Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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Landlord attack, obviously coordinated with central committee orders. Or should I say slime slum-lord son-of-former landlord calling himself by a different name? He even had his name changed so he could present himself as a different owner, purchasing the unit the month I resigned for another contract and could not get out. Was too sick from endless hours of shouting screaming abuse detoxifying poisons sick bedridden abused to exhaustion and near-dying states of enervation depletion of life force to the edge of body function while fighting murder poisons my body needs 100% energy to battle interal poisoning on a deadly scale and pulling poisons out of my spine every day on top of it all. 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Feeling the stress of social security alerting me to respond immediately (they gave me less than one day for a phone appointment which would determine my life and if missed, I would miss all chances for review and money cut off or a lengthy wait (i.e. 1-2 months) for a new appointment. Letter arriving the day before the appointment rather than the 7-14 days prior notice that is normal--somehow the mail delivered the day before the meeting but mailed out days earlier (like 7 -10 days earlier arriving over one week later as part of the global attack system). The internet off. The landlord deletes my sms messages which I "send" to his phone but are deleted from my "sent" box within 2 minutes because he deletes them It happens with no one else I can sms and the message remains in the sent box. 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My brain is so muddled under this brain assault system they permeate my brain with this "energy" so I am lost in a miasma of unfounded credibility for liars and users which surround me to screw me over, lie and make me appear I have no clue about what I am doing.//He did not respond and I felt the fear and dread of social security sending me another message via their portal to contact them immediately "or else" and they have done this for the 16 month duration of keeping me waiting and waiting and then they send letters demanding contact instantly or they will cut off or deny me. I panicked that the connection might be lost for a similar event and last month I so badly harmed my back from all the stress and I wrote this monmth of this group who ordered all this physical violence via exertion my body could not handle along with the stress while they began to really murder me via non-stop yelling abuse death threats while I was eliminating black poisons because, although it never comes out of my body so this hell is finally over of trying to rid my body of this compression block of poisons which never leaves it has taken 50 years or longer for this amount of compressed poison to accumulate to this point (much of which the same peole abusing me in teleportation had jammed pounded and otherwise pumped, injected and then dousing my food poured into my food. I sent him a message and no response, the "sent box" literally had shown the message being sent then the message disappered, as has happened with this lying male who "bought" the unit the 2nd week after I signed another year contract. //And this hate group organization has done this same thing repeatedly for decades--a "new owner" arrives to buy the place I just rented almost immediately after I sign the lease. Droves of abusers rushing to observe me proably for the endless rape contract while I am in deep penetrating sleep state unable to wake up so they have every place "for sale" so they can inspect how to attack me and it's probably what has been happening for decades. //this dude is however feeding off the rewards for having my home stinking filthy broken down amazingly more than they have been pouring breaking spraying and pounding into the physical space and all furniture and objects literally filth everywhere under everything layers of black and brown filth even a week after I clean. //he answered the phone because he did not respond to the third sms which also disappeared. He answered with hate and open annoyance I merrily told him that the internet was off, obviously I knew he had turned it off but however, the lurking doubt kept me trying to be analytical rather than assumptive. He played more lies. I told him I could not understsand how I could sms him and the message not showing up after I sent, he instantly told me he had another call and to hold one moment, please and then hung up on me. Finally the internet is on again but anothe abuser got to play his game.

  I forgot to write, how turned on these filthy creeps get by using mechanical arms to literally slice skin tissue, make my hair fall out us...