Sunday, March 20, 2022

There's one of the celebrities who I occasionally do a search engine thang for just becuz it's a bit fun (is it healthy?). I use this as a thermometer of sorts for my situation. But my brain, being under such ominously distorted states due to external forces, picked up this memory out of my brain-memory bank and it just came to me--a song out of the 70's I would hear from WLS out of Chicago when I lived in Champaign (got reception all those miles away on my little radio in my bedroom). I had given up at that point on classical violin and wanted to be part of the "fun" music that "everyone" was getting hip to. I now recall a movie and book (I read the book, didn't get through the movie) called Looking for Mr. Goodbar.

 "Helen Reddy--Delta Dawn Music Video". YazerPro. February 12, 2009.




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But DELTA DAWN (now realizing this title also has significant symbolism but won't go into that detail right now): the song that just popped into my brain and memory is not linked to my opinion of the male actor, the association came with all the videos on YouTube that are crazy fan stuff---obsessive/compulsive drooling for a celebrity, for example--and other ideas I won't write about in the personal domain.

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...and my 2nd association from floating but associated ties to the fan-base idolatry of celebrity brings to mind the great character of Miss Havisham from Charles Dickens' Great Expectations--again, the book brings more detail but the film versions bring the character a bit to light. Ah, what a fantastic beast Miss Havisham has created in the general but perhaps forgotten literary and film landscape. This also has personal associations with the ideas floating through my mind of this weird situation foisted upon me with being teleported to "them"--as I watch the fan stuff on YouTube, the gossip and the posturing charitable photo-op stuff of the celebrities who couldn't give a damn about the issues unless it involves some kind of profit or fame for them and their most cherished careers. But Miss Havisham and Delta Dawn are both adoring the YouTube videos (featuring every day with a fan base of millions this most famous male/one who women kneel in devotion to, some women I mean. Also men, of course).


"Great Expectations 'Miss Havisham' Mertida Hunt, 1946". Cool Guy. May 28, 2017.



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...and this song comes to mind---not because of the NAME in the title but because of the song--(I had forgotten the title of the song and the name of the woman for whom Ms. Reddy is singing) but the weird crescent moon hanging over a dying swamp is the term I might use for the technologically obsessed---I heard this song out of Chicago, over 200 miles south in Champaign and I tried to understand it with a 12-year old mind but could not grasp the sordid waste of life that Ms. Reddy was singing about---the video, though, is quite the subliminal because in the first scene of a city scene is a most clear and defined phallic symbol building--almost clearly obscene--I think media is more adept at hiding such clues at this point. But it wasn't really meant or intended to be so hidden anyway---it has a direct bearing on this theme and of the not so veiled obsession with "big city" pipe dreams and men and love and media addiction devoid of reality---(or is addiction the ultimate reality?)


"Helen Reddy--Angie Baby Cartoon". LukeDuke908. February 19, 2012.



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But as a little aside: here's to Ms. Helen Reddy and her contribution to the real feminist marches, meetings and fights that women have had to undergo all these years of protest--I AM WOMAN

hear me roar, baby! Maybe? A lady? Shady? 

"I Am Woman--Helen Reddy". Sophie Othilla Ngo. January 18, 2013.


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"Looking for Mr. Goodbar (1977) clip". Films 411. September 20, 2016.






This brings back a very different memory of me and my grandmother marching in a protest to keep abortion legal. This march was in the streets of Phoenix, Arizona around the mid-late 80's. My grandmother and I had our arms around one another while marching amongst the protesters in the middle of a long train of women marching for abortion rights to continue. Strangely this was one of the few circumstances where me and my g-ma actually embraced for more than a few seconds (she was a bit distant and very controlling--maybe a bit like a Miss Havisham but in connubial bliss with my endearing grandfather who devoted his life and everything to her, and it was mutual but I know she cheated on him and he still loved her for it. They loved one another for more than 50 years like the best of friends and devoted to their deaths). She was loving but not a doting type (my mother called her a kind of "super bitch" personality). She kind of taught me the "hard way" not to get involved with the creeple that the Nazi organization flew into my path with my brain inundated with "gravy" mind control ooze mostly all my life. She kept admonishing me to pick better men but in a whiney way which kept me on my toes--endlessly looking for Mr. Goodbar and now I've given up on looking for the elusive ultimate deadly abuser fantasy (must see but mostly must read the book Looking for Mr. Goodbar to understand my drift, can you DIG IT?).

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"5 Easy Pieces--Stand By Your Man--Tammy Wynette". HD Film Tributes. June 22, 2021.




This song, and this movie 5 Easy Pieces come to mind in this miasma of memories associated with looking up celebrity fascination on the tube circuit pumped directly into your brain and heart---themes of feminism. Oddly, the woman who played the "feminist/independent" character who Mr. Nicholson lent one of his homes to, promising her that he would never kick her out, once she reached that untenable age he did, indeed kick her out. I don't know what happened to her since I assume she got over very well--maybe I'll look it up.... But the film 5 Easy Pieces is, in part, a depiction of the fantasy good girl wifey woman who dotes on her husband and every tear waiting to drop at the slightest hat falling the cliche perfect woman-as opposed to the 70's version of the New Independent Woman who could stand on her own (maybe to buy and purchase her own house? However now that I understand the good ole Mr. Goodbar Network I know that women being blocked from obtaining financial freedom is a thing and for real, dude. At least for me becuz I'm supposedly "dangerous" and very bad and the list of hate terms for me is endless according to the people using subliminals to drain my brain of all positive reinforcement about who an what I am--thus carried-on by the teleporting terrorist mind screw operators out of H-wood, the celebrities who seem to gain money from their exploits playing the freedom loving women but support male domination oppression to an extreme degree of violence when it comes to me, as they also participate in the violence, ostensibly to prove to the male-dominated media industry controlled, I assume, by men largely and the women who support misogynist woman-hating culture.

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"Tammy Wynette--Divorce (lyrics)".  Lee Westwick. September 6, 2012.





At least d-i-v-o-r-c-e is still legal....women who want independence still have a chance to not be as enslaved but mentally they remain cloistered and supporting cheerleaders for male abusive relationships---





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More tears torture to my eyes and the hate scum who inflict this every day appear in 3D reality to be more sick and stupid than the last day of their inane stupidity and ugly sick filth. These are the "leaders" aspiring to hold the keys to mental programming and social engineering via whorewood and always putting the criminal ignorant albeit well-educated expletives who were in power DECADES AGO via their collusion to destroy America "from within" political partners; always touted as being the epitome of the Demo-rat party always interviewed as the"experts' only their lying and sleazy American-hating English-crown controlled, Nazi Germany controlled, French nazi brutality coloniaistic hate machine always behind these "puppets' the white aunt jemimas the white uncle toms and their slaves playing the same roles. The Civil War and that era still had Americans doubting the veracity of The English in their endless attempts to retake the United States by Force. The War if 1812 was fresh in the memories of the newspaper op-ed and journalist reports the dread of Imperialistic Euro-takeover from the remnants of the American Revolution still slightly fresh the ardor to retain personal sovereignty included every whites in many areas of the country. No more, the compassionate ones were killed off in euro-nazi terror subversion tactics which nazi Americans grasped and are now in "power" in whorewood and politics, conversely or otherwise. But nevertheless, all my life I remained out of politics and commentary until they began torturing me to obtain ideas and as I fought for my personal security and freedom from tyranny, I have had to personally witness the leeches who were put in power whom I never voted for, never would have voted for Obama and if I were not nearly killed by nazis in America I would have at least been able to listen to commentary about the Clinton campaign. So deadly sick of the Bush tirade I gladly welcomed what appeared to have been youthful former "alternative" culture that the younger Clinton=--not openly identified as CIA as the Bush family had been and now from research I KNOW that the Bush family sold oil to the Nazis in WWII and they are still putting nazis in power in whorewood.). I was in Germany when the nazi clintons were put in power. I now know that all are tethered to the Nazi party all have made their secret oaths to preserve their "friends" and nothing to do with the constitution which they have been unilaterally subverting in trickle-down erosion until it's now a flood zone. They remain always heralded by the Nazi-purchased media as the antidote to the "rise of fascism". They are ordering this non-stop torture of me so they will be endlessly paid in multimillions to produce effete sentimentality of preconceived-of tropes about fighting racism, sexism and preserving "Democracy". A total farce and sickness that remains of these leeches retained endlessly in a monopoly. //Seeing them and how incompetent they are to really lead and past, way past their bedtime they should have been taken out of power and new people inserted but the same rotten structure of nazi hierarchy remains the same rotten scum remain as the "symbols" of "Democracy" who with Georgetown educations and English Oxford scholarships where they were courted, then mind control and incentivized with endless millions hundreds of millions mansions in the "liberal" bastion of Martha's Vineyard-a place where the Euro-nazi "Jews" who helped to sell my family into death and destruction obtained a house in addition to other investments while the professor salary they lived on would never have permitted such expensive purchase. They were Austrian-born immigrants from Nazism and they invoked and pushed Nazi genocide and death squad nazi/stasi abuse and hate gangs while they were omitted from the hate target zone for having done so (which is why they were handed Visas by the American government to escape nazism in the first place because THEY HAD HELPED MURDER JEWS IN VIENNA BEFORE BEING ALLOWED TO FLEE while the majority were kept without any chance of Visas. //I grew up with sick shit like that surrounding me and now I face it with the demo-rat and nazi maga all working together--the structure of the nazis never recognized in these stupid and dumb information-lacking anti-nazi blockbuster movies out of stupid sick whorweood all these years so when I write of this type of arrangement people ignore it because no one reports on it for the most part except perhaps in scholarly journals which remain buried in "academic research databases" exempt from public scrutiny. 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They are forcing me to wake up in a drugged sort of "meth" explosion of energy, after one hour I am so ill I can't stand up or move any longer my body immersed with poisons and drugs I literally have to "collapse" on my bed without anhy protection they slash my fingers toes make more hair fall out greasy stinking substances my body and my teeth jabbed with sharp knives under gum tissue already comletely cut out to the jawline earlier when they tried to smash my teeth out after they forced an accident in a rigged brake mechanism which is how many a famous celebrity (i.e. the son of John F. Kennedy and his airplane "accident" and there are reports from intel agencies on how the entire situation was a fabricated assassination all the evidence removed from public scrutiny). Etc etc. My face now an ugly old broken down ravaged appearance of dying misery sagging cheeks hollow eyes black huge huge circles tears forcing deterioration of my facial structure and the endless yelling from this stupid loser team of shit whorew apes out of whorewood endlessly they can't produce a single winning omvie ideas they can't get lead roles without abusing me they can't get anything other than previous decades of blockbuster movie shit and lying crap behind them but so blank so ugly and just handed this tech for nazis to instsall every hateful a$$-groveling sychophant possible to obey and follow orders for complete nazification of america through it's nazi programming and political endorsement machine. Somehow unbelievable my "submission" to accepting this bullshit group is the key factor to their not losing "winner take all "plans and plots. Teams of eurotrash nazi models and nazi shit has-been white worm trash actors waiting in the wings for the takeover to inflict absolute tyrannical control hillary gets more movies made about "women" the obamas about fighting racism and america gets more trumps in the future controlled by white nazi trash out of europigapeland hate. So they are torturing me to death because they are losers incompetent mediocrities who can't create winning ideas and can't get lead roles and this empire of nazi eurotrash takeover without me submitting to say they are "great" they are such shit every day I se eonly a more stupid aspect of this endlessly sick and stupid group than the day before now they are so low and incompetent for anything but eating hamburgers with some fries and a shake of their tails to sell some bullshit no one needs but people want that titillating sense of junk food empowerment they are selling. 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