Wednesday, September 13, 2023

A Dostoyevsky "Notes from the Underground" moment today at my condo as I was nearly physically assaulted while walking in an empty lobby to obtain a package from a delivery driver: Creep/creeped-out terrorist report. September 13, 2023. Two days after the infamous 9-11 terror anniversary out of NYC, I am reporting the extended terrorism being inflicted upon me by the US agencies responsible for "anti-terrorism" derived from funding for all these agencies responsible, irresponsibly anti-Constitutionally with terror activities, surveillance and torture (i.e. Homeland Security, NSA, et al whatever is responsible for this violence against me, an innocent civilian of the United States being attacked with every kind of terrorist agenda by the US Government using it's capillary agencies "outside the jurisdiction" of any transparency). //

 "Notes from Underground (Dostoevsky(sic)) --Thug Notes Summery and Analysis". Wisecrack. December 17, 2013.





The goon, creepy and always disheveled Thai expletives who are running the torture machinery and attacks upon me in lieu of the white trashy Nazis and bigots who proliferate here on holiday months and in the short-term holidays in Thailand so the creeps come out from their jobs and run to get whatever payment is endlessly being meted out to live here and attack me, even if it's for a holiday weekend; I can't imagine what kinds of free gifts and money they are handed for this "fun" task of torture and violence imposed upon me with absolute protection for them all.

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I ordered something and I have to pick it up in the front lobby. The journey from this room on the 3rd floor to the 1st is always fraught with stalkers attacking me in elevators in various ways. Often they rush out of the elevators walking directly into me while looking down at their phones. People do this non-stop in crowded places as well. 

It was the maintenance man, not the younger hateful nasty one who fascistically "barks" everything he says at me with hateful negativity, yelling at me for every question I ask with abrupt nastiness. IT was a grey-haired old nasty-looking creepazoid man who cuts the grass and goes through the garbage and etc. The grounds-keeper you could say. With the creepy woman at the front desk who is absolutely lying and negative and nasty towards me all the time (but was smiling warmly and friendly during the pandemic for 2 years but now that the white Nazi league has returned, she's completely become hateful and sinister and ugly. This man whom I have never talked to or had any encounter with on any level was standing in this empty lobby, just in front of the manager's door across from the front desk. I had to cut through this area to reach the front glass double-doors to reach the delivery person and obtain this package of healing items as all I do is fight to heal and pay and pay to clean and repair and replace and heal so it costs a lot of money especially when this same group who assaulted me just now in the lobby are using mechanical arms to steal and break my property and destroy my food.

He began WALKING INTO ME directly at me from the side as I was quickly walking through the lobby to try to not have my living space completely destroyed with filth and theft while I was out. I carry most of everything I truly need or that I ingest or use on my body while I go downstairs as quickly as possible to get these packages for items I really can't get in the stores, through an online order site (some of the items are half the store price and really twice the quality). As he walked at me, I know from retrospect but could not begin to "think" clearly while the direct threat of him walking really into me at full force was upon me, as my brain is always under assault by their brain-mapping blanketing technology so I can move physically but can't think at all, my brain is a blank I can only rely on trying to get out of the way. I can't count the most simple numbers in these situations and I know this from years and years of this going on routinely as I am ALWAYS under such types of attacks in public places. 

He made it extremely clear that this was a personal attack upon me as I repeat, no one was in the lobby and he only began to walk just at the precise moment I passed in the quadrant of his vector assault upon my body. I did not want to look into his face and stop and demand something like "what is wrong with you?" type of fascist angry response. I know what is wrong with these scumbags, they truly love violence and can't wait to have anyone to assault if given the chance. I dare say they would attack a blonde bigot if given the chance and they could get away with it, but their demarcation as a minority minions makes them even more prone to happily engaging in attacking another not-blonde target as their self-hate is projected with a lifetime of suppressed rage. 

I just felt my body rush a bit faster as I was and always walk through these halls asap to not get blasted by people walking into me from around every corner, people going into my room while I am nearly at a sprint pace to return to this room asap so they can't destroy the items I have not brought with me that I still need, or go through my fridge and open the bags sealed with layers of rubber bands tied with strings with rubber bands on top of them, which mechanical arms cannot so easily breach but human hands can. To save my food I rush and to save whatever else they may spray with stinking filth, which they do every day no matter what, these same people walking into me and attacking me. If it weren't them, it would be the rush of white pig apes who throng here as I wrote above, during the "high season" and on the Thai holidays so they are living here in Phuket and are on "reserve" for the tourists who get free rent and the torture and violence increases almost exponentially when these pieces of expletive crap get their free vacation rent for the torture they force upon me. The Thais are in a state of ecstasy that they are part of a fascist Nazi power cartel instead of being the endless targets of some exploitation or another, as they "luv" the white exploiters like the slaves that they are. Viciously they assault me and it's all recorded I suggest on the many surveillance cameras that are placed on the ceilings of my floor but are not on the other floors, and etc. 


As I walked to get past this creepy nasty man from walking into me, but I braced myself for the attack, although I quickened a tiny bit not consciously having done so, so maybe it was the mind control telling me to run like a kind of rabbit, or my instinctual reaction because I really don't want to engage with these filthy creeps--not the wealtny powerful ones who are not hideously stinking and ugly to look at as this old man was, and most of the women also there--as most of the poorer people both white and black are, but even the plastic surgery creeps. I have noticed that the microchip implants are so embedded into my brain that they force my eyes to "lower" in a kind of dazed effect where I literally go into a black haze in my sight for a fraction of a second and can't focus, thusly making my eyes lower or appear like I am submitting in some fashion. I didn't want to get into the angry confrontation, and I don't want to exchange this kind of hostile negative energy with sinister energy parasites, but in teleportation I am forced into it non-stop for hours every day. Regardless that they are famous celebrities, as I wrote in my last post, the difference between this filthy and disheveled scum attacking me is the same as the ugliness of the white supremacist fascist Nazis who teleport me who have millions or billions of dollars along with their other skin shade minions who all have embraced this philosophy and are pig ape knee jerk jerk-off scum waiting for someone to vent their suppressed rage and hate out upon.


So I avoided looking or reacting but I was ready for a physical confrontation and as I walked briskly, I slowed down for a second to gauge the situation but my brain blanked out, I just kept walking and sped up to slightly not have to touch this slime creep but also I was ready for a fight at the same time. He didn't physically walk  into me, but as I returned with my package, he let out an ugly sinister giggle from behind the desk along the rotten woman who also cleans and is disheveled and performs her dirty nasty acts of sabotage and hate upon me, along with the throng of them who are here whenever I go downstairs to retrieve anything or need anything, which I do as rarely as possible. I neither speak to them or look at them so they are walking into me to get attention but it's all very ugly and insinuates violence against me. So I was creeped out. Wondering what the most "powerful" reaction could have been. I have seen other people being targeted who react in that yelling "fascist" behavior. It is supposed to imply status and that other should be cowed by it. I don't like such people and I don't want to emulate them, but I am not weak at the same time. I did the "silent" thing and avoided confrontation, that is one of the first "laws" of Martial arts that I have heard. But on the same hand, if I had looked at this creep and demanded "what are you doing walking into me?" I think he would have been very happy to have gotten a negative reaction out of me. Maybe he would have felt that I was strong for having done so. I am not sure exactly how to respond. All I know is I don't want to look at these pieces of shit or touch them or be teleported to them or live near them or have them in my beautiful life. Looking at him if he had not walked into me, which is what I did, seemed the best avoidance of a yet another filthy and dirty PARASITE trying to suck my energy out through their filthy and nasty sick attacks upon me. I recall however the Nazi people who glare in hate and begin to yell if something like that happens and the dark-skinned creeps bow and crease like they are shriveling in humiliation and then the yelling fascist gets more "power and respect" out of this behavior. But I don't want to act like this but I am not also willing to be pushed around. I am ready for a confrontation but trying to avoid it. 


If you are attacked non-stop day in and day out for years, you are sick of putrid sick fuckers attacking you/me to get a negative response. I finally just want to not have my energy sucked out by another worthless piece of rotten shit following a protocols, while the action is on camera for the pig apes to revel at as I walk away not responding while they giggle like they have gotten over on me somehow, feeling a sense of power.

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I thought to myself that this was a Dostoyevsky moment from Notes from the Underground but that is a long story so I suggest whomever is reading this post to read that section of that short novel. I won't get into it very much but that really is the thought I had, about a passage in that novel where the person is musing for hours and days on how to circumvent people walking into them in public places--the wealthy for example who just pushed the poorer out of the way walking into them and knocking them sometimes over walking directly at them. 

So I think it is another Europigape "aristocracy" entitlement action of terrorism, sponsored by the fascist government of the United States with all these politicians and celebrities working feverishly to obtain a wealth divide similar to what Dostoyevsky wrote of in Notes from the Underground, a predecessor to the Russian Revolution, then of course leading to the dictatorship of Stalin and the mass murder of the Russian population by it's own Government.

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