Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Nazi Hooligan D. Beckham---extremely subdued in his directives to have me viciously violently raped and tortured by thugs like tom hardy and arnold s-ne88er---always behind them is the ENGLISH CROWN i.e. Prince Charles and his crew influencing the true control over the United States through Whorewood--shitalina always there through her mommy's connection to the Crown through this acting crew of hateful bigots masquerading as righteous and benevolent concerned citizens only working for the welfare of the blessed poor, disenfranchised and the discriminated against. In reality, the quiet influence gets his athletic sports nazi hools to inflict deadly violence upon me and laugh for the cameras of promotion---watched by the hateful beckham who abused, attacked me I had tried another strategy t o fight them off instantly rather than wait for the inevitable escalation of abuse once the parasites are acclimated to torture the addicts (in this case, perhaps his former adrenaline addiction or meth addiction---I think he is a person who may have artificially pumped up his system in the past got past drugging tests and screenings--regardless, a murderously violent but behind the violent operation scenes telling them what to do. In exchange hardy has obtained a glowing look on his formerly run-down and aged face. I got a swatch of grey hair from 16 hours of abuse and rape per day (abuse, rape a few times every time violent as this thug was awarded. Beckham returns with heather graham, who said she had no idea that her partner danny moynihan, out of London, had tortured or poisoned me. In truth serum and extreme duress mode as I am rendered every day, but these soulless and loveless parasitic users and abusers have no concern they "blame" me with more torture murder it truly is in reality---for reacting instead of allowing them to abuse me to death "with permission" rather than fighting for my life and screaming in rage to racist cliches these rotten scumbags spew on me and glaring with hate when I fight in my defense--as no one else will I thusly must do all myself, every day an dnight, day after day, night after night. I therefore call this sleazy scum bend-over-butt-ham becuase of his influence on rotten gavin old boy scum who after months of being influenced by butt-ham, when hegseth turned me over to groups of engilsh because baryshnikov probably offered him a deal courtesy of the KGB and Russian dark money pipeline for whatever prizes he obtained--or whatever behind it is always rump the dump trump-=--i can't call them anything serious but immature names wish them destruction to every aspect of their lives rather than writing these posts making up silly names. He is a most fanatical racist the equivalent of a slaver beating and killing anyone questioning his 'entitlement" to inflict extreme racism. The sports world of England and Germany and in fact all around the world, this soccar hooligan culture thrives and hides nazi secret clubs from inside these rancid yelling violent racist mobs in the guise of being sports fans. Thusly, beware that filthy sleazy creep who is relying on white boy entitlement and English imperialism--the white americans like gavin old boy and heather graham are determined to have this influence in America for their own racist agenda, partnering with the endlessly disguiesd euro-hateland nazi bigots who wear costumes of "punk" and "businessman" like bend-over b-ham and his cheerleader rape nazi wife and that "pop music' cartel appearance of "respectability". While most of you reading my posts are full-on white mediocrity "supremacists" but have very little to display of superiority--and this lout kicking a ball around and being turned into a celebrity for it bypassing the black and brown players who probably exceed him in that field but regardless, a white boy doing that makes the headlines (you can call it the "Elvis Effect" a white boy excelling supposedly in a mostly black domain) they are so extremely violently racist it's almost inconceivable because of the placid composure this filthy ugly sleazy thing has but he's a seething hateful anti-american bigot. I say this to the white mediocrities calling themselves superiority that this pig ape scum is out to overtake america. The americans just want "minorities" like me so-called to not have a chance to compete against them and win. Thusly they are duped they obtain warm hugs and smiles and invites they don't feel "trapped" in an American "equal opportunity" white "discrimination" trap any longer of the dread fear that if they compete without drugging and discriminatory practice which is rampant in America and throughout the world; because there is not a single city, town or village on this planet that the nazis have not penetrated to create some version of this endless discrimination--they get the minorities to turn against their own, in particular women. Thusly every time that filth creep is in the vicinity of wanna be king emperor gavin striving to be next imperialistic president of the united states, the word "bitch" is issued with slaps and violence when I verbally respond to their abuse and insults dehumanizing nazi insults and derogatory abuse endlessly for hours. Under severe drugging and this is injected into my brain so I can't ignore it it's louder in my brain than music blasting on earphones they attack my nervous system and then drug me and when I react in rage after trying to ignore them for hours every morning as they begin the moment I wake up, literally--Noise terrorism ordered by the nosey terrorists out of whorewood, californication, rump-land plantation society death squad, USA (conttrolled by bend-over-butt-ham and a bunch of Amreican nazi racists feigning working against racism and sexism--the prostituted men and women of whorewood and their euro-hateland partners. All expecting a paradise of plantation mansions in europe forever with their children for this sell-out of AMerica--just by abusing me without end, to prove that europigapes can turn every single per son in Amreica into an antisemite nazi including, and esxpecially Jews.