Friday, August 6, 2021

I have thought of idea after idea and concepts for short stories and essays and I can write NOTHING. Nothing except for hacked and rewritten nearly hyperbolic (sometimes actually so) posts which are then severely redacted after I struggle to pound on a hacked and blocked keyboard which is essentially non-functional, while my brain is under so much attack from remote or embedded microchip technology that it is "painful" to think to write. My nerve endings my synapses my neural firing whatever is under electro-torture-suppression attack renders the effort to think and write something like wading through an electrified eel swamp at waist level. A bit less shocking but this would be the effect of after-shock and being numbed from having been stunned. My thoughts are blocked out as I attempt to "remember" basic words, spelling and names of people, places and even using any more sophisticated vocabulary is very difficult to access.

 Besides all the above problems that are foisted upon me, I encounter great psychological and physical abuse and torture every time I demonstrate anything other than blanked out conformist acceptance to the prevailing order of mediocrity and Nazi/fascist/Mafia brainwashing ideological concepts that are continuously veiled in heroic posturing of the many various facets of this insidious systematic form of racism, sexism, oppression and the stifling of competition and equality and "Democratic" freedom. Oh, the culprits of this system want "freedom", which is a huge catch-phrase that Nazis and the white supremacists use for their nefarious covert actions of racist suppression, covert assassination and theft a la fascist Nazism.

The slingers of these contrived postures of Democratic Freedom who I have been suffering through with daily screaming and hate from me to them as they sit gloating, smug and giggling at the endless deterioration of my body and my life that they are forcing upon me with non-stop hypnosis while I am sleeping, in a nascent waking state and in this most "truth-telling" and vulnerable state (meaning my psychological defenses are almost gone) I scream in hate and rage after endless rape, violence, abuse and the endless fight I must endure to simply protect my body from being mutilated further by their mechanical arms breaking into my room at every single possible moment (literally) to either spew filth, stinking odors, spray chemicals into my hair from behind as I sit eating or doing anything--from the endless cracks in all the cupboards and panels I have pasted together with cheap construction paper, metal hooks but there are chinks and cracks and literal quarter-inch cracks in the doors and the mechanical arms are extremely malleable and can bend, curve, get through angles, spray, rip, tear, make incisions, mutilate, spray toxins, drug my food--and it only takes one small mechanical arm to destroy my hair, skin, body, food, room and whatever else (steal money from my purse, etc).

Thus, going into a bit of a digression (another attack that the mind control tech always forces upon my brain as I attempt to think in linear structures while fighting to explicate my thoughts to the people who seem like slugs going at slower-than-a-snail's pace in movement to alleviate any kind of threat that is actual towards the United States.

Stolen, my ideas stolen for over a decade from simple phrases to concepts I could barely type out to a short story with parts lifted and stolen to hair coloring I created--all of which, anything I do or write or create which is a "treat" to the fascist and Nazi ideology of only the White supremacists (and their groveling but pretentiously "fighting against racism" minority minions at their side in concentric circles of wanna-be-white-supremacist fascist aspirants)--anything I create that is original, anything I say or do that isn't a ground down mediocre nothingness that could be stolen for the glorification of a parasitic scumbag posturing as if they have exalted and noble emotions, concern, humanitarian goodness but are instead rotten and filthy whores who delight and drool with gnarling slimy delight at torture, mutilation, theft, abuse, hate, rape, murder, genocide and rush to participate with genitals bursting in anticipation of releasing all their pent-up pornographic fantasies of their powerless unleashed into a semblance of "mastery" upon the helpless victim/target. With the technology that has been handed to them by this most UNDEMOCRATIC UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT the pig apes have been unleashed. Thus, they can steal the concepts I have uttered or written or even though under the violence of their endless assault and because I have tried to write poetically and in a creative fiction style, they steal and rob all and then glare in hate and torture me not just if I respond with chagrin and anger at their theft but they attack me immediately after I attempt to produce anything worthwhile that could be deemed commercially viable, which they, in their utter banality and mediocre ugliness and sleazy fascist nazi smugness and with all handed to them, they suck out and turn into more banality that sparks something more noble in the consumers than the usual trite K-rap that is continuously being pumped out about plastic "love", pornographic gyrating titillation and pumped up  hypocrisy in the mind control industries (including politics).

Thus I am tortured for attempting to produce anything that could feasibly be used to enhance any semblance of a career that has been quashed by these groups and this larger organization of obeying mindless minions (even the white supremacists are minions to one degree or another). Then what I manage to barely pound out with my head feeling like it's in a type of clamping and squashing instrument of blood flow constriction, is then stolen and then I am poisoned, tortured and attacked afterwards, called "stupid bitch, shut up" endlessly by the subliminal mind control torture that is continuously being pumped into my "inner ear" or cochlea or whichever function is being used to transmit these "silent" but vaguely audible words into my brain--at situations where people are confronting me I can't "hear" the suggestive comments because people are usually talking in rude, loud and negative tones at me and I am also under various other forms of attack.


Thus I cannot write my short stories, film reviews, analyses, for these various and more unnamed reasons.

Meanwhile the mind control breakdown of my personality continues as this vile social engineering technocracy continues to have celebrities violently rape and threaten to dismember me continuously, smug and gloating and smiling as the latest one is as his entire career has been uplifted (he was depressed, he had NOTHING going on for his career until he began endlessly and violently to assault me, now he's glowing, the actors of the NY Mafia Brooklyn crowd the "Italian-American" thugs (white supremacist racist bigots who are all "friends" with extremely complacent blacks also huge celebrities in the H-wood cartels who bow in deference and make anti-Semitic remarks and steal and rob and assault me physically are also part of this racist and fascist Nazi cartel of thuggery).

The social engineering is also to destroy my sexuality and body physically--I now have to fight to not have all my hair falling out once more due to chemicals being sprayed while I am sleeping or sitting at this very desk as the mechanical arms push through the layers of padding I have inserted into the 1/4 inch cracks of the kitchen sink pipe area underneath--where the mechanical arms get through the watered-down and soggy particle-board wall facade which has been made loose and malleable. 

I continue to be teleported to this most vile latest teleporting rapist who is an affront and a hateful violent probably criminally insane fascist Nazi out of Europ-a-land--absolutely embraced by the entire throng of these expletives who have not stopped latching on to abusing and raping and having me nearly killed in accident after accident to endless violence on a 24/7 scale for over 8-15 years by now this is endless. This morning once again screaming in rage at this same silent group of parasites who have done this day after day for year after year to promotion after studios handed to them to top awards with more and more other celebrities rushing to get involved in this very easy promotional pyramid scheme. 

Right now I am exhausted from pounding down on the keyboard and fighting simply to get letters out as the keyboard is so stiff I can't type without exerting the entire strength of my fingers, hand and into my forearms to simply pound letters out so they appear on the page (only then to be deleted, rewritten, all punctuation partially deleted to create run-on string sentences that have been partially deleted and glued back together without commas or periods separating the terrorist hacker deletions/rewrites).

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So it is endless, daily screaming from me to people who are detestable who sit in a huge crowd, in chairs in rows, watching me trying to punch the pigs in the faces who have raped and tortured me, endless screaming in rage as they sit silently after they unleash endless violence upon me. They smirk, the Europigapes are the most smirking of the lot. They in particular are overjoyed to hear me screaming in rage. The latest most violent and disgusting pig ape who I have been writing of in increasing rage, desperation to get this ugly and sleazy rotten pretentiously "emotionally-romantic" scumbag rapist racist pig ape whore off me--to the silent complicy of Whorewood which always watches on, sees what advantages they can get from either participating or going along and supporting all the fascists, mafia and Nazis who have wrested control over this most insidious mind programming and social engineering fiasco conglomerate billion dollar enterprise.

I am too exhausted to continue to pound down on the keys and fight and backspace and rewrite and send out another missive into the vast nothingness of the entire spectrum of the people who thoroughly approve of all that is happening to me and want this system to completely overtake all governments and countries of the planet--they have already infected most of the planet already as the despotic fascist and tyrannical murderous Nazi adherent states around the planet all follow in this model. The S***t movies continue to be pumped out. The social engineering continues. I remain fighting to not be mutilated and destroyed physically and remove hard-as-rock poisons from my body as these millionaires and billionaires who torture me to obtain any and all phrases, concepts, vocabulary, creative ideas and political and anything else (hair color, anything I create they believe is theirs for the stealing and theft and taking) while being told to not outperform the mediocrities who can purchase what other fascist Nazi designers crank out according to the dictates of the pedophile rapist fasist Nazi designers and creators--but, alas, to the millions of people who conform to this system and embrace it. I fear to write that many of them are now laying in death because they followed this system and were infected and killed off after they gave everything to be a part of this system and not excluded. Utterly brainwashed but then used and discarded (killed off, exterminated is the more correct use of terminology).

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Social Security SSI Disability illegally cut off by the stench filth of arnold gavin and rump muck and the nazi coalition of whorewood who have made hundreds of MILLIONS OF DOLLARS IF NOT BILLIONS FROM HAVING STOLEN MY IDEAS--not paying anything and then destroying what I do have, then taking away sub-poverty social security because I am the only person in the united states fighting racism rather than playing a game of pretending and dancing around with posturing speeches and stupid songs and movie fodder k-rap, the rest look on doing nothing that is why rump came to power and then again without any resistance. //Otherwise, 6 years of grad school and all attempts to earn money literally blocked while paralyzing me with poison and abuse and drugging every day--trying to obtai money from a GoFundMe account & is it BLOCKED no resopnses it is hacked from general view; this has happened when I tried to earn money online my url is blocked from the internet upon a url activity search I have decoded their total block of any activity (including my blogs and facebook posts only met by enemies looking to murder rape torture whatever they can get away with to get their failing careers back into the nazi orbit. Shitnigger arnold and dirty nazi gavin one facing extinction for years until he got his chance to prove he's really a nazi kgb agent torturing me without end and bringing as many gold digger scum like nancy pig-lousy and then gavin scum old boy onto his nazi payroll thusly he is holding an "environment" conference which is a front for nazi endorsement of yet another obama nazi replica to put more white nazi wall street investors into the money destroying the investments of the lower ranks and with the aid of nazi republicans killing people using social security as an excuse---my ideas furnishing stupid ugly ape arnold with so much clout to enter back into whorewood his violence is endless death threats for not allowing him or his nazi jewish and black partners to abuse me without me responding in self-defense while they are drugging me with truth serum and abusing me into my brain non-stop all day and night until I do react--they spend hours abusing me until I do react just to justify more violence and it is a never-ending domestic violence cycle--ask shitnigger arno0ld's former wife if that rancid fuck she divorced is abusive as hell when the sexual "fun" and games are boring and he has to actually be anything but a rancid "me only" scumbag as he is programmed to be: thusly...under your gaze and silence and protection of that group of shit filth: Stinking sprays on my clothing ordered by the stench of arnold the sick fuck-ni88er termini88er nazi filth---who is using (perhaps...in part) my concepts of saving environment to push his nazi inclusion in american politics as his "platform"---his stench is conveyed onto my property just as his ILLEGAL VIOLENCE against me (i.e.lifting me up in "teleportation" while I am literally on the toilet grasping my abdomen due to the black horrific poisons I have spent 30 years fighting to eliminate from my body which this dirty ugly thug scum parasite calling himself "superior" has ordered put in because me being able to compete might mean his blank ugly dirty nazi mentality is lacking and void of originality as is he--thusly stealing my ideas and then having me slowly killed serves his nazi concepts perfectly--unfortunately supplied and protected by the demo-rat party of california old boy gavin scum and the nazi obamas the deception of which is still protected because they so fully support white nazi nationalism but are "actors" proclaiming how hip and not racist they are (not): thusly, with them all, they informed Social Security to literally change my status from "suspended" to NO BENEFITS they also illegally issued "benefits ended" (sorry can't remember the exact official term but not 'suspended" meaning can be reinstated but completely gone). They are yelling at me, the white nazi bigots who are answering my many phone calls about how and why and why have I not received any mail information on why benefits were cut off only being yelled at lied to and abused by phone--their only method of communication under orders of the obamas the trumps the dirty shitni88er arnold still controlling CA politics the pipeline of Nazi gold holocaust derived is ruling America and the Engllish crown equivalent as well; however, the lying yelling abusive people answering the SSA main line number demand with "suggestions" that I go in person to a field office to get the answers rather than THE LEGAL REQUIREMENT OF THEM REQUIRED IT IS LAW TO SEND ME INFORMATION informing me of t he situation what must be done. The former rules of demanding people go in person were changed under the Biden administration (partially due to Covid) thusly mail is preferred and they have cut down on social security so mail is the real preferred method of communciation which THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO COMPLY WITH. Simply lying and lying to me by phone refusing to send me any letters about my situation and ILLEGALLY demanding I go in person but yelling--literally yelling with hate and fascist abuse--that they "suggest strongly" that I go in person--asking me a spate of interragatory questions about the status of my case which were questions I would have to look up to get the precise dates and informtaion but on a main line call when I was trying to change my address because they wrote it incorrectly--assuming I would phone back--then yelling that because I answered one question one month wrong (after 15 months of my benefits being cut off) the white woman yelled "I can't verify your identity you must go in person to a field office I SUGGEST" I told her that firstly changing my address by phone does not require me to go in person to a field office, and that it was protocol for SSI recipients to phone in address change in fact it's their policy and recommendation--she screamed literally yelling "I will tell you what protocol is" as i hung up at that point. I told her that they need to send me mail so I can get information she told me that I have to spend all my money before they would consider and that I would have to goin person--absolutely ILLEGAL and not policy by LAW. In person as they have done by phone they will lie, once the lie is solidified as if it were an official meeting they can just write the terms and conditions and then have me arrested for one slip-up I made which I cannot help I had to SAVE MY L IFE FROM BEING POISONED and I had to leave thusly that is all they have and they are lying and illegally demanding improper protocol denying me information ILLEGAL all done by old boy gavin scum governor of ca and the shit whore ape former CA gov arnold shitnigger trash who is such a foul and stinking lack of american values you all worship due to the energy of just stealin raping killing and robbing and then abusing anyone who can't fight back into "submission" that's all it takes---it's spread like a virus california hails that prick scum and his acolyte dirty nazi gavin old boy scum the lying fake smiles of the pig ape creeps and their illegal money schemes is what people really gravitate towards. I remain with my status literally blocked, the benefits cut off since February 2025 the man doing it in miami literally demanded I go in person to their office pay with cashier's check all my bank account balance (covid money stimulus payments and student loans) which are exempt. Telling them that these are exempt under law they yell abuse and just cut my money and refuse to send letters THEY ARE REQUIRED BY LAW TO SEND for a repayment schedule. They sent me a payment schedule without identifying anything other than a financial amount---not completely legal as they are supposed to let me know if benefits will be reinstated. I paid two months then never hearing anything I filled out economic hardship forms requesting from the California field office which dirty old scum gavin instructed, which they did quite happily it was a white nazi creep woman and then the usual california and american plantation system of minorities following orders, the more down they were on the ladder (in this case, Asians) the more sneering with lying contempt they had in their voices to get approval for the nazi slicing of employees out of social security this was their means of proving they will lie and kill people upon order by cutting off their survival money if they are not approved of by shit like old boy scum gavin who yelled "I don't want people like you in my State" so it's HIS State not a United States entity but HIS state--his control with arnold telling that rancid scum gavin what to say and do to become "president" all will be rigged. Since ugly dirty arnold grabbed with his filthy snorting sucking body and system onto this contract that ugly stupid rancid fuck has had people threaten my life repeatedly he has done it repeatedly has abused insulted punched raped and brought in at least 300 or more people to abuse me in just the last 2 months--that ugly rat roach parasite leech has since opened an "environmental" bullshit conference in his native Austria to sell off black nazi kamala harris as the puppet of the obama nazi uncle tom aunt jemima tap dancing team lovingly smiling with adoration into the faces of every rapist nazi-spewing shit white trash filth bucket out of germany and austria possible with ice cube and snoop dogg just violently abusing me on cue as well for years and YEARS AND YEARS. thusly, because I have actually fought against racism I am now cut off disability ILLEGALLY it is not illegal or against SSI rules to save covid money or student loans but they can just lie and yella t me and do whatever they want under this filth shit team. I moved they refuse to send a letter stating I have moved as such---they have literally taken off any benefits as me being a recipient on the SSA website after refusing to even respond to my economic hardship letter request zero letters with zero information BECAUSE THEY ARE OPERATING ILLEGALLY AGAINST THE LAW against me under orders of rancid stink stench arnold ugly filth trashnigger fuck and the obamas you all worship for their acting skills but still putting white wealthy above all but handing the poor a few little crumbs which are taken away instantly when their good friends the white nazis take power--promising if you just re-elect their pupet skank prostituted shit kamala with oprah and gyrating skank nasty dirty nazi black trash cardi b and j-lo and the rest of that shit nazi crap black circus and the "liberals" all will be hunky dorey and arnold will get more millions and control more politicians through the nazi gold pipeline all law will be only tendered for all who comply with being humiliated raped people l ike cardi b have been honored for selling black nazi plantation sex slavery honored endlessly as "freedom".