Wednesday, July 22, 2020

The Joker Particle spiraling down to the lowest common denominator of entropic state of rest. The rest is a not funny reality but a jest.

This title refers a bit to quantum physics. Particles in an atom when shocked by energy in whatever form (protons, for eg) accelerate in energy and rise to higher states of form. When the external energy source is stopped or diminished, the force of entropy takkes over and the particle descends into it's more low, base state. The particles I mention are actually electrons, but my brain is under so much attack I had to switch the browser, stop my writing activity and then go to a search page to be able to access this in my memory. I must stop my writing activity or browsing and either leave the space I am sitting at to write, or go to some other activity for the attacks on my brain's cognitive functioning to somehow block their blocks and be able to access my own memory and obtain the words or concepts.

Electrons revolve around the nucleas of a molecule in a shell, with various orbits. I can now access this only because I did something else in order to access my own brain.

I thought of this concept after I got off the laptop, after writing about the Joker movie. The joke was on me as usual because, in the accessing of my then unblocked memory, I realized that I WAS and HAD BEEN UNDER ATTACK by this lead actor whom I had stated was a superlative actor. He is, and has been (not in all the movies, and certainly not in the movies he had  put on my tv when I had a boob tube in my room, was drugged to the point of comatose inertia, my body put out-of-aligment as the terrorists in the rooms next to mine would smear fungus into my hair, orifices and clothing/blankets (as they still do) and I lay in bed watching the pirated/hacked tv stuff that the actors teleporting me put on, wiith themselves of course as lead actors in this attempt to further both discredit me ("she's delusional and schizoprenic, with paranoid personality disorder" for claiming that she watche smovies, or clicks on pages with videos of celebrities, and in her "dreams" they rape and abuse her--what a crazy female this is..the story goes, as they , the terrorists obtaining lead roles and promotions for participating in this crime an doffense, are so assured that NOTHING NO ONE NO PRESIDENT NO ONE WILL HINDER THEIR VIOLENCE OR PROTECT ME IN ANY WAY).

It was his movie about some internet fantasy stuff, I could not watch the movie it was both borin and upsetting considering that I am and was under the same sort of terorist situation (in the movie, it was a loner finding "love" with some internet fanatasy--or something like that, I have forgotten the plot it was a terrible movie). 

I ALSO was in this sense, "forced" to watch the movies of the director of that film Joker, who had made comedies about going to get screwed, drunk and dishevelled in a devilish way in Thailand. I was not exactly offended by the movie so much but a little. It was revealing of the rape culture that exists in the form of colonialistic empire going on vacation to get sucked, fucked and cleaned in Thailand by slaves but confined to happy, smiling will -do-anything tourism operators, enslaved financially and psychologically by the "handers" who come to invest and then control all aspects of Thai political and social life.

I had then "remembered" that upon watching this movie, which I still retain is an excellent film, an historical moment in film history due to the sensitive handling of more 'Universal" themes, both political and in every way personal for white males in society who want to unleash their rage against the machine as long as they can be "free" to become on top as usual; the expectations of the viewers and the endless paradigm of white male supremacy.

Not trying to make this exactly a political statement. This is an analysis of the content and the actors and their modus operandi, as it revolves around me, and how it evolves into fake opposition political propaganda movie and tv and media output.

I had searched, after first viewing the movie Joker, for information about what I had thought was not a vicious co-conspirator, the lead actor who deservedly won top awards. Albeit, he did participate in this contract, or I believe he did as his movie was input into the long list of the other rapist, bigot, black white asian conspirators in HH-wood (or 88-wood).  I first got a photo of this actor glaring, dishevlled, needing a hair cult, a shave, but not his trim and manivulred beard for his interview siith Kimmel, for ecample, but looking raggedy--as many of the peterrorists in these G-wood video simulated attack, psychological trigger pirated videos all appear. Soemtimes they put on make up to appear very ugly.They must present themselvse as being ugly and nasty towards me. The contract. Just as people in my immediate vicinity must come to me if in person, and in  a private setting, stinking of body odor. Landlords do this quite often.

The look of grim hate on his face was absolutely in contract to the happy, glowing look when interviewed for his promotion in the media. It was another orchestrated hate attack. I had "forgotten" this when typing that he wasnot involved in the attackk upon me.

His co-conspirator, an obvious mafia personality in the media, along with his friends and fellow mafia movie cohorts, put endless videos of himself, his movies, and the film Joker on my YouTube channel for me to see z(drugged up, I was "directed" sublimminally to look at YoutuBe, please undersatand how powerful and devestating these drug/tech interfaces are, plus absolute isolation, all happy loving things blocked from me including just simple birds flying outside my patio view of the nearly dead hillside directly opposite mywindow)

I know there are many topes in the last paragrpha but I have spent so many hours of my life backkspacing to correct these types. I am closing my yes right now, so whatever happens with the mess that comes out, I'm not going to spend time of fixing it.

I had written on Facebook about the foursome of Brooklyn mafia media personalities (two were in a reality show, a movie was moade about their patriarchal mafia figurehad, for which tyheyy remain riding the crewt of a wave of poublicity because he so souccessfully, fora whitle, was able to oust various established crime figures in NYC--with the enlargement of this global concern of Nazi/mafia dn organized toerrorism, now they are included in the wider circle and participating in this contract out on me.

The two others, both males, have been imn many movies toegether. both are famous and both put their tv shows for me to click on (so they can call me crazy if I click on them and then claim that they are teleporting,m assaulting, using disgusting verable subliinals at me when I use the toilet, under all surveillance--and it's supposed to be me who is crazy and not them or this organization)

ha ha, what a joke.

I had "forgotten" under drugging, duress and near paralysis, as i have been very, very sick in this last phawe of detox.

I am tiree of writing now.

I have deleted all the recent movies, including Gladioator. They are worthwhile movies, but part of the inclusive propaganda to create the system of eliminating the "Demoractic" ideals which Ameirca is supposed to encompass.

I bleieve that revolutions are desired so that mass waepons and mimiltary force can be used against civilians, disgruntled by thee "system" that oppresses them, more and moreso as time goes by and the top 1 percent dwindles down to the .05 % of the top while more and more are strulggling and dying in the streets or being killed by cops and military juntas and forces. More riots in the streets will mean more Martial Law ordinances and then laws breaching all constitutional rights. That is what I bleieve this movie was engenering and subliminally enhancing into the sconsciousness of the viewers. This movie alone had billions of viewers around the world.

I am going to stop this analysis right here, as typing is fraught with mistakes and my brain is being blankketed and I'm tired of not being able to reach anyone with my rwiting except for more terrorists hackking and blocking my bwebsites and pages from being actually published.

All my attempts to actually get my blog advertised or read, all is for naught. I am blocked frrom all outside access. I therefore remain forced to live in terorist violent conditions and unable to fafford to defend myself with living in a place with at least solid walls--a nd I mean a real decent home wiith happy, beautiful things and people around me instead of disgusting minorities always spraying disgusting sprays into my home and body so they can get promoted by colonisliatic Nazi bigot handlers telling them what to think, ewear, eat and behave as they obey completely and blindely without hesitation (or risk being destroyed if they disobey).

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I am going to try to find some offline platform to save or writ emy posts, as probably what I wriite is being obliterated from the interentet and only the hater terrorists have access to whta I write.

They rreally truly are disgusting and I so wish that people would be able to act defenseively or protect me, but with all sielncing of my writing and of my situatioon, with no o0ne around me in eveyr place I have gone for years participating in this...

but you can watch the movies by thesee terrorist who are assured that nothing is ever going to happen to their careers let alone terms of justice appolied to rape, torture, disfigurement, murder attempts, theft of my CAT, and others endlessly exonerated by  persident after preseient. They are exalted and confirmed into the hallowed abyss of the Satanists who control and use them to spawn their hate societyof genocide for hire theft for prosperity and oppression as political satire turhned into movies about death, murder and redepmption of the victims of society, played by millionaires or billionaires in HH-wood who act with absolute supreme hate at me, and confirmed with conviction that there will never be any legal action or defense for me--as they continue to pump out their hate and redemption and righteousl salvaging of the black underdog, the white underdog, the rape victim, etc etc and all these actosr absolutely participate in all these foul crimes against me.

Thus the joke particle, elevated by the platform of public excitement that a white male can play so well that he actually acts like a real artist--so devolved the theater of public media is that when one actor behaves like he's actually an artist it's like the world is stunned---

but then, when the energy is not pumped into the endless titilalation of violence as redemption, organized chaose as a rejuvinating streeet explosion of violence, murder and hate as the elevating sense of identity--giving eh viewers csome catharsis for their own real and imagined sense of depreciation in a soystem designed now to create a very deadly, aristocratic society where people can be slaughtered in teh streets and if htey protext, the governments have huge militarized waepons that can blast out dear drums or burn entire groups to ao crisp--the technological weapons aimed at crowd control will quickly eliminate all the disssenting hoards, who scream and yell at the streets. The facial recognition software can identify all thepoeple protesting as the ganag stalking orgniaztion can quitely eliminate them--lets say, wiht a pandemic or other diseases, acciedents, or floods, etc.

Not a very delusional or parnoid association if you confront the terorist stalking organization daily, as i do. It makes one more familiar with the tactic and the style of covert assassination and control.

And thus, the writers and actors continue to attack me so they can simply suck out the ideas by the thought-reading teh and by teleporting me to phyhsical assault and death threats when I fight to stop them from picking my idaes, as they blank out my braiin when I try to have a career and write, and block all opportunities for expression or creativity and all avenues of financial solvency.

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I will try very hard to save my written posts on some device. What I write, despite having put a copyright symbol on this blog, is always open, like open source, for the rapists and terrorists to steal because they operate as agents in the media. The contract out on me entails stealing ideas from me just to fab at my psyche as much as possible. One of the people who made a film based on the concept I wrote that I am under attack this much because when I had the chance to compete, I won top prizes and therefore, due to racism I have been paralyzed and raped as a form of "humiliation" (not for them of course, they are the pornographic heroes of society for the cock rock jocks and jokers and clowns to admire and pay and rave about). 

I also wanted to state, but "forgot" that for years I have described these jokers in the media who are terrorists teleporting me and using their terrorist organization to make my home and body destroyed, I called them CLOWNS for years in these ranting, drugged up Facebook posts which also served as information for them to steal, per terms of this contract out on me.

That ties into the clown theme, perhaps there is a direct connection between this contract out on me, the actors/writers using this theme to elevate the concepts of outcast outsider (supposed loser/loner_ attaining redemption through MURDER   with masses of street people, disenfranchised, revolting and thus reclaiming their sense of pride in their lost paradisical humanity. Clowns, cloying clowns and grasping rapists and terrorising traumatizing Nazis, parasites, etc etc are the terms I have used for the very wealthy actors who are cranking out this mind control propaganda for the masses to latch onto. Raking in millions more, as they glare in hate at me or participate from the crowds of them sitting in rows as they teleport me to watch me fight, after being assaulted in these teleportation episodes (all put on film, no doubt for the "Dark Web" and other informational tutorials on how to get what you want using this new tech/terrorist organization drug/tech interface genocide systematic hate).

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A half hour later: I "remembered" what had been blanket-out from my memory by the tech/terrorist/hackers when I tried to begin to describe how some actor/writers used my concept of Nazis thwarting my life because I kept competing and winningg when I was not made parralyzed and incoherent from drugging and under non-stop terrorist attackk by "them". the actoor is "blackk" and turned my concept into a male, black situation. I wrote about this on Facebook years ago. hundreds of posts ago. However, it comes to mind because this movie also went up the charts of public approval suported by Nazi mafia and completely funded by white supremacists and theiir Nazi, foreign ilk. I beolieve/know" that this blackk male and his group stole my concept sbecause first, a plethora of his videos appeard on my YouTube channel (the portal through which many a rapist/perpetrtorr male/female "celebrity" had stolen ideas and planted the stolen concepts on my channel, or put theiir endles videos so if I click on one, they can teleport me and then claim I am paranoid, schizophrenic and delusional as they pilfer, rape and torture wiith asolute exonneration by all law and up to the Executive with full promotion and $$$$$!!!! Oh yeah hooray Whorewood exalts in this !!!

Not just this onslaught of videos, but videos verbatim using phrases I have witten on my Facebook page. "AM I the only one?{ I wrote being teeleported and raped and tortured? This exact phrase was stolen verbatim by this black male to portray a rape scenario, but put in light of blackk male underdog pretenses. The usual configuration of underdog movie selling hypocrisy cranked out by multi-milioniiare rapist abusers mafia Nazis and their genocidal supporters.

It is very very hard for me to write and I am exhausted from this efort. Who is reading this besides terorists? Or maybe some people who "care" when they are "safe" and can then "care" as the usual habit is when crimes perpetratred by State "actors" is lfeft silenced until it's safe for the concened public to show sympathy--usually when the victims and perpetrators are long dead and they are given theokay signal by the perpetrator subsequent generations--swho then use thematerial to foment fake opposition aginast their entrenched oppression but put into jake sympathetic light in these waves of concern over the situation too long dead to be a tthreat anylonger to the terorists who always seem to get out unscathed afterwards. Except for a few iconimc symbolic clowns who get stuck in the crossfire of public enraged witch hunt actions as catharsis for the huge massive generational recurring landscape.

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Again, after my brqain was put into a ramblling mode and then I "forgot" to add the most incisive point: the blackk male who I believe stole my concepts, participating in this contract but not openly assaulting me in these sickening teleportation skkits. One of the tv skits he put on my YouTube channel was of him saying that someone had stolen ideas, but "your ideas are so bad" was his reply. This was put prominantly on my channel. I took it as a token sign of the signature of the contract out on me, to humilliate and insult all I work for that they steal, claiming only they are intelligent and I am supposed to be "stupid" a "b-word" and etc etc profanities, after they steal all they can and act like stupid apes which they then ridicule by having apes holding up the middle finger worn on teeshirts by terrorists who follow me and nearly hit and drive into me in the Thai roads--so I will notice their hate symbols.

One of their MO's is to mock and "laugh" about my hate responses by calling them apes and pigs and etx. Their strategy is to joke and be Jokers about my rsesponses by calling it all stupid. Particularly raciaml slurs that are encased into the public consciousness, which are stupid and ugly. If I try to create my own, such as the Mafia outof Brooklyn or Italy, as there are very few insults that are so established as the black and Jewish "jokes" and hate slurs--they mock and insult tring to diminsh the impact of the created insults I make to laugh about them myself. They then augment their reversal mockery wiith violence and tortrure. I remain fighting alone and fighting just to type agiout this.

What JOKERS they really are, but not fun or funny. How does the woorld at large actually buy into their jesting joker media personalities and the lies that they continuously crank out? Oh yes, much of the world that had fought against this Old World Disorder have already been killed. The rest firmly buy with real money into the media purchases that create these billionaire rapist hedonistic soulless sadists who are promoted by all players in the leadership death thrones sitting atop with splendor of genocide filthy lucre that they obtained from MURDER. Endless movies about MURDER and death put into near jocular jesting joker format. All murderers are emulated and turned into heroes! Mafia movies especially abound, now in Latino and all other country formats!!!


A more exact explanation of the Higgs-Boson "God Particle" video, leading to the conclusion that the non-random cascading effect of the JOKER PARTICLE is being aimed, through the electronic force of the boob tube phenonmena, into the brains and cerebral cortexes, massive dimishment of E=mc2 of the brain mass due to endless radiation effect of the Joker Particle blasting each and every brain cell until brain mass diminishes, allowing the Joker Particle to penetrate and cause massive deflation and implosion effects.


In the end, the Anti-God force field exacts an anti-gravitational field around brain mass, causing massive implosion into a CLASS WAR AND REVOLUTION in the inhabitant of the diminished brain mass. This saves time for obscene legislation aimed at curbing the excessive demands of the ruling centrifugal force field of the Goddless Particle which accelerates the more money you put into the machine.

Causing white, male surburban males to contemplate growing dreadlocks and listening to Rage Against the Machine and watching more movies with songs of revolution so they can feel appeased about their need for absolute power and control which their controllers dictate to them until they "grow up" and assume the mantle of oppressive Godlike goddless Particle acceleration into assumption.

All the while watching the movie Jocker until they can reach this point of calcification and rigidity so they will never fall into the trap of the 2nd Law of Thermodynamics, aka Entropy. Too stiff to fall into the supine position of thinking and pondering and being loose, flowing and alive with energy.

The band collectin' all those royalties for the movie, a precursor to The Joker. All the white angry males now have children they can protect with control out-of-control----assuming the mantle and their children rebel. Oh Joker particle spawning masses creating chaos bringing order out of chaos.


MUSE-SICK for the masses, pulling forces apart. Revolutiion Joker Particle pulling the joke on the masses the joke is on/in/out/within pulling forces apart. The Matrix yawns with each stagnating Joker Particle that descends in entropic fashion into the depths of the revolution that came around to the slaughter of the masses echoing it's last revolution that came before the old men were replaced by younger angry men who then were killed off by the old men resuming power. The Joker heckles and laughs and resumes his silent vulture existence, waiting for the next spawning turn of the wheel revolving around a centrifuge of stagnating energy, where solid structures are assumed to never really fall or collapse under the weight of the masses pounding to reach a more stable but negative state of equilibrium within the dynamics of zero gravity forces impoverishing starvation dissolution revolution.

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Extreme drugging/nervous system attacks via implants along my spine & into my brain--8 hours of literal non-stop abuse from this English And nazi team of another senator from congress, the same rape enabler who is the front-runner face of anti-violence against women and me2 rape culture to oust the jewish weinstein so her company and the rest can overtake h-wood --antisemitism so openly expressed that obviously Nazis and virulent racists are behind this contract out on me. My brother stating that only I will experience violence, with his full participation and that Germans are trustworthy not racists it can't happen to him. for using sexual and physical violence against me instantly after more than 30 years of never having seen him, never contacting him except for him smirking about a situation the nazis forced on me, he is lunging at me to gain more promotions and allowance to get everything for free for handing me over to murder, essentially. Me, drugged so badly I cannot stop reacting to every question, hours of asking me for ideas as the English scriptwriters and director and the endless leech parasite this ugly sinister putrid creep female who is endlessly pushing violent beef-body-build "men" out of europ-a-land to violently rape me, the more abusive and humiliating the more they are praised and awarded; she is the representative for the United Nations and for Chuck Schumer in all legislation against rape and domestic violence against women. Put deliberately there really to give permission for rape if it's racist-based rather than anything else. beloved so greatly by the grateful rapist thugs surrounding her, the minority minions lavishing praise making antisemitic comments at me--Jews in particular are very hostile and laughing smirking it can only happen to me, not them. The drugs are so insidious that are injected pumped into my bladder while I sleep--must get up every night to alleviate what they inject so I am drugged--it is a nasty horrific murderous chemical and drug forcing hate, along with extreme shifts of my brainwaves I can't even control my breathing--my entire spine is coated in hard chemicals in which microchip implants directly affecting my spine are buried from the 3 complete surgeries I have had---(the hardening poisons made my spine crooked, the terrorists fractured my vertebrae while I was unconscious after they orchestrated mostly harmless "accidents' and in the deep brain implant state, I am rendered completely unconscious and unable to feel anything (drugged to the extreme the next morning with pain killers and numbing chemicals). 8 hours another day of this ongoing with me finally screaming in rage fighting and hitting the people responsible for this--the senator who came years ago to abuse yell fascistically at me, now threatening my life for having rushed to physicall attack him after shouting to go away go away go away. They all remain until I rush at them lunging in fury. The dirty nasty sick female who is connected to the English monarchy has been relegated to bring every fascist nazi english abuser and hater to assault me possible in the celebrity zone, there are so many---all are clamoring to get this contract and to participate from all minorities in congress who rush at me violently to white supremacist congress haters--this one very close to the source of much discontent for those slated to be excluded from life in general---very pompous about his entitlement to torture have me raped and poisoned, they all are. My brother smug and behaving like I am still being beaten and abused by him at the age of 14 when I left the hate situation my family had adopted because my mother was trying to get "in" with an "Italian" but American married man, the "Italians" in this tiny family-controlled cul-de-sac had installed mircophone relay systems so they could listen to my family abuse me (this was in 1978 before the internet) my brother was so violent I phoned the police and left that house the next day--forever. I saw him a few times, I had the blank mind controlled drugged assumption that he had "grown up" but alas, he lives in the perpetual abuse state having ensured I am stuck everywhere I go as he is promoted for endlessly ensuring my destruction, lack of health care. My family offered me an inheritance in a creep way 2 years ago, I saved the money but declined to have any further contract with them as they were abusive just in connecting me to the lawyers distributing the inheritance (I got the absolute lowest amount of all members)--and this they used to have social security cut off my income and it's been off for 6 months while I am fighting to have it reinstated and they worked with the 4th Reich to have this done. I was screaming at him in rage, as the hate parasitic rape cheerleader who is beloved by all senators presidents her sleazy and disgusting 16 years of stealing my ideas so her blank and hateful lack of personality can be embellished by my years and lifetime of reading and study, so that nazi white supremacy can appear like it has originality and any kind of creativity outside of endless repetition of murder revenge and upcommance plots which they rotate every year in their awards categories, until they latched on to stealing my ideas, and now torturing me as I scream ideas because they are so revolting their image their ugly sinister presence is so revolting--and I cannot stop responding instantly to their endless probing questions intermixed with extremew murder threats and then inquisitive questions and every thing I do, from going to the bathroom eating taking healing powders all my exercises for healing I created they are stealing and using as their own invention; so much that I do is original and not a copy I learned, they are stealing torturing and asking for ideaws literally non-stop. I cannot stop talking I can't stop responding. the drugs, my body is like enmeshed in not being able to breathe independently the technology and drug interface is so overwhelming. The smug and smirking dirty ugly sick skank sits smiling as I scream and fight for the 2nd year in a row of literal daily screaming and rage at English hate bigots assaulting me for over 8 hours per day--0the rapist who beat tortured and mutilated me, has had my plants killed is threatening my life then making sleazy sexual comments, sitting next to this foul and dirty ugly sick creep skank always they are partners probably as with all the men who rape me she tries to suck my life force energy out by having sex with them as well. Some of them at least--they sit next together all the men who rape me next to her, after she has had me poisoned nearly to death, still fighting to heal every day. My body aging rapidly she is laughing, the men make endless sneering comments about my breasts while I am naked as they sit for hours watching and commenting on all I do. Once i finally "break" after the 6-8 hour mark of literal non-stop literally every single second for over 6 to 8 hours without a moment of them shutting up for one single second with death trhreats abuse insults and probing questions I scream finally to shut up and die I scream hit them rush violently. It is torture and the senators are smug threatening to kill me constantly for lunging at them screaming to get off me to fuck off that they have already been killing me via poisoning and torture for years. It goes on and on. I might be able to "ignore' them if they were not drugging me so severely and my body racked with implants along my spine forcing a reaction that overwhelms my breathing and concentration--the implants are definitely in my brain and along my spine---without a doubt they force my muscles to spasm while people are slamming doors--the effect is unmistakable and has happened for years in this same sequence I do not flinch at noises like this, it is artificially created generated and forced upon me. They are so ugly and appear so rancid rotten stupid ugly and sick I scream that they are disgusting that I never want anything like them around me not for a minute much less 8-10 hours per day,e very day, then stupid sick teleportation skits of hate death and homelessness and me being abused, being put in stupid situations in an "edit" mode so I am waking to being in some negative situation in the middle of a posture I never created, like a movie edit stopping and starting my consciousness can be started and stopped with a press of a button in that state.//I am trying to work a way to not be overwhelmed, because these filthy sick creeps are meaningless scum in my opinion but I react as if I can't stop, and I literally cannot. //I ordered a music player and they blocked everything possible for every music player--this one supposedly came with no memory but they had it jacked-up so the memory is invisible but it is hacked and is turned off remotely like all the rest of the players they continue the death and torture deep sleep states. My body is aging my hair greying my body withering because of the energy this ugly sick skank sucks out smiriking and laughing. They keep asking me for ideas then destroying my finances so I have nothing. I am still waiting for the decision from social security whether my disability payments will be reinstated or not. They lied to me for 6 months, my family had my inheritance taken away and then my disability as well; this was a ploy it was not some random accident and they just arrived when I was being violently raped by the last lrapist from europigapeland with ugly skankalina presiding as they "made love" to each other sitting next to one another attacking me mutually--now it's the next one, the same thing but his English is much better so his verbal abuse is for 10 hours or more per day--endless extreme violent threats, violent abusive ugly rape, supposedly implying that I "deserve" it for fighting to save my life from this. My brother doing everything he can to protect the 4th Reich and that only I wil lbe a victim of any racism never he. I went into, in truth serum drugged torture microchip enhanced stress hate truth serum mode how nazis are definitely pursuing another genocide against jews and in america they want to pour in and create nazification of the already nazified and ocmpletely overtaken america by europigape nazi filth, and I am trying to quell this as much as possible. The denial is pure stupidity this ugly sinister creep I want nothing to do with, he creeps me out I am so disgusted by him it's a visceral reaction of disgust--and his smug pomposity that he's going to get more and more and more out of murdering me smiling stupid sick ignorant--denying that nazis are taking power that they want to destroy jews. I keep shouting how stupid he is, he threatens to break my arms. If there is, as I said today, any person the most violently and murderously inclined towards me it will be my family--as they are so groomed to murder me and have been working to achieve this with full applause endless promotions money poured into them as being symbols of jewish nazi partnership---they are the most threatening and the most dangerous--and so sick and stupid it's unbelievable trying to explain how they are putting nazis into power who will take away their homes if they want lebensraum--all I say they deny and shout with whining insult that I am stupid--I remind them that I lived in Germany for over 5 years because they were trying to kill me by having a metal rod made loose in my spine so my uncle bill could get "permission" to publish his gay magazine echo in Phoenix so they had me body fractured so I had no choice but to return to them, asking for help and health care--they made sure I got nothing they tried to put me in prison for a charge of theft of jewelry (I had no car, the situation was at night miles away from me with no car and buses all stopped and etc) and they had just killed the italian american mafia thug my mother had married talking the same night he died on the day he was leaving her and the house they had jointly purchased he wanted to save since he poured the bulk of the deposit from his money--and etc.. in a murder frenzy they were--I left with a metal rod loose in my spine and had to try to survive this until I left america for germany in 1991--I told him that i had to go to germany for years to try to survive the last murder attempt they had made on me, and I speak german lived around germans only speaking german met nazis know their mentality they have not changed their edicts to kill all jews and jews in america are a target. Told I was a stupid bitch death threats and it can't happen to him, only to be because i'm a "bitch" etc my disgusting brother and his nasty spawn brought to torment me, completely programmed to ask me "why" germans are intent on another genocide, which I said to him a few days ago, he was given a script for what to repeat so the english fuckers sitting on those chairs could steal the screaming ideas I spewed out unable to stop reacting--smug ugly shitalina smiriking adn smug the violent abusive fardy the tom actor not a cat or cool sitting next to his "Lover" as I know that is the endless program of dirty energy leech shitalina--and it goes on and on> I am trying to not react bvut when I do react after the 6 hour mark I become violent to get them off me, then they all threaten my life and it goes on and on--information and ideas they are taking down as I scream them and scream and fight. My hair turning white my body aging and breaking it's murder. I am still paralyzed from the poison they all poured into my body as they had the poison raped into my body and then torture so I can't heal--it's murder.