Saturday, January 21, 2023

Today's mystery meat package presented on my YouTube page from online terrorists trying to get a triggered click on their video page outta me---. Most of the clips were somehow about miscreants doing anti-social things, making movies about anti-social deviants (mostly males, in fact, no women are involved in any kind of threatening behavior in these movies or clips--or none that are the main character who is deemed a righteous hero rebel)--and I saw such similar types of videos--usually a male denouncing the power structure, never a female voice in the din...(women are 2ndary7 objects who are objects of lust--so anti-porn sentiment NEVER touches the fringes of their minds when it comes to threatening the status quo, and it's because they are creating a newer version of the same old boys status quo---)

 "The Midnight Special More 1974--03--Brownsville Station--Smokin' In The Boy's Room". 111blanandrive. July 30, 2011.



so I thought of this song which probably created a deviant groove in the record playing in my mind control metaverse--smokin' in the boyz room---sounded cool, my older brothers who also smoked doobies at the time, in Jr. High School and High School (yes, in Champaign, Illinois along with college students and pre-yuppie post hippie time of the mid-70's)---

in keeping with that, I play this song remembering how it urged me to feel like a cool camel skipping school--which sounds so menthol and camel at the same time---but as a "girl" I was considered actually really and truly "bad" as opposed to the hero boyz who smoked in the boys room (what does that mean, after all? They mean perhaps having a homoerotic pull on a cigar-shaped Freudian-blessed rubber object in the boyz room while skipping school. Maybe the subcutaneous meaning of the song was about gay sex and skipping the rules of "school"=society)? Girls are automatically considered sleazy and low for having done the same sort of thing and no songs are made about women/girls enjoying the same sort of "privilege".

All these men who put out these videos about how renegade their songs and show performances are, are attacking me for having done what their heroes provide as entertainment through which their assumed constructed personalities are conduits of.

I skipped school, not because I wanted to reject society (especially) but because I was so drugged I could not concentrate, my back hurt because hardening poisons were latching onto my spine and hips internally and it has been painful for me to sit for more than one hour at a time for many years now. High school involves sitting for almost 7 hours per day. I was dazed, could not study and that was wholly due to the conglomeration of poisons accumulating in my intestines and trapped underneath hard shells of poison tubes hardened into my every-twisting spine (which was diagnosed as being idiomatic scoliosis--cause unknown by all the doctors who knew very well).

I skipped school in high school very often. I was accepted nevertheless into Cornell University. My GRE scores were very high (upper 2%) in the science category. I would learn the school material from the corrections to my wrong answers and by listening in class as the teachers went over the results of the tests and what each answer should have been and why. That is how I learned for a few years of being absolutely too drugged up to concentrate. I was not a miscreant or a rebel. I did make my own paisley pants out of curtain material which caused my very conservative/wealthy high school group of cheerleaders to glare and stare and point--however. I was glad, and wore also my own fashion, which was something I never saw anyone else doing at Nicolet High School in Glendale, WI. (The area upon which the tv show Happy Days was based upon--). I was NOT considered the cool subculture male wearing the black, leather jacket. I was skeptically received because the word was out that I had rejected my Nazi step-mother and left and was not complying with the norm (my interpretation). Mostly people didn't know or understand and were instructed to avoid me. I was still being "hit on" by the boys at my locker, and just avoided them. Endlessly probably assaulted while in the deep sleep mode where I lived and they poisoned/drugged and used all the protocols against me ("good" Germanic-background Americans, a family I stayed with because the backlash against me fighting back against Nazis walking over Jews required absolute drugging, poisoning and rejection because I was so "bad" but not considered an outlaw rebel without a cause). Of course, Oprah, the "good" minion was "popular" she claims at the very same high school. Surrounded by blonde cheerleaders and etc....no one gets in that position without a$$ groveling to Nazi indoctrination and demands. Not much has changed since then in the "high school" of modern life....

But I thought of this song--about a cloaked reference to homosexual sucking on elongated things during the "school of life" in the closet, etc (it's not what I did as my "rebellion" but it probably was forced upon me while I was in the comatose unconscious but still aware sleeping state).

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Gavin newsom has had my ssi disability benefits completely closed and off---they were "suspended" and now they are "discontinued" and this happened in the last 2 months after his endless assaults on me. Because I am fighting to get the next abuser potential murdering hater off me (the end result is being mutilated after rape and abuse leading to death, it has been ongoing for years I am fighting to heal every day) he exacerbated the inability to heal with 16 hours of abuse and torture per day, I could not function nor get anything done and I am still being tortured with him glaring in hate as I scream out my hate for this person who has hit abused sent euro men to rape and beat me as his proxies---has had me abused so badly my body has broken down and I have been threatened endlessly that they will destroy me have my money cut off and kill me for not allowing him to abuse sexually exploit and threaten abuse insult and just "take it" as a "slave" using brain implants, a universal torture and murder system aka "gang stalking" which is just death squads using every person who wants to get a kill thrill open public hunting license to inflict sadism and torture upon another person; usually paid in full with free everything and endless promotions for all involved. They all glob onto abusing me forever to continue to get the endless free deals by just inflicting rage and hate and racism and sexism and violence on me--a target. The benefits as of August were still in "suspended" status but now "discontinued" which means he had them in California block all benefits for having fought against rape and torture for daily hours of abuse. He was slapping hitting abusing sticking his penis out at me insulting threatening and having my home made filthy and stinking then demanding that I clean it up as he watched with my body and nervous system under a kind of puppetry manipulation, I would clean and drop on my bed in sickness from the exertion from the poisons HE PROFITED OFF HAVING POURED INTO MY BODY ALL THESE YEARS UNDER PELOSI with their endless profit off this system through whorewood, which he sits in total solidarity with after years of them stealing my ideas. He is now stealing ideas about equality and fighting injustice from me so he can blurt them out with huge practiced smiles but since he abused me so badly and after 6 hours of abuse every day I am screaming in torture rage after non-stop truth serum drugging and abuse every day and night screaming how much I detest him by now. Thusly he and they all in California have had my disability totally cut off and they are forcing me into homelessness due to this chicanery. I was forced to leave the country my family was making sure I was being KILLED by poisoning and have not stopped having me poisoned raped and tortured hoping to capitalize on the final death of this contract and are now engaged in abusing me with the whorewood team, with newsom there every day sitting in the background glaring with murderous rage at me for saying no to his exploitation of me, with my consent. Will someone please stop this endless murder of me after years of them putting trump into power and putting this disaster for the country, the economy so they don't have to pay taxes and so newsom can become the republican candidate who will pardon them all for their current crimes, continue white male rape culture which is fine and dandy for the black and jewish out there participating eagerly in this as they say it's only happening to me and "not me" they say with smug delight about themselves. This is the standard response, however the system is being currently expanded by the Neuralink company and people WILL be raping teleporting and murdering others bringing society into a degenerated and horrific state of anarchy with all murder being exonerated because no one will be able to prove it. That is just one example, but I had to leave to save my life and get health care since my family refused to help me while I was in grad school, living off student loans I asked my brother to help me find a place to live as he and my other brother are both heavily involved in real estate, they just hung up on me laughed and with absolute hate refused to help me in any way. forced to live on far below the poverty level back years ago now it is impossible for me to survive and heal. They orchestrated this destruction of my disability so they can have their children and themselves get instant promotion into h-wood through the A$$-list whorewood group which have gone to oscars for over a decade using ideas they have stolen from my writing as they made me paralyzed with hardening poisons and kept poisoning me while I begged for YEARS online to get anybody to stop this as they were murdering me and they still are killing me daily with 16 hours of abuse per day.

  Newsom had his nazi republican system and all his minions and the whorewood hate group completely block all my benefits, while they have m...