How to respond to fascists? Do I become a fascist in order to deal with fascists? I have discovered that turning the other cheek often leads to a more violent attack because a vulnerability is assumed by being nice and respectful or even in using humor to try to disengage from the hate or hostility. I do agree in many respects with Christian ideology when it comes to reacting with peace to hostility, but unfortunately the point-of-view of fascists is that you are weak and they will attack with more vigor because they consider you an easy target. //Exhausted but happy to be in the last few stages of detoxification, albeit with this poison, it is tricky serpentine sinuous stuff that penetrates deeper into body tissue the closer I get to the area affixed to my skeleton. I drove around and felt light instead of weighted down, but exhausted because the poison is still latched onto every conceivable angle like a skewed lattice frame up my spine, into hips, skull, down to my feet, arms, etc etc also into viscerae. One hostile attack and creeple stalking, ripping parts of my clothing with tiny knives so my clothing was shredded with threads hanging down. The creeple attacking me do the most stupid and rotten things and of course are told they are exclamatory and so strong and incredible and what good boys and girls they are for the nasty controllers who, in the less affluent stages of internal corruption, look hideously decrepit. It's so disgusting to be forced to have contact with such stupid and sleazy putrid creeple and continously so.

 I was affronted by a Thai woman at the Central Festival shopping mall parking garage Covid Checkpoint. For over 6 months or longer I have briskly performed the forehead or passing my hand over the sensor to be let in without being obliged to sign their silly name and phone number sheet on this guard table. I walked in and no one was there because the attackers were taking the place of the real employees. As I got through with the usual "green" light and began walking to the elevators, this Thai woman began shouting into my face and glaring into my eyes with absolute hate to sign the paper. My brain blanked out, the same reaction I get every time people are assaulting me in public--I believe this is being remotely done by blocking motor and cognitive processes which I can easily discern at times I am trying to count simple sums and my brain is blank. I understand it is happening 100% of the time I try to write on this blog or any comment section or for any reason I attempt to communicate whatsoever my brain is rendered nearly blank while people have orchestrated skits intending to assault me psychologically while my brain is simply unable to function at a level where I could defend myself in any way. I just blank out, sometimes without knowing what I am doing my lips go up in a forced smile that I never intended to do. ETc etc I have written of it for so long.

I have to make an internal decision every time one of these fascist-oriented, wanna-be white fascist Nazi minority minion aspirants makes the moves to gain a promotion by "practicing" fascism on me while my brain is rendered effectively obsolete in terms of quick and rapid response that effects some kind of counter to the attack, insult or threat. 

I must make the decision, also, on how to respond even though my brain is being pummeled with subliminal information like "shut up" which is very often shouted into my inner ear and I can "hear" it while I am in a very quiet state in my torture chamber studio room being tortured non-stop by these various forms of technological violence. 

I do not agree with fascist behavior or reactionary hostility, which is the usual response that fascists make in such situations. Always the creeps must shout, glare, fight or make hostile responses in such situations (or not always but usually, or they get someone around them to do it for them, all those viciously aspiring minority minions--which also accounts for extremely wealthy H-wood celebrities whose every song and movie is about being victims of racism.

Back to the point: I do not want to respond to fascism by turning into a fascist. The aggression this rotten sleazy and stupid woman threw at me, at very close proximity as I was bending down to scribble out my initials she bent down to stare into my face with absolute hate. It was all caught on camera, as this entranceway into the mall is right across from the superintendent's office and cameras are visible all over the tiny vestibule next to the elevators, which lead into the mall shopping area. Right now hacking is very bad as letters I press are juxtaposed with letters hackers are inserting. I can't get a word out without having to backspace and retype words. Sometimes I spell words and the spell check underlines it as being incorrect

but back to my thought: I had to make an instantaneous decision as to how to respond to the stupid hate "skit" that this skank creep was throwing at me while I was just trying to get into the mall--after having passed the electronic covid screening machine in a breeze, and wanting to go elsewhere quickly without loitering around getting into some "fight" with some stupid worthless creep when I wanted to do worthwhile thing elsewhere like buy food and not have any confrontations with paid idiots performing hate tasks which are always caught on camera whether openly visible or not. (not always, I suspect that most attacks are caught on camera and all are preconceived before I arrive at the scene where terror agents are waiting.)

They want to see hostility, me yelling (as I do in teleportation when I am nearly awake, sleeping, drugged, having been sliced or attacked while sleeping both in my prime physical state and in teleportation then abused by this group which by now is just the plastic-surgery version of rancid lower class plebs who attack like vicious parasites. They just look better after decades of top plastic surgery modification and endless top quality health care, food, luxury and of course attacking me feeds into their energy as they drain me completely almost to death and they never tire of this energy drain exercise every day (plus all those promotions and this is now an addiction for some of them to attack me).

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But when I am fully aware but always operating due to brain-altering attacks at less than full awareness--but awake, doing things in the "real world"--I have to chose whether to react like a yelling fascist fighting for a power-over little bit of ground that someone is pulling out from under me while my brain is rendered incapable of defense except in very silent modes of maneuvering which only reduces the impact. Later on, when my brain can fully absorb the situation because it's not under attack at the particular moment, hours later, I think to myself that I had choices as to how to react but many of those were literally deleted from my consciousness like wiping a hard drive into a semi-functioning state. 

So I remained in a more flowing gait, I walked away as she began to try to yell after me to put down a phone number as I ignored her, silently. If I turned around to tell her she was being rude, that would mean engaging with someone I think is a stupid piece of expletive idiocy like all of the people in these groups who attack me. 

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I then was later treated to another stupid skit by another Thai 20-something female wearing expensive but revealing clothing with a 60-something white rancid-looking rotten old white male from, mostly they come from Europ-a-land here in Phuket--the ones who live here--or vacay oft times, wearing hideously ugly clothing, frumpy, pot-bellied and ruddy alcoholic complexions. Sometimes there are younger Muay Thai white males with svelte Thai 20-somethings but the power dynamic is always the same. The women--this is now the nth time this has happened as a stupid attack skit aimed at me--it also happens with white couples or black or etc but it's more noticeably unbalanced when it's this Thai/white combo where the woman is gently but sexually rubbing the back of the male, who looks ugly and hideous and is nasty and mean-spirited and anything but sexy or attractive--by these Thai women who are so exemplary in taking care of themselves to be as sexually attractive as possible. They do the stalking gestures of pulling up their pants (like cops do, this is a ubiquitous gesture that both cops and terrorist stalkers make, I think it definitely is a crossover of police secret signaling like in baseball, and in this organization it's the same body movement as the police make with pulling up their pants like they are trying to get that belt over the doughnut hump of their huge guts. All the cliches, yes, I feel like writing them today because police have always viciously attacked me when I attempted to alert law enforcement of illegal and hostile activity and home break-ins--where I am yelled at by police and called all kinds of mentally ill labels and etc etc etc...

I am too tired right now to get into the etc etc details but the hacking is so bad and my fingers can't "move" to keys I am stuck fighting and backspacing and fighting to move my fingers. I am under severe brain attack right now and can't go on any longer this is now impossible to write further.

But yes, the attacks are as stupid, disgusting and rotten as these people who are all essentially of the same moral fiber--from the bottom to the top it's a completely stupid and ignoramus organization of absolutely incompetent but fully trained life-fu** operators, con artists, users, genocidal idiots scumbags whores and rapists and murdering stupid bigots. Some are so excellent at putting on grandiose posturing with semi-sophisticated behavior patterns which are supposed to imply that they are "classy" and "elitist" superiors in all respect and I find that like the scum creeps who attack me in places like this entranceway into the shopping mall with the agent who is mean, petty, striving for promotion by emulating fascist genocidal hate behaviors while in modest appearance at a shopping mall--with drooling disgusting mostly rotten old white males with their groveling, sexualized minions performing the ugliness and hate that these Europ-a's have learned to disguise with great fanfare as to the fake authenticity of their sophisticated semi-posturing facades.

 I can't type any longer this is impossible.

I am now confronted with the endless stink of the cooking of the people living on all sides of me. What they cook smells so disgusting I must shut the doors and burn incense, and this goes on all night it's utterly disgusting even their food smells like disgusting crap which is all I can see of their every fake superficiality but organized and controlled public posturings. It is completely an incompetent group to be put into such power and they have used so many various forms of violence and have indeed taken over far too much and destroyed so much and far too much. They will continue to ravage the planet and destroy societies, cultures and masses of people will die as a result of their utter sleazy interior incompetence to lead but they have wrested power through all their genocides and violence and above all, the endless lies about how great they all are (utter depraved scumbags all is a lie and a deceit).

I don't want to react like them, so I walked away and ignored her and went on to buy wonderful food and I am very happy. Exhausted. Very hard to type so tired of the hacking and these sleaze rotten pieces of stupidity attacking me and being able to get away with it for years and years like this. 

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Meanwhile, upon returning from my little shopping spree--where it began to pour rain the moment I drove out the building (was not raining until I drove out) and then poured every moment I was out driving and stopped abruptly the minute I returned to this room--hours later of pouring rain. Returning to the filth agents/terrorists were "busy" putting stinking fish oil sprayed into my bathroom so it stinks of foul, fish oil stink. I just spent another x amount of time scrubbing filth that I never generated nor created. That is all I do is clean up the stink and filth of this filthy stinking organization while they plunder ideas I have studied for and block my every attempt at any kind of decent lifestyle with any semblance of  a chance for a career. Complete Taliban oppression of women, that is. Just like the police gesture of pulling pants up at the belt-loops is exactly what some corrupt cops do to make signaling to their companions--like an umpire to the pitcher in a baseball game for which "play" they are going to pitch a knuckleball to immobilize the opponent and then strike them OUT.

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Another spray bottle has been broken--it was broken last night by the mechanical arm. I have to buy one or two spray bottles per month because they break the spray nozzles so if I spray with bleach, as I must to endlessly disinfect the foul fungus and mold and putrid chemicals that are continuously, every single night and during the day if my back is turned WITHIN MY OWN PRIVATE (BUT NOT PRIVATE) LIVING SPACE with these mechanical arms. 

Broken, stinking, my body so demarcated with scars, blemishes, veins sticking out from pounding on my body while in the comatose sleep MK ULTRA state. Round objects inserted or somehow put under my skin which appear like huge cysts but are hard objects and need to be removed surgically in some procedure. It's all just stinking filth, blocks in every way, people trying to get their husbands or boyfriends or sons of brothers to abuse and rape me viciously or vice-versa--the men I mean trying with all their sleazy porno skills to inflict as much psychological trauma through rape and abuse and violence and physical assault that they begin immediately to instigate upon me to break my body, spirit and everything else. It's just all sick and rotten sleazy putrid creep parasites who are being promoted and exalted by this filthy and disgusting system. I understand that they want to destroy people and put only themselves into power. I understand that the slight "freedom" that living in the US has allowed me to get an education and try to persevere through the endless and by now countless attacks upon my body so I cannot function and thus, not compete against them or win any more competitions, as I had done so often in the past when I had not understanding of this global organization and I was trying my best to do my best and achieve my optimum, under the circumstances of obscene poisoning I have done what I can.

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When I consider how much of the planet is now under constant threat as the threat increases and yet the same people who have helped to destroy the planet are still being advertised and sold off as being heroes and saviors is just astounding to the seeming death wish of the psychopaths who run this insidious organization of absolutely disgusting neer-do-wells who have obtained power through this most violent system of lies and deception. 

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Thus endless filth poured out upon me in every way as I write another post for another day about it to the silent audience who is also very willing to continue this system and keep me in this place and in this situation. Still putting the most insidious people into power, still doing nothing to stop this fascist and putrid organization of death, filth and sickness and destruction and death.