Sunday, March 19, 2023

I've been so ill from detox for the last few days of unending sickness that I am staying awake because I'm sick of sleeping due to being sick. Watching Swarm and amazed that it's much better and fascinating and so good that I've watched the episodes in complete disarray. Began with the third episode, then the 5th then the 7th and I'm on the 4th. It's good in that no matter which episode I watch, I'm not really missing out on the storyline as each episode stands alone as a fascinating piece of the overall patchwork of another sex/murder celluloid product, which I am against and sick of seeing as the representation of society. ------ I finally decided to look-up which celebrity this "true" story was based on and saw that it was one of the black Nazis who have assaulted me in protection of a German rapist. I thought that the sleazy and hateful subject matter of a fractured woman seems to be out of the crack in the abyss from which these actors fly out of when the are not in their domesticated wealth luxury grasping conniving plans of monopoly and deferring to white supremacy. ----------- I realize that perhaps many people know this, but a "Beehive" has been alluded to as a symbol of "The Illuminati'" and the organized system of holographic worker bee society. Allusions to the husband of this black nazi making the pyramid and his association with "The Illuminati" have been referenced in "conspiracy theory" videos on YouTube very often. As usual, no mention of the white Nazi supremacist celebrities and their affiliation with "The Illuminati" is made in the same sort of light as the black celebrities. -------------- I can only state that while, as usual with most of the celebrities attacking me, I never once liked one of her songs, nor that of her husband except for that one about the 99 B**tches and a problem is not one--- nothing she has ever done has impressed me, but her former "girl group" song about survival was something I liked when it came out; I liked the group and not her in particular, and only for that song. ------------ I find it not unusual that a morbid show about psychopathic darkness of a spiritual morbidity is associated with this character personality, who claims she has a duel personality spirit living inside her which comes out when she's making her most sexualized stage performances with a violent gyrational twist. I always thought of her as a product of white supremacy cultural indoctrination of blacks into white mainstream society. How much worse she is in real life to that assumption than I had surmised. I also took the cue from one of the very white supremacist terrorists who attacked me on South Beach who claimed she "loved" that bee hive leader of the Illuminati/Nazi organization-and I guessed correctly that if this white supremacist bigot loved that singer, then the singer had to be a comfort to white supremacy in the disguise of being a "strong black woman" making waves for "black women everywhere". ---------- now here is a story of a black women played most wonderfully in a psychopathic "evil" way by an actress who I do think is a better artist than the symbol she is supposed to be a kind of mind-controlled psychopathic serial killer honoring and dedicated to, like a cult leader. The stories are all amazing, the shots, the photography, the sets, the kind of "female" presence is amazing and I felt that this series touched on some aspects of my own life in being an "outcast" (but not in killing people or wanting to kill people) but only in the sense of being on the "fringe" of society and living a kind of life that is "free" of restraints (which is infuriating for the terrorists, that I could adapt to this level of independence--thusly they poisoned me with hardening poison to keep me paralyzed and thus stuck in one place while they torture me). --------- As for Billie Eillish--(not sure if I spelled that correctly) oh how she played a most annoying "spiritual" "white girl" fake parasite feeding off the vulnerability of a target/victim to exploit and try to churn into a brainwashed groupie dedicating her life to the group. I have been invited and then slightly involved in something similar to that white girl "spiritual" domestic scene and I experienced some of the very same atmosphere. I also discovered some of them were equally annoyingly fake and some were racist and some were threatening terrorists from the Nazi organization. As I wrote, I was "invited" there so it was a set-up in the first place. I lived a few blocks away from this house when I had almost no money and they had monthly meetings with food and discussions and it was a meeting ground for artists and musicians --all female. It was very "familiar" to me, and Eillish played the part well. She too, I believe, has been one of the terrorists involved in a more collateral way to this terror contract out on me. But she played her part well, despite not being an actor. I thought she played her role better than many or most of the actual blonde "actors" (female) who sit around jeering and giggling as their husbands and boyfriends and male partners rape and abuse me as they applaud and "love" them for it. =-------------- The show and the other actors is truly done exceptionally well, to my taste of outrageous living on the fringe of society moral story depiction. It's a story about brainwashing and social isolation as well, played in part by those who actually are participating in these types of actions so they can actually brainwash people into becoming zombies dying to live if only to have a kind of contact with them through a mobile phone or laptop screen as a substitute for disappointing human contact. They are helping to usher in mass murder also through their actions, although they would probably shrug in denial or disregard for the consequences of their actions. It's a series of stories befitting the general atmosphere of death and addiction to celluloid and deadly disappointing humans playing these "goddess" and god-like characters. The "goddess" worship cult of white women, like all the characters in other parts of the series, all form a coalition of forces that are deceptive, dark lies wrapped in fantasy projection and based on luring people into providing energy to the "bee hive" of the group feeding process of feeding off the money and loneliness and grasping need of the hungry ghost "fans". The mind control and trauma-based conditioning ensures an endless supply of drones and worker fans supplying $$$ and adulation to the false idols placed on precarious clay bases which ultimately prove to be deadly illusions, creating zombie murdering fans willing to do anything to find an iota of humanity through contact with a hive of other mesmerized worker bees supplying nectar (money) and energy (life force) to dead souls gyrating as icons of life and glam and mystery forces (effete and dead and based on fantasy celluloid manipulation).

 It is very hard/impossible for me to write my thoughts completely due to the attack on my brain as I fight to deal with the hacking attacks--


this black female singer and her husband both used anti-Semitic hate slurs at me using genocidal death language after I tried to get a German white male rapist from beating and raping me in teleportation. I finally had to resort to calling him names and fighting to get him off me. Anytime I referred to his precious Nazi country in realistic terms regrading it's nascent Nazi empire exhibitionism, he punched me (in teleportation). The black "fighting against racism" married couple then used Nazi slogans of killing Jews and sending me to a concentration camp. Since then, as before, they have not stopped "winning" top awards for major awards ceremonies. 

This is so typical for those of the "minority" oppressed groups and I have seen it so often that there is not a year or ceremony that goes by without at least 5 black people and other "minorities" being awarded or featured in photo-ops as being part of the "in" crowd. 

One very hostile and death threatening "Jewish" male just got awarded some honorary title by Time's year list--and like the Forbes lists for most important people, they are those who attack me put into "top" leadership projections for the endless monopoly of this group to propel it's most false promises for the disenfranchised to look up to for hope for their lost sense of reality and selfhood.

They are all such false constructs that the violence inherent in society is depicted in this show Swarm very well. The fractured murder impulse is being indoctrinated into the public by "celebrities" like these symbols upon which Swarm is based.

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Another mutilation report: sometimes I only realize the damage when the injection of numbing/pain killer wears off. Taking a shower, I realize that the soreness I felt in my right ear this morning upon waking was due to me having not been able to protect my head from attack while collapsing in toxic shock on my bed. I had done an exercise after many days of fasting which pulled on some of the very tight bands of poison latched in labyrinth fashion into my spine, connecting to my muscle line along my spine, what is left of it. Atrophied obviously underneath the hard poison which has been frozen in paralysis for probabyl 30 years or longer, with hardening poison injected into my body at around 2009 and culminating in endless paralysis. The poisons had been in semi-flexible stage most of my life, pushing up tissue and adipose (cellulite) making it appear just like my frame was larger, almost square like a man's body. The poison was flexible enough for me to feel the "bands" running along my spine but never understanding that I was being poisoned I was also continuously so drugged and under mind programming I just understood only that it was a result of the 3 major spine surgeries but had no idea it was due to poisons. But around 2009 the injections of an hardening agent were introduced into the daily poisoning regimin with attempts to murder me began in earnest. I was living around euro-haters and the poisoning was so extreme that if I bought food at a local grocer and the food had been pre-prepared by the grocer (i.e. deli section) I would get very ill vomiting after eating the poison was so extreme (not my normal to vomit I am referring to how they kept poisoning me continuously and then adding this extra hardening agent which acted in concert with the already established poisons--it was a staged and pre -planned operation the poisons have already been tested on countless people in the past so the end result is a staggered set of stages of putrefaction and then paralysis leading to of course death. All appearing "normal" for someone at a certain age, plus all the other maladies they created and forced upon me thusly a seeming health decline. This is a very popular form of murder by the way and I believe I have seen it in action many times in the past with relatives. The relatives had been good little boys and girls obeying orders from the nazi scum who marry them (take their money steal my inheritance, for example and my own siblings just assisted their nazi spouses in having my mother's inheritance stolen from me using the rump doge committee to just destroy my only security due to the disability THEY created and coordinated to force upon me. ) They stuck somethiinng into my inner ear last night. I collapsed because the poisons were "tweaked" under this set of layers of criss-crossing poisons interlaced into my vertebrae but running alongside my spine and connecting into my hips, and into my hip joints so paralyze me. 17 days of fasting (1 day in between to eat something to get rid of the disgusting poisons which accumulate due to the poisoning never ending so no matter how many master cleanse fasting I did, they kept poisoning me so the accumulation was always being rebuilt instantly afterward---on top of the plugs and hard layers which block digesstion and body movement and functioning. So, the poisons released into my bloodstream made me literally collapse, as has happened endlessly for the past 2 years while trying with all my strength not to fall into this comatose type toxic shock sleep but my musclles just collapse the spine is coated with this poison inches deep on both sides---it goes into my bloodstream it is connected into my brain--of course shitnigger the endless leech parasite sexually abused and attacked me in that state as I fought him off death threats from that ugy sick sleazy thug you all worship for his nazi thuggery and bs movie crap always about how great he is (a total lie everything he represents as a positive is a complete opposite of his actual agenda---but it's not his agenda he's just a bot following orders as are they all). //thusly, rather than dig into my cuticles for the 15th year in a row on an almost daily basis until all fingers are mutilated my toes are disgusting the chemicals they put on my toenails and the cuticles they severed out and broken my toes and etc---but, they justt inserted something so deeply into my eardrum or ear canal (not going to look up the biology of it) but behind this "plate" in my inner ear--the ear drum perhaps but it's a type of hard "flap "type piece at the very end of the ear canal where I can insert a cotton swab--whatever the name is the ear canal? it has a block to the inside of my skull whatever that hard piece is it can be manipulated to have something inserted behind it--they did this in the last trump shit regime under the orders of that fuck scum and therefore they have done it again rather than smear grease making my already mostly bald head shed more hair as they do all the time when I collapse--but last night they forced someting into my ear canal--the skin tissue leading up to the flap is inflamed and it's getting infected. It took me over 3 years to get rid of whatever they stuck in my ear the last time, around 2019--that was when the other austrian sick u gly rotten old man fuck assauled me for saying I don't what he thinks of my interpretation of mozart--that is all I said in response to him trying to steal more ideas out of me, asking me to interpret mozart as that ugly rotten scum took notes and then smirked while ice cube asked him (it was an orchestrated skit for his filthy promotion and that of rancid ice cube as well) but "what do you think of her interpretation" and the ugly nazi white trash said smirking "I have no idea what it meant" as I said without being able to monitor my thoughts, in deep sleep state as well so this was programmed into my subconsciousness I repeated it upon prompt: I don't care what you think" thusly they injected me with some virus I was deadly ill it felt like I was dyinjg they made my hair turn grey as this group of pig rat "men" have been doing either putting something in my hair to kill the follicles or just stress the poisoning with this virus, 1-2 months prior to the covid outbreak (nov 2019) was so extreme so exhausting a virus type sickness--which was injected into me within a day of this episode--ice cube punched me in the face, the rat austrian nazi then got me injected with some covid type virus, all the symptoms of covid I had before the outbreak perhaps it made me immune to the actual seriousness of the virus if I had been exposed to it. They then injected this thing into my ear canal and trump smirked and laughed in response as that ugly rat who starred in many tarantino shit nazi movies so famous for the violence and hate and smug come-backs ---and he was put in lead roles in movies and put in rolling stone because it's a nazi entertainment promoting goddamn rag paper--and thusly, this austrian other rotten fuck had a tree killed facing my patio then this beautiful cat taken away and has had me raped my hair mostly killed yanked out with hair follicle remover after fighting to get another german rat fuck scum off raping me and pounding poison into my body while doing disgusting dirty pornographic things as ugly shitalina watched laughing as shitnigger hugged this ugly filthy creep who plays violin, whom I had complimented as well the response as with this english skank piece of shit which shitnigger is going to pay to put in the position in a film they tortured me for the concept of--giving me nothing and continuing the torture wihtout end--the 75 people in the last month from that ugly sick rotten thug shitnigger (the other austrian rat nazi cockroach is this ugly dirty old man who played n django unchained the german rat fuck who really is just a rat fuck not an anti-racist--but the blacks are endlessly purchased by them to inflict antisemitism in america so the blacks can be blamed not the austirans or the germans who always claim they are not racist and not nazis any longer. Thusly, this ugly thug pig rat shitnigger who is such a foul and dirty ugly stupid sick thing that all I can do is write out a list of insults because of the longevity of his violence towards me for years and years and years profiting off it. He goes off laughing about what he is doing to me as he gets gets gets endlessly more and more but sits with his stupid ugly square dumb head as they torture ideas out of me while he has them screaming all insults at me instantly afterwards while this actual real stupid bitch fuck and the shit he brings with him like that ugly sick filth from depp are the stupid bitches--they scream these types of insults at me after torturing me for YEARS to obtain more original ideas--then claim them as their own get paid in millions. It is justt ongoing ongoing never ending these ugly filthy dirty shit so-called "men" are just allowed to wreak every kind of rape and torture their shit filth wives and daughters get get get more lead roles as feminists portraying the heroism that I actually am doing each and every single day and just getting mutilated by these mechanical arms operated by shit and filth brown and black people LIKE ICE CUBE and snoop dogg the sick hoggs who just perform every act of violence so white trash shit like shitnigger will give them more lead roles. The smug stupidity of them all but ask them for original ideas they have nothing to say, not a single word. All is given to these fuck whores all is taken away from me for being creative a threat to shit ugly pig rats like these so-calleld men and their shit filth women. And still, they will continue tomorrow and the next day and the next day they will never be pulled off me how can they be considered "superior" without having people to steall ideas from otherwise what are they? smug and stupid bodybuilders simple rhyming dumb scum playing tough and angry righteousness fighting against tyranny-their every bullshit role before they torture me to steal original ideas outside of the righteous victim wreaking extremely bloody revenge upon abusers. That is all they are all they play but in actually all they are is sleazy stupid fucks attacking innocent and in my case, an actual righteous person made disabled by their attacks (their collective group) as these worthless but way overpaid muscle-thug scumbags can inflict their sleazy hate to stop anyone but themselves and their shit blank stupid whore females as having ideas having any kind of actual soul and meaning they appear so empty and blank and rotten but their public appearances are contrived so they appear like they are filled with light and love and intelligence. How much of it is scripted I don't know.