are photos that are personally attached to my various media searches that have been hacked into the templates of the sites to appear as "normal" posts. Theses are exaggerated gestures, often nasty and ugly into the camera, or like gloating with captions that have a resonance to my situatioon with these particular people. They are thrilled that violence is being directed at me instead of them, and they can rise if they participate with the bigot whites. This goes for the blonde feminsts and their children and everything else under the sun. At this point there isn't a human being out there who isn't attacking me for this system who wants a free and easy promotioin into high levels of society. How many people would that be? Just imagine yourself. So I sit here waiting once again for my money. Again the laptop is corrupted by malware and I have no means to fix it, as the computer store refuses to give me the recovery disc that should have come with the laptop. Lies abound. Again I have spent hours today cleaning up the filth that the stalkers pour on everything possible every moment they can insert these mechasnical arms into my room. Again I am sick from poisons pouring out of my body all day. So sick I have not been able to take a shower for days because it's too painful. When i have any energy, i must clean up the toxic filth that has been sprayed on everything so as not to have to inhale it when I close the patio doors at night so the stalkers can't just get in through that opening of the floorboards above. This is a literal diagnosis of the way the stalkers enter my room, not some hypothetical guess. Altthough because no one ever approaches me with ANY support, I cannot get any evidence alone with this group breaking my equipment and hacking into everything and breaking all I own and making all inoperable and no one willing to admit this is happening to me or help me to obtain evidence--it would take at least one other person to help me but no one on the planet is willing. so I write again entertaining the bigot crap that is hacking in and "enjoying" watching me with the endless writing and nothing ever stops this crap no one ever defends me I sit here cleaning and cleaning up stinking filth. The president makes jokes about it as he still is waiting for me to finish healing while fighting against more poisoning endless accidents his bigot male friends concoct when I fight backk against their endless attacks and sucking out information to use for their dirty and foul ugly pig selves for their own promotions. They make jokes about me having to clean--they can watch me clean day after day for hours upon hours the stinking filth their creeps spray into my room at every given chance.

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30 minutes later and much hacking correction time spent:

And my money justt arrived in my account, only 6 hours late. It's hard to describe how living in a foreign country and not having money come into a direct deposit account can be rather unnerving, as all resources where I might have to contest any block to my funding are half a planet away.

this group tries to get me to react in rage or misery every single day. And every single day the attacks are so sustained that it's finally impossible not to reach out for anyone to intervene to very dangerous situations, like heart palpitations being forced due to technological attack systems hidden in the next rooms or within this room. Financial destitution also is a deadly circumstance this group is endlessly forcing upon me. I have no other options but to write, and once i get on these laptops, besides endlessly backspacing to correct their hacker inserts and blocks and spaces and keys not operating, my brain as I always write is under so much attack that I degenerate into hate rants and such easily mundane verbal expression it's just a ranting never ending silent scream into the computer, instead of interesting ideas and concepts I want to write about. When I am able to formulate or format these concepts, THEY ARE STOLEN by the assinie parasites who plague my life so they can obtaiin free ideas and then torture me afterwards and all that entails --blocking my functioning and then aspirations and all chances. I have been nearly killed when trying to attend grad school by cars hitting me and nearly killling me. It just put my hips out of place and etc. My spine is by now fractured by nightly break-ins as people literally try to break my spine. Fractures and spondylolysthesis from people attacking me while I"m drugged up and comatose and inert from the MK ULTRA "alter" states.

HELLO IS THERE ANYTHING RESEMBLING HUMANITY OUT THERE WITH ALL THE HUMANITARIAN BLACK MEDIA PERFORMERS WHO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT DEFENDING BLACK PEOPLE FROM DISCRIMINATION AND MURDER, WHY ARE YOU PARTICIPATING IN THIS CRIME AGAINST ME? Obvious for money, greedy selfish nasty and when I am teleported them, like all the people who teleport me, they never offer information never respond to any question never demonstrate the slightest of intelligence. They remain silent and just suck out as much as possible, on que from their instructions. Thus they appear stuipd and violent and dumb. I have no idea if they actually have any higher intelligence at all and after years of some of them going on and on brutalizing me, they only appear like dumb and violent greedy abusers. This is the blacks who are now prominant in the media as well as the whites I have endlessly been writing of for years and years. The group is now so huge I can't count them all any longer (and my memory is always blocked by the microchip or implant or remote tech...?)





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Extreme drugging/nervous system attacks via implants along my spine & into my brain--8 hours of literal non-stop abuse from this English And nazi team of another senator from congress, the same rape enabler who is the front-runner face of anti-violence against women and me2 rape culture to oust the jewish weinstein so her company and the rest can overtake h-wood --antisemitism so openly expressed that obviously Nazis and virulent racists are behind this contract out on me. My brother stating that only I will experience violence, with his full participation and that Germans are trustworthy not racists it can't happen to him. for using sexual and physical violence against me instantly after more than 30 years of never having seen him, never contacting him except for him smirking about a situation the nazis forced on me, he is lunging at me to gain more promotions and allowance to get everything for free for handing me over to murder, essentially. Me, drugged so badly I cannot stop reacting to every question, hours of asking me for ideas as the English scriptwriters and director and the endless leech parasite this ugly sinister putrid creep female who is endlessly pushing violent beef-body-build "men" out of europ-a-land to violently rape me, the more abusive and humiliating the more they are praised and awarded; she is the representative for the United Nations and for Chuck Schumer in all legislation against rape and domestic violence against women. Put deliberately there really to give permission for rape if it's racist-based rather than anything else. beloved so greatly by the grateful rapist thugs surrounding her, the minority minions lavishing praise making antisemitic comments at me--Jews in particular are very hostile and laughing smirking it can only happen to me, not them. The drugs are so insidious that are injected pumped into my bladder while I sleep--must get up every night to alleviate what they inject so I am drugged--it is a nasty horrific murderous chemical and drug forcing hate, along with extreme shifts of my brainwaves I can't even control my breathing--my entire spine is coated in hard chemicals in which microchip implants directly affecting my spine are buried from the 3 complete surgeries I have had---(the hardening poisons made my spine crooked, the terrorists fractured my vertebrae while I was unconscious after they orchestrated mostly harmless "accidents' and in the deep brain implant state, I am rendered completely unconscious and unable to feel anything (drugged to the extreme the next morning with pain killers and numbing chemicals). 8 hours another day of this ongoing with me finally screaming in rage fighting and hitting the people responsible for this--the senator who came years ago to abuse yell fascistically at me, now threatening my life for having rushed to physicall attack him after shouting to go away go away go away. They all remain until I rush at them lunging in fury. The dirty nasty sick female who is connected to the English monarchy has been relegated to bring every fascist nazi english abuser and hater to assault me possible in the celebrity zone, there are so many---all are clamoring to get this contract and to participate from all minorities in congress who rush at me violently to white supremacist congress haters--this one very close to the source of much discontent for those slated to be excluded from life in general---very pompous about his entitlement to torture have me raped and poisoned, they all are. My brother smug and behaving like I am still being beaten and abused by him at the age of 14 when I left the hate situation my family had adopted because my mother was trying to get "in" with an "Italian" but American married man, the "Italians" in this tiny family-controlled cul-de-sac had installed mircophone relay systems so they could listen to my family abuse me (this was in 1978 before the internet) my brother was so violent I phoned the police and left that house the next day--forever. I saw him a few times, I had the blank mind controlled drugged assumption that he had "grown up" but alas, he lives in the perpetual abuse state having ensured I am stuck everywhere I go as he is promoted for endlessly ensuring my destruction, lack of health care. My family offered me an inheritance in a creep way 2 years ago, I saved the money but declined to have any further contract with them as they were abusive just in connecting me to the lawyers distributing the inheritance (I got the absolute lowest amount of all members)--and this they used to have social security cut off my income and it's been off for 6 months while I am fighting to have it reinstated and they worked with the 4th Reich to have this done. I was screaming at him in rage, as the hate parasitic rape cheerleader who is beloved by all senators presidents her sleazy and disgusting 16 years of stealing my ideas so her blank and hateful lack of personality can be embellished by my years and lifetime of reading and study, so that nazi white supremacy can appear like it has originality and any kind of creativity outside of endless repetition of murder revenge and upcommance plots which they rotate every year in their awards categories, until they latched on to stealing my ideas, and now torturing me as I scream ideas because they are so revolting their image their ugly sinister presence is so revolting--and I cannot stop responding instantly to their endless probing questions intermixed with extremew murder threats and then inquisitive questions and every thing I do, from going to the bathroom eating taking healing powders all my exercises for healing I created they are stealing and using as their own invention; so much that I do is original and not a copy I learned, they are stealing torturing and asking for ideaws literally non-stop. I cannot stop talking I can't stop responding. the drugs, my body is like enmeshed in not being able to breathe independently the technology and drug interface is so overwhelming. The smug and smirking dirty ugly sick skank sits smiling as I scream and fight for the 2nd year in a row of literal daily screaming and rage at English hate bigots assaulting me for over 8 hours per day--0the rapist who beat tortured and mutilated me, has had my plants killed is threatening my life then making sleazy sexual comments, sitting next to this foul and dirty ugly sick creep skank always they are partners probably as with all the men who rape me she tries to suck my life force energy out by having sex with them as well. Some of them at least--they sit next together all the men who rape me next to her, after she has had me poisoned nearly to death, still fighting to heal every day. My body aging rapidly she is laughing, the men make endless sneering comments about my breasts while I am naked as they sit for hours watching and commenting on all I do. Once i finally "break" after the 6-8 hour mark of literal non-stop literally every single second for over 6 to 8 hours without a moment of them shutting up for one single second with death trhreats abuse insults and probing questions I scream finally to shut up and die I scream hit them rush violently. It is torture and the senators are smug threatening to kill me constantly for lunging at them screaming to get off me to fuck off that they have already been killing me via poisoning and torture for years. It goes on and on. I might be able to "ignore' them if they were not drugging me so severely and my body racked with implants along my spine forcing a reaction that overwhelms my breathing and concentration--the implants are definitely in my brain and along my spine---without a doubt they force my muscles to spasm while people are slamming doors--the effect is unmistakable and has happened for years in this same sequence I do not flinch at noises like this, it is artificially created generated and forced upon me. They are so ugly and appear so rancid rotten stupid ugly and sick I scream that they are disgusting that I never want anything like them around me not for a minute much less 8-10 hours per day,e very day, then stupid sick teleportation skits of hate death and homelessness and me being abused, being put in stupid situations in an "edit" mode so I am waking to being in some negative situation in the middle of a posture I never created, like a movie edit stopping and starting my consciousness can be started and stopped with a press of a button in that state.//I am trying to work a way to not be overwhelmed, because these filthy sick creeps are meaningless scum in my opinion but I react as if I can't stop, and I literally cannot. //I ordered a music player and they blocked everything possible for every music player--this one supposedly came with no memory but they had it jacked-up so the memory is invisible but it is hacked and is turned off remotely like all the rest of the players they continue the death and torture deep sleep states. My body is aging my hair greying my body withering because of the energy this ugly sick skank sucks out smiriking and laughing. They keep asking me for ideas then destroying my finances so I have nothing. I am still waiting for the decision from social security whether my disability payments will be reinstated or not. They lied to me for 6 months, my family had my inheritance taken away and then my disability as well; this was a ploy it was not some random accident and they just arrived when I was being violently raped by the last lrapist from europigapeland with ugly skankalina presiding as they "made love" to each other sitting next to one another attacking me mutually--now it's the next one, the same thing but his English is much better so his verbal abuse is for 10 hours or more per day--endless extreme violent threats, violent abusive ugly rape, supposedly implying that I "deserve" it for fighting to save my life from this. My brother doing everything he can to protect the 4th Reich and that only I wil lbe a victim of any racism never he. I went into, in truth serum drugged torture microchip enhanced stress hate truth serum mode how nazis are definitely pursuing another genocide against jews and in america they want to pour in and create nazification of the already nazified and ocmpletely overtaken america by europigape nazi filth, and I am trying to quell this as much as possible. The denial is pure stupidity this ugly sinister creep I want nothing to do with, he creeps me out I am so disgusted by him it's a visceral reaction of disgust--and his smug pomposity that he's going to get more and more and more out of murdering me smiling stupid sick ignorant--denying that nazis are taking power that they want to destroy jews. I keep shouting how stupid he is, he threatens to break my arms. If there is, as I said today, any person the most violently and murderously inclined towards me it will be my family--as they are so groomed to murder me and have been working to achieve this with full applause endless promotions money poured into them as being symbols of jewish nazi partnership---they are the most threatening and the most dangerous--and so sick and stupid it's unbelievable trying to explain how they are putting nazis into power who will take away their homes if they want lebensraum--all I say they deny and shout with whining insult that I am stupid--I remind them that I lived in Germany for over 5 years because they were trying to kill me by having a metal rod made loose in my spine so my uncle bill could get "permission" to publish his gay magazine echo in Phoenix so they had me body fractured so I had no choice but to return to them, asking for help and health care--they made sure I got nothing they tried to put me in prison for a charge of theft of jewelry (I had no car, the situation was at night miles away from me with no car and buses all stopped and etc) and they had just killed the italian american mafia thug my mother had married talking the same night he died on the day he was leaving her and the house they had jointly purchased he wanted to save since he poured the bulk of the deposit from his money--and etc.. in a murder frenzy they were--I left with a metal rod loose in my spine and had to try to survive this until I left america for germany in 1991--I told him that i had to go to germany for years to try to survive the last murder attempt they had made on me, and I speak german lived around germans only speaking german met nazis know their mentality they have not changed their edicts to kill all jews and jews in america are a target. Told I was a stupid bitch death threats and it can't happen to him, only to be because i'm a "bitch" etc my disgusting brother and his nasty spawn brought to torment me, completely programmed to ask me "why" germans are intent on another genocide, which I said to him a few days ago, he was given a script for what to repeat so the english fuckers sitting on those chairs could steal the screaming ideas I spewed out unable to stop reacting--smug ugly shitalina smiriking adn smug the violent abusive fardy the tom actor not a cat or cool sitting next to his "Lover" as I know that is the endless program of dirty energy leech shitalina--and it goes on and on> I am trying to not react bvut when I do react after the 6 hour mark I become violent to get them off me, then they all threaten my life and it goes on and on--information and ideas they are taking down as I scream them and scream and fight. My hair turning white my body aging and breaking it's murder. I am still paralyzed from the poison they all poured into my body as they had the poison raped into my body and then torture so I can't heal--it's murder.