Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Social Security Fraud/crime against me: it's not exactly a "one-way street" but it's more akin to a bicycle lane without barriers next to a 6-lane one-way expressway and Tesla Trucks veering into the bicycle lane I am solitarily peddling as fast with flat tires on to save my life.//(Muck had trucks nearly hit and smash me to death just as he was handed this tech with Amber Heard once she and Depp finished their 2+years of teleportation rape and torture of me, the spawn included--afterwards, after stealing my ideas I wrote endlessly about Domestic violence which Heard stole but fumbled, of course, like them all, turning "woke into a joke" she returned to assault me 2 years later after a month of near-hits by cars---and more cars hitting me under the last Trump administration obviously under muck et al//now they have used Social Security to destroy me (literal threat to my life and survivability with serious life-threatening threats looming due to this well-planned and executed attack using my SSI Disability, my one and only anchor on this planet they have taken away but it was criminal in how they conducted the situation which CAN BE REVERSED IF ONLY PEOPLE WOULD DEFEND ME AND GIVE SOME RELIEF TO THIS AND ALL THESE SITUATIONS TO STOP MORE OF THE TERRORISTS FROM COMING TO POWER--but to continue--Listening to "live" Senator Cory Booker on the tube---he's mentioning how SSI recipients (I am one) give permission for that agency, in Field Office interviews, to access the bank account where payments are direct deposited. I only gave permission for the agent to gain access that one account, after he asked me if I gave permission to access the direct deposit account. A few days later screaming on the phone he yelled that he saw my other account and boy, I had gone over yelling as I was "frozen" by mind control and also his behavior, for any sort of response that defended myself against his railing yelling abuse, warranted more abuse and threats which he could have done. I did not give him permission to access any other accounts. This is why he sent me a letter 2 weeks later stating my benefits are reinstated and my "overpayment" was due to a 2002 situation I had resolved in another interview 20 years ago. Adding $400 to the overpayment from 2002 and then stating my benefits are reinstated (deducting $10 per month from the already $10 deduction) I had to check on the SSA website to see if my benefits had been reinstated. They had not. I waited for another letter as Mr. Melle told me that he would send a letter, screaming with violence and then sneering with absolute hate and contempt to "have a nice day" like a schoolyard kid screaming and making fun of that ubiquitous use of pleasantry that Americans use (Mr. Melle is "Latino"). He sent nothing else, and still there is no other information about how to reinstate the benefits. But firstly, Cory Booker stated in the speech on the Senate Floor regarding the Muck Dog cutting of Social Security that people in interviews only give permission to access the direct deposit account. With all the lies, did they have any legal right or entitlement to access ALL my records with the bank when I had only given access to one single account? Furthermore, besides that discrepancy, there is nothing in writing about this. He told me to come in person (he "suggested" using a sneering contemptuously expressed example of coming to the Field Office direct in person to pay with Cashier's Check or Money order ALL MONEY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT to him personally, made-out to the Social Security Administration. Yelling that he would send me a letter detailing what to do before my benefits would be reinstated. //2 more weeks went by and now a month later no letter only benefits cut off. I phoned 2 weeks ago, was told that Mr. Melle is "in the wrong department he was not supposed to give the interview you have to have another interview". Mr. Melle sent me the paperwork on the interview, the phone call I was supposed to receive never came. I phoned the office on the day of interview (Feb. 27) and reached for the 2nd time of phoning that field office the same person (the answering is in rotation for whomever is available in a random answering ciruclation) and Mr. Melle told me he could "do the interview" and thusly, it turned into what is some kind of extortion but---no way to resolve this only to have another interfview where they could really screw more up. My situation is not a "normal" situation I am a gang stalking target of multiple murder attempts torture rape using these technologies--no one will help me so no one can help me provide evidence thusly no one cares to help me provide evidence because "everyone" is benefitting from this 4th Reich system being promoted gets a huge free deal gets to get their sleazy hormonal release from torturing and beating abusing stealing ideas life force energy they are just sucking in all they can get out of me, this contract no one will intervene. I am stuck with no way to have any incoming money as a result. The internet is continuously hacked and blocked earning is impossible. My family is involved. The U.S. Government is involved. Most governments around the world are involved where I am now is absolutely involved. So, I told the Field Office after they tried to force another interview on me, the woman on the phone was so rushed she was stumbling over her breathless words trying to force another phone appointment on me. I told her for the 3rd time that the interview had been conducted but I need a letter stating what I have to do to have benefits reinstated. She told me Mr. Melle is on "2-week" vacation will send a message to him to complete the interview. //They have forced me to have to flee my life in one place in order to survive life on this planet and everywhere i go the same poison is poured injected and pumped into my body from one vehicle of transmission or another. The same death system of attack is the same, performed with MURDEROUS violence by groups of "normal" citizens every single place on the planet. I am stuck with no way to have any money coming in. If I leave this place I have learned to barely barricade myself into so they can't put my hips and spine out of alignment any longer after raping me, putting semen and fungus into my body, hair and fungus and mold into my food my furniture my clothing destroying clothing shoes backpacks on a routine basis making my jackets I drive in stinking so the smell never comes off (using laboratory-created staining/absorption substances laced with putrid other expulsion substances--muck and filth) and ec. I need to retain an income I deserve the sub-poverty disability and much more from the group from Whorewood just from years of them stealing my ideas and trying to paralyze and kill me and then destroying my life my chances to earn money so they can just latch on forever, literally forever onto abusing me as a life sentence of slow abuse, rape sex slavery to death-- a situation that scores of Congressional leaders have rushed to join in, screaming with murderous violence because I am fighting for my life and not just willingly allowing these murder operations to o on for their mutual profit--all of them together everyone gets some free deal out of it plus dumping their hate on someone else and feeding off it and then hormonal highs of he addiction to violence and torture they all have.//With the Muck Dog-Redrum group feeding off Social Security, now all the lies are just part of a huge outcry of desperation from the "losers" who are not life-screwing operators feeding off lies and violence in order to obtain the positions in the "leadership" which is now openly criminal but so many are screaming and as usual no one ever stops them or helps me. I am thusly in a life-threatening situation. A team of people who have poisoned and followed me around the planet, literally, to continue to make as many people abuse, attack and poison rape abuse with extreme violence in every living situation with the exact same protocols followed around the planet--they are there waiting for me to have absolutely no self-defense as the SSI was all I could do. SIX YEARS of graduate studies and they just poisoned me with creeps pumping the poison into my body through both teleportation and poisoning drugging of my body and food while the terrorists broke into my home every day and night while I was drugged sleeping and fighting their MURDER DEATH from poisoning and torture--doing whatever they wanted, making my body broken down as he are still doing--and I will have no way to protect myself from murder any longer if I have to move and have zero way to have money coming in. Members of my family whose children have not abused and tortured me all my life but are waiting to profit off it rushed to join in, with the Whorewood group recently as they have all coordinated to cut my money off so my family can join in as they always do, now openly that Muck and T-rump have made fascist Nazism open and not disguised as it has been for so many decades under the "Democrat liberals" but at least I could rely on my monthly benefits which I do deserve and much more from this endless death threat and theft and attacks--considered a CRIME I HAVE COMMITTED TO DEFEND MYSELF by top politicians in Congress treated like a fun game by Whorewood scumbag inc and treated like a mental disorder by police considered an extortion bonanza by the Little River Social Security Field Office and considered a "fun game" by dirty Muck who had cars hitting me when he and Trump first obtained the teleportation equipment and this contract out on me, putting them in the powerful positions but they are still under the control and imperatives of a collective of fascist Nazism around the globe (America is not first on their agenda, trust me)..

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