Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Torture report: I am being tortured, beaten raped and abused to death (details in a hazy hacked mind control thwarted post below as I progressed the "mind control" and hacking forced ranting and dissembling of thought structure my brain also under assault so bear this in mind when it appears I am rambling--also hackers rewrite my posts and delete words and add typos, etc)***Due to newsom torture for not complying with his exploitation schedule of me, combined with years and years of his relative-by-marriage pelosi who operated with the former governor of that STate out of CA, but really an Austrian bigot with plans and the backing to infiltrate america and turn it into a heap of destruction with a few celebrities and politicians obtaining endless lucre from the holocaust and it's derivatives--thusly after years of pelosi and newsom and his "movie aspiration" wife to be a director and their family drooling for years and years to obtain and they have obtained endless money and clout and political power (put as speaker during trump first hell admin) now fully torturing me to death but just sitting as if it's just normal torture. Heart palpitations tears pouring out of my eyes for hours per day, and this group began these attacks on me under the obama, it stopped under biden now begun again (obama has arrived openly in the subterranean blues of his endless exploitation with his wife, the documenatary featuring her coming out one week after their last "visit" of smug hate indifference and absolute hypocrisy--can't express how much I don't give a damn about the trump video regarding them because he also featured newsom as an a$$ donkey so why isn't that somehow mentioned and only the leeches of the obamas?). However, the sleazy sick violence of the by-now fully ingrained torture regime of the pelosi-newsom triad (family included droolling with lascivious plantation hate racism sexism etc at me, using any rationale stupid and blank excuses and repeating them as dumb as little bullies in a schoolyard deady and violent andsucking all out of me, thusly my hair turning grey so many grey streaks now the noem assault also it was her having my hair damaged when I literally collapsed in sickness from deadly poisons I finally managed to get out while she and this german sleazy filth parasite were threatening my life abusing with newsom slapping my face calling me bitch and prostitute whore etc sitting all day with tom hardy who had, by then, spent more than 7 months yelling death threats and abuse at me literally from morning until night, then in sleep death homeless skits, etc every day, day after day with shitalina coming in to check and make sure the nazis were doing the job she had been doing every day for over 15 years by that point with pig ape pitt and the rest of the shit from whorewood. Then the black MMA fighter celebrity ja --michael something ja or whatever, he's ameircan but came with the usual black nazi bs imposing the "n-word" into my brain, subconscious which my brain repeated until I began to yell at him to f-off because blacks in particular the men have their voice subliminal abuse schedule of having the n-word filtered into my brain so when my brain processes this word they can "Justify" although they never need justification but to try to make it a visible that I am this virulent racist for the rest because obviously the hate skits are being recorded--so they make sure to cover up their crimes by using racism as a pretext in reality they are the racist dolts and idiots--but this was done to me all in one day again this morning but months and years of it--my hair grey, my face with frown marks and me being mutilated and tortured--deadly assaults on my heart and lungs while detoxing shitting out horrific poisons black chunks of hardened poison latched into my spine and intestines-it's still there more than 20 years of just shitting poison out and laying in bed being tortured with idea extraction for shit people to steal never-ending). The ideas they stole from me (more in the rest of this post) will be rescheduled into conservative drip like water torture for me to watch if I ever do--all will be changed to protect the bigots, with the black nazis playing lead roles portraying enraged albeit compliant nazism disguised as black rebellion against racism. Etc etc...after idea extraction after a year of deadly torture in which, once more, I did almost die from their abuse---they just continue the violence another euro-hater who has hugged german nazi filth who raped me and beat me, hugging them having pelosi threaten to cut my foot off and then kill me before the covid stimulus bill came out so she obtained a huge chunk of the money for her constituency--with arnold right there to have me beaten raped and poisoned. Although I realize the schedule of these rat apes hacking their k-rap onto my youtube and if I click on any single one of their videos they rush to assault me (happened last week with another shit democrat rat slotkin out of michigan and now whitmer is poisoned as the lead candidate for president in polls---formerly it was newsom after his endless violence assault which was deadly but he assumed I was "used to it" couldn't give a damn in stark contrast to his every public lecture about all the concepts he has stolen from the actual authentically caring people (probably all dead or silenced like me) and now, I remain being tortured to death as usual: Non-stop tears being forced out of my eyes due to throat microchip partnering with brain and spine and nervous system microchip implants along with drugging. Newsom is doing this by the way as non-stop destruction of my eyes and face partially because shitalina the endless prostiituted trash skank similar to noem gets off on torture and violence upon me and has been doing so for over 15 years without even the slightest admonition froma single democrat politician and fully adoration from the white nazi trash shit senators and house republicans who sit smirking and glaring at me with deadly hate ordering more money funding for these torture operations and putting musk in charge of building more epstein island 2.666 torture rape and torture victims to plunder rape and then murder leaving zero evidence. The network of silence is complete the biden administration for over 4 years has proven to be fully compliant and complicit in this: Plus always endemic drugging while unconscious in deep sleep state in order to not have a barrier or boundary to reacting to the endless hate spewed at me by celebrities who have gone to the oscars and won years and years and years and years in a row for either stealing my ideas verbatim and then torturing mutilating and actually were overjoyed to be murdering me but I survived. Ongoing hours per day last week of extraction of movie concepts revolving around mary todd lincoln and then civil war reconstruction turned KKK and euro-hateland imperialistic global "new world order" stuff--obviously along with sexual debauchery transmitted to the U.S. now openly in the current debacle of the enstein "revelations" that NO ONE DOES ANYTHING as you all continue to do nothing about this covert epstein-style sex trafficking, enslavement and murder imposed on me by implants and gang stalking and teleportation and thought-extraction and torture mutilation abuse torture abuse mutilation. They are killing plants I have nurtured for months and weeks, just as they begin to bloom they are slowly killed off. Drooping, diseased they spray fungus on the plants (also in my home, in my food if they can, in my hair into my body etc it is non-stop sepsis, poisoning mutilation and torture literally to death as you all do nothing. It is ICE and kkk super shit noem combined with self-aggrendizing psychopath nazi skanks like her---saw her dancing on New Year's Eve kissing into the camera, completely glowing from having me to literally torture for about 12 hours per day so that was her "gow-up" with the german rapist scum bag won't mention his name but lead singer of a shit band out of stuttgart absolutely a fraud WIZO nazis in drag (bisexual, but beloved by nick fuentes who like his counterpart ben shapiro could care less about the bs they spew to obtain their crowds of haters instead they hover around the nazi money source of lies and subterfuge; all have their ruses). To continue: they are pouring raw sewage into the creek behind my room (3rd floor but a steep hillside behind my patio almost 90-degrees so sound and stink waft up--that is after hours per day of drilling, every single day sledgehammers pounding and hammering in the room beneath mine for hours every day but now nazis are here for free being paid to screw me and rape and beat and poison if they can get to my body while asleep and can't wake up due to brain implant plus nervous system trail of implants. My home stinking and filthy due to their teams pouring debris and garbage onto my floor, ripping the floorboards up in what are craters on the floor, all the decorations I made are sprayed with brown goo muck, etc all over the room. Attacked by the next celebrity threatened with death called the b-word for resisting the torture, abuse and exploitatoin which is to abuse and rape and steal ideas from me--to death, not merely never paying me a cent, but taking away my disability because they fractured my spine while I was unconscious poisoned my body the same skank shit sitting on the rows of chairs who were happily poisoning me to death while going to the met gala invited by nazi english inc to be displayed for fully ushering in a nazi 4th Reich into america bringing them all in. Under the rump 2.666 terror regime it's now fully europigapeland occupied exploitation of me with the usual american skanks shit sluts and rat pig apes all sitting with expectation of their undeserving blank and hateful mostly stupid selves being handed an empire to continue to push for nazi indoctrination into the mainstream media; (all alternative media just exempt taken out everything monopolized, the shit fake fraud nazi german scum filth creep will help the effort to control any opposition in his role as nazi promoter via reverse psychology and those who are "in the know" understand that his every seeming "anti-fascist" statement and song lyric (derived I seriously doubt by him but instead by his KGB operatives, 30 years ago shortly after reunification the KGB was rife in Stuttgart the seeming pleasant Nazi training ground for american soldiers to "love" germans, blacks especially the soldiers were treated like welcome beloved guests (behind their backs however snarling). So that is the abuse and more, still being murdered. Huge grey streaks in my hair from being poisoned and then tortured, especially shit noem and tom hardy and this german fuck who has undoubtedly skrewed as many of the people in this group as possible they cling to him as he makes the most nasty insults-I met him for a total of 3-4 hours over 30 years ago but know his"friends' and his circle absolute fakes and frauds emulating american underground alternative scene fully nazi in reality--even worse than the "Normal" people the least nazi are the ones who are not dress-up flaunting, in my experience.//

  2-3 hours later: collapsed on my bed in sickness from detox: horrific black liquid poisons accumulated from years of poisoning and paralys...