Saturday, January 21, 2023

Today's mystery meat package presented on my YouTube page from online terrorists trying to get a triggered click on their video page outta me---. Most of the clips were somehow about miscreants doing anti-social things, making movies about anti-social deviants (mostly males, in fact, no women are involved in any kind of threatening behavior in these movies or clips--or none that are the main character who is deemed a righteous hero rebel)--and I saw such similar types of videos--usually a male denouncing the power structure, never a female voice in the din...(women are 2ndary7 objects who are objects of lust--so anti-porn sentiment NEVER touches the fringes of their minds when it comes to threatening the status quo, and it's because they are creating a newer version of the same old boys status quo---)

 "The Midnight Special More 1974--03--Brownsville Station--Smokin' In The Boy's Room". 111blanandrive. July 30, 2011.



so I thought of this song which probably created a deviant groove in the record playing in my mind control metaverse--smokin' in the boyz room---sounded cool, my older brothers who also smoked doobies at the time, in Jr. High School and High School (yes, in Champaign, Illinois along with college students and pre-yuppie post hippie time of the mid-70's)---

in keeping with that, I play this song remembering how it urged me to feel like a cool camel skipping school--which sounds so menthol and camel at the same time---but as a "girl" I was considered actually really and truly "bad" as opposed to the hero boyz who smoked in the boys room (what does that mean, after all? They mean perhaps having a homoerotic pull on a cigar-shaped Freudian-blessed rubber object in the boyz room while skipping school. Maybe the subcutaneous meaning of the song was about gay sex and skipping the rules of "school"=society)? Girls are automatically considered sleazy and low for having done the same sort of thing and no songs are made about women/girls enjoying the same sort of "privilege".

All these men who put out these videos about how renegade their songs and show performances are, are attacking me for having done what their heroes provide as entertainment through which their assumed constructed personalities are conduits of.

I skipped school, not because I wanted to reject society (especially) but because I was so drugged I could not concentrate, my back hurt because hardening poisons were latching onto my spine and hips internally and it has been painful for me to sit for more than one hour at a time for many years now. High school involves sitting for almost 7 hours per day. I was dazed, could not study and that was wholly due to the conglomeration of poisons accumulating in my intestines and trapped underneath hard shells of poison tubes hardened into my every-twisting spine (which was diagnosed as being idiomatic scoliosis--cause unknown by all the doctors who knew very well).

I skipped school in high school very often. I was accepted nevertheless into Cornell University. My GRE scores were very high (upper 2%) in the science category. I would learn the school material from the corrections to my wrong answers and by listening in class as the teachers went over the results of the tests and what each answer should have been and why. That is how I learned for a few years of being absolutely too drugged up to concentrate. I was not a miscreant or a rebel. I did make my own paisley pants out of curtain material which caused my very conservative/wealthy high school group of cheerleaders to glare and stare and point--however. I was glad, and wore also my own fashion, which was something I never saw anyone else doing at Nicolet High School in Glendale, WI. (The area upon which the tv show Happy Days was based upon--). I was NOT considered the cool subculture male wearing the black, leather jacket. I was skeptically received because the word was out that I had rejected my Nazi step-mother and left and was not complying with the norm (my interpretation). Mostly people didn't know or understand and were instructed to avoid me. I was still being "hit on" by the boys at my locker, and just avoided them. Endlessly probably assaulted while in the deep sleep mode where I lived and they poisoned/drugged and used all the protocols against me ("good" Germanic-background Americans, a family I stayed with because the backlash against me fighting back against Nazis walking over Jews required absolute drugging, poisoning and rejection because I was so "bad" but not considered an outlaw rebel without a cause). Of course, Oprah, the "good" minion was "popular" she claims at the very same high school. Surrounded by blonde cheerleaders and etc....no one gets in that position without a$$ groveling to Nazi indoctrination and demands. Not much has changed since then in the "high school" of modern life....

But I thought of this song--about a cloaked reference to homosexual sucking on elongated things during the "school of life" in the closet, etc (it's not what I did as my "rebellion" but it probably was forced upon me while I was in the comatose unconscious but still aware sleeping state).

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Last few thoughts--a separate post but interconnected to a previous post today---hours of abuse per day I have a lot to expunge from my mind and heart and soul, what is left. Expanding and contracting simultaneously. Imploding from nausiated disgust and the sense of stinking death rot from these filth slime crap things out of whorewood and the corresponding politicians. Expansion realizing how much I have undervalued myself in the past due to being poisoned, stuck and sick always from their thwarting and silencing of my talent, health beauty and expansion of my life so these filth foul parasites can feel expanded. They grow in energy from parasitic life-sucking for sure. The black rancid parsite of Pvalley--the ugly hate of this trio and undoubtedly the white nazi trash male actor who played alongside the ugly yapping sinister black trash creep yelling "ugly loser' at me perpetually with the smirking sneering rat depp filth trash---and the german total crap scumbag family who has been invited to "traumatize" me by every means of "blaming" me for a lifetime of this sinister sick scum ape who tortured and then fractured my spine, obviously a murder attetmpt for his failure and his problems. The ape men who rape and drug me using this system all have serious problems with their lives, emotions and in relationships. They then implode because this tech enables the "instant gratification" scumbags to indulge in their every sense of power by pushing someone else down; instructed in Nazi ideology that they are then the "master race" imbued with instant superiority for having someone drugged, their brain put in a type of vice and the planet can be turned into a slave and master plantation. They indulge in every drunken and orgy whim until they are so unbalanced about their actual real capabilities that somehow something rebounds the impracticality of their overwhelming self-absorption is unrealistic in real-life terms. //This sick filth creep obviously had problems before I was forced into his sphere because my nazi sick family forced him on me so they could endlessly profit off destroying my life. I had won contests I was at the top in many things I endeavored in, this outraged the nazis and they instsructed my completely supplicating family to destroy me "from within" under pretext of "sibling" in-fighting so it was murderous violence poisoning and drugging and the "sibling" mass of black hate got deals, and were invited to parties, etc felt like they were welcomed. They stared with loving submission to the nazis towering in disdainful demanding glares to attack me, which they did and were allowed to compete and win and obtained private lessons for their children, etc and whateve other perks. They still werre declining like arnold shit-stench n9gger and like all the rest, and like this german sick crap family who I last saw in 1993 and really thought I would never see them again, never once wanted to contact them or anything like that. But this black nazi shit who came from P-Valley began by hate and abuse instsantly with no "provocation" from me--only that I had called dirty oprah an aunt jemima under minnd control traum and torture after 2 years--only 2 years compared with 16 or 17 from the depps ongoing without end--none of these ape pigs can achieve much more than what they truly are worthy of and the former free deals for just dumping their sick problems out on me did not elevate them enough to sustain anything but a downward slide into more mediocrity and their own problems, which are many for all of them individually and collectively all they do is swarm to abuse me to dump all their hate and problems out on me, projecting literally everything possible upon me as the blame target. The black shit came, freshly instructed "call her stupid call her bitch call her ugly laugh and giggle with the u gly sick rat depp because you will get your movie and tv show next round with the ellison merger and shitnigger arnold. but tortuer and abuse her to get ideas for your next shit black nazi victim Critical Race theory bullshit tv show. //the ape sick pig fucks kept abusing me until I finally began to yell names at them which I have written earlier---becuase their tv f-ing show is all about women being victimized by white nazi trash men like this german ape fuck they surrounded with love and adoration only because he is a nazi white male and so is the white male in teh cast who is ordering them to abuse me so he can profit off this but remain, as the white nazi trash always does in modern "woke" society, behind the scenes but orchstrating all the racist violence and chaos and then once all fails, as the europigapes have been constructing in america through their dumb mind programmed idiots like trump, shjitnigger his nazi progarmmer instructing him how he can gain but destroy america so f-ing what, all he needs it so be approved of by the euronazis they bring in peter thiele to destroy america with nazi muck out of south africa. Nazis of america onlky want me destroyed and blacks to do the nasty work of genocide for t hem, which is the programmibng I was faced with directly with this prick valley putrescence valley yesaterday leadcing into today. Hate that was murderous, ugly negativity without end. The smirking delight of the ugly plastic surgery skank prostituted filth crap who played a victim of an interracial white/black marriage of domestic violence, e,xactly what I was forced into by my family-a similar plot to this shit actor playing a role she has no comprehension of and would have submitted to the abuse and hujmilation of the white male if she had been forced into this role forced onto me, in real life not fantasy college-level critical race theory writing as this p-valley writer is: pure academic critical race theory expressed in all it's bookworm parameters in scripts that are very much readily available in various stories by other authors or in social studies ecucation. I am not a student of critical race theory per se but I have studied domestic violence and nothing she wrote of had any deviation from what you read in a graduate class on similar topics. //The intersecionality is also available in feminist classes which I also have studied so what she wrote was very common knowlege at higher educational studies, if they are allowed any longer. I had to finally begin to rant and scream about how stupid they are in allowing this system to flourish for their dirty tv show careers. they are literally helping to UTTERLY DESTROY America through this nazi german team with sick shitnigger arnold and his filthy kennedy nazi fuck family systejm urging him to steal and rob on their behalf. the tv shows that filthy dirty stupid arnold, so not an artist, creative content anything just a sleazy filthy rapist white nazi rapist racist nazi bigot with the kenney crime sleaze filth family---his former wife has a very ugly expression opn her power encrusted face is very much a hateful influencer in destroying america and is like so many nazis awash in destroying minority opportunity as part of a general platform. The black nazi shit from this shit tv show came to support them and literal extreme hate aimed at me. The writer glared in absolute murderous hate and rage at me after the 4th hour of me explaining how they are wrong to support this and why--which is the way this group has obtined ideas for all these 17 years of abusing torturing raping beating abusing raping insulting to get me to scream ideas about justice so they make movie shit out of it--funded by multi-milions of English royalty and german nazi and everything for that merger with the naziified ellisons and etc and so, ugly sick dirty nazi arnold obtained another idea out of me so he can produce and profit off it. Not a single penny for me, not even a thank you NEVER a redcuction of abuse and murder for me--slow torture to death continuously shitting out murder poisons every day or being constipated with it, sick and drugged every day to the max so every morning I am in a near delirious state of drugged inability to think and act decisively while htey scream and insult and threaten me into my brain, hours of it beginning the second I wake up--on and on and on. This filthy dirty hate creep is going to turn it into black victims of racism with them starring in it. The filthy depp rancid piece of stinking sick ugly shit will play a white suporter of compassion for black victims of racism, which is what the real originators of racist divide and conquer p lay in both real life and in movies, the roles are interchangable but always they are at the helm of the surrpetitious machincaitons for racist override. Dirty sutpid sick arnold fixates on hacking animal devouring type videos because his view is that--and I insert here--he is not a creative talent, he is a sick rancid

  The hackers as usual froze the entire laptop in the midst of writing the above-- Arnold sick filth-igger is not a creative talent, his tal...