Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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More tears torture to my eyes and the hate scum who inflict this every day appear in 3D reality to be more sick and stupid than the last day of their inane stupidity and ugly sick filth. These are the "leaders" aspiring to hold the keys to mental programming and social engineering via whorewood and always putting the criminal ignorant albeit well-educated expletives who were in power DECADES AGO via their collusion to destroy America "from within" political partners; always touted as being the epitome of the Demo-rat party always interviewed as the"experts' only their lying and sleazy American-hating English-crown controlled, Nazi Germany controlled, French nazi brutality coloniaistic hate machine always behind these "puppets' the white aunt jemimas the white uncle toms and their slaves playing the same roles. The Civil War and that era still had Americans doubting the veracity of The English in their endless attempts to retake the United States by Force. The War if 1812 was fresh in the memories of the newspaper op-ed and journalist reports the dread of Imperialistic Euro-takeover from the remnants of the American Revolution still slightly fresh the ardor to retain personal sovereignty included every whites in many areas of the country. No more, the compassionate ones were killed off in euro-nazi terror subversion tactics which nazi Americans grasped and are now in "power" in whorewood and politics, conversely or otherwise. But nevertheless, all my life I remained out of politics and commentary until they began torturing me to obtain ideas and as I fought for my personal security and freedom from tyranny, I have had to personally witness the leeches who were put in power whom I never voted for, never would have voted for Obama and if I were not nearly killed by nazis in America I would have at least been able to listen to commentary about the Clinton campaign. So deadly sick of the Bush tirade I gladly welcomed what appeared to have been youthful former "alternative" culture that the younger Clinton=--not openly identified as CIA as the Bush family had been and now from research I KNOW that the Bush family sold oil to the Nazis in WWII and they are still putting nazis in power in whorewood.). I was in Germany when the nazi clintons were put in power. I now know that all are tethered to the Nazi party all have made their secret oaths to preserve their "friends" and nothing to do with the constitution which they have been unilaterally subverting in trickle-down erosion until it's now a flood zone. They remain always heralded by the Nazi-purchased media as the antidote to the "rise of fascism". They are ordering this non-stop torture of me so they will be endlessly paid in multimillions to produce effete sentimentality of preconceived-of tropes about fighting racism, sexism and preserving "Democracy". A total farce and sickness that remains of these leeches retained endlessly in a monopoly. //Seeing them and how incompetent they are to really lead and past, way past their bedtime they should have been taken out of power and new people inserted but the same rotten structure of nazi hierarchy remains the same rotten scum remain as the "symbols" of "Democracy" who with Georgetown educations and English Oxford scholarships where they were courted, then mind control and incentivized with endless millions hundreds of millions mansions in the "liberal" bastion of Martha's Vineyard-a place where the Euro-nazi "Jews" who helped to sell my family into death and destruction obtained a house in addition to other investments while the professor salary they lived on would never have permitted such expensive purchase. They were Austrian-born immigrants from Nazism and they invoked and pushed Nazi genocide and death squad nazi/stasi abuse and hate gangs while they were omitted from the hate target zone for having done so (which is why they were handed Visas by the American government to escape nazism in the first place because THEY HAD HELPED MURDER JEWS IN VIENNA BEFORE BEING ALLOWED TO FLEE while the majority were kept without any chance of Visas. //I grew up with sick shit like that surrounding me and now I face it with the demo-rat and nazi maga all working together--the structure of the nazis never recognized in these stupid and dumb information-lacking anti-nazi blockbuster movies out of stupid sick whorweood all these years so when I write of this type of arrangement people ignore it because no one reports on it for the most part except perhaps in scholarly journals which remain buried in "academic research databases" exempt from public scrutiny. For me fighting this system in reality not "fighting" by making speeches as the lying and hateful progressives like bernie and aoc and warren all proclaim proudly and get more endorsements, the dumbed down population continue to vote them into power or the elections are always rigged (high probability) for decades the nazi americans who have not been soviet-style killed off by covert death squads, handed drugs, poisons and torture murder weaons remain the voter block and the rigging blocks and the execution blocks.//Tears again to destroy my facial strucgture which has all but collapsed from tears, torture abuse every minute every day but always at my most sick and vulnerable state and always in deep sleep. They are forcing me to wake up in a drugged sort of "meth" explosion of energy, after one hour I am so ill I can't stand up or move any longer my body immersed with poisons and drugs I literally have to "collapse" on my bed without anhy protection they slash my fingers toes make more hair fall out greasy stinking substances my body and my teeth jabbed with sharp knives under gum tissue already comletely cut out to the jawline earlier when they tried to smash my teeth out after they forced an accident in a rigged brake mechanism which is how many a famous celebrity (i.e. the son of John F. Kennedy and his airplane "accident" and there are reports from intel agencies on how the entire situation was a fabricated assassination all the evidence removed from public scrutiny). Etc etc. My face now an ugly old broken down ravaged appearance of dying misery sagging cheeks hollow eyes black huge huge circles tears forcing deterioration of my facial structure and the endless yelling from this stupid loser team of shit whorew apes out of whorewood endlessly they can't produce a single winning omvie ideas they can't get lead roles without abusing me they can't get anything other than previous decades of blockbuster movie shit and lying crap behind them but so blank so ugly and just handed this tech for nazis to instsall every hateful a$$-groveling sychophant possible to obey and follow orders for complete nazification of america through it's nazi programming and political endorsement machine. Somehow unbelievable my "submission" to accepting this bullshit group is the key factor to their not losing "winner take all "plans and plots. Teams of eurotrash nazi models and nazi shit has-been white worm trash actors waiting in the wings for the takeover to inflict absolute tyrannical control hillary gets more movies made about "women" the obamas about fighting racism and america gets more trumps in the future controlled by white nazi trash out of europigapeland hate. So they are torturing me to death because they are losers incompetent mediocrities who can't create winning ideas and can't get lead roles and this empire of nazi eurotrash takeover without me submitting to say they are "great" they are such shit every day I se eonly a more stupid aspect of this endlessly sick and stupid group than the day before now they are so low and incompetent for anything but eating hamburgers with some fries and a shake of their tails to sell some bullshit no one needs but people want that titillating sense of junk food empowerment they are selling. No one could give a goddamn about human rights in all of america it's been a non-stop murder attack upon me for decades in America it remains now at highest levels with no one actually caring about the principles of human dignity and in competitive society ensuring that stupid criminal sick filth doesn't take over-I believe the "founding fathers" wanted to ensure that competition for the best to be in power was part of the overweening concept of creating a real great nation not a blathering hateful bigot white trash scum proclaiming that all he has to do is sign an executive order to "make america great again" based on the whims of nazi adherents to destroy the constitution and society and put euronazis in power who will inflict the lost King George tyranny plus hitler's policies and death squads plus Stalin's gulags and death squad erasure squads into power plus destruction of the economy and an endless war economy to bolster their reckless pilfering of the economy for their lavish nazi-style edifices while nazis are welcomed as white heroes of society putting people like me into old age slow death information to provide stupid blank do-nothing scum into power using my ideas to sell concepts they abhor and want eradicated so they turn the ideas into a "woke joke' and the reversal happens. They are torturing me to death and me having to write and beg for YEARS AND YEARS TO STOP THE POISONING then stop the torture to death while I am detoxing from poisoning is a sickness all in itself as a total failure of society to really defend the privileges of the Constitution which afford people the right to be beautiful, strong and intelligent and compete and win without death squads ravaaging raping dismembering disfiguring if they don't like a "minority" rising to more fame or competency than their mediocre sick do-nothing get everything for free empty blank personality structures, reliant on racist cliches about themselves as "superior" regardless of not performing in any superior capacity.