The hacking is so bad I can only get one or two sentences out--that also includes the hacking of my brain, making thinking and typing actually impossible. My fingers are twisted in confusion as my brain is being manipulated into ot being able to access motor skills. The keyboard is messed-up by hacking, and it's another day of this attack on my ability to type or think while sittinng in front of this laptop.
I also am attacked when I try to read (tears begin to pour out of my eyes or are continuously moist so it's impossible to focus. My concentration is dminished so greatly I can only read for a short while and am exhausted from the brain attack.
This same attackk also happens when I listen to podcasts, on my tiny mobile phone which I have downloaded. the tech is aimed into my brain or relayed whether I am sitting in front ofa laptop or in public with no accessories polugged in (which is rare, because I always have headphones on now since the music in shops is awful and the people around me make trigger noises to distract or anger me to get me hyped up for a negative reaction (which could cause me to get kicked out of shops I must go to for food and other necessities).
I have triied to wear aluminum "nutcase" hats I makke out of tin foil and it doesn't work!!!!
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Now for the "entertainment" (for the stalker/rapist/Nazis of all races and sexes) segment of the Indiana commentaries by me, today. I refer also to the situation in Champaign, ILlinois which is not very far distant in every way from Bloomington, anotherr small university town. When I wrote of hiking and canoeing doown the Kickapoo state Park river (which, from footage, was a broad and beautiful expanse in the early 70's, now reduced almost to a tiny swatcth of trees lining the river. Backk when I was there, it was a huge park with trees spanning the area instead of cement roads and establishments that now dot and line the area. I was invited to go camping wiith a "friend" of my mother, a man named Daniel McCollough (I only knew his name from spoken word, don't know the exact spelling). I believe this man was one of my mother's lovers. Characteristically of my mother, she told me to go camping with Mr. McCollough, his son, and a team of boys. Because I was so used to being around boys and doing boy-things (I was the only female on the male baseball team, the first year that girls were allowed to play in male-dominated sports thanks to new laws enacted in 1972--Title IX).
My mother handed me a frilly Cinderella sleeping blanket which was intended for indoor sleeping parties for girls's sleepover, which was popular back in that time. The time was early Spring, and I contracted some infection immediately after going on this male-only (but one MK ULTRA female) outing. I slept in an indoor space with Mr. McCollough and his son, and two days later I came down wiith some sickness. The protocol for rape and attack in this MK ULTRA/racist/Nazi situation always entails that the rapists disfigure my body, steal concepts, ideas, property or damage and destroy anything they can afterwards. They then never contact me again. This has happened all my life, including from females of all races (Asian, Jewish, white, and less frequently black). Since I never know what has happened, and not a single person around the planet has ever once warned me or informed me, I can only surmise that I was raped by this friend of my mother at Kickapoo State Park.
My mother handed me a frilly Cinderella sleeping blanket which was intended for indoor sleeping parties for girls's sleepover, which was popular back in that time. The time was early Spring, and I contracted some infection immediately after going on this male-only (but one MK ULTRA female) outing. I slept in an indoor space with Mr. McCollough and his son, and two days later I came down wiith some sickness. The protocol for rape and attack in this MK ULTRA/racist/Nazi situation always entails that the rapists disfigure my body, steal concepts, ideas, property or damage and destroy anything they can afterwards. They then never contact me again. This has happened all my life, including from females of all races (Asian, Jewish, white, and less frequently black). Since I never know what has happened, and not a single person around the planet has ever once warned me or informed me, I can only surmise that I was raped by this friend of my mother at Kickapoo State Park.
Nevertheless, the park at that time was a more pristine and natural environment with huge areas of forest and waterways, now reduced to what appears to be a few streams and riverways and almost non-existant fish, if you observe one of the Y-tube vids of scuba diving in the river. The fish and wildlife back in 1974 in that area, when I was there, was a landscape of natural beauty and wide areas of secluded woods to camp and hike in.
This is my pesonal account of a severely ugly racist attack that I now understand was a racist and rape situation which my parents openly advocated. My parents were very supportive of me as a human being until the racism that surged around my family turned, eventually, into murderous proportions. I believe my step-father was slowly poisoned to death, but it was orchestrated to appear as slow deterioration from diabetes. Although he was a diabetic and blind, there were signs of poisoning that I also witnessed on the dogs that I grew up with, from the same source that slowly destroyed my father, in a State, in a country, where these activities have been officially sanctioned but covertly silenced.
I wait for the time when people will also openly state that these operations are allowing sleazy, disgusting bigots to murder and rape with full authoritative sanctioning and societal approval.
My parents, as guilty as they are in the compllicity of these crimes against me, were themselves brainwashed, drugged, poisoned, threatened, and microchipped, gang stalked, and terrorized and unless they wanted to be kliled or made homeless or with no chance to have careers or financial stability, they participated. I do not excuse their actions, but when they were "allowed" to care about their children in some decent way, they did so emthusiastically. i grew up with great love and support until the time came for the Conservative backklash against all the "liberal" protest movements of the 60's and early 70's, which my parents participated in and were leaders of.
I was viciously attacked in 7th grade by a white male, Brian Hildebrand, with the half-black athetic jock anti-semite Todd Oliver, who openly attacked me as proxy racist bigot hater for the group of white males. This happened because I played drums, (percussion) in the middle school band (Edison Middle School, Champaign, Illinois). I won "First Chair" as lead drummer. Brian would hit me wiith the drum sticks, then have black anti-semite Todd phone me making sex comments about pornography and asking if I would have sex with him and the white boys who surrounded Brian. There were also many white girls my age who also attacked me.. when the real harassment stalking terrorist actions took place, NO ONE stood by me, no one made any comment to me, the entire school allowed it to happen and not one teacher or professional made any defensive posture aimed at me.
I also had been at a high level of classical violin studies, playing in a symphony by the age of 13. I was similarly attacked but not as viciously, due to the nature of classical music as opposed to the more open violent nature of cock rock male-dominated band musick---thus, threatened and atatcked for being better than a pimple-face ugly white boy who probably never had a lesson in his life. I had by that time studied music and played in symphony and then wanted to learn drumming.
(The hacking is absolutely orrible right now, almost impossible to get anythign 0out and continuosly pouunding down on keys to get anything out)
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decades later, right now--assaulted and raped by white males and their nazi females of all races who have been stealing ideas from me and blocking any sort of attempt I could ever make to have any success in any fiield. The attacks are so severe that not only is typing blocked completely, thought obliterated by the attacks on my brain, but even reading books is nearly impossible due to the attackks on my braiin and nervous system, my eyesight and everything else while I am reading (I believe a stream of nonsense subliminals are being pumped into my subconscious while I attempt to read).
When I wrote that "finally" something is being done about Vauhxx Booker, I mean not only that the people caught on tape trying to murder him and assaulting him were not even arrested until a major outcry occured after sources like Democracy Now put the video on air--but finally attention is being paid to the horrendous racism that exists--although the racism is only labeled as being against blacks. The anti-Semitism I have experienced all my life ALL MY LIFE has been mostly perpetrated by BLACKS wiith whites behind them, encouraging them as I now experience wiith the H-wood gang and the endless waves of minorities (brown-skinned/black/minority people worldwide) attacking me as proxy stalkers doing disgusting things for promotion into the acceptance of the racist, horrid white culture whiich conrols them and all the people who have remained silent about my situation--including eveyr Jewish person I have ever met in my life. Not a single one has come to my defense, ever.
And Bloomington, Indiana. I had joined a "stop domestic violence" Facebook group years ago. A female out of Bloominton, a student at the University of Indiana--claimed that she was a moderator of the online group. I had not been experiencing domestic violence, but my situation was one of being stalked and I thought that the perpetrator was using minorities to stalk me all the way from Miami to Portland, where I was living at the time (no...I forgot and am pounding down on keys---I was in Phuket at the time, and the stalking had not stopped despite moving 9,000 miles away from the assumed perpetrator.. I had not heard of gang stalking up to that point in time, all I could attribute the situation to was a domestic violence stalking situation from a man I "met" online when I was looking for an apartment, who I met one single time and the stalking then began.
My sister Carrie also appeared in the Facebook group just as I joined the group. She recently appeared to attack me in a teleportation situation that the H-wood gang orchestrated, maybe two months ago.
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the hackers just deleted the last few sentences of this post and I must rewrite.
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My family has so openly participated in the slow murder of me that they laugh along wiith the perpetrators and attack me viciously for not knowing what is happening to me, asking me why I don't act like them but all my life they lied to me about thiis siituation so I never had any idea what was happening to me. All of them have obtained higher status and new businesses and opportuniities to promotion by offering me as a victiim to be raped and poisoned to death and tortured to death. I attribute all of this to the threat this murder stalking organization of death squad bigots and Nazis and whatever other groups they claim adherance to have done.
At last something is being done about racism in Indiana, and Illinois--but focused on Blacks. Allo I know of blacks is that they participate in the torture, rape and stalking situations almost to a high 90 percent ratio and in almost every instance. Surrounded by blacks stalking me on public transportation has been a prime abuse situation that this white racist group has organized. Blacks, like my family, happily and willingly attack me after whites make threatening gestures towards me while I wait in line for the bus. Always having been lied to my entire life, I had no idea they were making symbolic gestures of violence or death aimed at me. Blacks then surround me, grope my body while I sit (always drugged and dazed) and that is how the racism effect trickles down.
Maybe one day this situation also will be exposed and people will stand up for this inclusion of blacks into the white supremacist Nazi genocide/post-Holocaust programming of Jews, Blacks, Latinos so they can hope to be included into the prosperity that the white Nazis have obtained in all their genocidal pursuits of global domination.
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but now so distracted by hacking blocks, the keyboard is so stiff I am making exertions beyond exercise to get any keys to pound out letters. My brain is in the usual stae of feeling entangled in numb blank pain, thelonger I try to write the more crushed-inward sensation I experience, as the technology is blanketing my brain with what must be deadly waves hindering blood flow--or something along very dangerous to my health forms of block of cognitive functioning.
I got complteely diverted from describing how this Indiana student who claimed to be a moderator of the domestic vioolednce group behaved. She put endless photos of herself dancing with her friends as I wrote about the stalkking and tortures I thought it odd that she put phots of herself dancing, over and over, as respone to my posts and rewquests for assistance or any kind of support. Now I understand....and due to blockage I cannot pound down any loner this literally hurts my arms, which are already very frail from poisoning and inertia and non-stop torture for the last 10 years due to the hate and racism I have encounterec by black stalkkers, white stalkers, latinos stalkers, jewish stalkkers and everyone else who wants to be a player in this sy stem and have money to live off and stuas and a position in society.
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