Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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Throat-induced (non-consensual) microchip torture forcing tears, throat constriction while eating, and the endless hate of this group of just extremely hateful celebrities and politicians remains as the daily hours of abuse per morning. Amazing that in this afternoon they are not still abusing me in rows of chairs staring like starved rats and leeches devouring my energy, life force and sucking out ideas which I spill out continuously for hours after their torture and abuse without end (18 years by now on a non-stop daily basis, leading to 16 hours per day and night ore more over the past 2 years but almost the same under the biden hellscape period and endless torture under trump 1st term and endless near-death poisoning and abuse (under all) but under obamas which remain as steadfast abuser-for-profit black nazi terrorists working with all their good white nazi supremacists in whorewood and congress whorewood. Aspiring politicians are rushing to join in, as they torture me and remain silent as they abuse ideas out of me. The former governor and soon-to-be former governor of that golden state cali are now a cali cartel of violent rape abusers and hateful exploiters of me with their throngs of minorities, has been celebrities and already established but not quite on the non-stop tier of non-stop top awards as the bulk of those who have spent 18 years torturing me day and night remain after their careers were faltering until they leeched latched onto abusing me nearly to death. They remain despite my months of writing about them, only handing this torture apparatus to their "friends" who need this career-enhancement so they take turns all obrtaining lead roles oscars awards and asking me non-stop all morning for ideas. Ignoring them is impossible. The amount of energy required would take up litearlly all of my life force to ignore their violence since they augment it non-stop with physical torture such as tears pouring out of my eyes. My skin is thoroughly damaged my eyesight permanently deteriorated to a degree I can no longer read without glasses, the prescription is increasing and increasing. My face looking so foreign to me from not only tears forced out of my eyes hour and hours per day, for literally years on end without end daily (this had stopped for a while until newsom obtained pemission by trump to inflict this torture after I endorsed newsom's prop 50 in california--the redistricting plan. Under drugging and extreme violent torture I wrote a message to his facebook page, and like depp back in 2012 he began violence, rape torture and increased it to non-stop terrorism when I said "no" to being his willing "sex slave" abuse victim and substitute for his domestic violence problems, which all the people involved are heavily invested in transference onto the stalking target so it appears they are all by-products of domestic violence or extreme racist policy alteriing the possibility of people in the United States elevating above racist cliches that only the white nazis are the "most beautiful". The horrific endless physical torture for mutilation and destruction of the face has been ongoing since this plastic surgery rife hate group out of h-wood began clutching at destroying my lief in every way possible. Before that it was "Just" poisoning jme into a huge, football shaped poisoned and dying drugged into near comatose levels of incoherency victim to be exploited (ideas without end beginining with the English wealthy "art dealer" I met for circa 4 hours total back in 1987 during a summer vacation trip to London with a Eurail pass. I was put into a little "bedsit" studio across the street from him in Chelsea (the Engllish creep who has spent 16 hours pe day yelling non-stop abuse and death threat yelled "that's what you get for trying to live in Chelsea" when I had written in my blog that I was put there by a real estate agent when I asked for a little room on my budget (they raised the price for me it went lower after I stopped renting I had asked afterwards) and I had no actual "choice" in the matter I had no idea where to go and this agent told me there was '"one bedsit" which fit my request (in all of London) conveniently across the street in a "posh" area from a man connected to the contract my family had made with the English in connection to the movie Deliverance, back in 1974). Back to today: tears pouring out again as I sat yelling my tirade of "leave me alone" type "get off me" endless daily repetition of this theme. They sit like statues adorned with the promise that respecting any single thing about me is FORBIDDEN they happily comply. They remain sitting and digging into my psyche to obtain ideas. They never say thank you there never any interesting reply except for the ugly hissing of the dirty hate spawn of Depp yelling her daily non-stop "loser" at me after they obtain ideas (my ideas have furnished her movies, the only ones that made any significant headlines in her entire career and her modeling came about as part of this scheme to use h-wood to bring in nazi infiltrators via h-wood into controlling american politics using nazi and english crown money handed out and distributed like candy to drooling addicts Americans they call "stupid" behind their backs---they say it openly at me whenever they can, these nasty English in particular but it is echoed throughout the Euro-diaspora of nazi persuasion. But AFTER they torture me to obtain ideas and use tears torture in part to obtain ideas. 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The body builder out of Austria the former gov of that dread state which used to be some kind of "open-minded" paradise of developers and cereative potential is now torturing me non-stop for years to obtain original ideas which the English crown furnishes with millions of dollars in funding for huge grand set design and costume grandeur to bolster the scripts which have, in part my ideas derived out of torture and then the usual nazi platform propaganda scripts which are essential copies of paradigms of such platitudes which echoes the platitudes the politicians use, who also observe my screaming responses to "why is this bad" and then tears torture, everything broken, stinking and more damage to my body, my property what is left of it with endless death threats and abuse going on and on for hours per day. //Never once even a basic "thank you" or any kind of money or support just abuse and then they finally just vanish and they obtain the ideas, taking notes on how they can use the ideas, and then threatening me with death having their hateful expletive scream "loser" or they just say how "stupid" the ideas are and then I see my ideas used in their movies which I deem to be a lessening of extreme originality of my original concept and turned into yet another formula nazi propagandized movie which "wins' an award and then is forgotten evermore since the movies leave no lasting mark on anybody's minds except perhaps for the mental masturbation of watching their skank rape nazi women or men gyrating or heaving around with sexual allure supposedly (years of plastic surgery and modeling with all kinds of subliminals, I believe, to enhance this effect on the viewer). //The script to "help" me while I am exercising has been used by two foreign men coming out of the near former soviet and nazi encampments which Americans have "forgotten" were once dedicated to destroying American and infiltrating and taking it over. As if it was never a threat American nazi celebrities rally around the extremely violent abusers in their ploys and schemes of torture, obtained from Stasi and Nazi administrators of mind control operations. Tested in Nazi concentration camps, by CIA LSD drug lords posing as experimenting on mind control MK ULTRA upon the unwitting prostitutes and politicians who could be bribed thus the mind control was easily ascertained upon both the wealthy and eduated as well as the desperate and possibly less well-educated simultaneously. Their mind control operates always the same: I am exercising to try to break the "internal shelf structure" of hard posions jutting out of my back, blocking movement along with the fractured vertebrae along my entire spine, performed in the span of years to inflict total disability and then denying me health care, even when I obtained it after years of struggle and applying for disability--which they have had cut off and have tried in the past month to block all attempts for me to have it reinstated by infecting my laptop so badly infected it's unusable, turning electricity off completely where I live for days and days and then increasing the abuse from people in all tech shops to the point of near physical fights because I am under mind control in such spaces and unable to contain the rage they use brainwave and subliminal phrases and literal body functions to obtain (affecting thoughts and emotions into hyperbolic knee-jerk instant reaction of rage, combined with life-threat to my existence on levels of extreme stress and drugging abuse and all avenues of producing the hundred or so downloads this agency required for them to assess my case after 16 months of no response and non-stop abuse and torrture rape from one trump politician who partners with the usual obama and clinton teams and the old biden-era abusers from the dem party are sitting next to their "opponents on the other side" all working to abuse me into "submission" for their co-joint partnership in a total entropic overtake leading America into a non-stop fascist dictatorship but "benevolent" when the dems take power.

  The ploy that is used to obtain more perks, deals and permissions to control the entertainment-political entropic realm is handed to this ...