Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Dirty, greasy california governor nazi vector of Newsom (old boy scum gavin) with his arnold trash and english nazi filth instructing him on what to say and do, as he complies and then gets yet another day of promotion for his nazi presidential tour; far more abusive then trump even this filth creep with the nazi california group has imitated their "bitch" referencing me to fighting for my life to not be raped and "allowing" them all to instantly obtain endless free empires of nazi control over all they can't win by actual talent so abusing me and demanding that I am a "bitch" for fighting for my life to get them off me and FOR MY COUNTRY TO NOT BE OVERRUN BY NAZI SHIT WHORES and the REAL BITCHES I am the beautiful and loving kind person who happens to be female but the bitch term intended for instant hate by the dumb obedient followers and only applies to females not providing instant access to the pricks and their sleaze racist rape machine disguised as macho heroism by dirty nazi whroewood and american cultural adaptation to this by-product of the take-over already over-run by nazis in America at all levels (almost): to make California appear "democrat" for the "balance of power" always the pendulum swings with just a slight margin favoring one set of nazi filth to the next "pendulum" swing to the "other side" meanwhile the consolidation of power has remained in the same greasy stink hands and is being passed down the nepo-incompetent lying trash told what to say and think. Dirty greasy gavin brought in nazi arnolde the rapist "I'm sick of you reacting bitch" rapist scum nazi for me responding to abuse insults and torture rape because of this contarct--the shit of america turned on watching me get beaten raped everyone can't wait to have this system expanded in dirty california by elon musk and his nazi europigape troops--all are exalted by it dirty jenifer lopez endlessly getting her next demo-rat tour with gavin for the upcoming next circus performance of her shouting out "women" for teh blonde nazi or dyed blonde minority minions she represents. Not latinos for trump any longer it will be nazis for white nazi trash gavin and gretchen whitmer a brown-skinned man put in power as another minion working for nazi racism and hate and a slew out of Michigan--(assisting blacks in that role for "inclusion" but the entire gamut is nazi antisemitism anti' aipac" as they state) but today was yet another day in the years of newsom's addiction to the tortrure of trump----and biden and the obamas and the clintons (all have rushed except for the biden team) in this last few years of the trump admin to really come out of hiding and out of disguise. Nothing gets new-old scum boy off me he must run for president they are all relying on him and dirty jenifer lopez to continue to be the celebrity blonde dyed wtf hell doesn't matter as long as it appeas blonde to present the demo-rat next convention for promotion of her next lead role and high position in the nazi shitnigger arnold NAZI MEDIA EMPIRE. Telling dirty gavin what to say, as they all do=who are not only sleazy ignorant nazi shit but incompetent for lead positions except to install nazi mainstream mediocrity dumbing down and hate programming disguised as benevolence=rushing at me for having watching news describing Los Angeles news on Mayor Bass---brings on the slime of hate and violence already forced on me by the filth celebrities in LA (or their teleportation locals but mostly LA they all flock there somehow using technology or they appear in one place but perhaps holographic tech is also being used; probably as many are located in New York City, etc or WASHINGTON D.C.).;;dirty corrupt malfeasance creep sex offender slime gavin newsom and so putrid it's a long rant to pronounce the name of the former governor who has no business still being involved in the newsom corruption machine. Have sex or you don't get social security disability due to these same people having your spine fractured in multiple locations, poisoning you fracturing your body alignment years later when creeps break into your room while asleep puting spine and hips out of alignment to make you paralyzed while having you poisoned non-stop with bloating poisons which act as cement for every minute fissure or fracture, etc the lout newsom still embraces them all and must go at me every single day to get his promotion to become the next united states president with democrat wonder woman gretchen whitmer, whose capo slotkin came to physically assault me as her proxy while she undoubtedly remained sitting quietly but turned on as hell as they all are, in the back rows of this chamber where they torrture me in teleportation while I am in bed in "prime" location sleeping, drugged, dying from torture abuse and stress and newsom working with trump has kept my ssij disability payments cut off since March, 2025. Threatening me and I won't get benefits unless they get this contract of me submitting to being raped, abused, and not fighting back and TO DEATH without any resistance and "loving" them for it. Telling them to fucking die every day praying for their deaths every day (forgot to pray for newsom's death yesterday while praying for the rest of this scum group): Screaming "bitch, see I am not corrupt" after hitting me while I watched a podcast about mayor bass out of la being indicted on fed charges of corruption. Considering the criminal machinery of the rump regime I find nothing really damaging to the image of bass but it's intended ot aid the nazi rise in californication with reps discrediting the dems prior to election SO THEY CAN REALLY SUCK AND DRAIN HOMELESS RESOURCES OUT just as probably dirty newsom has been aiding and abetting in and remaining smiling making jokes about rump on twitter and then running for president. Every day having me tortured to death for his rise in power.//The daily routine of daily quota of torture abuse hate beatings sleaze hate filth for promotion imposed as always every day without end hours per day and night-year after year after year every day every month every week every hour year after ytear after year and still the filth is not stopped. They were curtailed to not go at me for hours and hours but it was about 6 hours, like totally almost nothing compared to literally all day and night which has been non-stop 6 months prior to the trump explosion of shit-storm troopers. Newsom and jenifer lopez and a german skank I had screamed at hitting her to go away--as I had done with newsom and lopez and her husband and this german nazi filth fuck "liberal not nazi' nazi skank trash parasite who has made sure to assault me viciously with rapists and abuse when she had the chance. Invited in by dirty lopez who organized a deep sleep skit of me being homeless and invited to live with this german creep and etc as I was 'happy and saying yes, how wonderful under hypnosis, and drugging and my head wrapped in the usual 8 layers of protection and blasting deep sleep hypnosis tape into my ears they still got through. //Wakuing up to rancid greasy lopez smiling because it affected me screaming and yelling to go away and "that thing is not a friend" to which dirty "j-lo" smiled like "triumph" I got my promotion for forcing an agenda forcing hyponsis forcinhg a reaction of happiness when I want to get this filth off me never happy to see that creep out of germany,j etc. Then turning on the desktop to blot out their ugly sick voices commenting on every dsingle thing I thought and did. To go about cleaning stinking sheets having been sprayed with stinking substances clothing stinking with sprays of stink filth on the clothing cleaning and cleaning the black soot and grime rubbed sprayed on everything literally every single thing all is scratched all metal is made rusted everything broken shabby sprayed stinking black and brownspray that never comes off clothing rancid stench they spray every day. In pain hard poisons blocking movement trying to exercise with their ugly scum comments about my body. Getting undressed and then listening to a youtube podcast about the Mayor of Los Angeles indicted by fed agencies for corruption with housing (as elections loom and the republicans control nasty dirty nazi gavin and his crew and they want the english nazi to take control, etc it's not a far leap of fantasy to imagine this was a rigged expo of feigned "corruption" for Bass). I began to listen instantly dirty sick ugly gavin old boy scum corrupt rotten nazi a$$-groveling dirty nazi bigot soon to be out of power trying to abuse me to death through his arnold shitnigger trash hate partner always sucking out american monmey for nazi infestation always gcorrupt dirty shit like gavin rush to get that money adn welcome in all nazis possible they get elected the presidency all money will be shared once that lout c orupt scum crap gets into power--his promise and he can't stop attaccking me using dirty arnold or jenifer scumbag skank loppez or the 500 or so from the past year rushing to assault me just in this provate group setting. He began screaming at me BECAUSE i WAS LISTENING TO NEWS OUT OF CALLIFORNIA that means he has full "entitlement" abuse insult slap hit abuse insult me because it relates to him in the most fragile way parallel to his nazi regime labeled "democrat" in power (one of the "men" was cast out for rape and sexual assault but dirty gavin has piglousy protection racket the mafia and nazis so that information can't get out as easily). Screaming at me: "bitch see It's not me who is corrupt" because I had accused him of corruption after it was evident his corruption at me endless torture rape and threats if I don't compy and have instant free sex slave sex and then be beaten abused by nazis the rapists who get promotoins with their nazi "feminist" wives stealing my dying ranting written posts asking the world ot stop this epstein replacement of epstein island but far more violent murderous and deadly than whatever happened to those females (and males but that is also never told obviously the homo component is omitted from record). //I began yelling at him that his governorship has enough reach to attack me obviously he has enough reach to abscond with money for homleess out of LA and began hitting him to get him off me. I then wanted to watch more news out of california because they remained silent--the pigs whores shit scum were not yapping incessantly with death threats, abuse and calling me bitch and me reacting screaming hitting them screaming yelling trying to "ignore" them unable to do it the drugs tney force me create instant internal thought reaction and that is all it takes. Instant truth serum their goal to abuse me into total silence and acceptance hwile being raped adn MURDERED for their profit and titillation of torrture sadism. So I listened again and he began slapping me hitting me as I "ignored" him fighting him off but then saying he's just a sleazy grease stain and I don't care what he thinks and I forced myself to remain silent. by that time it haad been the 8th hour of abuse since they forced the deep sleep torrtuer on me and waking up, doing cleaning of stinking filth as part of the torrtue, exercising and then eliminating (shitting out) more chunks of the never-ending huge "shelf" sructure embedded in my back which never comes out just pieces keep fracturing, slowly coming out (requiring 1-3 days) then me sick, and them lunging at me when the pioson seeps into my bloodstream upon elimination to get me as deeply as possible as they had raped the poison into my body as deeply as possible as well.

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