Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Throat-induced (non-consensual) microchip torture forcing tears, throat constriction while eating, and the endless hate of this group of just extremely hateful celebrities and politicians remains as the daily hours of abuse per morning. Amazing that in this afternoon they are not still abusing me in rows of chairs staring like starved rats and leeches devouring my energy, life force and sucking out ideas which I spill out continuously for hours after their torture and abuse without end (18 years by now on a non-stop daily basis, leading to 16 hours per day and night ore more over the past 2 years but almost the same under the biden hellscape period and endless torture under trump 1st term and endless near-death poisoning and abuse (under all) but under obamas which remain as steadfast abuser-for-profit black nazi terrorists working with all their good white nazi supremacists in whorewood and congress whorewood. Aspiring politicians are rushing to join in, as they torture me and remain silent as they abuse ideas out of me. The former governor and soon-to-be former governor of that golden state cali are now a cali cartel of violent rape abusers and hateful exploiters of me with their throngs of minorities, has been celebrities and already established but not quite on the non-stop tier of non-stop top awards as the bulk of those who have spent 18 years torturing me day and night remain after their careers were faltering until they leeched latched onto abusing me nearly to death. They remain despite my months of writing about them, only handing this torture apparatus to their "friends" who need this career-enhancement so they take turns all obrtaining lead roles oscars awards and asking me non-stop all morning for ideas. Ignoring them is impossible. The amount of energy required would take up litearlly all of my life force to ignore their violence since they augment it non-stop with physical torture such as tears pouring out of my eyes. My skin is thoroughly damaged my eyesight permanently deteriorated to a degree I can no longer read without glasses, the prescription is increasing and increasing. My face looking so foreign to me from not only tears forced out of my eyes hour and hours per day, for literally years on end without end daily (this had stopped for a while until newsom obtained pemission by trump to inflict this torture after I endorsed newsom's prop 50 in california--the redistricting plan. Under drugging and extreme violent torture I wrote a message to his facebook page, and like depp back in 2012 he began violence, rape torture and increased it to non-stop terrorism when I said "no" to being his willing "sex slave" abuse victim and substitute for his domestic violence problems, which all the people involved are heavily invested in transference onto the stalking target so it appears they are all by-products of domestic violence or extreme racist policy alteriing the possibility of people in the United States elevating above racist cliches that only the white nazis are the "most beautiful". The horrific endless physical torture for mutilation and destruction of the face has been ongoing since this plastic surgery rife hate group out of h-wood began clutching at destroying my lief in every way possible. Before that it was "Just" poisoning jme into a huge, football shaped poisoned and dying drugged into near comatose levels of incoherency victim to be exploited (ideas without end beginining with the English wealthy "art dealer" I met for circa 4 hours total back in 1987 during a summer vacation trip to London with a Eurail pass. I was put into a little "bedsit" studio across the street from him in Chelsea (the Engllish creep who has spent 16 hours pe day yelling non-stop abuse and death threat yelled "that's what you get for trying to live in Chelsea" when I had written in my blog that I was put there by a real estate agent when I asked for a little room on my budget (they raised the price for me it went lower after I stopped renting I had asked afterwards) and I had no actual "choice" in the matter I had no idea where to go and this agent told me there was '"one bedsit" which fit my request (in all of London) conveniently across the street in a "posh" area from a man connected to the contract my family had made with the English in connection to the movie Deliverance, back in 1974). Back to today: tears pouring out again as I sat yelling my tirade of "leave me alone" type "get off me" endless daily repetition of this theme. They sit like statues adorned with the promise that respecting any single thing about me is FORBIDDEN they happily comply. They remain sitting and digging into my psyche to obtain ideas. They never say thank you there never any interesting reply except for the ugly hissing of the dirty hate spawn of Depp yelling her daily non-stop "loser" at me after they obtain ideas (my ideas have furnished her movies, the only ones that made any significant headlines in her entire career and her modeling came about as part of this scheme to use h-wood to bring in nazi infiltrators via h-wood into controlling american politics using nazi and english crown money handed out and distributed like candy to drooling addicts Americans they call "stupid" behind their backs---they say it openly at me whenever they can, these nasty English in particular but it is echoed throughout the Euro-diaspora of nazi persuasion. But AFTER they torture me to obtain ideas and use tears torture in part to obtain ideas. The pain is now reaching agony misery stages of torture from over 15 years of tears being forced out of my eyes. Additionally as usual the russian ballet exploiter who operates a sly strategy of claiming to be "helping" me and adds a few tips, which are beneficial but only after I think of the tips myself first--thusly only repeating my thoughts and adding a few to adjust the endless onslaught of English, French,; Austrian and German rapists and abusers he partners with, as his proxy abuse squads groups of euro-haters screaming murder, all kinds of insults. The body builder out of Austria the former gov of that dread state which used to be some kind of "open-minded" paradise of developers and cereative potential is now torturing me non-stop for years to obtain original ideas which the English crown furnishes with millions of dollars in funding for huge grand set design and costume grandeur to bolster the scripts which have, in part my ideas derived out of torture and then the usual nazi platform propaganda scripts which are essential copies of paradigms of such platitudes which echoes the platitudes the politicians use, who also observe my screaming responses to "why is this bad" and then tears torture, everything broken, stinking and more damage to my body, my property what is left of it with endless death threats and abuse going on and on for hours per day. //Never once even a basic "thank you" or any kind of money or support just abuse and then they finally just vanish and they obtain the ideas, taking notes on how they can use the ideas, and then threatening me with death having their hateful expletive scream "loser" or they just say how "stupid" the ideas are and then I see my ideas used in their movies which I deem to be a lessening of extreme originality of my original concept and turned into yet another formula nazi propagandized movie which "wins' an award and then is forgotten evermore since the movies leave no lasting mark on anybody's minds except perhaps for the mental masturbation of watching their skank rape nazi women or men gyrating or heaving around with sexual allure supposedly (years of plastic surgery and modeling with all kinds of subliminals, I believe, to enhance this effect on the viewer). //The script to "help" me while I am exercising has been used by two foreign men coming out of the near former soviet and nazi encampments which Americans have "forgotten" were once dedicated to destroying American and infiltrating and taking it over. As if it was never a threat American nazi celebrities rally around the extremely violent abusers in their ploys and schemes of torture, obtained from Stasi and Nazi administrators of mind control operations. Tested in Nazi concentration camps, by CIA LSD drug lords posing as experimenting on mind control MK ULTRA upon the unwitting prostitutes and politicians who could be bribed thus the mind control was easily ascertained upon both the wealthy and eduated as well as the desperate and possibly less well-educated simultaneously. Their mind control operates always the same: I am exercising to try to break the "internal shelf structure" of hard posions jutting out of my back, blocking movement along with the fractured vertebrae along my entire spine, performed in the span of years to inflict total disability and then denying me health care, even when I obtained it after years of struggle and applying for disability--which they have had cut off and have tried in the past month to block all attempts for me to have it reinstated by infecting my laptop so badly infected it's unusable, turning electricity off completely where I live for days and days and then increasing the abuse from people in all tech shops to the point of near physical fights because I am under mind control in such spaces and unable to contain the rage they use brainwave and subliminal phrases and literal body functions to obtain (affecting thoughts and emotions into hyperbolic knee-jerk instant reaction of rage, combined with life-threat to my existence on levels of extreme stress and drugging abuse and all avenues of producing the hundred or so downloads this agency required for them to assess my case after 16 months of no response and non-stop abuse and torrture rape from one trump politician who partners with the usual obama and clinton teams and the old biden-era abusers from the dem party are sitting next to their "opponents on the other side" all working to abuse me into "submission" for their co-joint partnership in a total entropic overtake leading America into a non-stop fascist dictatorship but "benevolent" when the dems take power.

  The ploy that is used to obtain more perks, deals and permissions to control the entertainment-political entropic realm is handed to this ...