Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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And I have been writing of the 2 years of the Obamas coming to openly attack me in the guilded age of of techno-terror fascist genocidal rape and torture in the next level of the "game" of the "Epstein Class" rape and mutilation torture and murder endowments bestowed upon all the monopolistic neanderthals of the presiding leaders "on all sides" literally the media, political "class" all the news channels all are involved and protecting this little filthy secret. The Obamas remain a pristine-performative pair of swindling conniving nazi-fed rabid parasites on me, the term "evil" is appropriate. 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It was calculated into the attack and war when Hamas assaulted the innocent people for the most part-some of them killed by hamas had actually attempted to partner with palestinians to help with their poverty plight--these are killed off because the enmity is to be encouraged not dissipated. So, the obamas brought a german who had me raped by his friends, I reacted with rage he began abusing me more openly I had to move out, I was drugged in mind control he was a party cocaine and alcoholic (deemed normal in germany they drink beer after beer all night and eveyr day as well) and he had a nervous breakdown while I was at his apartment --after he had me raped after he kicked me out and I was left after a spine surgery with no income no job and I had no way to survive but I became an english teacher. He then --he now claims, had my spine fractured and as a result I am "disabled" chronic no way to correct the injury. He was smug about it, the obamas brought him to abuse me in deep sleep because they have to prove that I wrote about them and wrote about them and wrote about them and yesterday I spent a long time writing about them as not being very much "fun" at all--and so this is their fascist "retribution" it is very much on the scale of trump's retribution at me for screaming at him 2 years ago that I wish he had been killed by that shooter in pennsylfvania--it was after a decade of him having me raped raped raped poisoned mutilated tortured raped mutilated fungus and semen put in my hair every night my hips and spine puut out of alignment making me completely crooked after my fractured body--money stolen from my room clothing destroyed--under the obamas they stole my cat had me thrown in jail after I wrote "pig" to the euro-trash men who had been poisoning me to death and raping the pioson in my body. The obamas came to presidential power by this contract out on me and their smug facsist nazi behavior is the training they are given by their partners the germans, protected by trump since they "came out" of their closeted fascist hidden disguise until trump came to power. I knew that the obamas were behind all the violence but they never appeared in teleportation to me face-to-face but that stopped just when they all knew trump was going to win--that would be 6 months prior to the actual election the vicious rape by a german scum creep (not in the group today another one) arrived. This was also kamala time running for president so they got cardi b to threaten to kill me by having me dragged beh8ind a car--and jenifer lopzen came to bellow violent hateful yelling at me and kamala came as she always has laughing at me which is what bernie sanders did the first time he arrived b ut then called me a "bitch" after I responded to more verbal abuse after physical violence. The years of their celebrity partners stealing my ideas and torturing me to obtain more means nothing to these "fighting the 1% and economic disparity injustice) for all the downtrodden with all the jokes obama makes and the repeat michelle makes of my torture-derived instruction to oprah about the Hegelian Dialectic--which was their strategy for the kamala campaign. Now they are just relying on the trauma torture they all inflicted on the american people to have a blue wave. But they are assaulting me to have nazis know that their total endorsement of abdul in michigen is warrented for their next campaign finance glut and funding for their next book tour their next heroic rescue lecture tour with jokes and jokes and the audiences watching the boob tube drooling with entertainment bliss in anticipation of a happy ending to this movie. Below is a tarot reading I asked the bot if I should write about this pair but the ingenious explanation of that bot is really very microscopic perception of the dynamics of how corruption and power are intermerged in a couple of scamming con artists---with farrrakhan as well and his role has been to divert racist hate from "blacks" to jews and nothing has fed all of them with a racist target to beat on than me--since I have never aligned with the jewish community and they are so happy to point to me as being more dark in hue than their white supremacy appearances in the spotlight --the genocide is ongoing darker skinned and hair jews are to be killed off only blonde and nazi programmed "jews" will remain in "Israel" which trump makes open statements will be a place of international riviera luxury real estate investment. Of course the godless lying evil of the obamas will get huge stakes in the development project as will bernie sanders and aoc and all the antisemites who are pushing for this war so they can invest in a new waterfront property nazi new world order playground. Next will come teleporting of anything they can suck the life out of and rape and kill if they want and mutilate and steal ideas and get away with it as the nazi enclave will resemble what they have already done to me so successfully for all these decades and still will be given full hero cheers from the gang stalking nazi programmed public. I can't go any place in America without hate death squads and no interference from a single person (on the planetj).

Hopefully the midterms, an eternity away still although technically something like "today" how many years I have been waiting for ...