Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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Viciously attacked by the German-black american male consort pimping game factory with dirty white trash noem and more dirty german whore apes and then obama and then morgan freeman because I AM WATCHING THROUGH the wormhole: More heart palpitation attacks as the german and yet another black nazi american actor is making nearly the identical statements (instructed to him by dirty, ugly sleazy german ape rat "punk" scum) so while I WAS watching through the wormhole dirty nasty morgan freeman just as another stupid black puppet, appearing erudite in the tv series, yet stuipd and rotten in front of the german promotional nazi scumbag crap creep--as hakeem jeffries and mandami had done, with a host of white nazi trash out of whorewood have done--screaming insults at me while watching this show which requires absolute concentration while watching as I was interested in studying physics my first year in college< but due to drugging and poisoning was unable to focus and concentrate to get past intro to higher mathematics my first year___MORGAN FREEMAN is making vile and dirty blaCK NAZI WANNA BE white supremacist comments while I AM__OR WAS watching the fourth episode of the first season___AND HACKERs are again forcing caps into the keyboard; all done since the german rat rape ape scum began his endless torture with shit and filth from the government--dirty ugly nasty k.noem, rotten obama and his wife, the nasty nazi married to trump, the gold-digger entourage assembled and morgan freeman, because in the early morning sICKNESS of detox I wake up and try to obviate the night of teleportation death threats an dabuse and waking from sickness, watching something to block out their ugly unwanted endlessly sick and stupid comments because I am so weak and sick from the poisons and drugs (WHICH THEY inject into my fingers through my severed_off cuticles nightly if possible or inject into my bladder when i am not too ill to cover my every orifice possible and vulnerable body part; which I waS too ill to do yesterdaY THE ENTIRE week I have been falling asleep at 2-4 pm and waking up at 5-6 a.m. from horrid detox of poisons latched into my spine for decades. ON THE MERE episODE 4 OF THE first season, and then skipping the 3rd season because they switched seasons in my already saved file list and renumbered the episodes, literally putting something about babies and when consciousness begins due to this heinous contract of forcing a baby on me from some ugly swine filth bigot creep trying to obtain an empire out of this contract--the german ape rat believes he is the most entitled due to his enduring racism bolstered by the cheers of the rape whore cartel urging him to play nazi--the blacks rushing to join in with their usual farrakhan-issued indictments that the lie that I AM RACIST means THAT THEY can endlessly try to inflict racist comments out of me using endless antisemitic language at me with death threats and sleazy sexual abuse statements-so dirty and rotten morgan freeman, who hosts through the wormhole, began making "I don't want a dirty little brown-skinned girl like you i want a blonde woman" IN FRONT OF THEDIRTY blonde nazi shit sitting there out of germany--which, like with the rest, means that morgan freeman has no interest in anything related to fighting racism, nor indeed physics unless he is included with the good ole white boy conclave entity omitting people like me instantly and using racist and sexist language to do so. I tried to JUIST IGNORE the ugly dirty old sick nazi black fuck, but he continued endlessly as the german shit sat smug and smiling as usual, the ugly stupidity of the next black nazi capitulating all to show that he is asaulting insulting abusing me with the most foul racist language, but it's all okay he's played black victim of racist persecution most of his life and is now entitled to becoming a white nazi enabler with promotions for his flailing career--since trump only wants english black actors and foreign blacks to dominate the american landscape the american blacks are literally being kicked out of whorewood at this rate and replaced by english blacks--everything to put eurotrash shit into power in all aspects that trump and his nazi cartel can possibly replace the original americans by and with. ugly sinister making something like sucking his rotten penis type statements until finally, after sitting listening to quantum mechanics for over 30 minutes waiting for this filth dirty ugly shit whore next black scum to finish his endless 'Nappy dirty brown girl" narrative, the self-loathing this piece of shit and all the pieces of shit from the celebrity and political world have absorbed into their own psyches with their immersion in bowing and scraping to the white nazi cartel--who can deny that hakeem jeffires is a token do-nothing enabler, as so many are finally recognizing about obama. obama and michelle were there in the death threat segue to me reacting in rage when the dirty ugly sleazy black-hole energy cesspool german whore rat began making horrific murder threats of horrific murder of me in a most gruesome way--with obama, michelle, and the rest mentioned earlier and german woman wearing all white saying that they are the most "CLEAN" PEOPLE IN THE WORLD (caps forced by hackers and it's so time-consuming to backspace i do not mean to highlight what those ugly trash skanks said dressed in all-white IN nazi-style clothing from the 30's-40's) while I must clean the black sooted stinkiing filth that the brown people sprayed in my room yesterday while I WAS accepting a delivery from a water supply and grocery delivery system--I had to bring my huge carton of eggs down with me otherwise terrorists go into my room and replace my exposed food (the package was open) with rotten eggs, poisoning any food that is open like yogurt) AND WHILE i WAS IN THE lobby and I went outside for less than one minute--like 30 second) I HAD PUT the bags containing the food (eggS) on the delivery table near the back and they got A TINY LITTLE 5-year old thai boy to rush and smash the eggs--he was sitting behind that area in the back room for guest visitors or the meeting room behind the front lobby and within 30 seconds had rushed to smash 4 eggs and I RETURNED and I HAD NEVER DONE ANYTHIg to this carton whatsoever after I gingerly packed it all up (IT WAS sealed in a way where the eggs would not shift or break i make my own security measures with strings attached tied etc)> but i must return to filth sprayed on the floor< walls and debris and black clumps of gunk on the floor becuase of the white nAZI CARTEL and their black and brown minnions like morgan freeman, spewing his filth instructed using voice-to-skull by this german scum filth--obama was there after having the german threaten my life in a very horrid violent way (AND BEGinning this horrendous HACKING to my computer so the keyboard is constantly switching to all caps and II MUST CLICK on the cAPS LOCK twice to get it to stop, etc and more and more from non-stop never-ending scumbags if I watch a movie and the general theme applies to any of the shit they rush to abuse me while watching it as if I am mAking a symbolic gesture towrads them--so watching fellini movies, hoping that since fellini and his wife are dead, the rotten sophia loren would not come to bring genocidal fascism through her endless yappy stupid giggly remarks but tainted with death and murder in each utterance her dire wish to install a fascist nazi italian-german axis power in the united states and take over the country has been the goal of the 3rd reich currently being issued by the black shit of obama and his ilk and farrakhan making a devil's deal posing as spiritual guru for a taliban-type control over women, especially but rape and torture for jews and murder they all are in agreement. thankfully, through the wormhole is old, and outdated to some extent and I just discoveed new series without he rancid, ugly twisted and now I see deformed dirty black scumbag morgan freeman and not any celebrity piece of shit narrating with fake interest but only for inclusion to white intellectual pusuits and trying to cancel me out completely--by the way, in high school in my advanced science class where the teacher did advanced graduate-level equations for quantum mechanics I was the only one obtaining the correct extremely complex answer to various equations (USING calculator) AND I also was at 97% IN THE SAT for ranking in science--it is why I Was accepted , at leastl partially, at Cornell university not only due to legacy since my father is a graduate of that school--but my nazi family was instructed to destroy me because I was too much of a threat to white nzi pig ape men like this german scum rat whore ape and the blacks are stupid as hell obeying racist dictates like morgan freeman--0and so thankfully I HAVe discovered a non-celebrity modern version focusing on non-pictural celebrity narratives with actual scientist-interviews instead from the science channel--and dirty "suck my dick" MORGAN freeman CAN

  perform his white wanna-be black nazi male libations at the root of the phallus german S&M ape scum rat who they all adore because the...