Wednesday, April 12, 2023

What I learned about Russian military soldier life while living in Germany (around Russians in a foreigners dormitory for women with Germanic heritage roots-as I have in my background in some odd way, not exactly what I am "proud" of but...)

All this talk about Russia and Russians for so long, and in my utter exhaustion from returning from shopping---only one murder attempt while driving--yeah! Well, only one huge SUV driving directly into me from a side road or from the side, driving into me, while I was driving at high speed in the middle of my lane

but utterly exhausted from all the hard lacerations of hard poisons which are pulled in every direction while I am out and about. I have to carry so much extremely heavy weight due to the three "default" bags (huge, laden with items I don't want destroyed, stolen or sprayed with permanently stinking substances)

and it pulls the poisons latched to my spine, glued into my muscle tissue and viscerae and every other part of the interior of my body, and it's being pulled simultaneously in all directions while I'm carrying all this heavy stuff while under attack from all directions.

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I'm too tired to fight the hacking to write with correct grammar--it's so difficult to type at this point that I am writing as quickly as possible just to get some of the words out. There is a hack and interruption every word or every other word--so this is lugubrious 


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When the  Ukraine-Russia "war" or military exercise, or whatever you want to call it (a lost cause) began, I had no thought whatsoever that "Ukraine" or NATO would "win" against Russia. I know that Putin knows exactly what he is doing, as does NATO. The world requires a polaristic duality in order to have an enemy in which to spend billions of dollars into the coffers of various entities who profit from cold and hot wars.

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But my point was to write about Russian military and the extremes to which Russian soldiers are trained to become like "stalin" (which I heard is the Russian word for "steel").

I was invited, when I lived in Germany, to the house of a Russian man (early 20's) by a Russian woman who lived in a room next to mine, along with a Romanian woman who had befriended me (to participate in gang stalking terrorism, for one thing, and perhaps for her and her family to be more accepted into mainstream German society in the little village which I had much more to do with a few years later. Neo-Nazi activity is very much at the forefront of this very small village, which is not a little arm-pit "dorf" but has it's own wine label and vineyards spread throughout the village and region, slping up to the hillsides of the "Schwabish Alps" and the Medievel castle resting on top of a craggy very steep hill above the town.

My experience wasn't as a tourist, and so I got to hear the gossip, or perhaps that was the "gang stalking" protocol of endlessly aiming negative energy and thoughts at me, but I heard a lot of @S**t about the goings on of the people, the affairs, the sex tourist trips to Hungary just after the fall of "Communism".

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The type of training I was casually told about, while I was offered cups of coffee, cake and etc (it was a Sunday, that is the Cake day in Germany, or Southern Germany where you sit around eating cake with family or good friends (or more like drinking beer after beer in a bar or cafe after the family gathering).

I was told that soldiers in Russia had to jog 10 kilometers (or it was "miles" I can't remember, the story was told to me in Schwabish German and not in English, or it was mixed because none of us could speak the others' language well at all, or German for that matter).

This very athletic man told me that he had to run carrying a backpack for 10 kilometers (or miles) up a steep hill, wearing heavy hiking boots, in the snow in winter. There was no exception, and everyone had to do it no matter what. He also described other conditions which also the German mandatory army detail entailed, which was to sleep outdoors in January on the ground and then wash your body with cold water, outside, after sleeping all night in the snow without blankets or anything (having to fight for your life and survival) and then washing your body, taking off your clothing, and then doing more hiking and etc for miles for how long, I can't remember).

One of the German men (whose last name was very Polish) but like his father and mother, born and raised in that area and considered 100% German---but, he told me that if a Russian soldier in training died, the Russian military didn't care. They literally trained people to be able to fight or die, in military training. There were also stories of people being threatened with murder, and the threat was not a listless coercion attempt but a reality, and if people working in scientific research didn't find solutions or experimental designs they faced being killed, so I was told.

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That is what a German told me about Russian military, with a grain of fear about how violent that situation must be for Russian men to have to endure. 

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But I am now exhausted and I can't go on, only to write that I don't believe that Russia will fold and that Ukraine and Nato can fight Russia and also China will probably get involved and other countries are also lending military mght to the Russian theater so----I  expect very drastic and dire situations to arise out of this conflict, which will become a conflagration.  

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I fear that in comparison, the U.S. is very weak and bombastic about it's power and far too complacent about it's position in the world theater of politics, military might and economic stature.

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I could delve into other topics such as the "leadership" I am faced with in teleportation lacks the essential human dignity and grounding to be able to perceive how dangerously inept they are in the face of their enemies, whom they have embraced and handed every kind of 

vulnerable exposure to, and pathways for infiltration. They always underestimate the vileness of the Europ-a war machine and the lies and hypocrisy that they want to believe in for their sense of restoring white supremacy and fascist Imperial culture within the U.S. and their only goal of eliminating "equality" or the struggle for it far overweighs any rational assessment of the serious pitfalls and dangers of the people they embrace from, in particular, Europ-a-land.

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I had intended this post to be about Russian military raw grit and the level of do-or-die training that makes the Russian military very much on par with the fighting-for-survival camp of the Ukrainians. But the ability to withstand stress and pressure within the framework of war has been a Russian advantage for many a year--not sure how long, I truly don't know much about Russian history, like most "Americans" but I have this understanding that Russians  have been trained to fight "to the death"--their own death--making them a formidable and unrelenting foe. 

The hacking is very bad and I am too exhausted. I have had to rewrite sentences at least 6 times in the course of writing this because they are attacking the font size and blocking typing, and it goes on and on every time I try to write another sentence the font is at tiniest size, too small to read. It never normally happens. I have to once again clear out the system, which I have been doing now almost every day. The horrific hacking begins almost immediately but with time the laptop is laden to the point of being frozen and all kinds of hacking and blocking prevents writing. It gets to that state 3 days after doing a 2+hour "restore" system operation.

 

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