Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Violently threatened for the third day in a row, hours and hours once more, taking his seat next to white nazi bigots out of germany, england and america---hissing death threats in addition to the german filth creep who is routinely threatening mutilation and murder every day while having his white and black american minion politicians to first threaten my life and then in trauma mode I respond to their endless questions on how mind control operates, on alternative concepts of politics and then what I do for my physical healing which this german parasitic scum leech is absorbing while being handed everything to infiltrate the united states because of his absolutely violent and continuous murder dismemberment threats at me while the shit of whorewood embraces fucks sucks up and the politicians gather around demanding that I service this filthy scum ape creep rat so they can all be handed more free tickets into the disaster of america they have all been instructed by other german, austrian, english, french manipulators posing as haute and highly intellectual while they are raping and beating me to obtain information I have studied for, striven to have a career out of and then stolen perpetually by one white and black and jewish nazi violent murder-threat genocidal nazi adherent (out of america and out of england) after the next: jeffries another leech on me, using death threats and extremely violent language with menace that is real, he is truly as so many black people are so violently attacking me as oprah had done, farrakhan had done, whoopie g-berg had done, and non-stop all my life the most ferocious racist attackers openly nasty are the blacks --regardless of which country they come from. I forgot to mention the more calm and subdued version of this by the obamas (michelle and barrack)--but jeffries is the worst, and put into power by pelosi so her in-law newsom would continue the ravage rape of the country and the endless onslaught of white nazis out of euro-hateland through their collective greed and selfish, self-absorbed "elite" hundreds of millions of dollars in graft grifting and bs spewed out perpetually collective cartel which I have been writing of for years. as I have been writing for years, but the minorities (and jeffries is the last of the democrats up to this point who had joined in with a huge, long list under biden but beginning with pelosi at the onset of the biden debacle of the inception of the rise of the nazi 4th reich using jeffries as a black face to sell off the usual "liberal" lie---with him hailing rotten corrupt dirty down-low pelosi as "the best speaker in american history" he is a most repugnant puppet of the nazi regime: , racist slurs by hakeem jeffries sitting on those chairs alongside the 15+ years of whorewood celebrities who put trump into power, along with a slew of nasty controlled opposition like pelosi who is a fascist nazi almost worse than trump, or comparable. It is a consolidation of utter nazi infiltration into all sides of the government, using all the usual minority faces to perform a trick alas, the public at large has adapted this trickle-down movement so it's only a repeat of every cylindrical American city I have run to for health care and to escape the endless surrounding forces of nazi death squads in civilian disguise; some of the most openly hateful are black men akin to jeffries, and the rest (it is endless farrakhan oprah for years obama in his genteel manner but sneering with condescending contempt and smiling with devotional love at german men who have violently raped and assaulted me for the sake of his benefactors who put him in power, the same celebrity thugs endlessly in rotation ever since then for top awards in oscars and etc--year after year they are the only candidates for office and for oscars and etc.//violent threats of grievous harm while the white german male sits complacently as the endless support of his rape and abuse and sinister death threats is met by the embrace of the thugs and rapist murdering bigots of whorewood and the endless silence of the controlled opposition who fully support this but publicly pretend nothing is going on whatseover. That includes most or all of the progressive podcasters who are the most famous, the endless major media network anchors and this is also a trickle down into american society so it is the same person repeated throughout as they all just follow orders pretending to be individualists fighting for some humanitarian constitutional principle, or even worse, for a defunct religious semblance of holy righteous pious imperial condescending murder threats for being an "infidel" --they use all the negative perjorative terms for what they have wrought upon me but blaming me every second for their actions all done covertly. I told jeffries that my life has been a series of black men assaulting me viciously, in particular in the south but it does not matter. always behind them is a white bigot fascist nazi, extending from bullying in grade school to rape and attempted murder into adulthood. He sits asking me the usual questions after death threats hissed very violently at me because the german parasite in his immediate control sphere sits quietly watching as his instructions are fulfilled with vigor by the wanna be entrenched speaker of the next wave of fascist nazism, albeit in blue wave disguise with newsome as the new democrat old boy party leader of rape, white nazi lynch mobs disguised as civilian gang stalking always met by complicity and silence by all police and all of the expletives of congress rushing to get their free allowance to slightly resist trump----noem after having a financial attack made to me by an expired mail service which lied to me and denied me service openly discriminating so I had to spend my survival money to pay for 2 other mail services, one of which also openly denied me service and then the last hundreds of dollars spent for a service which is run by more gang stalking goons who offer service but are sneaky lying and doing *oops* wrong information repeatedly but sorry so sorry--the usual but at least I am getting my mail.l told this company -the first one which promised me service and then openly denied what they had offered absolutely discriminating---I wrote that I would be discontinuing the service, and under noem after she abused me but "Helped me" to not be abused to death by the german and english white nazi bigots because, as it turns out and as I also saw in a tarot reading on her and offered her help, (I said a man was attacking her but she would prevail) and to respond to this, she had an attack made on me the same day because I was fighting her abusive tactics of mind screw operator "help" against two men murderously abusing me (one for years, the other for decades both eurotrash shit white male crap which this group reveres, both conniving lying and intellectually really blank and stupid entitlement white pig ape scumbag rapists absolutely racist--beloved by all the black and brown people in this group because they are the ticket to their status elevation into haute luxury investment and appearance for their collusion in the upcoming next genocide against jews--which blacks in general are so keen to help and assist in they are the most openly violently racist in this milieu of this hate group of decades of tortrure and rape the blacks have rushed to obtain original ideas from me about racism and sexism because they can't continue to quote all the slain former leaders for the next 50 years as they have been doing--ranting yapping shouting thumping fists and rushing to threaten to kill me after th enext white trash rapist scumbag has abused me violently--and so jeffries spent another 4-6 hours asking me for concepts after first violently threatening my life while I spent my life fighting toheal from shitting out more vile poisons this group had put in my body---for all my life--my family members routinely invited to join in they have spent their lives as well having me killed MURDERED so they can continue to be elevated into higher financial and societal status (not really though, however) but they intermarry with white nazi creeps absorbed in profiting and leeching off my family and in having me brutally tortured to death my family so ingrained in the mind control project and so viciously murderously "entitled" about it. Asking me for ideas endlessly as noem has done, but put a horrid financial strain on my credit because I had fought her abuse, insults and threats--using every type of manipulation and hours and hours per day supposedly staving off the german nazi parasite who is invested not only in being handed every avenue of exploitation into americ a, with me constantly warning these obscenely narrow-minded americans that germans are still enemies of america that america has paid for the upkeep of shit like this german parasite who is rushing to leech forever off america; and due to the inadequacy of the desire to actually defend and protect america from enemies and rather, the endless self-serving interests as a collective of these blank and void minions (america white celebrities are puppets and mind controlled sleazy prostituted slaves, as is newsom as well and pelosi is a vile and "evil" rancid parasite being trained by italian fascists in their overtake with mafia and the rest of their nazi brood, in particular white germans but english also as the crown handing out millions for every order-following minion--that is the clinton sect of the 4th reich which has caused irredeamable harm to america through their failing policies, which people like noem have been put into open fascist dictatorship role to portray but all blame goes for republicans when it was the clinton league who instituted this nafta-created immigration excuse and rationale to insitute fascism and outright white supremacy (globally this has been the result). So I write again to a completel blank and do-nothing readership who are enthralled with a white german male coming into america to lie, deceive and infiltrate and bring in a wave of german nazis; some of whom are disguised as he is in alternative clothing attire but fully some of the worst and most violent of nazis underneath. Asking me for ideas as noem and now jeffries are doing with threats, asing me for tarot readings advice and then brutally attacking me with the german leech on america who hates this country waiting to get full everything handed to his lying and smutty sleazy a$$ forever. He has no ideas no originality but I am unique and talented as well and I am shunned, beaten raped my ideas stolen all the ideas stolen the parasitic mediocrity white nazi crap of whorewood claim as their entitlement creation I am left fighting to write and type on the internet--which is turned off constantly every time I fight to get anything whatseover done I must struggle to reestablish internet connection. I type things and instantly hackers rewrite it so I must rewrite and rewrite and correct as they delete words add repeats so I sound and appear incapable of the most simple sentences in english.