Monday, August 26, 2024

Teleportation rape & physical mutilation from mechanical arms while in a deep healing sleep--needing peace. Hours of yelling as furiously as possible, my daily morning routine of life-sucking old-age-making psychic injury imposed by life-fucking celebrities and politicians to suck every bit of youth, beauty, health and life out of me and dump their hate and negativity feed off the ideas I am screaming about how awful they are, using philosophical and socio-political and personal epiphanies, which they suck out to use as their own "material" for the deceptions of being "decent, loving and glamorous human beings" that they are (not).

Exhausted from not only 15 years of non-stop daily and nightly torture with all this wonderful modern technology which most of you can only surmise about, reading my posts, unsure if this is just delusional ranting or not...

Exhausted from a 30-day utter screw-around by multiple factors around me, with food supply on near-end at the beginning of this cut-off of my money and access to paying rent and buying food. Being lied-to non-stop by every single agency, so every attempt I made was thwarted and I had to wait, get lied to with food at near zero and then at zero (almost). My body is so fragile from years of poisoning and torture and mutilation and fighting against frenzied parasitic hateful expletives out of Congress and Whorewood, so depleted and fighting literally for my life every single day

I fell asleep after the morning teleportation yelling session, which has been ongoing every morning of me screaming with rage and hate that I can't stand this group of fucking shit at all, never liked them, have been telling them this for 15 years they never stop. They can't "win" unless they are exploiting and abusing me. They can't get elected they can't create their own ideas and without torturing me the Nazi/mafia 4th Reich would not consider putting them at the Oscars and Golden Globes, but once they prove how viciously stupidly psychopathic towards me, day-after-day, oh how much attention they receive not only from the upper controlling psycho group, but down below in the trenches, the civilian death squad groups all taking the same orders and following the same hate procedures, globally worldwide the same "playbook" is used everywhere. These are the "silent majority" which was given an innocuous title. These are the death squad members who are waiting for the chance to kill off millions so they can take over all the benefits of the planet.

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Screaming that I can't stand them. Being told I "have no choice" as they continue unabated.

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I fell asleep this morning after determining I would finally begin to do things I had wanted to do but was so consumed into frantic desperation to get money to buy food and pay rent and be solvent that I could not even do nighttime health regimes I was so exhausted with phone calls to the bank, being lied-to constantly by all and every agency including Fed Ex.

I fell asleep this morning, after the endless hours of screaming that this man who I never wanted, but I was on Kratom when he emerged after I had watched a tv movie series that he had starred in, that was all I did except for look his name up on IMDB--not an invitation for my life to be sucked dry and raped constantly but that is how this group operates in this context of the extremely protected situation of being able to "do what you want" to me within limits.

Saying NO for the past two months, I screamed it again. Once I was in a most sick state of sleep, my body shut down from exhaustion. I slept over 8 hours and while in this sleep, the rapist did his nasty deed while I was in deep healing sick sleep. I tried as usual to say no. Once he finished, he slapped me and I was just mutilated by the mechanical arms digging sharp objects under my cuticles, as has been done for years and years with the same people urging this Europigapeland thing to rape and beat me, all applauding and hugging him--they are the ones who have been poisoning and mutilating me through their proxy death squadron groups.


The healing I have been trying to effect on my nails was damaged again. The cuticles have been literally cut out of my fingertips so the nail will not grow back--or the root of the nail has been so severed that at least 4 fingers have lost the outer edges of the root and no nail grows back any longer. As usual, they cut into that area again after the rape and the abuse and yelling with me screaming to get off me you fucking pieces of shit (not saying that today, today I used more descriptive language. In the audience of the members of the group connected to this, obviously must have been some coming to monitor the situation as my life was threatened yesterday while driving--seriously, by attacks the politicians who have returned to endlessly bolster their wealth and careers by endlessly assaulting me through this system and the attacks they had imposed upon me over 8 years ago are now back-tears pouring out of my eyes--cars and motorbikes suddenly veering into me as my brakes and handlebars are remotely attacked so the brakes don't work and the handlebars veer to the right instantly once I try to pull on the hand brakes on my motorbike--while tears are streaming out of my eyes due to the microchip implants in my throat, brain and elsewhere in my body.

The politicians no longer had the goofy psychopathic smiles with the rapist, who appears repentant and saddened. All was gone once the audience watching to inspect the deadliness of this group was out of the picture back returned the fascist Nazi abusing me because I just reacted under Opiod usage, taking Kratom as a form of pain reduction after not taking any drugs or alcohol for years and years trying to be as sober as possible. Finally the pain has been too much. The parasites instantly reacted to harass and make all the financial details and everything else as confusing and deadly as possible. One slip-up on my part could be potentially devastating.

This rapist is something of a wrestler and probably is, in addition to martial arts, his main attack is from exploiting every single vulnerability and weakness. The second my body relaxes he begins to hit me, after I fight to get him off me. That is how he has begun this parasitic attack on me, and because I had reacted to his aggressive stance, and he is absolutely raping me while I am saying no, sitting on top of me and this is done while I am in an unconscious state so I "wake up" in the deep sleep teleported state, always very sick by the way from toxic shock poisoning detox, and he forces himself on me, in me and then I fight and am too weak and tired (but not taking Kratom but I took it for about 2 months so some of it is stil in my system)

and I know that once I can't fight any longer he begins his very abusive attack. Demanding every single thing out of me, looking for an absolute exploitation in the United States and for his role playing Nazi master race upon me, he is cheered on by blacks and whites alike out of Congress and Whorewood.

I remain being mutilated because I was too exhausted to cover my hands and body as I always do every night. My fingers after years of doing this are still swollen from objects being inserted, every time I am so sick which happens relatively frequently


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MOre blocks to my life, time and energy thru hacking blocks to every kind of financial and material solvency. 45 minutes of clicking and waiting for pages to open for a simple search for some essential oil to help heal my poisoned body---and the hacking is so endless that I have spent most of the last 45 minutes backspacing pounding the frozen backspace key slamming it down with a crunching noise because terrorists replaced or broke the relatively brand new keyboard (replacing the other pretty new keyboard just a few months ago) but the pages are frozen won't open. I try to click on the "price" index and I click on the scroll down tab and one product on the list appears. i backspace and a search term I had used much earlier appears--they are making the back arrow function for going to former pages turn into double or clicking applications but they just keep me clicking on the broken mouse which they broke 2 months ago, I can't click on the mouse to get a page to scroll down either the mouse will not work when the internet is connected but when I manually click on all the internet functions into disabled the mouse works absolutely perfectly. I thusly must fight literally to scroll down because they are freezing the mouse function the page will not scroll down. I am endlessly waiting for pages to open up as well, the are slowing down the connection speed to about 50 times slower than the actual speed which has instant connection but they slow it so I wait 30 seconds to over one minute for one simple page to open after they block functioning of the keyboard (must pound every single key out, literally pounding with my hand down and even that produces different keys appearing on the page due to the hacking to the system). My life has been spent fighting to use the internet to get the stress of murder via these technologies and drugging out of my body and system, and fighting to accomlish anything is nearly impossible to get a single business or email business chat or function done without a hacking typo and rewording and interruption is literally impossible--I mean im-poss-ible they block every kind of professional application and use for every single thing possible continuously and just for spending my life fighting to get anything done is blocking time i need to get other things done. I am expressing the frustration as these multi-millionaires in addition to poisoning me almost into total death paralysis dismemberment torture and abuse without end using voice-to-skull (*they are still doing it today but not as loudly as usual, it's very subdued today but still present now that I can recognize it's presence. Earlier I had wondered how I had such weird thoughts rotating in my head but now i recognize that people are literally "Listening" hacking into my brain my cochlear inaudible vibrations picking up the words and making comments always about killing myself with sharp objects I am holding or using and I know that tom hardy is still there due to the obnoxious sleazy filth of his "suggestions" he is really foul. CAn't get the demon off me, the crew must get their endless life-sucking torture on me for more awards prizes and telling me that i am some kind of "loser" for not having done more than fight for my life to use internet while on online classes at graduate level for 6 years while they blocked poisoned my body nearly to death (had to be rushed to the hospital in Fellbach, Germany for near paralysis one week before fleeing to a place where I could have people literally pound the poisons out of my body via massage; standing on my back large heavy massage women standing on my back trying to break the hard poisons latched onto my spine in a hard shell; I felt nothing could only feel a bit of pressure while they stood on my body digging their feet into my body with all their strength to break the hard poisons. Women weighing perhaps 120-130 pounds and shifting weight I felt nothing but a little bit of relief when I heard the loud cracking noises. they kept the poisoning up non-stop for another 15 years , the same hateful parasites laltching onto assaulting me now threatening to kill me endlessly for defending myself against their contract and their endless delight at torturing me to obtain ideas for more victim turning into hero narratives and feminist diatribes and fighting against tyranny exclamations that i make under drugging truth serum and my body shitting out these same poisons they put in years and years ago, the same criminals out of whorewood (england since trump got into office, not hiding behind the a$$-list americans any longer but outright imperialistic overtake without having to operate in the shadows any longer--to the glowing approval of all involved demos and repubs all cheering it on endlessly. So I am wrirting because of the endless amount of time wasted fighting to simply type and do searches for anything online--hours and hours today it's been over 1 1/2 hours simply in having the internet turn on and rushing to turn the router on and off to re-establish connection then struggling and waiting for 1 minute for a page to just open then backspacing and slamming the backspace key down with my pinky--which has been half severed off the fingernail has been half cut out and the cuticle is gone so it is just a loose fragment so pounding with this finger is also risky and then they also are making the upper case shift key on my left-hand side make a continuous beeping noise because when I press this key the hackers have installed some detachment hack so the usb port literally goes on and off constantly beeping with the microsoft function sound very loud and high-pitched literally so continuously it's like a crazy robot making bleeping noises for just pressing one time the upper case shift key. All this and much more. I still have not obtained my search for now one hour--so many other things to do in my life than this. I need this oil to heal from the damage to my body they inflicted while I collapsed due to toxic shock from the last chunks of hard poisons ripping out of my back from the years hence of having this poison poured injected and raped pounded into my body as deeply as possible. I am just writing to get the frustration out. I keep waiting for someone to stop them from blocking my attempts at financial and any career solvency and for over 16 years of writing in despair that this has been ongoing for over 30 years and still it's not being stopped. even the daily tragedies of the trump administration have brought only marginal response and that is only if someone can get something out of me by continuing this terror block to my success my life and my career finances and all communication (I am speaking in a broad sense of being stable financially and in business, the term "success" is a clear distinction in financial terms but not in all facets of life, but I use that term because they want me completely "crushed' on all facets as much as possible). To just use the internet to obtain something, although I have limited access and I am grateful for what I am barely able to accomplish but still there is a huge long list of OTHER THINGS i REALLY WANT TO AND NEED TO GET DONE that for the past 7 months have been dormant as I struggle to retain my energy from hours of death threats rape beatings and verbal abuse by teams of white males safely ensconced in their 'success" mansions and careers of high (dubious) distinction and their "feminist" wives lounging in the background feeling so entitled watching me get sexually abused by their loving doting husbands as they seek to obtain ideas about women's empowerment which I continuously struggle to grasp onto as they try to crush break beat and rob and block all my avenues for any "success' in the realm for which they are asserting more domination and total control over. Their women help them to attain this by representing "equality" in business they are all delighted I am being thusly blocked while they steal all can of ideas which they cannot fathom in concept because they only obey and follow and viciously assault me for being turned into a target. they use all excuses against me but mostly that i am "poor" and unable to "succeed" which of course, they ensure for every single click every single transaction every single phone call all is obstructed with malware hacking blocks my brain rendered so incapable my nervous system amped-up into nearly histrionic frenzy of breathless stress from hours and days of all communication being blockekd while I am told that if I don't respond within 4 days they will cut all my survival finances off (or they imply; that was a few months ago I fought every day to get simple wifi connection to just make a few phone calls literally to save my life; i was so exasperated that I could not concentrate they used the vulnerability of the stress level to use backdoor hacking into my brain (overwhelmed perfect vulnerability for subliminal content for "behavior modification") which, by the way, is the tool being used constantly in America with one tragedy and shock and life-threatening attack after the next--upon the general public but especially for those they ("they" meaning most of you, by the way) can't stand to see have a chance to compete and better or win). So I am writing out the stress, every key stroke is a battle to get a word out, every click means i must fight to wait for the page to ever-so-slowly open up every attempt to get a scroll-down option bar to work without other items appearing, the last page disappearing I must go through the search terms once more back to the beginning--over 5 minutes later, etc. But, still very grateful to have some internet service at all very glad that internet is still somewhat at my disposal but spending so many hours fighting to get anything done whatsoever and in most critical times the hacking and blocks to my brain and communication functions is devastating. The agencies I phoned which are hostile towards those without money are also trained to simply hang-up on me if I get over-anxious and can't speak calmly; this also is part of the attack on all systems my brain my nervous system and under this kind of stress I begin to repeat in exactly an exasperated and stress-out way the vocal tone and verbal choices (not my vocabulary it comes spitting out like hostility and fear and anger) and then they hang-up on me, giving me the impression that I may be denied life-saving help after fighting to simply reach them by phone for hours and hours per day, for days and days this has been ongoing (and for years). I can't express how difficult it was to study online at graduate level. I literally went to one place amongst a lot of 4th Reichsters and it was literally dangerous JUST to get access to fast and reliable internet service. I almost was poisoned to death as a result of trying to retain my autonomy and not get screwed literally and figuratively continuously for the 6 hours of study I had to resort to because the poisoning and drugging made concentration and focus for reading at such peer-reviewed and statistical logical analysis and research paper writing almost impossible so I sat and sat fighting to concentrate to try and attempt to absorb the material due to the poisoning. Only to be nearly killed by poisoning the last semester of the program and then having to rush to the hospital and leave that place to go to this place where internet is so badly hacked that I can't get anything done regardless--even with my supposed Master's Degree (which is being held until I pay some amount of money I cannot repay because the Loan department gave me a type of loan I had never requested they forced it upon me and I could not cancel it once i saw that it was not what I had chosen--and then I was told to repay some of it after I had finished the requirements for the program--Masters Degree in Criminal Justice---. Instead, I sit barely able to function I have books I want to read and items I want to read and things I have to do but fighting to heal and the old poisons seeping into my blood stream if I do as much as a single stretch makes me so ill I only can sit in front of the laptop while the MEN who want to rape beat and torture me and force everything they can possibly exploit out of me with absolute derision asking me for ideas perpetually calling me a stupid b-word beating raping and then non-stop death threats for every object I am holding--tom hardy is the culmination of 16 years of me literally fighting to get these hateful leeches off me--he is the most violent the most long-sustained abuser of them all--the true representation of the brutal force of genocidal imperialistic overtake of another country. Using the themes of racism upon me antisemitism and kiling me endlessly they all have done this with relish and their cherry on top is endless oscars awards for my ideas about how to fight horrific oppression in all realms--unable to write anything my brain is so blacked out by poisons drugs and non-stop deadly assault upon my subconscious my consciousness and stinking filth I am surrounded by cleaning cleaning my body so frail and broken down sagging fractured body parts severed body parts unable to just do anything unable to eat without being told how and what to eat and not to eat as if I am sick and fighting to devour heavy food so the poisons will latch onto the food which is heavy and I eat is like shoveling it in due to the physical pressure of pounding food down a constricted blocked hole so the blockage will be put through a kind of pressure vacuum thusly trying to suck it out of the intestines and parts of my body--they make endless 'eating like a pig" comments about how just how "low' they claim that i "am" from the endless assaults they never stop inflicting upon me. Literally never-ending. LIterally never-ending nothing ness from the society which has fully put this system into power and protected it with silence and approval and promotions for all who comply and go along and the most violent are put into the most top upper positions of their little ranking field. Because I can't scroll forward the mouse is not working the keys are barely functioning so the rest of this post is a bunch of words I cannot highlight and then delete the functions are so blocked. //t m

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