Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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Social Security Fraud/crime against me: it's not exactly a "one-way street" but it's more akin to a bicycle lane without barriers next to a 6-lane one-way expressway and Tesla Trucks veering into the bicycle lane I am solitarily peddling as fast with flat tires on to save my life.//(Muck had trucks nearly hit and smash me to death just as he was handed this tech with Amber Heard once she and Depp finished their 2+years of teleportation rape and torture of me, the spawn included--afterwards, after stealing my ideas I wrote endlessly about Domestic violence which Heard stole but fumbled, of course, like them all, turning "woke into a joke" she returned to assault me 2 years later after a month of near-hits by cars---and more cars hitting me under the last Trump administration obviously under muck et al//now they have used Social Security to destroy me (literal threat to my life and survivability with serious life-threatening threats looming due to this well-planned and executed attack using my SSI Disability, my one and only anchor on this planet they have taken away but it was criminal in how they conducted the situation which CAN BE REVERSED IF ONLY PEOPLE WOULD DEFEND ME AND GIVE SOME RELIEF TO THIS AND ALL THESE SITUATIONS TO STOP MORE OF THE TERRORISTS FROM COMING TO POWER--but to continue--Listening to "live" Senator Cory Booker on the tube---he's mentioning how SSI recipients (I am one) give permission for that agency, in Field Office interviews, to access the bank account where payments are direct deposited. I only gave permission for the agent to gain access that one account, after he asked me if I gave permission to access the direct deposit account. A few days later screaming on the phone he yelled that he saw my other account and boy, I had gone over yelling as I was "frozen" by mind control and also his behavior, for any sort of response that defended myself against his railing yelling abuse, warranted more abuse and threats which he could have done. I did not give him permission to access any other accounts. This is why he sent me a letter 2 weeks later stating my benefits are reinstated and my "overpayment" was due to a 2002 situation I had resolved in another interview 20 years ago. Adding $400 to the overpayment from 2002 and then stating my benefits are reinstated (deducting $10 per month from the already $10 deduction) I had to check on the SSA website to see if my benefits had been reinstated. They had not. I waited for another letter as Mr. Melle told me that he would send a letter, screaming with violence and then sneering with absolute hate and contempt to "have a nice day" like a schoolyard kid screaming and making fun of that ubiquitous use of pleasantry that Americans use (Mr. Melle is "Latino"). He sent nothing else, and still there is no other information about how to reinstate the benefits. But firstly, Cory Booker stated in the speech on the Senate Floor regarding the Muck Dog cutting of Social Security that people in interviews only give permission to access the direct deposit account. With all the lies, did they have any legal right or entitlement to access ALL my records with the bank when I had only given access to one single account? Furthermore, besides that discrepancy, there is nothing in writing about this. He told me to come in person (he "suggested" using a sneering contemptuously expressed example of coming to the Field Office direct in person to pay with Cashier's Check or Money order ALL MONEY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT to him personally, made-out to the Social Security Administration. Yelling that he would send me a letter detailing what to do before my benefits would be reinstated. //2 more weeks went by and now a month later no letter only benefits cut off. I phoned 2 weeks ago, was told that Mr. Melle is "in the wrong department he was not supposed to give the interview you have to have another interview". Mr. Melle sent me the paperwork on the interview, the phone call I was supposed to receive never came. I phoned the office on the day of interview (Feb. 27) and reached for the 2nd time of phoning that field office the same person (the answering is in rotation for whomever is available in a random answering ciruclation) and Mr. Melle told me he could "do the interview" and thusly, it turned into what is some kind of extortion but---no way to resolve this only to have another interfview where they could really screw more up. My situation is not a "normal" situation I am a gang stalking target of multiple murder attempts torture rape using these technologies--no one will help me so no one can help me provide evidence thusly no one cares to help me provide evidence because "everyone" is benefitting from this 4th Reich system being promoted gets a huge free deal gets to get their sleazy hormonal release from torturing and beating abusing stealing ideas life force energy they are just sucking in all they can get out of me, this contract no one will intervene. I am stuck with no way to have any incoming money as a result. The internet is continuously hacked and blocked earning is impossible. My family is involved. The U.S. Government is involved. Most governments around the world are involved where I am now is absolutely involved. So, I told the Field Office after they tried to force another interview on me, the woman on the phone was so rushed she was stumbling over her breathless words trying to force another phone appointment on me. I told her for the 3rd time that the interview had been conducted but I need a letter stating what I have to do to have benefits reinstated. She told me Mr. Melle is on "2-week" vacation will send a message to him to complete the interview. //They have forced me to have to flee my life in one place in order to survive life on this planet and everywhere i go the same poison is poured injected and pumped into my body from one vehicle of transmission or another. The same death system of attack is the same, performed with MURDEROUS violence by groups of "normal" citizens every single place on the planet. I am stuck with no way to have any money coming in. If I leave this place I have learned to barely barricade myself into so they can't put my hips and spine out of alignment any longer after raping me, putting semen and fungus into my body, hair and fungus and mold into my food my furniture my clothing destroying clothing shoes backpacks on a routine basis making my jackets I drive in stinking so the smell never comes off (using laboratory-created staining/absorption substances laced with putrid other expulsion substances--muck and filth) and ec. I need to retain an income I deserve the sub-poverty disability and much more from the group from Whorewood just from years of them stealing my ideas and trying to paralyze and kill me and then destroying my life my chances to earn money so they can just latch on forever, literally forever onto abusing me as a life sentence of slow abuse, rape sex slavery to death-- a situation that scores of Congressional leaders have rushed to join in, screaming with murderous violence because I am fighting for my life and not just willingly allowing these murder operations to o on for their mutual profit--all of them together everyone gets some free deal out of it plus dumping their hate on someone else and feeding off it and then hormonal highs of he addiction to violence and torture they all have.//With the Muck Dog-Redrum group feeding off Social Security, now all the lies are just part of a huge outcry of desperation from the "losers" who are not life-screwing operators feeding off lies and violence in order to obtain the positions in the "leadership" which is now openly criminal but so many are screaming and as usual no one ever stops them or helps me. I am thusly in a life-threatening situation. A team of people who have poisoned and followed me around the planet, literally, to continue to make as many people abuse, attack and poison rape abuse with extreme violence in every living situation with the exact same protocols followed around the planet--they are there waiting for me to have absolutely no self-defense as the SSI was all I could do. SIX YEARS of graduate studies and they just poisoned me with creeps pumping the poison into my body through both teleportation and poisoning drugging of my body and food while the terrorists broke into my home every day and night while I was drugged sleeping and fighting their MURDER DEATH from poisoning and torture--doing whatever they wanted, making my body broken down as he are still doing--and I will have no way to protect myself from murder any longer if I have to move and have zero way to have money coming in. Members of my family whose children have not abused and tortured me all my life but are waiting to profit off it rushed to join in, with the Whorewood group recently as they have all coordinated to cut my money off so my family can join in as they always do, now openly that Muck and T-rump have made fascist Nazism open and not disguised as it has been for so many decades under the "Democrat liberals" but at least I could rely on my monthly benefits which I do deserve and much more from this endless death threat and theft and attacks--considered a CRIME I HAVE COMMITTED TO DEFEND MYSELF by top politicians in Congress treated like a fun game by Whorewood scumbag inc and treated like a mental disorder by police considered an extortion bonanza by the Little River Social Security Field Office and considered a "fun game" by dirty Muck who had cars hitting me when he and Trump first obtained the teleportation equipment and this contract out on me, putting them in the powerful positions but they are still under the control and imperatives of a collective of fascist Nazism around the globe (America is not first on their agenda, trust me)..

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