Wednesday, June 8, 2022

On addiction and terrorism and this technology--subjects I have broached before and many times but I repeat the same sentiment today because I am seeing it in the stalkers very clearly as the numbers are increasing once more to pre-pandemic level and this is a huge 100+ group effort in little shopping malls and etc of countless numbers of people surrounding and assaulting me, all high on terror and all addicted sexually to this activity.//Hyperbolic hate ranting yesterday due to the (symbolic) poisoned apple presented to me from snarling/smiling Thai terrorists in the form of a mixed berry smoothie. Drugged, drugged and awful subliminal and tech attacks producing the expletive-driven attack yesterday late at night, when my body was in pain and I had no more tolerance.

 The drugging reduces significantly or completely, immediately, tolerance levels and barriers to all forms of psychological self-protection during these unjustified and usually trivial, silly or trite attacks but rendered in the form of vicious hate, insults, threats and sometimes violence. Any single thing can be used to attack (me), or the target (anyone), as I assume this terror protocol remains the same wherever it is utilized: worldwide.

For example, in Gainesville, Florida one late night, I drove my newly purchased lemon 4th hand car I had bought for a very low price, the vehicle was working very well the day I bought it--but the air conditioner broke three days later, as happened with all autos I bought in Florida and everywhere, in fact (that is the first thing to go; by the way, I had not done "anything" like resisting abuse, torture or anything these attacks upon my property have been ongoing all my life, from early childhood when I actually did what I was told and "obeyed").

But driving this new/old car to this drive-through/restaurant with burgers, shakes and etc, like the old 50's style burger restaurants--filled with students, it was around 12:00 am, or later, or late at night. 

It was a black woman at the drive-through window. I asked her for just a typical burger, and the names of these burgers were somehow patriotic or related to Americanism in some way. I was drugged, as I always am and have been, but they of course were preparing a new freshly-poisoned/drugged burger for me. I had never seen this woman before. I made a joke, in this silly giggly happy love-everyone vulnerable exploitable puppet mode, and I said, "Oh, I can't wait to try this all-American burger!" just like that, the woman glared in hate at me and said over her shoulder to the other woman making the burgers in the background, "This girl say she want an "All-American burger" with sneering hate like I had just insulted her and the joint and everything American. I sat dumbfounded like shocked at this kind of attack, of course I knew nothing about being poisoned or drugged or that I was a target--this happened around 2002, something like that. The woman repeated what I had said as if I had really insulted them and she was almost going to rush out and attack me personally. I was in this "accept" mode and I asked them what I was wrong with saying that. The woman remain silent and slammed the food in front of me and almost yelled the price I had to pay, glaring in hate at me as I sat in my car, feeling kind of deflated. I didn't say anything in response and drove away and never returned to that greasy spoon. I only use this as the most obvious version of how almost nothing can be used to attack the target, any word, sentence and statement is turned into something that can be attacked. There are more violent examples of this and my experience of living in Gainesville for a few years had a few of these types of examples that remain stuck in my mind as glaring.

But I was drugged and poisoned again yesterday, as three women suddenly came to the formerly completely empty counter for the smoothie little "island" in the middle of the mall food area (where I go to the supermarket at the end of the food mall area). 

I was extremely thirsty, exhausted and in physical pain from carrying and lifting and rushing around from place-to-place to get my internet turned on, the stress of the yelling and abusive landlord--the many people attacking me in the places I had to go where they drained my energy, and then my body not being physically capable of sustaining heavy lifting of all the bags I carry with me, in addition to the things I buy which are supposed to last me circa 2 weeks because I am always in too much pain to get out and drive around and get things done.

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I felt the effect of the subliminal hate and humiliation insult messages, I could feel my body shrink from feelings and sensations that were associated with how I look and etc. My barriers were pushed into openings of vulnerability just after I drank that concoction. The drink was very tasty, but I underestimate how violently persistent the forms of attack are and how many very sick people there are who so gladly feed off attacking me (or any target they can). They get energized, I lose energy. By the time at least 100-300 people have attacked me I am completely bedraggled and struggling to have any kind of energy. Since the borders have opened due to Covid receding, the violent hate of the terrorist Nazi/Mafia organization is rushing back as it had operated for years without end, by the order of the same expletives in H-wood and in all the other realms of "power" that operate the international proxy terror operations, upon their order, in other words.

I also bought food that had been prepared, and this group knows and understands by now that I pay for sandwiches that are sold 2-for-1 at the deli at a certain late hour. The food is drugged/poisoned but I sometimes need good food (the sandwiches are of high quality, the store I go to is considered the "World Class" shopping mall of Phuket, or one of them). It's gourmet, or something close to it, close enough for me to risk getting drugged to just have some good food once in a while. So I was very drugged up. I woke up this afternoon after going to bed with my body feeling like I was going to break bones from how much the hard poisons along my spine were being pulled. I have not regenerated the muscle tissue, after all these years of detoxing because of the pig apes in Whorewood ordering stiffening and bloating and hardening chemicals inserted into my body every day so I have remained stuck sitting in one position literally unable to move from my chair to the other side of the room, for most of the day--or laying in bed completely exhausted and drugged or just stuck in a nearly comatose state in front of the laptop all day--my muscles have atrophied to a dangerously lax state and my body has absorbed all the fungus, sewage water, mold and other drugs and poisons plus the hate and negativity the celebrities poured upon me every single day for years, over a decade one after the next in deadly stress-level assaults--plus depriving me of all health care, and I can't trust a single doctor and all and any injections could be fatal or have future deadly consequences.

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So I must remember to get food that is packaged, in a random way, to try to stop this poisoning. I was ranting at the level of a nervous breakdown hate explosion level. This morning, not freshly poisoned or drugged, I can write with some calm reserve.

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The deadly dangers of being poisoned remain. Like the witch in Snow White, the people intentionally poisoning me have a huge glowing smile as they had me the poisoned apple. 

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Also, in another store, I saw a pair of Muslim people--a woman and male, around 20-something years old, who looked like they were literally glowing after having had sex--they rushed to get in front of me while I was pushing my cart down the ramp at the little Thai shopping center where I tried to get my internet problem solved in some way--mostly to get instructions on where the office for the internet provider is, but then they just phoned my landlord the entire thing was a staged and pre-orchestrated attack. 

The Muslim couple, glowing with dopamine, seratonin and high on violence, were giggling and laughing as they were in front of me, pushing and rushing to get in front of me, laughing and sexually titillated, as all the parasites who attack me are. They are addicted to attacking me (or anybody they can) and go on like it's an addiction. Most of them, or maybe all, have had cocaine, alcohol or other drug addictions, or pornography, workaholic, something addiction in their past and present (shifting addictions from one thing to the next--and torture is a hormonal high and I have heard that murder is as well--). 

It is disgusting to see this. I am ALWAYS, ALWAYS under a mind control network and when people laugh, I laugh as if it's happy and innocent. I am actually a happy person and innocent as I grew up with a lot of love, although the "programming" to destroy my family was always set up due to racist programming, but I grew up with love and was a very innocent person. I don't automatically assume that people are glowing with joy because they are sexually enthused at having someone to torture. I have no doubt that racist stereotypes had something to do with their glee and schadenfreude joy as well in attacking me. 

But it is now disgusting on a level of intolerability on my part to have to be subjected to sick people constantly coming after me to get their little fix and high. The terrorist celebrities are revolting to me in this respect, and when I was breaking down and screaming in rage because there is only any sentient being can tolerate, they increased the level of abuse to murderous levels of hate and became much more vicious, the more I succumbed to reacting in rage and hate, the more they fed off the negativity and my energy as they got high on violence and it is synonymous with drug and other addictions, their behavior. The need to increase the stimulus to get higher and higher. 

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Another mutilation report: sometimes I only realize the damage when the injection of numbing/pain killer wears off. Taking a shower, I realize that the soreness I felt in my right ear this morning upon waking was due to me having not been able to protect my head from attack while collapsing in toxic shock on my bed. I had done an exercise after many days of fasting which pulled on some of the very tight bands of poison latched in labyrinth fashion into my spine, connecting to my muscle line along my spine, what is left of it. Atrophied obviously underneath the hard poison which has been frozen in paralysis for probabyl 30 years or longer, with hardening poison injected into my body at around 2009 and culminating in endless paralysis. The poisons had been in semi-flexible stage most of my life, pushing up tissue and adipose (cellulite) making it appear just like my frame was larger, almost square like a man's body. The poison was flexible enough for me to feel the "bands" running along my spine but never understanding that I was being poisoned I was also continuously so drugged and under mind programming I just understood only that it was a result of the 3 major spine surgeries but had no idea it was due to poisons. But around 2009 the injections of an hardening agent were introduced into the daily poisoning regimin with attempts to murder me began in earnest. I was living around euro-haters and the poisoning was so extreme that if I bought food at a local grocer and the food had been pre-prepared by the grocer (i.e. deli section) I would get very ill vomiting after eating the poison was so extreme (not my normal to vomit I am referring to how they kept poisoning me continuously and then adding this extra hardening agent which acted in concert with the already established poisons--it was a staged and pre -planned operation the poisons have already been tested on countless people in the past so the end result is a staggered set of stages of putrefaction and then paralysis leading to of course death. All appearing "normal" for someone at a certain age, plus all the other maladies they created and forced upon me thusly a seeming health decline. This is a very popular form of murder by the way and I believe I have seen it in action many times in the past with relatives. The relatives had been good little boys and girls obeying orders from the nazi scum who marry them (take their money steal my inheritance, for example and my own siblings just assisted their nazi spouses in having my mother's inheritance stolen from me using the rump doge committee to just destroy my only security due to the disability THEY created and coordinated to force upon me. ) They stuck somethiinng into my inner ear last night. I collapsed because the poisons were "tweaked" under this set of layers of criss-crossing poisons interlaced into my vertebrae but running alongside my spine and connecting into my hips, and into my hip joints so paralyze me. 17 days of fasting (1 day in between to eat something to get rid of the disgusting poisons which accumulate due to the poisoning never ending so no matter how many master cleanse fasting I did, they kept poisoning me so the accumulation was always being rebuilt instantly afterward---on top of the plugs and hard layers which block digesstion and body movement and functioning. So, the poisons released into my bloodstream made me literally collapse, as has happened endlessly for the past 2 years while trying with all my strength not to fall into this comatose type toxic shock sleep but my musclles just collapse the spine is coated with this poison inches deep on both sides---it goes into my bloodstream it is connected into my brain--of course shitnigger the endless leech parasite sexually abused and attacked me in that state as I fought him off death threats from that ugy sick sleazy thug you all worship for his nazi thuggery and bs movie crap always about how great he is (a total lie everything he represents as a positive is a complete opposite of his actual agenda---but it's not his agenda he's just a bot following orders as are they all). //thusly, rather than dig into my cuticles for the 15th year in a row on an almost daily basis until all fingers are mutilated my toes are disgusting the chemicals they put on my toenails and the cuticles they severed out and broken my toes and etc---but, they justt inserted something so deeply into my eardrum or ear canal (not going to look up the biology of it) but behind this "plate" in my inner ear--the ear drum perhaps but it's a type of hard "flap "type piece at the very end of the ear canal where I can insert a cotton swab--whatever the name is the ear canal? it has a block to the inside of my skull whatever that hard piece is it can be manipulated to have something inserted behind it--they did this in the last trump shit regime under the orders of that fuck scum and therefore they have done it again rather than smear grease making my already mostly bald head shed more hair as they do all the time when I collapse--but last night they forced someting into my ear canal--the skin tissue leading up to the flap is inflamed and it's getting infected. It took me over 3 years to get rid of whatever they stuck in my ear the last time, around 2019--that was when the other austrian sick u gly rotten old man fuck assauled me for saying I don't what he thinks of my interpretation of mozart--that is all I said in response to him trying to steal more ideas out of me, asking me to interpret mozart as that ugly rotten scum took notes and then smirked while ice cube asked him (it was an orchestrated skit for his filthy promotion and that of rancid ice cube as well) but "what do you think of her interpretation" and the ugly nazi white trash said smirking "I have no idea what it meant" as I said without being able to monitor my thoughts, in deep sleep state as well so this was programmed into my subconsciousness I repeated it upon prompt: I don't care what you think" thusly they injected me with some virus I was deadly ill it felt like I was dyinjg they made my hair turn grey as this group of pig rat "men" have been doing either putting something in my hair to kill the follicles or just stress the poisoning with this virus, 1-2 months prior to the covid outbreak (nov 2019) was so extreme so exhausting a virus type sickness--which was injected into me within a day of this episode--ice cube punched me in the face, the rat austrian nazi then got me injected with some covid type virus, all the symptoms of covid I had before the outbreak perhaps it made me immune to the actual seriousness of the virus if I had been exposed to it. They then injected this thing into my ear canal and trump smirked and laughed in response as that ugly rat who starred in many tarantino shit nazi movies so famous for the violence and hate and smug come-backs ---and he was put in lead roles in movies and put in rolling stone because it's a nazi entertainment promoting goddamn rag paper--and thusly, this austrian other rotten fuck had a tree killed facing my patio then this beautiful cat taken away and has had me raped my hair mostly killed yanked out with hair follicle remover after fighting to get another german rat fuck scum off raping me and pounding poison into my body while doing disgusting dirty pornographic things as ugly shitalina watched laughing as shitnigger hugged this ugly filthy creep who plays violin, whom I had complimented as well the response as with this english skank piece of shit which shitnigger is going to pay to put in the position in a film they tortured me for the concept of--giving me nothing and continuing the torture wihtout end--the 75 people in the last month from that ugly sick rotten thug shitnigger (the other austrian rat nazi cockroach is this ugly dirty old man who played n django unchained the german rat fuck who really is just a rat fuck not an anti-racist--but the blacks are endlessly purchased by them to inflict antisemitism in america so the blacks can be blamed not the austirans or the germans who always claim they are not racist and not nazis any longer. Thusly, this ugly thug pig rat shitnigger who is such a foul and dirty ugly stupid sick thing that all I can do is write out a list of insults because of the longevity of his violence towards me for years and years and years profiting off it. He goes off laughing about what he is doing to me as he gets gets gets endlessly more and more but sits with his stupid ugly square dumb head as they torture ideas out of me while he has them screaming all insults at me instantly afterwards while this actual real stupid bitch fuck and the shit he brings with him like that ugly sick filth from depp are the stupid bitches--they scream these types of insults at me after torturing me for YEARS to obtain more original ideas--then claim them as their own get paid in millions. It is justt ongoing ongoing never ending these ugly filthy dirty shit so-called "men" are just allowed to wreak every kind of rape and torture their shit filth wives and daughters get get get more lead roles as feminists portraying the heroism that I actually am doing each and every single day and just getting mutilated by these mechanical arms operated by shit and filth brown and black people LIKE ICE CUBE and snoop dogg the sick hoggs who just perform every act of violence so white trash shit like shitnigger will give them more lead roles. The smug stupidity of them all but ask them for original ideas they have nothing to say, not a single word. All is given to these fuck whores all is taken away from me for being creative a threat to shit ugly pig rats like these so-calleld men and their shit filth women. And still, they will continue tomorrow and the next day and the next day they will never be pulled off me how can they be considered "superior" without having people to steall ideas from otherwise what are they? smug and stupid bodybuilders simple rhyming dumb scum playing tough and angry righteousness fighting against tyranny-their every bullshit role before they torture me to steal original ideas outside of the righteous victim wreaking extremely bloody revenge upon abusers. That is all they are all they play but in actually all they are is sleazy stupid fucks attacking innocent and in my case, an actual righteous person made disabled by their attacks (their collective group) as these worthless but way overpaid muscle-thug scumbags can inflict their sleazy hate to stop anyone but themselves and their shit blank stupid whore females as having ideas having any kind of actual soul and meaning they appear so empty and blank and rotten but their public appearances are contrived so they appear like they are filled with light and love and intelligence. How much of it is scripted I don't know.