Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Rancid spray substances on my clothing---my baseball hat I just wore to fend off weather---stinking but had no time to remove it because my nasal passages are clogged from throat microchip mucus exacerbation into my nose, throat and tears pouring out of my eyes today as has been continuous (daily but for the first 15 years, this year included up to very recently but still attacking my tear ducts and nasal passages) to destroy my face,which is what ugly shitalinaj the rancid stupid skank and ugly rat filth from depp gloat about continuously the damage they have ordered inflicted on my body so they can hell with their nazi friends and partners about my appearance versus theirs--how many hundreds of thousands of dollars poured into their plastic coating and etc but mostly the gleen from torture they all glisten with hormones they are addicted to torture also for that power high and sense of control. So, tears today while I was thinking about how disgusting they are, after having to wash by hand, of course, another article of clothing I spent days working on (hand sewing) into an artistic design, completely original. They always spray filth on clothing I make by hand to destroy it, slathering stains, rips and tears into the fabric then yelling about how ugly the clothing I am forced to wear in order to not ruin the clothing by cleaning black gunk sprayed on the floor, on my clothing and etc---so, having to clean the 2nd object today which was cleaned not long ago and I wore it yesterday it was clean (but I was not as congested as I am today they did another tear pouring out of one eye attack--they can restrict the tears to one single eye--to brimming with tears but not rolling out--to making weird globs affect vision , to making my throat constrict while I am sleeping to produce a kind of semi-"snorting" noise because i am in deep theta sleep, unprepared to clench my throat muscles--it's done suddenly and it wakes me up. They can force my jaws to snap shut while I am in deep sleep. They can force bile to eject out of my stomach or perhaps gall bladder but digestive substances are ejected. 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This group the ugly dirty skank from depp and dirty ugly sick shitalina not jolie---have ordered russian men to break into my room--removing from the inside the locks, the latches I tie shut with ropes and strings but all undone in the most highly proficient engineering mechanical arms proficiency so these are tied shut after the objects placed in the door cracks, the objects which are loaded against the door-are put back almost perfectly the way i had tightly tightened them before going to sleep. My hips put out of alignment, while being raped (in black visual unconsciousness inchoate and also teleported to abuse and homelessness skits or being raped by the celebrities who then assault me violently when I am unconscious they come at me from the side forcing me into consciouenss as they are hitting me, a tactic they use continuously except for arnold the body governor of california with his shrewd former kennedy wife they formed a team---he truly was her surrogate as politician. On a stray topic at the moment. Just writing of a few obstacles I face on a daily basis all day they have attack vectors of deeply penetrating technological assault which are murderous but in the aggregate the means of murder without touch--touchless murder, torture and then with brain function continuously under surveillance--they attack more severely while I am sick and after having detoxed more of the hard poisons I have spent my life fighting to stop, the poisoning and now fighting to heal they assault me without end while I am sick from the poisons having emitted into my nervous system, blood stream, and afflicting my brain and mentality of course. This is every day and it's almost as if I must (not almost, it isj) that I must wager healing with having the strength and ability to not become absolutely enmeshed in hateful reaction--the drugging lowers or destroys all boundaries to not reacting, the stoicism is gone utterly especially in first morning waking state after they inject or pump poison into my bladder while sleeping--or however it is being done. I never had to urgently "eliminate" liquids as I have had to do since this group began years ago their assaults on me---all night, all day. My post is just recounting of only a fraction of a small percent of the totality on a daily basis. So the 2nd article of clothing which I wore yesterday was fine. The shirt I had made they made ugly stupid comments about how ugly it was (and me, and always insulting how I look while i sit here or the other activity I make when am able to, which used to be impossible the fractures the manipulation of my hips and spine and then the poisoning drugging made it impossible for me to clean the endless really toxic stinking filth they spray every night so I wake up with muck and black filth sprayed on the floor in little sort of "pebble"-like shapes--tiny but like tiny pellets of black filth which absorb into the floor--which has been ripped up in portions and then sprayed with black paint-like substances so they are literally black with huge gouges and they pour stinking black tiny "pebbles' on these areas and then every day, regardless, spray stinking nasty filth on my bedlinens, my sleep wear, into my hair when I am sitting in a drugged detox stupor in front of this laptop trying to blot out their screaming "bitch loser" insults and "stupid ugly" mostly from the hateful yelling ugly mouth of this depp filth creep--I had been too attacked while writing an earlier post about how they stole, abducted my cat in a murder-like situation of having her thrown in the swimming pool nearby. The took a photo of her with a grimmace while she was fighting drowning. They had for 3 days prior to this episode had her breathing manipulated so she was choking and heaving for oxygen. She had never done that ever, and it happened so she would be weakened for them to abduct her without great resistance on her part. //Underneath this mobile phone photo was a caption like one of those "meme" internet things which are spread around regarding some aphorism or statement about politics, in one-word sentences. They wrote with sick psychopathic smug hate positing whether she was a cat or a crocodile and how funny that a cat smiled like a croc? She was fighting for her life as the people who had thrown her in the swimming pool took photos of her just to hack into my facebook feed. I did not save the photo (this happened during the first 2 weeks of the depp years of rape, culminating in this day of his filthy spawn daughter yelling loser at me while I was eliminating chunks of poison I barely manage to break into pieces with exercises and stretches, which are so minimal for any real exercise regimen my body is saturated in every joint and crevice with this poison which they added a hardening agent so the formerly semi-flexible poisons, which felt like cartilage or just natural soft tissue so I never had a single iota of a perception that I had been poisoned all my life. They began pouring injecting pounding raping this new agent into the mix when they began the murder regimen of poisoning--happeninng pre-depp but amplified at that time by the stallone manager of bar none (last name I can provide if anybody is ever concerned with actual lawful justice for me and advocacy for basic legal rights). The same level of sick stupidity sleazy violence is continuously the rallying centerpiece of all the "righteous fighters" in the "woke" spectrum with their nazi--outwardly nazi--partners who are not as vocal about their hate they sit back more silently smug and m aking a few "crush her" comments because the most offensively violent "liberal" partners must exhibit great proclivity to Nazi genocidal murder capabilites to prove they really are "in" the gang not any question and no holds barred they are the most vociferous and nasty openly within this range of protected and sheltered criminality in that L.A. domain of promotion (with politicians coming to laugh and smile looking like Nazis smug and smiling as their victims are tortured--the greasy sadistic smile I have seen on faces of elizabeth warren and amy klobuchar but warren is openly violently active in assaulting me in various ways in this group--but has openly presented herself to me only once--the first time when she partnered with my brother John, she assumed I was unconscious and in a black visual state (which I was, they can alter my range of visual perception while teleported) and also she assumed I was unconscious in my prime body sleep state, in deep theta sleep or delta, but then I had no mistake in her voice and had listened for years to her videos (not seeking her out for 95% of all the times I listened) but she elicits so much fake optimism with her yelling tirades and my desperate grasping for any support or help, this was at the beginning of the trump 2 era---my brother and family had rushed to join in like creeps they were so and always are very disgusting in this context and smug and smiling about being nazi colluders. That they helped put nazis in power is the same reaction as what oprah had done, (she very much helped put nazis in power and I yelled this at her for the nth time of her demands to explain my statement calling her a plantation icon aunt jemima for her endless smug and exploitation participation in having me poisoned raped she stole my idea for a wrinkle in time--to not let an autocratic techno-terror governance system override love and human compassion. She used the tech to monitor my thoughts and then when I associated her with the Malcolm X lecture on house v field slave and the terms uncle tom and aunt jemima were presented by Malcolm X as derivatives of the plantation slave system---she "heard" it through the monitoring tech and then in my deep sleep state, she asked me calmly "what do you think of me?" . At that point, it had been roughly 2 years of her gladly smiling hgging shitalina in a photo which was hacked on my system--the utter joy in participarting in a witch hunt lynch mob nazi group has always beeen the

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