Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Terrorist, through-wall mechanical arm mutilation report: bald spots covering most of my head once again because for the past month, and for the last 2 weeks almost every day I am unable to spend the back muscle strength (gone from poisons ripping out of my spine, literally at the most critical bone structure level of internal tissue--due to years of struggling to remove hard as rock poison from chemicals poured and injected and pumped into my body so it would seep into the interior of my body. the same filth celebrities are there to have my body ravaged with mechanical arms while I lay in utter exhaustion deep healing sleep too sick to move, just laying down to sleep like 99.9 % of all human beings are able to do without fear of mechanical arms or people rushing to destroy their body due to MICROCHIP BRAIN IMPLANTS forcing me into non-sensation unconscious mode. they can cut parts of my body out it is as effective as neurological anesthesia for the most severe of surgery. They have severed out part of my uterus while I have been in that state; fractured vertebrae and have sliced under my nails every single night for over 17 years (I am almost unable to block this despite years of struggling to put blood-flow constriction layers around my hands and wrists to stop this I cannot block this attack 90% of the time. but I was too sick to do more than simply lay down in utter sickness and sleep, during the day into the night all night then the next day just collapsing while tom hardy spent hours insulting abusing yelling death threats quietly making endless extreme violent murder threats all day--I could only put on a soft cap over my head which they just lifted up and doused stinking grease into my hair and then hair follicle destroying chemicals. the hair texture is extremely damaged and most of the hair I spent over one year fighting to regrow (most will not regrow I could not figure out how to prevent home break-ins and then how to protect my head from the creeps ordering the scum to incise into my gum tissue and pour hair damaging chemicals plus stinking grease; when the ape rapists had ability to break into my room they would put my spine and hips out of alignment and pour semen and stinking sewage water into my body into my hair; steal my money spray filth on my clothing and destroy every pair of shoes so the heels were worn down at a 45-degree angle and the shoe soles coming apart so I was always walking on crooked shoe soles--to augment the crooked spine and fractures they also committed against my body in this perpetual nightly comatose state. ///So I slept and was teleported I could not diminish the sick and stupid sleazy death hate death energy skits that shitalina and her crew of europigape scum trash low-level parasites from the "upper crust" of English society, bringing in a lout like tom hardy to inflict his miserable hate and racist violence upon me undoubtedly he is a nazi in some organization and fully under the myth that being a white english males makes him superior to me in all respects but does not stop in extracting ideas out of me because he, like most of the english, exist in their mental boxes of regulated conformity to their hierarchical assumption to supremacy and so must everybody else if they can achieve this--using mind control that is one of their goals. //My hair which, before I was too ill to leave my body so exposed last month, it had grown back a great deal but they have literally used hair follicle remover technology to yank the hair follicles out using hair laser removal tools--I believe my scalp was dotted with bumps from the hair follicles having been literally removed while I was unconscious and unable to defend myself; that was about 3 years ago after a german sick fuck rapist pig ape used pornographic hate rape upon me, which shitnegger the austrian sick fuck nazi governor of california had fully sanctioned (this was the first year of biden, actually so it was years ago time is so repetitive with one rotten white trash shit ape pig from europigapeland after the next inflicting hate and pornographic violence upon me. I tried to fend him off, this German sick fuck all the pigs of this group surrounded with applause and a huge tour for him around europe ensued instantly after he began violently raping me (that is the standard reaction for all the shit rapist scum who attack me in this hate technoterror system). I began after weeks of saying get off me and stop then finally calling him a pig and get his greasy pig meat off me and etc and they then had most of my hair pulled out while in deep sleep mode every day hair falling out--it is now mostly gone once more. Taking a shower my head is almost bald again hair falling out the texture of my hair completely damaged from 2 weeks of being too ill to do more than fall into sick sleep from poisons ripping out of my spine and back and rib cage and then an accident because in this most vulnerable state tom hardy went on and on never ending death threats while my entire spine was in this state of extreme vulnerability of the stability of spinal structure and muscle strength---in a way none of you can understand I am certain (and none of you care all I have done is write to get this oaf sick fuck off me for the past 7 months of near death being abused so badly my hair has turned grey and now he had my hair damaged and sprayed stinking filth not only onto my hair and clothing but around the area I was sleeping into my shoes so I would wake up with inutterable stinking foul stench that does not come out of fabric without great exertion and multiple cleanings for days---from hardy who spent no minute exploiting this most serious vulnerability for the shitalina stupidity must have this contract because that ugly sick trash filth going back to her sleazy posturing stupid movies that never won much notice on the level of Oscars and suddenly MY IDEAS bringing dirtynazi shit skank after shit like pig pitt and shitalina and dumb whorren mirrage and the entire english cartel to the oscars and the vicious violence to obtain permission to prove what violent life fuck genocidal nazis they are by endlessly stealing all they can from me destroying the rest and mutilating my body without end--they can't achieve anything without doing this to me it would seem because of the endless 2 years of extreme violence endlessly inflicted upon me in a surge of violence once they all realized that rump was going to return and he was still in control. The demo-rats rushed to join in until the very last moment when the repug shit took over bringing endlessly crocket into this contract always violently abusive towards me at least verbally for her endless 'rising star" promotions in the media. Political entertainment she is, american truly yearns only for this apparently. And so, most of my hair is now completely ruined. I still have a dangerous amount of poison in my body and eventually if I ever can heal from endless life destroying life energy sucking tom hardy and his english shit filth bucket crew of wealthy"aristocrats" plus the never-ending stupid filthy vileness of shitalina and dirty nasty pig ape pitt endlessly clutching onto destroying my body and life for their sleazy sick endless oscars and awards--both of them having stolen ideas from my former creative writing (I only write about this situation now) and going to the oscars obtaining millions of dollars in the process and then having my sub sub poverty disability cut off because they must have this contract. Using dirty sick sleazy shit stupid hardy to abuse me without end and his nasty dirty wife they are a team of hate and english bigotry a la nazi national front england--violent hooligan extremely bigoted racist and violent. americans really want him to move into america and take over for more nazi training and otherwise nobody does anything to stop this or him from doing just that and the rest of the truly dirty nasty life fuck genocidal english shit you all worship claming you are "part english" and therefore they are welcome to come in and take over fuck everything up--they put musk into power none of you ever stopped him and when I wrote about what he really has proven to be, you just ignored me. Now keep on ignoring me when I write that shit like this group from whorewood is a life lfuck disaster for america keep on doing nothing as i wrote for years "keep doing nothing and see what you will get" from this group NOW you are seeing and STILL YOU DO NOTHING.

  Not that any of you care, it's my "problem" I did something to deserve it, you all say, and it will never happen to precious...