Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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They can't get enough millions and billions of dollars and just let m me heal and live in peace they must continue the contract out on me so all their family friends and their business partnerships (oh,I forgot the clintons, oh yes, big time nasty sarcastic hate out of hillary all profiteering off my torture) I can't really state why I am this most endlessly attacked person. there are people who are assaulted non-stop but my crime has been to fight being a torture sex rape abused object without fighting back that is my "crime" due to this nazification of america. They want "jews" to be absolutely a$$-groveling legal attorney lawyers defending the criminals as my family has done as jamie ratskin is doing in this contract (he is looking endlessly for more media interviews his yapping about the constitution has turned him into one of the biggest nazi frauds of the demo-rat party elizabeth warren as well they are such "pristine" human rights advocates infront of cameras--all former professors thusly their higher intellectual savvy has turned them into formidable lying foes of actual real democracy and integrity the corruption is rot underneath the huge warm orchestrated perfect human compassion lectures they give are the most nasty and ugly in teleportation; they all are it's a hoard of what appear to be brainless hateful protocol-following bots gone crazy like on the same crack drug high on instant money and fame and promotion). They cut my disability benefits; they are trying to make me homeless. They have told me by phone when I tried to change address to get the nasty dirty disgusting grip of newsoms endless murderous violent torture (the "slow murder" contract of abuse 16 hours per day using this tech, drugging poisoning so I am shitting liquid diarrhea and objects out of my body --i.e. gall stones becuase my digestion is blocked sufficating internally but mybody has been poisoned all my life so it has adjusted still being killed) while fighting to block the poisoning and to heal they abuse yell at punch slap abuse insult and yell at me literally day and night taking turns all day all night every day after day--newsom was slapping my face for eating the most cheap steaks from non-hormone injected animals so the meat was very hard--I had to hold the very small pieces of tough steak by hand and eat like that--newsom would slap my face for eating wiith my hands--this was constant just an example of daily being hit and then he had germans and english rape and torture me--his feminist so-called feminist wife has gotten her promotions for puting out her "feminist" and "women" documentaries--she just came at me last night calling me a "prostitute" for having worked at the Lusty Lady when I was being murdered by my Nazi-conttrolled family but it was a murder ordered by the nazi 4th Reich--people just like newsom and his wife, or the newsoms I should say I consider him to be a bisexual at best but so woman-hating I just think he's completely gay not to denounce homosexuality but only to say his version of it is hate cloaked as his "feminist" wife is another nazi programmed woman-hater using "feminism" as her "political" relevancy at having anything to "say" otherwise, she's just nazi in drag like her husband. They all have turned Social Security into a tribunal of political ousting of people not complying with their nazi 4th Reich system--thusly slowly murdering people rendering them homeless. While this group has indeed made me disabled they are trying to STEAL MY COVID MONEY because I saved it. They are trying to take it all away from me even when it was determined that I am able to save it by one of their collection agencies (from social security) by phone the terrorists who I am diverted to by all phone call hacking, whether they work for social security or not they turned a simple address change into hate harassment lying abusing accusing and threats. Demanding that i go in person to a field office to change my address correctly--they refuse to write my correct address and all mail is being blocked by newsom and trump the mail system I use is monitored they are blocking mail. They routinely block all emails so I receive not a single friendly email from anybody I write and get no response all. It doesn't matter as my entire life has been spent surrounded by abusers and attackers thusly it really makes no diffrence but all my outreach to people who had been friendly but under mind control I disassociated myself (they use subliminals to push people who are loving and kind away, on both sides they input hissing hate phrases about people to block all real love and support so people I try to reach who have never harmed me I get no response from but can't find their phone numbers or am not able to find them anywhere to double-check if they did receive my email or message and if they actually had or had not replied. I am only stating this as pertinent mail is blocked likewise--mail from government sources they should have sent me a letter weeks ago for my address change out of the newsom torture rape and abuse murder coven out of whorewood and california but all is blocked. Phoning social security is met by a type of harassment abuse interrogation which is loosely turned into what is called a "review" of your case--this is done by appointment and by phone, the rules have changed you do these reviews of your situation by phone. Now they are demanding that I go into a field office to request an address change and to get information on why my benefits are not being reinstated, nor any information on what conditions I must meet such as the amount of money in my account I must spend from my savings of covid relief and student loans before they reinstate my benefits. They, under instruction by musk, trump and newsom have yelled that all the covid money must be spent although social security deemed I am able to retain that money. I submitted an economic hardship request which was supposed to have been replied to by mail--no mail, no resonses and every request in the California area have been met by the field office agents HANGING UP ON ME in the middle of questions, abusive, nasty and lying to me. In Miami they sent me a letter of reinstatement on April Fool's Day, 2025 which was of course a "joke". It was an official letter from the Miami social security field office. Now I have moved to another State and by phone on the main phone line, a woman lied yelled abused me and yelled that her trick questions (which they never asked, she asked me extremely specific questions that I answered slighly wrong, giving the wrong month of the block of my money it was February but I said March because in my mind from memory of over a year ago the money was cut after the Feb payment so my mind connected March. She then yelled that she did not believe me could not confirm my identity--I had phoned because they wrote the wrong address and I was phoning to correct it. She then lied to me and told me to change my address online. If she did work for social security she would have known that SSI disability is not able to change online only SSA recipients such as retirees can change online. My family arranged for me to have this "freak accident" which was them having this metal rod popped out of the hook latched under my spine to stabilize the scoliosis fusion surgery which was created by my family having me poisoned and my body put out of alignment, a crime and murderous violent act the whorewood group shitalina and pig ape pitt and shitnigger and nancy piglousy and then newscum, in the background until I moved out of florida to california but they did this as well-to keep me crooked, injured bedridden disabled. But they forced this on me 3 months after I graduated college and then denied me all health care, hoping I would die from a metal rod literally coming out of my spine while they abused and tried to create a lie that I had stolen something (had not absolutely and obviously they are the thieves and criminal but with law degrees and they protect nazis and work for nazis, performing as much hate upon me as possible to get more deals and they are addicted to abusing me by now their entire lives revolve around it). To make this a bit shorter, not to endlessly emphasize the "victim" narrative but if there is any example of victimization my story is it this has been a lifetime of this endless hate attack to my body and finances and life. They then had her screaming at me to go in person to a field office and I told her that I am just changing my address, that I cannot change my address online because I am on the SSI program not the SSA --she was supposed to know this without reservation or instructing me to do this--I told her that I was merely changing address that had been wrongly written by the last yelling and abusive social security white female (all my years of being on SSI I have never once obtained a white person by phone for that agency, as far as I recall it's at least 95% formerly before musk got his filthy nazi paws on it for nazi culling of anyone they want exterminated) but always black women or men--mostly women. Always polite, helpful and professional always reliable and always correct. Now under musk who came to assault me at the beginnning of his doge committee assignment before the country realized he is a nazi f88ck abuser hateful exploiter and destroyer of america as I had written about him for years but people are always so beguiled by a fake greasy smile by a seeming "liberal" california tech dude (which newsom has been playing that same hand, his Hillary-emulting "feminist' blonde nazi wife as sinister as hillary but less intelligent, by far).//Therefore, not a single piece of mail which details how much money I must have for reinstatement. I kept sending faxes to a higher office within social security and newsom as he had done when I changed address out of the florida nazi trump dumpster they turned social security into--yellin abuse at me at offices by phone, then in california I was so drugged my online phone would not work newsom and trump had my computer blocked so badly I could not use it for a week while trying to change address from florida to california. I phoned the california field office after they played more rush-and-wait games--long story but I phoned the computer was so hacked I could not get a ring tone could not establish the call spent hours trying to make one phone call; once I finally got someone after 3 hours of trying tom ake one phone call, I was under severe drugging I was in a flustered "traumatized" state they inserted the mind control I asked the man if they had recieved my faxes he said yes and I began to explain before the connection was disconnected again that I had sent the fax for this particular reason (x.y.z etc) he interrupted me with a sneering hate tone, "you aren't letting me finish" as he slowly lumbered t hrough looking for the fax information. I was in a dazed drugged sort of hyper meth speed zone of drugging and stress I kept interrupting him although I could not control myself I could not stop speaking--they can screw the nervous system the brain and subliminal content along with traumatizing because I am fighting for my life now to not become homeless. He hung up on me. Months later after more rape and hours of torure per day, shitnigger just raped me last week endless violence from that filth bucket of sick stupidity endlessly asking me for ideas to claim as his filthy robot stupid self a lying manipulating ugly sick filth crap they adore in shit californication and newsom is a slick slime dirty ignorant fuck his endless repeat lectures so stupid and blank yet they love this shit in that state--and throughout america the level of intelligence is so low now in america. Thusly, I need a physical letter and I am unable to go into their field offices to get abused and yelled at without any real legal written form. If I go in and they lie to me, which they will, without written evidence I will be screwed completely. They are refusing to send me written information I must now use strategy to not be completely screwed by this group of rotten sick fuck "men" who have taken over social security. With the new ruling by the supreme court today to create a new jim crow era of voting redistricting against all black and minority representation (the apathy of these populations in not supporting stupid rancid cock rock rapper krap gangster rap LA sick frauds, the fake angry and fake black ghetto accents they put on for their black audiences is so unconvincing but the black population looks to these rotten dirty stupid fakes as their heroes of fighting racism--they are like the rancid minions of the wicked nazi witch obeying orders giggling like kamala hyena over having me raped and turned into a plantation "slave" so they can become the controller, perhaps controlled but that is the extent of their activism, pure rancidity. Otherwise,