Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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More black nazi assault by whatever her first name is Gibbs--calling herself the black terminator thusly her idol, a horrific nazi bigot, she has no clue and doesn't care. Her fully declined career will be lifted up for JUST Abusing me literally non-stop. She is in my face for over 12 hours per day asking me for ideas about everything relating to racism because she hasn't a fucking clue about any introspective analysis of racism only goes with the nazi orders that if you dump hate and violence on jews you will ascend in the nazi hierarchy. I am BEDRIDDEN In agony from a hard tube of poison that wrapped around my leg and has remained obstructing my body, along with horrific poisons latched onto my entire spine at a most tight pulling motion in all directions and it's impossible to get this out. Nothing will get this hard poison out, but exercising with all strength as shitnigger kept abusing me to go harder and would not stop abusing me because he has to be "in control" and me of course wanting to heal, I am now so beset with injury that I am in shock physically it's like the tubes snapped and retracted--pulling into my spine with extreme palpitations of my entire spine in agony pain. Screaming at the fucking black nazi idiot fuck creep whatever her name is--portia gibbs? the black terminaator stupid fuck idiot with her nazi black and white friends out of whereever she had me teleported to last night--not as odious but as sleazy and stupid as the rest. This foul woman screams how much self-confidence she has in her interviews demonstrates such low self-esteem which is what this contract enables is the lowest nadir of human capability to rise to the top so they can inflict the most brutal of their selfishness and hate upon an innocent target. In my case with ideas this non-reading sick fuck can'tt begin to study because she has to have parties and be as blank and rotten as the rest of the shit and filthy scum of this group which is just a scumbag per minute rushing at me all satanic literally demonic scumbag losers as human beings--but glorified. One other sick fuck is a mafia creep screaming death threats because his career has completely died off as far as I can tell but now taking out his fully entrenched nazi mafia fascist italian programming, as all these nasty fuck goons all look to italian fascist bigots to train them in how to steal from jews and create another holocaust are the most stupid and blank supporters of white nazi germanic and nazi shit possible. stupid sick skits but hours while in bed in agony from morning till night this filthy creep is asking me as I am sleeping in pain upon waking asking me for every idea and concept this rotten stupid fuck can't begin to think of. All will be about black nazi shit women fighting racism, as all the black nazi shit have done for years and years. It was Key & Peele stealing my ideas, and through the obama black nazi cartel as well it was spike lee, who was awarded for this by presenting awards for the cannes festival---and they all dream of prizes mansions in france they gonna get rich and make movies but they have no fucking ideas and all they suck through non-stop torture will be used for their poor, disenfranchised black a$$es for more stupid movies directed by white nazi trash played by nazis who train the blacks in how to become nazi genocidal vicious violent abusers towards jews but still stealing all possible as the nazis did to jews and this protocol has remained--but the ugly sickness of the shit out of america--the entire country is so destroyed due to the leaders who have inculcated this and never stopped the rise of nazism but rather embraced it; sick filth like spielberg with his nazi europigape hate crew of actors who can recite shakespeare have spent years stealing my ideas and parceling them out to blank and ugly sick shit like rape coordinator and murderous nazi bigot shitalina and ugly sick blank stupid shit pitt the ape fuck scum. They are all so odious but every day that I experiecne the sickness of americans is a death plunge into an abyss of stupidity mixed with incompetence and rotten evil. Not that any of you fuckers are ever going to do anything about it, you love the nazis you bring them all in to take over and inflict death and thievery and mind control to turn america into a banana republic. This group is controlling that rotten fuck trump and his rancid family of dirty thieving lying shit. It is the mentality of newsom the old scum who was put in power by trump with pelosi at the helm of the house of reps, put there by rump in his first admin. Always sitting there with the poor black victim of poverty the "black terminigger" which is what arnold the filth ugly sleaze shit really is---he is the epitome of the n-word but they can't begin to see it all the sleazy dirty foul behavior is exonerated and completely shielded from sight by these stupii as f**k minions, which americans have become as well just a plantation society with rotten ignorant europigapes coming to steal and rob and kill using shit like these coming out of poverty idiots. Newsom is one of these according to his self-descriptions for how he did the american thing" pulled himself up by the bootstraps but all he really did was go into crime and get protected for being a white nazi trash creep so the labels of ni88er are never understood for what shit like newold scum really is. I keep screaming as I have done since JULY that I WILL not help this rotten fuck to become president so this rancid dirty ugly fuck can continue to destroy america for the sake of his criminal empire handed to him by rump with the nazi backers looking to destroy the ecnonomy--which trump is doing but he's a flaccid follower of what nazis out of europigapeland instsruct him to do; trust me.