Sunday, September 26, 2021

Musings on Love weaponized and war. Thoughts on love and consciousness. Thoughts on governmental missives directing war on Love. Leo Tolstoy who transformed from a good ole boy to a Lone Wolf leader through the power of grandiose universal love of his brothers to whom he was exalted as being the Keeper (except for that love of his wife). ""All the things that he preaches for the happiness of humanity only complicate life to the point where it becomes harder and harder for me to live," wrote Sofia – who transcribed all of Tolstoy's manuscripts, including War and Peace, in longhand – at the start of 1895. "His vegetarian diet means the complication of preparing two dinners, which means twice the expense and twice the work. His sermons on love and goodness have made him indifferent to his family, and mean the intrusion of all kinds of riff-raff into our family life. And his (purely verbal) renunciation of worldly goods has made him endlessly critical and disapproving of others."---Sophia Tolstoy (Leo's wife and historically misaligned partner).

 "War and Peace (1/9) Movie CLIP - The Greatest Pleasures (1956) HD". Movieclips. May 18, 2012.




“Never, never marry, my friend. Here’s my advice to you: don’t marry until you can tell yourself that you’ve done all you could, and until you’ve stopped loving the woman you’ve chosen, until you see her clearly, otherwise you’ll be cruelly and irremediably mistaken. Marry when you’re old and good for nothing…Otherwise all that’s good and lofty in you will be lost.”--Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace.

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"The chief cause of unhappiness in married life is that people think that marriage is sex attraction, which takes the form of promises and hopes and happiness - a view supported by public opinion and by literature. But marriage cannot cause happiness. Instead, it is always torture, which man has to pay for satisfying his sex urge."--Leo Tolstoy (not a quote from War and Peace).

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"It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"Nietzsche was stupid and abnormal."--Leo Tolstoy.

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"In all history there is no war which was not hatched by the governments, the governments alone, independent of the interests of the people, to whom war is always pernicious even when successful."==Leo Tolstoy

*what do we learn from Tolstoy? (weaponized love versus peaceful love, as hatched by governments which program the militarized masses to perform the deeds of unconscious manipulation).
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"Tolstoy the Spiritual Anarchist: On 'A Confession'".  Paul Griffin. December 7, 2013. 





After contemplating suicide and renunciation of his former life, Tolstoy. Tolstoy was addicted to sex and could barely control his adverse sexual urges (believed in sleeping downward into the peasant class, even making poorer women pregnant and then discarded as demanded by his "superior" class). This aspect of his life has rarely if ever or never been delineated in mainstream (undoubtedly in obscure feminist papers which I have never read but am aware of such types of writings).

This highly Communistic approach to critical analysis is like the usual male-dominated fixation on male philosophical life ponderings. Mention of domestic violence or abuse or cruelty towards his wife or other women is not mentioned. All the themes that Tolstoy so beautifully elaborated upon except for his dark sexual urges towards women (and with men never mentioned) are left out of the poetic critiques offered by men (I would suggest of the same patter, ilk or whatever you want to call their male bonding affinity towards completely ignoring all issues of abuse towards women by such "lofty" male writings--as Tolstoy had come out of the aristocrat class and as a man of privilege and social status his demeanor towards women remains as a privileged silenced omission in all the accolades for the otherwise "spiritual" and socio-political meanderings through what could not be called "liberal" or progressive ideologies.

In my opinion, the subconscious HATE for women as expressed by exploitation of lower class peasant females, and then his adultery when it came to his wife whom he kept pregnant for something like 15 years on-end--to his denouncement of sexuality towards her, his dark secrets bound up in his controversial novel The Kreutzer Sonatas, and then his death which was spurred by leaving his distraught wife whom he wanted to abandon in his 80th-something year of life. The suicide urge he had, which I suspect stems from his utter disconnection from sexuality and love for women (suppressed homosexuality perhaps?) and his sexual debauchery of women (and probably men, never mentioned in the historical record). This utter disconnect in terms of sexuality and the death urge with his compounded lofty "spiritual" photo-opportunity prose and celebrity fame and then his subsequent lack of appetite for life--the urge towards suicide.

But hear and list to an appraisal based on absolute glowing reviews of the spiritual heights that this reviewer ascribes to Tolstoy. I am not criticizing Tolstoy's complexities or the author himself as much as the lack of balance in the reportage concerning women, sexuality and this confounded death and sex combination, tied to a grasping perhaps in vain at spiritual enlightenment and socio-political challenge to authority but the personal life remained a cold, landscape of the cranking out of endless children and a kind of static sexual lovelessness.
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Last few thoughts--a separate post but interconnected to a previous post today---hours of abuse per day I have a lot to expunge from my mind and heart and soul, what is left. Expanding and contracting simultaneously. Imploding from nausiated disgust and the sense of stinking death rot from these filth slime crap things out of whorewood and the corresponding politicians. Expansion realizing how much I have undervalued myself in the past due to being poisoned, stuck and sick always from their thwarting and silencing of my talent, health beauty and expansion of my life so these filth foul parasites can feel expanded. They grow in energy from parasitic life-sucking for sure. The black rancid parsite of Pvalley--the ugly hate of this trio and undoubtedly the white nazi trash male actor who played alongside the ugly yapping sinister black trash creep yelling "ugly loser' at me perpetually with the smirking sneering rat depp filth trash---and the german total crap scumbag family who has been invited to "traumatize" me by every means of "blaming" me for a lifetime of this sinister sick scum ape who tortured and then fractured my spine, obviously a murder attetmpt for his failure and his problems. The ape men who rape and drug me using this system all have serious problems with their lives, emotions and in relationships. They then implode because this tech enables the "instant gratification" scumbags to indulge in their every sense of power by pushing someone else down; instructed in Nazi ideology that they are then the "master race" imbued with instant superiority for having someone drugged, their brain put in a type of vice and the planet can be turned into a slave and master plantation. They indulge in every drunken and orgy whim until they are so unbalanced about their actual real capabilities that somehow something rebounds the impracticality of their overwhelming self-absorption is unrealistic in real-life terms. //This sick filth creep obviously had problems before I was forced into his sphere because my nazi sick family forced him on me so they could endlessly profit off destroying my life. I had won contests I was at the top in many things I endeavored in, this outraged the nazis and they instsructed my completely supplicating family to destroy me "from within" under pretext of "sibling" in-fighting so it was murderous violence poisoning and drugging and the "sibling" mass of black hate got deals, and were invited to parties, etc felt like they were welcomed. They stared with loving submission to the nazis towering in disdainful demanding glares to attack me, which they did and were allowed to compete and win and obtained private lessons for their children, etc and whateve other perks. They still werre declining like arnold shit-stench n9gger and like all the rest, and like this german sick crap family who I last saw in 1993 and really thought I would never see them again, never once wanted to contact them or anything like that. But this black nazi shit who came from P-Valley began by hate and abuse instsantly with no "provocation" from me--only that I had called dirty oprah an aunt jemima under minnd control traum and torture after 2 years--only 2 years compared with 16 or 17 from the depps ongoing without end--none of these ape pigs can achieve much more than what they truly are worthy of and the former free deals for just dumping their sick problems out on me did not elevate them enough to sustain anything but a downward slide into more mediocrity and their own problems, which are many for all of them individually and collectively all they do is swarm to abuse me to dump all their hate and problems out on me, projecting literally everything possible upon me as the blame target. The black shit came, freshly instructed "call her stupid call her bitch call her ugly laugh and giggle with the u gly sick rat depp because you will get your movie and tv show next round with the ellison merger and shitnigger arnold. but tortuer and abuse her to get ideas for your next shit black nazi victim Critical Race theory bullshit tv show. //the ape sick pig fucks kept abusing me until I finally began to yell names at them which I have written earlier---becuase their tv f-ing show is all about women being victimized by white nazi trash men like this german ape fuck they surrounded with love and adoration only because he is a nazi white male and so is the white male in teh cast who is ordering them to abuse me so he can profit off this but remain, as the white nazi trash always does in modern "woke" society, behind the scenes but orchstrating all the racist violence and chaos and then once all fails, as the europigapes have been constructing in america through their dumb mind programmed idiots like trump, shjitnigger his nazi progarmmer instructing him how he can gain but destroy america so f-ing what, all he needs it so be approved of by the euronazis they bring in peter thiele to destroy america with nazi muck out of south africa. Nazis of america onlky want me destroyed and blacks to do the nasty work of genocide for t hem, which is the programmibng I was faced with directly with this prick valley putrescence valley yesaterday leadcing into today. Hate that was murderous, ugly negativity without end. The smirking delight of the ugly plastic surgery skank prostituted filth crap who played a victim of an interracial white/black marriage of domestic violence, e,xactly what I was forced into by my family-a similar plot to this shit actor playing a role she has no comprehension of and would have submitted to the abuse and hujmilation of the white male if she had been forced into this role forced onto me, in real life not fantasy college-level critical race theory writing as this p-valley writer is: pure academic critical race theory expressed in all it's bookworm parameters in scripts that are very much readily available in various stories by other authors or in social studies ecucation. I am not a student of critical race theory per se but I have studied domestic violence and nothing she wrote of had any deviation from what you read in a graduate class on similar topics. //The intersecionality is also available in feminist classes which I also have studied so what she wrote was very common knowlege at higher educational studies, if they are allowed any longer. 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The writer glared in absolute murderous hate and rage at me after the 4th hour of me explaining how they are wrong to support this and why--which is the way this group has obtined ideas for all these 17 years of abusing torturing raping beating abusing raping insulting to get me to scream ideas about justice so they make movie shit out of it--funded by multi-milions of English royalty and german nazi and everything for that merger with the naziified ellisons and etc and so, ugly sick dirty nazi arnold obtained another idea out of me so he can produce and profit off it. Not a single penny for me, not even a thank you NEVER a redcuction of abuse and murder for me--slow torture to death continuously shitting out murder poisons every day or being constipated with it, sick and drugged every day to the max so every morning I am in a near delirious state of drugged inability to think and act decisively while htey scream and insult and threaten me into my brain, hours of it beginning the second I wake up--on and on and on. This filthy dirty hate creep is going to turn it into black victims of racism with them starring in it. The filthy depp rancid piece of stinking sick ugly shit will play a white suporter of compassion for black victims of racism, which is what the real originators of racist divide and conquer p lay in both real life and in movies, the roles are interchangable but always they are at the helm of the surrpetitious machincaitons for racist override. Dirty sutpid sick arnold fixates on hacking animal devouring type videos because his view is that--and I insert here--he is not a creative talent, he is a sick rancid

  The hackers as usual froze the entire laptop in the midst of writing the above-- Arnold sick filth-igger is not a creative talent, his tal...