Saturday, January 21, 2023

Today's mystery meat package presented on my YouTube page from online terrorists trying to get a triggered click on their video page outta me---. Most of the clips were somehow about miscreants doing anti-social things, making movies about anti-social deviants (mostly males, in fact, no women are involved in any kind of threatening behavior in these movies or clips--or none that are the main character who is deemed a righteous hero rebel)--and I saw such similar types of videos--usually a male denouncing the power structure, never a female voice in the din...(women are 2ndary7 objects who are objects of lust--so anti-porn sentiment NEVER touches the fringes of their minds when it comes to threatening the status quo, and it's because they are creating a newer version of the same old boys status quo---)

 "The Midnight Special More 1974--03--Brownsville Station--Smokin' In The Boy's Room". 111blanandrive. July 30, 2011.



so I thought of this song which probably created a deviant groove in the record playing in my mind control metaverse--smokin' in the boyz room---sounded cool, my older brothers who also smoked doobies at the time, in Jr. High School and High School (yes, in Champaign, Illinois along with college students and pre-yuppie post hippie time of the mid-70's)---

in keeping with that, I play this song remembering how it urged me to feel like a cool camel skipping school--which sounds so menthol and camel at the same time---but as a "girl" I was considered actually really and truly "bad" as opposed to the hero boyz who smoked in the boys room (what does that mean, after all? They mean perhaps having a homoerotic pull on a cigar-shaped Freudian-blessed rubber object in the boyz room while skipping school. Maybe the subcutaneous meaning of the song was about gay sex and skipping the rules of "school"=society)? Girls are automatically considered sleazy and low for having done the same sort of thing and no songs are made about women/girls enjoying the same sort of "privilege".

All these men who put out these videos about how renegade their songs and show performances are, are attacking me for having done what their heroes provide as entertainment through which their assumed constructed personalities are conduits of.

I skipped school, not because I wanted to reject society (especially) but because I was so drugged I could not concentrate, my back hurt because hardening poisons were latching onto my spine and hips internally and it has been painful for me to sit for more than one hour at a time for many years now. High school involves sitting for almost 7 hours per day. I was dazed, could not study and that was wholly due to the conglomeration of poisons accumulating in my intestines and trapped underneath hard shells of poison tubes hardened into my every-twisting spine (which was diagnosed as being idiomatic scoliosis--cause unknown by all the doctors who knew very well).

I skipped school in high school very often. I was accepted nevertheless into Cornell University. My GRE scores were very high (upper 2%) in the science category. I would learn the school material from the corrections to my wrong answers and by listening in class as the teachers went over the results of the tests and what each answer should have been and why. That is how I learned for a few years of being absolutely too drugged up to concentrate. I was not a miscreant or a rebel. I did make my own paisley pants out of curtain material which caused my very conservative/wealthy high school group of cheerleaders to glare and stare and point--however. I was glad, and wore also my own fashion, which was something I never saw anyone else doing at Nicolet High School in Glendale, WI. (The area upon which the tv show Happy Days was based upon--). I was NOT considered the cool subculture male wearing the black, leather jacket. I was skeptically received because the word was out that I had rejected my Nazi step-mother and left and was not complying with the norm (my interpretation). Mostly people didn't know or understand and were instructed to avoid me. I was still being "hit on" by the boys at my locker, and just avoided them. Endlessly probably assaulted while in the deep sleep mode where I lived and they poisoned/drugged and used all the protocols against me ("good" Germanic-background Americans, a family I stayed with because the backlash against me fighting back against Nazis walking over Jews required absolute drugging, poisoning and rejection because I was so "bad" but not considered an outlaw rebel without a cause). Of course, Oprah, the "good" minion was "popular" she claims at the very same high school. Surrounded by blonde cheerleaders and etc....no one gets in that position without a$$ groveling to Nazi indoctrination and demands. Not much has changed since then in the "high school" of modern life....

But I thought of this song--about a cloaked reference to homosexual sucking on elongated things during the "school of life" in the closet, etc (it's not what I did as my "rebellion" but it probably was forced upon me while I was in the comatose unconscious but still aware sleeping state).

No comments:

Post a Comment

The STRANGER IS YOU is the strangler within waiting for you to self-sabotage for THEM: Wait for "them" to reveal what lies behind the smiling, humanitarian masks waiting to "help" you if you would just help them to help you--give them POWER help them to help you! Vote for them! Cheer for them! Believe in their acting and movie roles PUT THEM IN POWER because they entertain you!: As I lay in bed for the past TWO MONTHS in agony at times, under non-stop assault by the haters I have written of endlessly as they are encouraged to go deeper into abuse--years of them making millions off my ideas and out of just simply dumping their racist and sleazy sexist hate upon me as symbol and everything they "hate" and thusly, regardless of anything I have done (nothing except compete and win--in the past before decades of poisoning and health care denied and then torture and poisoning nearly to death and then tortured to the extent that I have spent years in torture hysteria on blogs writing to the incompetent shit of america who have allowed this hate cartel to just go on and on---to the detriment of the planet. MIllions are being killed due to this group of stupid sick crap and many more are dying in America due to this group putting that hate into power (not just a small "1%" but a huge component of the country not silent majority any longer. They tortured me endlessly I wrote their names I have been writing their names and you keep them in power. They mutilated my h ands so badly because I c ould not wrap layers of protection around them--they are withered they have all the veins sticking out--my hands have enlarged and then shrunk in skin tissue but enlarged due to the stress of the cuticles being severed out repeatedly day after day---little knives inserted under my cuticles nightly daily as I lay in bed unable to move--could not get out of bed. Hours of abuse being punched hit slapped and raped by the group and yelled at and sneered at and a president, his wife, two california governors, a senator, another senator, a house rep from Congress and about in the past 3 months 150 celebrities have rushed to assault me with the main abusers who are just rolling in money and were before they latched onto assaulting me becaues appratenly their money could not buy them slots in main roles and producer and profiting off the ideas they steal from me---torturing me to get more and yelling "loser" and "stupid" as they go on every second of the day yelling and threatening y life and abusing and making tears come out of my eyes--spraying stinking filth on my clothing my furniture my curtains my bed etc under things filth sprayed and dumped using their mechanical arms--in every room behind panels which are opened and then sealed shut on the other side---non-stop it goes on and on. My hands were so damaged they look like I am dead --like a dead person's hands the extent of severing into the nail bed every day for years and years (since 2012 it has gone on and on and on nightly that means over 15 years of my cuticles being routinely nightly slashed and cut into almost every single night. But they poured horrific chemicals into my hands which literally the skin tissue has become almost dead in appearance from what they did--the hands are withered and boney with blue veins from the poisons they poured on my hands and skin and then slashed cuticles every nail so the blood flow was restricted. They injected something into my scalp to make the hair dead in the front of my hairline---that goes along with sick and stupid sleazy deep sleep teleportation skits of hate, homelessness and abuse--my hair is completely gone on most of my scalp from the damage they have done, my skin is pockmarked and racked with scars from nghtly poisoning my body is hard internally like an internet hard wall restricting my body and fighting to get it out since 2011 and I am still fighting as for hours every day the rat spawn of depp screams hate at me dirty arnold is always encourating every sick parasitic psychopath sadist (that is what the humanitarians in media and in congress all rally around, the sadism the violence and torture every single one of them don't doubt it for a second--the hippie musicians of the 60's and 70's who were most famous have not stopped for years and years participating all callous rape culture and racist sexist the MEN and their hippie women just can't wait to profit off inflicting torture and near-death upon an innocent person--oh the excuses they make just labeling me with any absurd but dangerous label of justification and then all repeat it. Seeing how the witch hunt mentality is so easily spread in this modern age but then again, these same creeple were put in "power" to regress society to a point of neanderthal homostasis of concern about society and a reversion to feudal lord dominion over those they exploit--to death--they all can't wait. So I remain fighting seeing that there is no salvation the candidates being put as the hopeful for the against rump are just more but not as mandarin jaded as the usual dinos corrugated with corruption but all blathering out the same hopeful jargon as one another---they are all sanctioning with whole-black-hearted glee this endless rape torture nazi violence upon me. Almost all of whorewood has participated all the A$$-hole actor/actress haters all using this contract to never have to fight for a role again, in league with the politicians who want to never have to fight for another election again (rump is promising a 100-year no-contest for repug wins after the midterms when the jack-in-the-box nazi reversion campaign for the golden era of nazi and feudal lord dark ages resumed. To see me able to compete and win and also be beautiful has meant mutilation without end for over 18 years without a single fuck in the entire world defending me against this brutality not one single person doing more than a mere little drop in an ocean of violence---that is the future whatever they are promising for the midterms by now I doubt seriously will result in anything but--in the end not immediate but long-term a worsening of the current but short-term they will appear like Nirvana. In history this has always been the case, but then OOPS THEY Will fail and inevitably the fasco nazi haters will get their concentration camps not only for the "illegal" brown people....

**hackers are at work again deleting words from sentences and half-deleting and pasting sentences together. I re-read some of the sentences ...