Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Beyond sick sadism beyond cruel and unusual punishment for no crime other than nazi lynch mob racist lynching via mafia nazi political leaders and celebrities but inflicted by localized death squads handed weapons, drugs poisons and stinking filth and the hate is already installed via hollywood movies and the lack of love which is the replacement for the loss of respect for life. The only thing taught to all of these criminal haters is having money and ostentatious living displays of conspicuous wealth attainment. Otherwise, they can't live without dumping rage and hate on others to get more and have other people crushed. They are addicted to violence rape and theft extraction and probably torture-to-death. The hegemony principle of having death squads in other countries for decades now turned inward to slaughter of targeted groups and people.//Thus : Hillary brought the Gotti's into this hate terror regime to implement her Broadway play and her tv show featuring women's empowerment. She screamed yelled and after her asking me in depth for ideas about Schubert's musical journey through dismal and dark German hate spheres with some beautiful musical notes added (and the one german who sang in baritone hacked his videos for about 10 years non-stop to get me to click) just saying it's the typical. I had posted a few thoughts on facebook about Winterreise ("Winter's Journey" ) which is a solitude sad sorrowful remorseful death-centered droll piece of beautiful musically-adorned thoughts on death, suicide and love lost. I wrote it regarding how being raped without end by people also murdering me using tech that Hillary santioned for years and decades previously, but I did not write about her--I just wrote about the loss of love (they are delighted to see this happen they want me spiritually destroyed physically marred beyond recognition and all creative ideas stolen me broke financially ruined because women's rights only applies to blondish women and some of their brown lackies and slave mentality supporters). Hillary teleported me, and then after abuse screaming with deniro and pesce who brought in the gotti's to rape and spend over a decade of torture, etc etc but hillary then grilled me for ideas about winterreise for her Connecticut house where she had me teleported (a huge backyard area with rolling slight "hills" only grass--a huge estate double-storey house---a huge kitchen with a metallic island in the middle just in case anybody has been to her next mansion obtained from her criminal expertise with a lawyer degree and the presidency as her money-obtaining endless fund and next campaign finance springboard to endlessly rely on 1992 as the years (or 1994 whatever) and 30 years later still featured as the highlight of the Democrat Establishment endlessly interviewed. but asking me for one of her soirees about concepts of winterreise or what food to present while asking me (and now hackers are again freezing the page, the browser and laptop I just turned it on after turning it off so they freeze non-stop when I begin to write about their crucial nazi systematic abusers like hillary who is the champion of blonde nazi ambition to put people like me down into the ground if possible but stealing ideas because these "good" women look away when their husbands rape jewish women force fellatio on them and then it's publicized all over the world and the jewish woman is a joke and the entire episode keeps her silent and a good girl so she is welcome to represent "women" endlessly in the future. It showed her lack of any resistance to rape culture in other words, thus she could champion "feminism" forever as long as the white and black nazi jewish cartel rape culture men were concerned she remains their favorite "feminist". She asked me a score of questions about how to redecorate the wooden winding stairway in a spiral curve up from the ground floor (first floor) an antique old house in connecticut she told me the State uppon asking her. Curtains of English flower design appearing "blue" or "yellow" I could not see clearly but for once I was able to see colors--they can alter my visual perception in this state so I saw the colors. She then teleported me back and then mutilation to my feet began the next day they began slicing skin between my toes and kept doing it every night--injecting pain number into the slicing to the bone after johnny rotten had my toe broken on the same left foot months earlier for saying something he didn't like after I responded with anger to his insults and abuse. I had written that he looked adn appeared poisoned I was concerned he began abusing me to get his promotion and that same year a tv show came out about the sex pistols. But all that brought on the gotti crime family of extreme abuse and hate as people can imagine but almost sanguine in comparison to arnold s-ne88er really a violent genocidal murderous bigot and beloved by all in power it's amazing how much they love this hateful violent murderous man and his group waiting to completely infiltrate america with nazi derath squads americans like hegsesth already fully primed for genocide and death squads. Just elect him into office the maga nazis will approve of death squads saying that it's fully ordained by Jesus and God and then also sanctified to purify the military of black inferiors but farrakhan is superior because he really endorses trump so----the gottis came to inflict ove a decade of non-stop torture--pesce and denior winning oscars 2 years in a row (deniro) putting trump in power as much and often as possible working for the democrats as well---Schumer inviting not jolie into his office to support the violence against women bill I think they passed it, she spent months and years representing the "fight" for "fighting" violence against women while having me beaten raped and my ideas stolen so she could likewise go to broadway presengin my ideas about illinois music I wrote on facebook for years and also the oscars for maria based on my posts about maria callas and then years of rape and mutilation poisoning nearly to death and they are still murdering me--my face now lined with black worry and hate lines my lips and cheeks sagging from rage hate my eyes sunken in my face changed her laughing as she screams in edelight that I am "ugly" as I told her that I never considered her bueaitful so years of mutilation was her response through this tech. Fully suported by hillary but oh, the gottis tohelp her get more and more out of this abuse contract. the gottis working with hillary and so many of htese people steven spielberg is also always there wihle the gottis are abusing me but never interferes he just joins in like all the rest of the jews. But hillary--and the gottis he new york political career of hillary has put her in good with trump even after she and bernie helped him to "win" back in 2016 and both have been rocking the stock market and tours around america selling progressive and feminism and both attacking me with snering hate and mutilation and then handing me over to the gottis and endlessly shitalina to mutilate and torture and they keep getting the gift that keeps giving this contradct out on me.

  The methodology of the gotti family has been to have me raped (one of the gotti sons or grandsons of victoria) then beaten and raped beate...