Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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This teleportation instantaneous abuse attack system is so ephemeral but so instantaneous in the hate of people I watch on youtube appearing almost 5 or 10 minutes after clicking on their video. Somehow they are transported/teleported and the tech is from New York as that is where he is stationed. How many of these devices are integrated into a comprehensive unified attack system within the United States, pairing with East Coast controlled opposition to Whorewood controlled opposition and some are outright Nazis but barely disguised. This one is yelling how "stupid" I am while brushing my teeth so I of course can't respond unless I spit out toothpaste to respond to bs hate from another Jewish Nazi who is defending his icon bernie sanders, his Jewish nazi cohort system and attacking me for promotion by nazi hate team USA all the way Californication nazi antisemitism is the "thing" to do for all established minorities currently in circulation. His rancor is so over-stenching (a new word) that it's abominable deplorable as usual as he had arrived years earlier for me having watched his videos. His videos are so informative and so "Left" railing against all the evil scum who assault me like Hegseth but privately he's so pro nazi it's deplorable. He's a staunch supporter of Hillary and Bernie, a "Progressive" so he is yelling how "stupid" I am. They rebound my accusations back onto me which I scream out---albeit on this written form--after YEARS OF MURDER ATTEMPTS TORTURE ENAR DEATH ABUSE EVERY DAY RAPE MUTILATION TORTURRE dismemberment disfigurement and to traumatize ideas out of me because they are blank and bereft of them. This podcaster David Feldman has information that he researches but like so many of the frauds is a spiteful hateful (one could argue self-hating "Jew" for why would anyone identified with being jewish abuse me so viciously under prompting by ugly sleazy arnold the nazi scum creep who has been making his stupid dirty comments all morning but not like murderous hate and not murder energy as usual---and on cue, as another recruit of another minority fedman has come to yell stupid hissing in hate at me. That is, defending nazi murder and rape and hate all the "isms" he claims he is so against. His usual last remark is to "defend the weak" of course unless big daddy nazi tells him to abuse the defenseless turned weak by not weeks of torture but over decadewsof daily torture which this cretin has fully engated and profited off. He can and is allowed to spew hate at nazis but then recoil into his jewish liberal identity and support bernie and get allowed ot make podcasts as long as he proves valuable to nazis in that he won't do a fucking goddamn thing to protect the weak or take a fraction of an iota of energy to do any goddamn thing but spew ideas and research, for which he is excellent and commentqary but like all the rest of the minority minions, a vicious self-hating puppet uncle tom of the nazi plantation. So tired and drained and dying from reesponding to the stinking sick filth this team of shit crap bring into abusing me for watching any content whatsoever they usher instantly all the artists and their friends to hack and abuse so if I click on one more single video they are welcome to sit abuse rape and torture me and as lonjg as possible---some remain for years. Dirty david feldman arrived next to ugly shitalina and pig ape pitt about 4 years ago. He's back today spitting in rage nnd hate, another hateful gremlin of abuse and hissing rage for me having upset his maasters of the plantation for which he relies on his food and security adn wearm milk before bed after presenting another "intellecxdtual" bvut self-hating "Jew" which will spew hate at me, just like ben shapiro and so many other of the famous "jews" like noam chomsky and I can't recall theother one--absolutely anti-Israel attack on Palestine--normal finklestein a hateful loathsome naaty typical abuser snuggling into the warm crevice of nazi whorewood shitalina and pig ape pitt who are themselves snuggled into the dark money-festering anus of arnold ugly shitnigger filth machine of death and hate--beloved by rump t and his team of nazi crap the endless maga filth that dirty loathsome but intellectual and provies great content david feldman just lambasted as "you suck" b ut then defends him by attacking me which is a silent partner of hegseth for presideent and all that will keep feldman as the "jewish intellectual" role anti-trump but oh, how he will do anything like all the minority uncle toms and aunt jemimas to keep their podcasts if not their cnn and msnow posts (msnbc I mean they got fired the name changed). I am dying from every day abuse because I try to find thsse alternative subculture peoloe who make comments so I can bypass the ugly stench of the maqinsteram media and not enhance the nazi controtions of verbal bullshit alacrity that crap like morning joe and his skank team and also white worm gushing over trump lawrence odonnel in the form of anti-trump gushing reverse psychology rhetoric. Feldman has used some of my terms that II use regularly and is another reader or is aware of my situationj of being literally abused to death by shitnigger who he is partnering with now. And thus supporting trump and providing yet more fodder which blocks real anti fasciiss commentary and it is impossible for me to find any of it since my internet is continuously hacked and monitored, this shit of crap liek feldman is all I can find which has any serious investigative of fact content. Otherwise, it's les sinformed but seeming "left" to try to find any salvation for the shit stain that has enveloped america and teh stpuid apathy that remains. HOrrific frauds like him are the norm not the isolated occurrence. Hiis violent abuse of me verbally is why I am being murdered without a vestaige of support his dirty sleazy but "intellectual left" "Jewish" input is why jews have completely sided with nazis which includes being controlled by the "Zionist" lobby which excludes jews for the most part unless they are like jared kuschner who is as white and blonde as possib le marries a blonde nazi shit filth creep who is viciously nazi antisemitic and so it i's nasty daddy the jews marry into such family systems to get shelter from the storm and like steven spielberg they play the intellectual compassionate anti-nazi role in public and in privaate sell jews targeted to death as vehemently as they can smirking ugly sinister. 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I am being killed by the vicious shit like david feldman but under the murderous nazi filth of arnold who put trump in power and his ilk who have been abusing me to death vut mostly relying on the wabnna be ugly scum of whorewood who viciously abuse me for 3/4 of every day and night as murderously as they possibly can to watch me deteriorate, turn brokken, destroyed as the oppressed ones from unbelieavable racism and antisemitism which is barely disguised under the bubbly fake facades of the white nazi shit who use all means to destroy jews b ut appear smiling with their system intact as shit like feldman are at heart terrorized and timid cowaards and rely on this vicious passive-aggressive stupidity of self-immolation which they are trained to believe "its' happening to her help them get the bitch stupid bitch" they sneer t me after I scream a out how stupid the uneducated stupid filth are who attack ;me to get ideas. They don't ask shitty feldman for ideas because he only interpreets political malfeasance as part of the controlled opposition structure it is not original it is a pattern of a type of analysis tinged with "comedy". I still want to watch his fucking blathering just because he does elicit facts and information I can't obtain because shit like him won't have the "balls" to fight this oppression and these castrated whipmering vicious so-called jewish men, emasculinated are so typically present the race or that "group" has been so damaged and destroyed for so many centuries of this endless refrain of this nazi pograom holocaust system but it's now being brought by the same euroshit this sick stupid fuck is embracing so he can state with hissing delight in his shrunken emasculination that "it's happening to you not to me" as my hateful brother states, he can only have sex swith anything but jewish women and has been doing that all his life. The trans-migration of his hate and loathing is always dumped on ne and that is the endless training jewish men and women obtain and they are helping nazis o rise in americxa. Felman is that kind of stupid it's a strain that bypasses appareant intellectual capacity.