I have thought of idea after idea and concepts for short stories and essays and I can write NOTHING. Nothing except for hacked and rewritten nearly hyperbolic (sometimes actually so) posts which are then severely redacted after I struggle to pound on a hacked and blocked keyboard which is essentially non-functional, while my brain is under so much attack from remote or embedded microchip technology that it is "painful" to think to write. My nerve endings my synapses my neural firing whatever is under electro-torture-suppression attack renders the effort to think and write something like wading through an electrified eel swamp at waist level. A bit less shocking but this would be the effect of after-shock and being numbed from having been stunned. My thoughts are blocked out as I attempt to "remember" basic words, spelling and names of people, places and even using any more sophisticated vocabulary is very difficult to access.

 Besides all the above problems that are foisted upon me, I encounter great psychological and physical abuse and torture every time I demonstrate anything other than blanked out conformist acceptance to the prevailing order of mediocrity and Nazi/fascist/Mafia brainwashing ideological concepts that are continuously veiled in heroic posturing of the many various facets of this insidious systematic form of racism, sexism, oppression and the stifling of competition and equality and "Democratic" freedom. Oh, the culprits of this system want "freedom", which is a huge catch-phrase that Nazis and the white supremacists use for their nefarious covert actions of racist suppression, covert assassination and theft a la fascist Nazism.

The slingers of these contrived postures of Democratic Freedom who I have been suffering through with daily screaming and hate from me to them as they sit gloating, smug and giggling at the endless deterioration of my body and my life that they are forcing upon me with non-stop hypnosis while I am sleeping, in a nascent waking state and in this most "truth-telling" and vulnerable state (meaning my psychological defenses are almost gone) I scream in hate and rage after endless rape, violence, abuse and the endless fight I must endure to simply protect my body from being mutilated further by their mechanical arms breaking into my room at every single possible moment (literally) to either spew filth, stinking odors, spray chemicals into my hair from behind as I sit eating or doing anything--from the endless cracks in all the cupboards and panels I have pasted together with cheap construction paper, metal hooks but there are chinks and cracks and literal quarter-inch cracks in the doors and the mechanical arms are extremely malleable and can bend, curve, get through angles, spray, rip, tear, make incisions, mutilate, spray toxins, drug my food--and it only takes one small mechanical arm to destroy my hair, skin, body, food, room and whatever else (steal money from my purse, etc).

Thus, going into a bit of a digression (another attack that the mind control tech always forces upon my brain as I attempt to think in linear structures while fighting to explicate my thoughts to the people who seem like slugs going at slower-than-a-snail's pace in movement to alleviate any kind of threat that is actual towards the United States.

Stolen, my ideas stolen for over a decade from simple phrases to concepts I could barely type out to a short story with parts lifted and stolen to hair coloring I created--all of which, anything I do or write or create which is a "treat" to the fascist and Nazi ideology of only the White supremacists (and their groveling but pretentiously "fighting against racism" minority minions at their side in concentric circles of wanna-be-white-supremacist fascist aspirants)--anything I create that is original, anything I say or do that isn't a ground down mediocre nothingness that could be stolen for the glorification of a parasitic scumbag posturing as if they have exalted and noble emotions, concern, humanitarian goodness but are instead rotten and filthy whores who delight and drool with gnarling slimy delight at torture, mutilation, theft, abuse, hate, rape, murder, genocide and rush to participate with genitals bursting in anticipation of releasing all their pent-up pornographic fantasies of their powerless unleashed into a semblance of "mastery" upon the helpless victim/target. With the technology that has been handed to them by this most UNDEMOCRATIC UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT the pig apes have been unleashed. Thus, they can steal the concepts I have uttered or written or even though under the violence of their endless assault and because I have tried to write poetically and in a creative fiction style, they steal and rob all and then glare in hate and torture me not just if I respond with chagrin and anger at their theft but they attack me immediately after I attempt to produce anything worthwhile that could be deemed commercially viable, which they, in their utter banality and mediocre ugliness and sleazy fascist nazi smugness and with all handed to them, they suck out and turn into more banality that sparks something more noble in the consumers than the usual trite K-rap that is continuously being pumped out about plastic "love", pornographic gyrating titillation and pumped up  hypocrisy in the mind control industries (including politics).

Thus I am tortured for attempting to produce anything that could feasibly be used to enhance any semblance of a career that has been quashed by these groups and this larger organization of obeying mindless minions (even the white supremacists are minions to one degree or another). Then what I manage to barely pound out with my head feeling like it's in a type of clamping and squashing instrument of blood flow constriction, is then stolen and then I am poisoned, tortured and attacked afterwards, called "stupid bitch, shut up" endlessly by the subliminal mind control torture that is continuously being pumped into my "inner ear" or cochlea or whichever function is being used to transmit these "silent" but vaguely audible words into my brain--at situations where people are confronting me I can't "hear" the suggestive comments because people are usually talking in rude, loud and negative tones at me and I am also under various other forms of attack.

Thus I cannot write my short stories, film reviews, analyses, for these various and more unnamed reasons.

Meanwhile the mind control breakdown of my personality continues as this vile social engineering technocracy continues to have celebrities violently rape and threaten to dismember me continuously, smug and gloating and smiling as the latest one is as his entire career has been uplifted (he was depressed, he had NOTHING going on for his career until he began endlessly and violently to assault me, now he's glowing, the actors of the NY Mafia Brooklyn crowd the "Italian-American" thugs (white supremacist racist bigots who are all "friends" with extremely complacent blacks also huge celebrities in the H-wood cartels who bow in deference and make anti-Semitic remarks and steal and rob and assault me physically are also part of this racist and fascist Nazi cartel of thuggery).

The social engineering is also to destroy my sexuality and body physically--I now have to fight to not have all my hair falling out once more due to chemicals being sprayed while I am sleeping or sitting at this very desk as the mechanical arms push through the layers of padding I have inserted into the 1/4 inch cracks of the kitchen sink pipe area underneath--where the mechanical arms get through the watered-down and soggy particle-board wall facade which has been made loose and malleable. 

I continue to be teleported to this most vile latest teleporting rapist who is an affront and a hateful violent probably criminally insane fascist Nazi out of Europ-a-land--absolutely embraced by the entire throng of these expletives who have not stopped latching on to abusing and raping and having me nearly killed in accident after accident to endless violence on a 24/7 scale for over 8-15 years by now this is endless. This morning once again screaming in rage at this same silent group of parasites who have done this day after day for year after year to promotion after studios handed to them to top awards with more and more other celebrities rushing to get involved in this very easy promotional pyramid scheme. 

Right now I am exhausted from pounding down on the keyboard and fighting simply to get letters out as the keyboard is so stiff I can't type without exerting the entire strength of my fingers, hand and into my forearms to simply pound letters out so they appear on the page (only then to be deleted, rewritten, all punctuation partially deleted to create run-on string sentences that have been partially deleted and glued back together without commas or periods separating the terrorist hacker deletions/rewrites).

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So it is endless, daily screaming from me to people who are detestable who sit in a huge crowd, in chairs in rows, watching me trying to punch the pigs in the faces who have raped and tortured me, endless screaming in rage as they sit silently after they unleash endless violence upon me. They smirk, the Europigapes are the most smirking of the lot. They in particular are overjoyed to hear me screaming in rage. The latest most violent and disgusting pig ape who I have been writing of in increasing rage, desperation to get this ugly and sleazy rotten pretentiously "emotionally-romantic" scumbag rapist racist pig ape whore off me--to the silent complicy of Whorewood which always watches on, sees what advantages they can get from either participating or going along and supporting all the fascists, mafia and Nazis who have wrested control over this most insidious mind programming and social engineering fiasco conglomerate billion dollar enterprise.

I am too exhausted to continue to pound down on the keys and fight and backspace and rewrite and send out another missive into the vast nothingness of the entire spectrum of the people who thoroughly approve of all that is happening to me and want this system to completely overtake all governments and countries of the planet--they have already infected most of the planet already as the despotic fascist and tyrannical murderous Nazi adherent states around the planet all follow in this model. The S***t movies continue to be pumped out. The social engineering continues. I remain fighting to not be mutilated and destroyed physically and remove hard-as-rock poisons from my body as these millionaires and billionaires who torture me to obtain any and all phrases, concepts, vocabulary, creative ideas and political and anything else (hair color, anything I create they believe is theirs for the stealing and theft and taking) while being told to not outperform the mediocrities who can purchase what other fascist Nazi designers crank out according to the dictates of the pedophile rapist fasist Nazi designers and creators--but, alas, to the millions of people who conform to this system and embrace it. I fear to write that many of them are now laying in death because they followed this system and were infected and killed off after they gave everything to be a part of this system and not excluded. Utterly brainwashed but then used and discarded (killed off, exterminated is the more correct use of terminology).