Friday, March 4, 2022

Mind/Social Control versus self-mastery. One of the oldest aspirations of human beings in (at least some Eastern religious and philosophical realms of) history: controlling one's own mind. I have one of the most important duties, tasks and obligations to my evolution as a human being as yet another monumental obstacle in this mind control helliverse that is their hell and not mine. To shrug off the inflicted weight of the misery of others and not allow it to envelope my own personality, thought structure but in particular, not to engage while in the teleported, drugged-up, under torture conditions hell that is inflicted upon me so what I consider to be dubious quality personalities can get automatic promotions to top tiers of the subordinate power level structure controlling the Helliverse that they all have foisted upon the world in a kind of cloud-computing mind control operation. . The real drama is internal in controlling my own mind, despite drugging, violence and mind control technologies forcing unwanted parasites into my personal mental and spiritual and physical domain space (every day, every minute with zero blocks or inhibitions it appears from authority sources or societal moral obligation or law enforcement in particular). The control of the mind is one of the last frontiers of modernity. So far, individuality appears to be losing and mass control is the norm that is never revealed so it's misunderstood and blatantly accepted as "not happening to me, and if it is, I'm comfortable with it and who cares?".

 *Hacker terrorists have altered the writing of this post--pls take note**


The real point is not in helping another expletive power-seeking parasite to obtain more promotions out of this contract of mind control hate inflicted upon me. The rationale of all of the attackers is any single iota of anything I say or do that is slightly not in line with bowing obsequiously to the acting, movies, plots, politics, demands, sexual immediate gratification, their white supremacy or the minions of "darker" hue who also are a part of this scheme: if I say or do any single thing, no matter how trivial, they use this as any justification for endless verbal and physical attacks. I respond immediately with the lower level energy defense because mostly this is over a decade of zero defense for me and endless awards and promotions for all who attack. The line-up is endless and the rotation (again, in the last few months, English out of England are flocking in to attack me to defend the putridity that assaulted me last month--which has just won another top "lifetime" award and I have no doubts that her genocidal Nazi rhetoric and violence along with her Irish thug boyfriend/actor had almost everything to do with both her nomination to that supposed award for benevolent posturing in movies, and also having been handed this opportunity for more accolades according to the racist, bigot, systematically oppressive media conglomerate which also has more than  a HUGE influence on the political structure of the United States Government. As far as I have been privy to see how this operates operates through all these years of being transferred from one undesirable who then "wins" contracts and awards to the next undesirable who then gets his/her undeserved share of the loot.


Not wanting, thusly, to help yet another expletive who has just joined in, a relative new-comer although he's been in the background for all these many years of this celebrity circus of hate and "mind control"--


I will just recap the silly but sinister sequence of events that turned from a slight joke on my part, just like a light-hearted glib statement which was turned into a deadly yelling match by this English bigot, racist sexist who has, like all of them, latched onto any sentence, thought or idea I make while under this endless system of duress, threat and hate and violence--ostensibly it's all out of racism because I am not a blonde Nazi or it's brown-haired (lower ranking but still) equivalent---it's ALL completely out of racism.


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It's not a pair of "'Spring chickens" now attacking me but senior actors out of England--meaning of the Sept-or Octogenarian age range--70's or 80's with ample experience in all the various shifts of public opinion and "liberal"-to-"conservative" shifts in the public paradigms, for which the actors all adapt and change in accordance (or fake it, mostly on the "liberal" end of the one-sided see-saw, which just remains unbalanced on the ground level of the base of operations into fascist and Nazi/Mafia territory--the bottom line of course $$$ and the easiest ways of acquiring and consolidating money and power.)

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I had made a reference to Heathcliff--that "brown-skinned" character in Wuthering Heights. In my drugged up, nascent waking or sleeping state (I'm always inbetween both when they really begin the interrogation for ideas, to try to abuse me into compliance to bowing down to them and doing what they want without question--which is agreeing to my own destruction so they can exploit me and get a thrill from raping poison into my body and poisoning and abusing me to death with my consent--and this is exactly what the contract is and what the intention of this contract is.)

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I had said that the author was Jane Austin--I had clumped my Sophmore year of college and it's English lit class into the female "romance" novel compartment as all kind of being Jane Austin in theme. However, the real author is one of the Bronte sisters. I was informed of this the next day by these fastidious English actors who are vying for their own next huge explosion into the field just as their partner, this older woman who for years has obtained every kind of notice in red carpet for "senior" women freshly plastic-coated with every kind of role and etc--absolutely enhanced after the violent and disgusting rape by her partner the Irish thug (the "famous" actor). Thus, after years of probably waiting for "their turn" they are now inflicting every kind of ridiculous justification for endless violence upon me (at least verbally and now more disgusting attacks on my property with stinking filth poured into my eating utensils and property).

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But I was admonished for not "remembering" the exact authoress of this book. I made reference to Heathcliff because one of them asked me if I wanted to live in some small English town. I guess that meant as his "slave" in this small English town. My experience with English out of London is of absolute xenophobia, racism and stupidity of a most immature level of dumbness out of supposedly some of the most intelligent acting skills that country has produced in decades (as they keep on being put into lead categories for movies and films). I have been subjected to English hissing hate and racism at me here in Phuket in such ugly and sinister rotten ways that the mere concept of (being forced to) live in some small town in England could only evince some vision of this novel involving an immigrant "brown-skinned" child brought to this small English town and then lambasted throughout the rest of his life with ostracization and abuse from the locals (and the adopted family). Much of the abuse and verbal hate and violence I think Bronte left out and only left it that he was slighted--I can assure anyone that English society is probably more tame now in terms of racist violence than it was during Bronte's time. But I could only think of that character in that short amount of time while talking (about one second) and then when they asked me who had been the author I countered (with memory and my brain functioning being hindered greatly by this brain-altering tech) I only could remember Austin--because to me she is just one of a group of "romance" novelists with basically similar themes and I bunch them all up when I have not read them for probably 40 years--and essentially don't give a damn either because it's kind of boring and I already know about the subjects, topics and it's not very exciting. The opportunities that women were supposed to only have and the narrow range is essentially trite and boring and these novels are one step briefly above pulp fiction.

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But using that as any incentive the dude from England--a nit-picking abuser as it turns out--began to castigate me on not remembering the exact name. I then made a joke, (to me it was a light-hearted distraction from his hate-themed attack, as his goal is and was to attack me for any single thing possible he could pluck out of any conversation while my brain is under attack and I am teleported, sleeping and etc--a condition which is almost impossible for anyone to be circumvent in).

I then made a little "joke" about Shakespeare, saying, "Oh yeah, Billy Bob Shakespeare, Junior" just making a little silly joke on names. 

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That began yelling, violence, threats of violence, that I am so stupid and etc. I began to yell at this P$$ck that what you call "stupid" by me is then stolen so a blonde or bigot Nazi like you can steal the idea and then it's called incredible and they make money off it. That began a fight that ended with me as usual screaming in hate because this creep went on and on and on and on attacking me. 

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Now, that is just the norm for all the actors. Their GOAL is to find any slight or smallest "Justification" to abuse or attack me. Unless I just say "yes" unconditionally and what the crap they come out with and their brainwashing Nazi/Mafia material (and politics and the lies and deceptions and exploitations of the population) that what they do and say is just wonderful by automatic assumption without questioning--another one of the MAIN GOALS of the brainwashing mind control apparatus--with or without the mind control technology, drugging and adjacent torture that accompanies or just outright covert MURDER AND ASSASSINATION of those who don't agree and pose a "threat" on any level.

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Back to my original point above. The crudity and stupidity of this tit-for-tat with someone whose abilities, personality and allegiances is essentially worthless to me on every single level--and the endless cycle of these attacks has been that when I react to them they obtain a promotion. If they merely engage in attacking me using these drugs and technologies they obtain a free promotion ANYWAY. But if I write in hate and rage at their rape, torture, violence, poisoning, attempted murder, the violence they all can't wait to inflict upon me that they do without any reason, justification on any real level--but for the smallest reasons possible because it's all they need--for their promotional purposes.

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I am writing about it now but not making direct reference or even veiled hints as to who this person is. The people involved in the more inner circles of this terrorist operation know exactly who these men are--

as for the others--I have to emphasize that just recently seeing the woman of their peer group who has most viciously attacked me in every way possible and been handed another huge undeserved award--her every movie for many years has been of her fighting against racism, sexism and of rape culture and etc (or public appearance and "charity" bs posturing for publicity).

Just winning this very media-circus acclaimed "lifetime" award and seeing this rotten hyena of a putrid and rotten bigot skank being thus awarded, my writing of her violence IGNORED en masse by both politicians and celebrities alike who also are vying for their own promotions out of this seemingly English Monarchy promotional ladder of terror system.

I am LOATHE to help more of them get another rung up on this same ladder.

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My only thought is that the targeting of me is out of racism because I was born with a slightly darker complexion and have dark brown hair--brown eyes and my family comes from a race that has been attacked for thousands of years and genocide is a common theme to oppress, control and manipulate those who remain alive. One of the goals of this foreign legion of Legion (Biblically-speaking) is to eliminate the Jews from the United States power structure--or that is how I view their operation due to the expressed anti-Semitism of one of the men who has been part of this who wrote a book of fiction that expresses (in the book) the Nazi blueprint for elimination/extermination. The others are just following the rhetorical path of metaphorical breadcrumbs.

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SINCRE NO ONE WILL EVER DO ANYTHING about them or this situation, because I am not a blonde Nazi whore skank who they all drool in sexual devotion to and who wants to also rise up in status by becoming a rapist enabler or rapist herself--as I am not of this group--and since racism is the most overt and covert them of this planet and the victims are held in silence, unaccounted for, discriminated against, slated for extermination in all these planetary genocides and wars with white cultures remaining dominant and the movies about them going to "help" are just props in the otherwise political spectrum of the 4th Reich emerging out of the chaos that they are all fully supporting. My targeting is just one component that is being championed because it will entail a much easier transition from any "equal opportunity" disguise into overt fascist authoritarianism--and coming soon like the movies that never stop putting the same fascist Nazi enablers who are also rape and hate racist enablers into lead positions.

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It is incumbent upon me to find a way to not react to them on any level, whether under drugging or sleeping or in a waking state. The technology acts like a clinging parasites upon my psyche and I can't block them out or not react. This is far different from being in 3D space with people who are disgusting and you don't want contact with. It's like you detest the parasitic creeps and you have a chance to yell hate at them and it's a kind of alleviation of the stress. In effect it only enhances their status and weakens you. If there were an audience which could find that the rational and the words you use are actually true and it would help shift public opinion against them, it would be beneficial but this is always the case of sleazy and parasitic liars who operate these technologies and their aim is genocidal extermination and control and completely monopolies of country, politics and media.

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I have some books someone sent me on mind programming but I am always too ill from the non-stop drugging to read them and have been for years. The drugging remains non-stop and constant just for the purpose of keeping me mentally and emotionally unbalanced and not able to formulate a stable response to endless thrusting and shoving at my personality in order to push me into various hate and rage states so I get immersed in worthless arguments with people who are intent on keeping me in this state. They go off laughing and obtaining these undeserved awards and promotions and most of them NEVER stop attacking me for YEARS AND YEARS.

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How can I do this alone, without companionship of any kind, surrounded by hostile people who have been cutting parts of my body out while I sleep and who poison and drug me according to the commands they are told and abuse and attack me whenever possible--laughing about it afterward?

how can I achieve a state of balance while being drugged nightly by skin patches put on my skin by the mechanical arms I can't stop from penetrating into my room. It will require a monumental effort on my part. Oh of course, with NO ONE protecting me because you are all only supposed to "care" about blonde women or men being attacked (or their brown-haired but blue or green-eyed equivalent--many of these dye their hair blonde anyway). You "can't" care and the media is rife with these distinctions and categories which keep this limited list of who in society should be cared about and who is left to be discarded in the larger extermination policies and politics.


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I thus must find some way to do what seems to be the impossible. I can't "ignore" them but I must try. Not wanting to name the disgusting scumbag attackers by name any longer, as it only means that this Nazi/Mafia group which is essentially turning the entire planet into a shithole--but of course, everyone keeps them in power--but how to "ignore' the creeps when they attack me because mentioning them by name means they obviously get highest awards and contracts. Reacting in any way also entails they obtain a free new promotion of some kind. The promotions for the lower level minions who attack me in stores is something like free groceries if they block my path or attack me. Trust me, the money flowing into this mind control operation is endless and it's flowing continuously.

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Thus: not reacting when they are drugging me, teleporting me while I am asleep, insulting any single thing possible and when I react by making a slight joke such as "Billy Boy Shakespeare, Jr" will mean vicious yelling insults, hate, threats of violence, abuse that goes on and on I think he went on for half an hour. It was a yelling match then because they are so disgusting to me and all their tactics of sucking ideas and information out of me through this kind of violence and then claiming all they steal from me as their own concept and idea--then laughing and putting their awards on my social media like a stream of endless jabs at me--on pages I have never subscribed to or watched or care about and I never input the person or information so no algorithm search would produce such videos or information. All hacked of course.

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But that is the type of "justification" used by these terrorists. Beforehand, as I just wrote, they ensure that I am drugged, while sleeping teleported, after more than a DECADE of non-stop rape and torture every single night I am teleported to mostly homeless situations with creeps surrounding me and doing sick and stupid dumb things--all being awarded and paid for it while my money is blocked and threatened with being cut off for reacting to this stupid and sick bullshit--and then the parasites get promoted for me reacting. They go on and on attacking me until I do react. The rotten vulture English woman who just won this top award has been part of this torture of me for over EIGHT YEARS and I tried my best not to react to her or her Irish Thug rapist boyfriend. I wrote one post or a few YEARS ago about how she has participated in this and my writing was a bit sarcastic (meaning just a little bit, not a lot). YEARS later as her attempt to obtain this "Lifetime" award by the fascist Nazi conglomerate media structure I think was offering to hand her if she would once more participate openly in this closed torture circuit--to attack me--which I reacted to in disgust because she is a disgusting rotten and odious personality. The English "wealthy" of this rotten and odious group, those who have participated but have been in the background and etc--ever since last month (or 6 weeks ago) have come rushing at me like a rotating rotten circus act of famous expletive shitbags, one after the next, with the most stupid and disgusting statements that really belie the myth that if they make or quote Shakespeare, as they are all really in a cult of Shakespeare as identification with "top quality acting"--but it's just a cult--and supposedly they are also supposed to be of top quality if they can quote or play a Shakespeare role. I find that not to be true in the reality of great acting or film. But in a sense this man was attacking me for not bowing like the lowest rank of a pseudo-religious cult praying to Shakespeare as the symbol of English might, power and competence and of his identification thereof (he has played Shakes' roles in some movies). I think all the famous English attackers have all played on one or another Shakes' movies, adapted and I can't say I think of their acting as being great even in a Shake's adaptation. Of course, one who is only collaterally involved but not directly who played the lead in Titus was excellent in that role but not in King Lear (nor the expletive outright Nazi-statement-making skank who played alongside him in that film who attacked me along with her nasty former husband or partner--all up for awards this season---or next season.)

...And I never wanted to make a direct reference to them or even indirect. 

But this kind of narrow-minded simplicity and stupidity is what has been ordained to control American movie and film production, which in turn also controls largely American political nominations and the power structure. 

How can I begin to prove that last statement if my every post I write that is critical or realistic or open is met with threats, violence, death threats, accidents, my money being cut off, and no one ever, for years ever not once coming to defend me? 

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So I must do what I can but I don't know if this is possible. How to not engage with these parasitic leeches? I don't know. There are libraries full of Eastern Philosophy and religion on this topic of non-engagement and of stoicism and of non-involvement in evil and worthless arguments and people. 

Yet the technology adheres to my brain like another parasite, and my vision literally is restricted to a narrow field of vision. I can't "get away" from them while in this state. I have tried on many occasions to get away from the attackers and they follow me around. I stumble like a semi-blind person which is what I am in that state. My brain is forced "open" like a cracked egg shell and I can't contain my emotions or ideas. I try to remain silent and I can't. 


This is probably the most difficult life lesson for any human being to be able to confront and control and succeed. I would like to view this like a champion and say that if I "will" it I can achieve it. However, I have found and discovered to my dismay that the force of personal Willpower does not override the electrical force of the technology. Imagine if you will that you are being electrocuted slightly and you try to use your force of "will" to overcome the electrical pulses shocking your body. Can you overcome that by force of will?

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Throat-induced (non-consensual) microchip torture forcing tears, throat constriction while eating, and the endless hate of this group of just extremely hateful celebrities and politicians remains as the daily hours of abuse per morning. Amazing that in this afternoon they are not still abusing me in rows of chairs staring like starved rats and leeches devouring my energy, life force and sucking out ideas which I spill out continuously for hours after their torture and abuse without end (18 years by now on a non-stop daily basis, leading to 16 hours per day and night ore more over the past 2 years but almost the same under the biden hellscape period and endless torture under trump 1st term and endless near-death poisoning and abuse (under all) but under obamas which remain as steadfast abuser-for-profit black nazi terrorists working with all their good white nazi supremacists in whorewood and congress whorewood. Aspiring politicians are rushing to join in, as they torture me and remain silent as they abuse ideas out of me. The former governor and soon-to-be former governor of that golden state cali are now a cali cartel of violent rape abusers and hateful exploiters of me with their throngs of minorities, has been celebrities and already established but not quite on the non-stop tier of non-stop top awards as the bulk of those who have spent 18 years torturing me day and night remain after their careers were faltering until they leeched latched onto abusing me nearly to death. They remain despite my months of writing about them, only handing this torture apparatus to their "friends" who need this career-enhancement so they take turns all obrtaining lead roles oscars awards and asking me non-stop all morning for ideas. Ignoring them is impossible. The amount of energy required would take up litearlly all of my life force to ignore their violence since they augment it non-stop with physical torture such as tears pouring out of my eyes. My skin is thoroughly damaged my eyesight permanently deteriorated to a degree I can no longer read without glasses, the prescription is increasing and increasing. My face looking so foreign to me from not only tears forced out of my eyes hour and hours per day, for literally years on end without end daily (this had stopped for a while until newsom obtained pemission by trump to inflict this torture after I endorsed newsom's prop 50 in california--the redistricting plan. Under drugging and extreme violent torture I wrote a message to his facebook page, and like depp back in 2012 he began violence, rape torture and increased it to non-stop terrorism when I said "no" to being his willing "sex slave" abuse victim and substitute for his domestic violence problems, which all the people involved are heavily invested in transference onto the stalking target so it appears they are all by-products of domestic violence or extreme racist policy alteriing the possibility of people in the United States elevating above racist cliches that only the white nazis are the "most beautiful". The horrific endless physical torture for mutilation and destruction of the face has been ongoing since this plastic surgery rife hate group out of h-wood began clutching at destroying my lief in every way possible. Before that it was "Just" poisoning jme into a huge, football shaped poisoned and dying drugged into near comatose levels of incoherency victim to be exploited (ideas without end beginining with the English wealthy "art dealer" I met for circa 4 hours total back in 1987 during a summer vacation trip to London with a Eurail pass. I was put into a little "bedsit" studio across the street from him in Chelsea (the Engllish creep who has spent 16 hours pe day yelling non-stop abuse and death threat yelled "that's what you get for trying to live in Chelsea" when I had written in my blog that I was put there by a real estate agent when I asked for a little room on my budget (they raised the price for me it went lower after I stopped renting I had asked afterwards) and I had no actual "choice" in the matter I had no idea where to go and this agent told me there was '"one bedsit" which fit my request (in all of London) conveniently across the street in a "posh" area from a man connected to the contract my family had made with the English in connection to the movie Deliverance, back in 1974). Back to today: tears pouring out again as I sat yelling my tirade of "leave me alone" type "get off me" endless daily repetition of this theme. They sit like statues adorned with the promise that respecting any single thing about me is FORBIDDEN they happily comply. They remain sitting and digging into my psyche to obtain ideas. They never say thank you there never any interesting reply except for the ugly hissing of the dirty hate spawn of Depp yelling her daily non-stop "loser" at me after they obtain ideas (my ideas have furnished her movies, the only ones that made any significant headlines in her entire career and her modeling came about as part of this scheme to use h-wood to bring in nazi infiltrators via h-wood into controlling american politics using nazi and english crown money handed out and distributed like candy to drooling addicts Americans they call "stupid" behind their backs---they say it openly at me whenever they can, these nasty English in particular but it is echoed throughout the Euro-diaspora of nazi persuasion. But AFTER they torture me to obtain ideas and use tears torture in part to obtain ideas. The pain is now reaching agony misery stages of torture from over 15 years of tears being forced out of my eyes. Additionally as usual the russian ballet exploiter who operates a sly strategy of claiming to be "helping" me and adds a few tips, which are beneficial but only after I think of the tips myself first--thusly only repeating my thoughts and adding a few to adjust the endless onslaught of English, French,; Austrian and German rapists and abusers he partners with, as his proxy abuse squads groups of euro-haters screaming murder, all kinds of insults. The body builder out of Austria the former gov of that dread state which used to be some kind of "open-minded" paradise of developers and cereative potential is now torturing me non-stop for years to obtain original ideas which the English crown furnishes with millions of dollars in funding for huge grand set design and costume grandeur to bolster the scripts which have, in part my ideas derived out of torture and then the usual nazi platform propaganda scripts which are essential copies of paradigms of such platitudes which echoes the platitudes the politicians use, who also observe my screaming responses to "why is this bad" and then tears torture, everything broken, stinking and more damage to my body, my property what is left of it with endless death threats and abuse going on and on for hours per day. //Never once even a basic "thank you" or any kind of money or support just abuse and then they finally just vanish and they obtain the ideas, taking notes on how they can use the ideas, and then threatening me with death having their hateful expletive scream "loser" or they just say how "stupid" the ideas are and then I see my ideas used in their movies which I deem to be a lessening of extreme originality of my original concept and turned into yet another formula nazi propagandized movie which "wins' an award and then is forgotten evermore since the movies leave no lasting mark on anybody's minds except perhaps for the mental masturbation of watching their skank rape nazi women or men gyrating or heaving around with sexual allure supposedly (years of plastic surgery and modeling with all kinds of subliminals, I believe, to enhance this effect on the viewer). //The script to "help" me while I am exercising has been used by two foreign men coming out of the near former soviet and nazi encampments which Americans have "forgotten" were once dedicated to destroying American and infiltrating and taking it over. As if it was never a threat American nazi celebrities rally around the extremely violent abusers in their ploys and schemes of torture, obtained from Stasi and Nazi administrators of mind control operations. Tested in Nazi concentration camps, by CIA LSD drug lords posing as experimenting on mind control MK ULTRA upon the unwitting prostitutes and politicians who could be bribed thus the mind control was easily ascertained upon both the wealthy and eduated as well as the desperate and possibly less well-educated simultaneously. Their mind control operates always the same: I am exercising to try to break the "internal shelf structure" of hard posions jutting out of my back, blocking movement along with the fractured vertebrae along my entire spine, performed in the span of years to inflict total disability and then denying me health care, even when I obtained it after years of struggle and applying for disability--which they have had cut off and have tried in the past month to block all attempts for me to have it reinstated by infecting my laptop so badly infected it's unusable, turning electricity off completely where I live for days and days and then increasing the abuse from people in all tech shops to the point of near physical fights because I am under mind control in such spaces and unable to contain the rage they use brainwave and subliminal phrases and literal body functions to obtain (affecting thoughts and emotions into hyperbolic knee-jerk instant reaction of rage, combined with life-threat to my existence on levels of extreme stress and drugging abuse and all avenues of producing the hundred or so downloads this agency required for them to assess my case after 16 months of no response and non-stop abuse and torrture rape from one trump politician who partners with the usual obama and clinton teams and the old biden-era abusers from the dem party are sitting next to their "opponents on the other side" all working to abuse me into "submission" for their co-joint partnership in a total entropic overtake leading America into a non-stop fascist dictatorship but "benevolent" when the dems take power.

  The ploy that is used to obtain more perks, deals and permissions to control the entertainment-political entropic realm is handed to this ...