Friday, July 10, 2020

Preferable version is not preferable. I am waiting for the old Waits to refresh but the waiting for his rebirth has proven the once sweet but sultry soul sound irrevocably rancid.

Nora Jones's cover version of a Tom Waitts song I discovered on Y-Tube: Alongside the video, There's an interview/performance of Mr. Tom Waits on the former David Letterman Show. I went to the NYC studio back in 1984 or 1985, when I was a student at the State University of New York @ Purchase. I was informed by the boyz back at the dorm that prior to every show, the ascerbic Letterman (as I later discovered his demeanor was not a view into a panorama of positivity) would venture out into the audience, before the cameras began to roll, and would ask who was from his home State of Indiana. I made sure to wear an Illini teeshirt, almost fresh from Champaign (sent by my Step-father, the professor). A grim nasty sour frown appeared on Letter's face, as he turned away in almost hate when I raised my hand and he could see the Illinois teeshirt. As if this was a personal insult for him. The show was bland, the moments when there was a camera break Letterman's cheery glib face immediately turned into a frown of concentration, hinting at the more aspiring celebrity grimmace of concentation than the funny dude all the dorm dudes thought was so charming (the dorm guzs participating in the MK ULTRA contract out on me, by the way, meaning their funny stupid boy dorm culture also hid a hate culture of rape, violence and false impressions).

Years and years later, watching what was a seeming "real" interview with one of the first celebrities of this H-wood rat pack of celebrity "A-list" expletives--(really the very first one, back in 2013). Interview with letter-woman-hater-bigot out of Indiana cock rock dude, abhorrent to me: the seemingly charming womanizing rapist beater hater racist interviewed by Letter-not-man but boy cock rock idol interviewer---turned me off so completely to this man I was almost elated when he retired from the everyday onslaught of rape boy culture insult hate "funny" late night tv crap

Looking up music I want to download on YouTube (avoiding closelly looking at who or what has been hacked onto the front page) as I have to refresh what hackers deleted from all my old files (glad, because much was hacked music mind programming musick stuff).

Saw this interview of Waits in his latter years (a few years ago) croaking and cranking out singing like a delapidated run-down old Chevy, rusted and exorbitant celebrity support from the likes of Letter-not-man boy rapist icon---

***hackers have already begun to rewrite words and alter. I had to retype again and I am so loathe to continuously have to reedit and rewrite and publish and then open up the page and rewrite, as happens every time. The sick creeps hackin in are so filthy and foul, I can't describe the insidious character of these dirty foul f-ers and their celebrity icons who order these attacks for their continuiing theft of ideas because they truly are blank, hateful empty moronic idiots promoted for their racist conformity into these Nazi power structures.****

And to put this at an end, I discovered Nora Jones. This is a bit boring for my taste, but then again, it's not Tom Waits. I am not sure i want to do a more thorough search to see how much of a sell-out this woman had to be in order to gain this position of prominance. This is the kind of music you might hear at a Starbucks, the music I have heard and turnedoff or got turned off immediately by

however, I think I'm not ginog to put her music on this entry because as I keep listening I am itching to stop typing and change the channel.

Tom Waits in his early years, before the likes of Letterman influenced  his approval for celebrity good old boy hypocritical posturing grungy Whisky bar rape culture white boy crooning with prostituted females sauntering down the aisle waiting for the inevitable divorce procedings.

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THIS ALBUM IS MORE LIKE IT--the it I was itching for, an album I have heard and forgotten about for years. This is Waits, born in Cali, assimilating with the cocaine cowboy Whiskey Bar boy-rape drunken culture singing about womanizing, whoring, taking lines in Los Angeles. What a good old boy, but what great singing and muse-ick. Hiis voice is still within the range of artistic temperment and not retired to absolutely rusted out and corrupted. 

Hollywhorewood and Vine, the crossing roads where whores meet celebrities. 


Trending towards a more down, down low and lowdown sound. Into his more mature forays into mainstream Hollywhorewood culture and celebrity status. More interviews throughout the years on Letter-not-man boy rape late night drunken dude tv show years of interviews with that hate personality out of Indiana. I can't express the ugly look on his face simply because I raised my hand and laughed as he looked at my Illinois t-shirt. A joke, creep, it was a joke. This is the attitude the celebrities have of me. I have an attitude that they should be ousted froom their clay pedestals and thrown asunder and replaced by real artists who are not rusted personalities looking for the next whore deal Uptown but pretending they are real down low Downtown advocates for every "real" fight against Big Daddy Brother who turns them into rusted craggy whores on the Vine of Hollywood obscene intoxication.



**Now I do feel the effect of technology smothering my brain and turning it into a compressed dizzy roller coaster ride of incapability to write or type.

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I would go into more detail about the sickening disgusting attacks I have had to fight against this morning, which in a sense has been the impetus of such a bitter attack upon the probably very innocent Mr. Tom Waits (innocent of participating in the stalking. Wait until I open my YouTube channel and he appears in video after video, then teleports me with his good buddies and their Saturday Night dyed blonde dates their granddaughters' ages). Could be,might not be.

This group, and I have read this on stalking blogs years ago, want the targets completely obsessed with the staslking and endlessly fighting in vain to get any help from outside sources. Every single stalking goroup is co-opted, like all I do that these posturing p-a'sall steal from my writing and then block my ability to type and think and get any creative concepts out for  my own profit

the mechanical arms got through some other sourcedof paneling in my tiny studio (now it's years of fighting agaist this in this one tiny studio, harming my body so badly by pounding screws and hooks  into plastic cabinets interior, on all sides and in the middle of th epanels, layingin bed in near agony as parts of my body are literally being riped out in the process due to the hard poisons that have latched onto every viscerae and muscular structure) and still the mechanical arms got in my room last night. Another object is red under my left middle finger, inserted under the cuticle. Over 7 years of this attack on my fingers every single night. My hair is somehow not greasy and stinking, maybe the last attempt yeasterday to pound and screw in a few more hooks and tie with all  my body strength rope and pvc string into the hooks to try to close all gaps in eveyr crack, as the cracks are abundant everywhere. The cabinets do not close property, maladjusted so there are openings at the tops and bottoms of these plastic-coated cheep horrible ugly cabinet doors which extend to the ceiling, so pressure makes openings as welell even if the corners and tops are secured with hooks.

I do not want to obsess with this, but I was teleproted to more stupid sick skit scenes concocted by these psychopath celebrities and politicians. Their imaginations are so ugly I truly understand why they are attacking me and drugging and poisoning me so they can steal ideas about justice. They have none, ugly to the marrow and disgusting in every crack of their rotten souls, eeking out poison into the hearts and minds of the universal media machine of brainwashed conformity to their meek intellectual mediocrity.

So I must do more today, every single day. It is hard not to obsess. the outside of my room is an empty space of all animals, birds and flowers destroyed by this group. Zero animals or birds are on the hillside outside my window. They are being shot and killed by these apes who order these attacks on me. I have had to live next to decrepit ugly nasty old men and theiir rotten ugly nasty females of all ages who orderr these attacks, here in gorgeous Thailand my omes and studios have all been dessecrated of all beautiful nature and polluted continuously by this stinking and foul group y ou all cheer on as celebrity heroes and Europ- symbols of "taste and style and fashion and 'class'"so dirty and foul and tasteless and dirty and stupid and all their "fashion" has been stolen I truly believe they can't create a single idea. All is stolen and they are supiud posturing apes. I wonder how much of this Tom Waots and Nora Jones have imbibed so they can be famous for their careers. 

Descending into Starbucks culture easy-listening celebrity status! Letter-not-man interviews and croaking either too soft and slippery vocals like Nora Joones or a degenerate croaking obscenity aural old man whore song set.

And, my brain under attack as I have to try to backspace to correct. I will not re-read this post and always the hackers delete words and rewrite so it's almost nonsensical. Ugly rotten old men you all love singing the dirty old man's ditties but sung by youthful appearance pop culture Starbucks celebrities.

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Their (the above-mentioned) disgusting psychic stench sprayed on my hair brush, so it is a rancid odor and when I douse the brush handle with bleach and put it ouside to eat away at the fungus stench, the stalkers use mechanical arms to spray more of it on the patio while I go for a few seconds into the tiny bathroom, which stinks from stalkers inserting arms throgh the tile cracks and putting stinking fluids on the floor at night so when I open the door in themorning I must carry a stick of incense just to try to breathe first thing in the morning. The main room is perpetually violated by these mechanical arms after years of gluing paper on every panel, silicone on every crack, and hooks on every corner and that is not enough. There are hard wooden panels placed behind the vfery flimsy panel exteriors that I can touch in this room, but from the other side of the walls these wooden planks are put, with latches (I have heard the latches opening and closing at night when I am asleep and wake up from the noise--I can wake up from noise the stalkers are extremely quiet when they enter my room). It's anear impossibility to stop these attacks despite layers of paper glued to the panels, silicone glued to the edges  of every panel on every side of all walls and floors, and now metal hooks pounded into the plastic exteriors of the cabineets (except for three on top of my "kitchen" area row of cabinets which I need all day to get plates and food) and, they get through all the hooks covering every panel and I cna't use three drawers because the panels are so far back behind the drawer fronts in these cabinets and the panels are so flimsy on the other side I can bend them by lightly pressing against them. These mechanical arms are inserted through the very plyable superficial coverings which the stalkers get through with their hard wooden panels from their side of the wall. If I have expressed this articularely, it's so hard to write so hard to think. I feel sick from the brain attaacks as I write.)

I had not intended to write more about these sickopsychopaths but it's another day of this stinking mess sprayed on my body, room, clothing, hairbrush, myu hair nearly balding in places, my body covered in bruises and black and blue marks and insertions underneath the skin, and tec

drugged up so I "rant" while I wrie about this hysterical-inducing endless series of attacks which I keep writing about to the psychos of Whorewood, California so they can steal ideas and get promoted by this sick attack attack system they all  laugh about and participate in. The "normal" people who assist them are revolting over-fed parasites who feed off human suffering and misery that so many of you in the Black Lives Matter are now protesting.

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Last few thoughts--a separate post but interconnected to a previous post today---hours of abuse per day I have a lot to expunge from my mind and heart and soul, what is left. Expanding and contracting simultaneously. Imploding from nausiated disgust and the sense of stinking death rot from these filth slime crap things out of whorewood and the corresponding politicians. Expansion realizing how much I have undervalued myself in the past due to being poisoned, stuck and sick always from their thwarting and silencing of my talent, health beauty and expansion of my life so these filth foul parasites can feel expanded. They grow in energy from parasitic life-sucking for sure. The black rancid parsite of Pvalley--the ugly hate of this trio and undoubtedly the white nazi trash male actor who played alongside the ugly yapping sinister black trash creep yelling "ugly loser' at me perpetually with the smirking sneering rat depp filth trash---and the german total crap scumbag family who has been invited to "traumatize" me by every means of "blaming" me for a lifetime of this sinister sick scum ape who tortured and then fractured my spine, obviously a murder attetmpt for his failure and his problems. The ape men who rape and drug me using this system all have serious problems with their lives, emotions and in relationships. They then implode because this tech enables the "instant gratification" scumbags to indulge in their every sense of power by pushing someone else down; instructed in Nazi ideology that they are then the "master race" imbued with instant superiority for having someone drugged, their brain put in a type of vice and the planet can be turned into a slave and master plantation. They indulge in every drunken and orgy whim until they are so unbalanced about their actual real capabilities that somehow something rebounds the impracticality of their overwhelming self-absorption is unrealistic in real-life terms. //This sick filth creep obviously had problems before I was forced into his sphere because my nazi sick family forced him on me so they could endlessly profit off destroying my life. I had won contests I was at the top in many things I endeavored in, this outraged the nazis and they instsructed my completely supplicating family to destroy me "from within" under pretext of "sibling" in-fighting so it was murderous violence poisoning and drugging and the "sibling" mass of black hate got deals, and were invited to parties, etc felt like they were welcomed. They stared with loving submission to the nazis towering in disdainful demanding glares to attack me, which they did and were allowed to compete and win and obtained private lessons for their children, etc and whateve other perks. They still werre declining like arnold shit-stench n9gger and like all the rest, and like this german sick crap family who I last saw in 1993 and really thought I would never see them again, never once wanted to contact them or anything like that. But this black nazi shit who came from P-Valley began by hate and abuse instsantly with no "provocation" from me--only that I had called dirty oprah an aunt jemima under minnd control traum and torture after 2 years--only 2 years compared with 16 or 17 from the depps ongoing without end--none of these ape pigs can achieve much more than what they truly are worthy of and the former free deals for just dumping their sick problems out on me did not elevate them enough to sustain anything but a downward slide into more mediocrity and their own problems, which are many for all of them individually and collectively all they do is swarm to abuse me to dump all their hate and problems out on me, projecting literally everything possible upon me as the blame target. The black shit came, freshly instructed "call her stupid call her bitch call her ugly laugh and giggle with the u gly sick rat depp because you will get your movie and tv show next round with the ellison merger and shitnigger arnold. but tortuer and abuse her to get ideas for your next shit black nazi victim Critical Race theory bullshit tv show. //the ape sick pig fucks kept abusing me until I finally began to yell names at them which I have written earlier---becuase their tv f-ing show is all about women being victimized by white nazi trash men like this german ape fuck they surrounded with love and adoration only because he is a nazi white male and so is the white male in teh cast who is ordering them to abuse me so he can profit off this but remain, as the white nazi trash always does in modern "woke" society, behind the scenes but orchstrating all the racist violence and chaos and then once all fails, as the europigapes have been constructing in america through their dumb mind programmed idiots like trump, shjitnigger his nazi progarmmer instructing him how he can gain but destroy america so f-ing what, all he needs it so be approved of by the euronazis they bring in peter thiele to destroy america with nazi muck out of south africa. Nazis of america onlky want me destroyed and blacks to do the nasty work of genocide for t hem, which is the programmibng I was faced with directly with this prick valley putrescence valley yesaterday leadcing into today. Hate that was murderous, ugly negativity without end. The smirking delight of the ugly plastic surgery skank prostituted filth crap who played a victim of an interracial white/black marriage of domestic violence, e,xactly what I was forced into by my family-a similar plot to this shit actor playing a role she has no comprehension of and would have submitted to the abuse and hujmilation of the white male if she had been forced into this role forced onto me, in real life not fantasy college-level critical race theory writing as this p-valley writer is: pure academic critical race theory expressed in all it's bookworm parameters in scripts that are very much readily available in various stories by other authors or in social studies ecucation. I am not a student of critical race theory per se but I have studied domestic violence and nothing she wrote of had any deviation from what you read in a graduate class on similar topics. //The intersecionality is also available in feminist classes which I also have studied so what she wrote was very common knowlege at higher educational studies, if they are allowed any longer. I had to finally begin to rant and scream about how stupid they are in allowing this system to flourish for their dirty tv show careers. they are literally helping to UTTERLY DESTROY America through this nazi german team with sick shitnigger arnold and his filthy kennedy nazi fuck family systejm urging him to steal and rob on their behalf. the tv shows that filthy dirty stupid arnold, so not an artist, creative content anything just a sleazy filthy rapist white nazi rapist racist nazi bigot with the kenney crime sleaze filth family---his former wife has a very ugly expression opn her power encrusted face is very much a hateful influencer in destroying america and is like so many nazis awash in destroying minority opportunity as part of a general platform. The black nazi shit from this shit tv show came to support them and literal extreme hate aimed at me. The writer glared in absolute murderous hate and rage at me after the 4th hour of me explaining how they are wrong to support this and why--which is the way this group has obtined ideas for all these 17 years of abusing torturing raping beating abusing raping insulting to get me to scream ideas about justice so they make movie shit out of it--funded by multi-milions of English royalty and german nazi and everything for that merger with the naziified ellisons and etc and so, ugly sick dirty nazi arnold obtained another idea out of me so he can produce and profit off it. Not a single penny for me, not even a thank you NEVER a redcuction of abuse and murder for me--slow torture to death continuously shitting out murder poisons every day or being constipated with it, sick and drugged every day to the max so every morning I am in a near delirious state of drugged inability to think and act decisively while htey scream and insult and threaten me into my brain, hours of it beginning the second I wake up--on and on and on. This filthy dirty hate creep is going to turn it into black victims of racism with them starring in it. The filthy depp rancid piece of stinking sick ugly shit will play a white suporter of compassion for black victims of racism, which is what the real originators of racist divide and conquer p lay in both real life and in movies, the roles are interchangable but always they are at the helm of the surrpetitious machincaitons for racist override. Dirty sutpid sick arnold fixates on hacking animal devouring type videos because his view is that--and I insert here--he is not a creative talent, he is a sick rancid

  The hackers as usual froze the entire laptop in the midst of writing the above-- Arnold sick filth-igger is not a creative talent, his tal...