Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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Hours of attacks beginning the moment I was about to fall asleep from yet another nazi demo-rat senator--part of the "new exciting blue wave" but he's been in his State's senate for a decade (seems to be a trump-era pick since red his state has been through-and-through they all use "controlled opposition" and what a sleazy scum crap parasitic whore he is and undoubtedly has been, if not always then at the tender young age he is now, calling him a dirty sleazy sex trafficking old man is more apt than a young freshman senator). Seasoned in prostitution he is, and the german nazi filth scum who have rushed to get into that whorewood money, handed to the most brutal, u gly sleazy sick crap who forced their filthy selves on me whileI was drugged, so vulnerable and the mind control is far more insidious than the sleazy ignoramus celebrities and politicians will even take account for. 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I have become so cryptic in my inability to elaborate verbally due to, as is happening right now, the endless blockage to typing making me truncate all I write out of necessity to not pound and pound on keys with painful arches of my hands and wrist the tension they hack into the keyboard makes me have to litearlly write in extreme short form (for me). I repeat something in cryptic manner such as, the hateful bigots deflecting their racist attack on me endlessly inserting that it's ME who is "racist". thus they hack "nigger' into my brain while I am watching election coverage and a black Georgia man is speaking in front of a camera about the process. I think "that's you" which they have technology "hack" so they hear to my accusations of me "thinking" their hacked verbal stink attack into my brain, "nigger uncle tom" while I am trying to glean electoral coverage information. I say very cryptically quickly , "That's you" as I continue to try to listen. 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All for me writing after SEVENTEEN YEARS of them obtaining the presidency twice and endless years of campaigning interviews and etc out of assaultingme--they all never stop. Today and last night, for the grave mistake I had made in sending a message in a drugged and torrtured state from the shit creep out of germany who had me gang raped and he claims he fractured my spine, rendering me disabled adn then this group had my disability cut off for not agreeing to having poison pounded into my body with fractured vertebrae on many parts of my spine from prick scum ape whore piece of shit after the next with its' filthy family and wife and whatever rushing to get this contract and to render me fractured for fighting to get date rape drugging scum ape filth off me as I was always drugged and poisoned and saturated with my nervous system put into an instant hightened sexual fake "desire"mode with all the poisoning and problems with my spine I also needed some kind of "physical therapy" as of course, I was given NOTHING and massages I desperately needed to save my life but instead I was repeatedly poisoned and tortured and attacked while sleeping and awake both. This next senator who has been in his State senate since Trump came into office is more foul and nasty than maga nazi bigots---just sick creep filth it is typical for those who expound on the "purity of their christian faith" to be the most dangerous and filthy sick rapist pornographic sex trafficking ugly dirty filth of the bunch. Trump named him correctly when he added "freako" as a suffix to his nasty last name which sounds like a nabisco dog treat anyway. This filthy man who is sitting next to two german ignorant ape scum rapist nazi bigots of stupidity that is alarming considering the level of importance this group continuously offers to all the dirty germanic nazi scum apes like termini88er and the rest. they are so enraged that I am intellectually capable of more than the low and base level they are at, and have been accustomed in my life to be around real artists not contrived nazi props to sell off antifascism in germany so nazism can rise in the shadows of their fake wiles and script-written k-rap bs they are selling. It's bought up completely everyone wants this deception. I wanted it as well. I always never believe in the creeps but desperation and drugging, subliminal messaging and NO HELP from tortrure at least from years of it so deadly and endless I actually need much more 'support" than perhaps someone abating the hate and violence for half a day, which is the best I ever get after 17 years of trying to alert the public that this situation is enveloping the country in a fascist smothering and tragic downfall of all social values leading to equinimity and peace and prosperity and freedom. this crap person whose administration is so close to the sex trafficking borders with "brown women and boys and girls and men" trafficked in all dimensions. Obviously he is part of this trafficking endeavor much to his campaign funding I would also suggest, clandestine as it all is. His degenerate sleazy hateful and violent (murderous) sex trafficking pornographic probable snuff film type sleaze combined with a smooth-talking exterior endlessly mentioning God, Jesus and god bless the white folk who support him (and die and go to hell to me, all stereotypes are there hovering over his brooding black energy as he leans towards teh german rapists who have caused deformity in my body, as they partner with the yapping ugly sick rat from depp who is a filthy stupid ape dropping but they love the plastic surgery nazi shit that she is because of course, behind her is france the partner to german nazism partnering with them all to overtake california, america and america gives them all. They so want me destroyed with no opportunities for a single thing. they have all obtained their spotlight and career out of having me poisoned tortured raped and mutilated but decades of doing that is never enough they must go until I am broken and dead while I fight litearlly non-stop for my life every single day to not get dragged into their drugging mind control skits but I can't handle all this abuse on all levels all the time day and night plus shitting murder poisons out literallye very day and endlessly sick and stuck in this poison trap while they cut my money off and have me raped beaten and abused endlessly asking jfor ideas and I have to "stop thinking" in order to not allow these stupid ape whorews to steal more. That is what trump called the "freako" and now I see why. Trump would know, trump was part of the nazi bigot team putting that freako into power in the first place. Most of the demo-rats were put inj power in the reagan or bush era and the more current house and senate members of this hate gang were put in power under trump or the other fasco nazi presidents and the demo-rats are no exception to that rule. So it's deplorable once more the do-nothing and allow fascism to destroy the country for sleazy filth profiteering off it remains. The nazi europigape scum trash are still welcome to inflict a colony banana republic but the top tiers of the crap-de-la-crap get mansions multi-billion dollars and everything handed ot them. In turn they feel "special" and endowed with high skill and told they are the supremes. They believe it but they torture me because they can't formulate a single original idea. So I remain as I waas over a decade ago the situation remains the fucking sick shit of congress are still fomenting this nazi system but with a few sleazy dirty sick evil lying sex trafficking scumbags like talarico the prico scum he's so dirty and sick. He's not stupid just a lying sob. He's not truly highly intelligent either just a conniving theatrical bullshit operator with a smooth what you wanjt to hear fake deal. Texas is truly a deplorable place the demo-rat nazis are even more suppressed sick fucks than the repugs who they have replaced.