Friday, March 17, 2023

S**t everywhere, both in-and-out: A graphic, gruesome post about detox I undergo, am now undergoing, from poisons trapped inside a hard shell, turned into black hard poisons similar to an internal shell, with black goo fluids trapped under the hard shell--into my back, inside my internal organs, probably for circa 20-30 years (not for the squeamish when it comes to body fluid detail--not for the fettish crowd either)

 Back in 2011, when I realized the extent of the poisoning, as I was so drugged endlessly by internal hard poisons trapping liquid, fermenting poisons (which turn black, the blackest color when I can finally get some of it out, if I can manage to break the internal shell. If I manage to do that, I only get a tiny sliver of the hard stuff to crack and finally come out after extreme exertion--it takes 2-3 days for the soft liquids to finally loosen to the point of elimination--2-3 days of not being able to move mostly all day, sick and stuck not able to think, read, or move).


I am undergoing that, in the 3rd day right now. I had decided back in 2011, when I first realized that no matter what I did, I was stuck with a huge abdomen of poison jutting out (not realizing that I was constantly being re-poisoned by people breaking into my home every night and putting tasteless and invisible poison in my body and/or food.

I thought I would try to provide evidence so I could at least have proof, so accusations that are inevitable of me being "crazy" would have some basis in fact of proof of poisoning. However, I decided it would be too insulting to me on a public level--as having photos of black poison without saving the content could be mislabeled as me being pathologically scatological or some other mental disorder category. With no proof of retaining the poisons that I eliminate, with laboratory break-down, people could assume I am sick and crazy and keeping a diary of my eliminations which I am fascinated with. I decided to not keep a photo journal of the detox process.

I am writing now because I am fighting as hard as I can to break the last, albeit HUGE, quantity remaining as a hard shell embedded into my back.

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Hacking is making this as usual nearly impossible to get out. The subject matter is also not anything I want to dwell on, and I am thoroughly sick of writing about the disgusting people endlessly taking turns attacking me, who in my opinion are nothing short of the stinking filth I eliminate through my anus every day or few days--they are just in "human" form. They are all connected to the stinking ugliness that the terror torture 4th Reich, in my opinion, is to the core of it's essence. Every single thing they do is a stinking lie and a poisonous toxic stain on humanity, in my opinion. They claim they are superior to all people and to life itself and part of a universe of superior elite ubermensch. I truly beg to differ and only consider them to be like the stinking fluids I crap out perpetually that they have forced into my body for so many decades.

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To fight to continue (I just fought to get a capital "T" in the first word of this new paragraph over 6 times, the hacking is so bad the capital letters won't operate, the keyboard is stiff I must pound down, and my hands won't move to the keys I want to press).

I am doing various types of exercises which one of the (rapist) terrorists so kindly helped bestow upon me (with a quid-pro-quo of "helping" me in return for raping me with the terrorist actors watching on in their usual rows of chairs, giggling as he stuck his penis in my mouth and slapped my face while I was in a constructed, sleep or nascent waking state of inebriated/tech interface "ecstasy" while I was fighting to get him to stop, simultaneously, while in a waking and teleported state seeing my immediate 3D reality in front of me and the nearly ephemeral, thin veil of the teleported hate rape and abuse situation that I could not turn away from because my 2ndary body was transfixed in one, nearly tied down supine position being raped while my actual prime physical body was stuck in a kind of mesmerized transfixed state, trying to turn away and saying "stop" while this was ongoing.

But that was the "price" I was supposed to pay, amongst everything else this person could extract out of me so he and his wife, children adn family and friends could obtain a veritable universe of promotions out of forcing some mind control agenda forced upon me, which I perpetually fight to stop and not have forced upon me.

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He did succeed in training me to the extent of being more aware of body alignment, because the hard poisons have literally put my body completely in a twisted, bloated, mutated and crooked body alignment. I need to have the poisons operating at a complete 180-degree oppositional force in order to try to break them slightly, crack the hard shell, and fight to get that cracked area to soften and release more of the endless layers of the hard shell that have accumulated into my body in a labyrinth spaghetti formation for all the 50+ years of me being poisoned and my body retaining most or all of that poisoning.

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For the last few days, I was able finally to exercise after the sheer exertion of going out shopping and fighting cars nearly hitting me, people pushing into me and blocking my every movement in public spaces, and having to carry extremely heavy bags to try to protect what little I own from being sprayed with permanently stinking substances if I leave anything in this room while I am away--so I must carry huge and heavy bags with me at all times to try to protect things like the oils I use for cooking, because I can't afford to constantly buy new bottles, and etc.

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A "plug" of what felt like semi-porous packing peanuts, but flattened in a hard, almost oblong shape, was stuck outside of my lower orifice after fighting to eliminate the poisons. The poisons are extreme latching-on chemicals. Often the chemicals which have hardened literally stick to my skin if I "crap" them out. One such hard piece was stuck on my lower area and I did not even feel it stuck there but I got it by accident cleaning that area---I realize this is "gross" but for one time only I am writing for all the sadistic fettish crowd--but seriously, I am writing to try to detail what I have been going through for over 10-12 years on a non-stop basis. Because the terrorists exploiting me have instructed the minions around me to continue to inject sewage water and poisons into my bladder via insertions into my vagina, I have had to deal with this on a non-stop basis. They want me crooked, bloated so they can claim I am "fat" and then they are poisoning me literally to death and then laughing about how "ugly" I look and of course how much more beautiful they are--after years of this going on every single day.

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So this "plug" of mushy but firm compacted stuff came out. From all these years of this same process going on, because the poisoning has not stopped and the process of hardening continues as long as they keep having this poison inserted into my bladder, or put into my food, or etc. The bloating poison hardens, and a "plug" forms as the poisons then become embedded into little "pockets" of poison that are retained into my body. The layers are then compacted as time progresses and it's nearly impossible to break off the hard pieces, because they are slightly moveable, and malleable. They bend with movement. It is crucial, therefore, to get the ends of the attachments moving in diametrical opposition so the hard pieces break off, at least slightly. I must go through this every day. But for the last few days, after the plug broke off, then the softening process of all the poison that bloated, congealed and then flattened inside this interior pocket under all the layers I have broken off for all these years of the process continuously being continued by recurrent, non-stop re-poisoning--but this is very "old" poison coming out now. The texture of the plug was so creepy I knew it was very old--maybe 20 years or 30--and there is a lot more. As the poison begins to soften inside this pocket area, the black poisons come out, I am too sick to move. I sit in a chair unable to move and I can't read, concentrate or think. I need entertainment but all the movies and tv shows are offensive to me. Most of them deal with death. I don't want to see gore, hate and death while in this sick situation. Otherwise, every click on YouTube brings the face of a terrorist celebrity who has teleported me or wants to or if I click on their video they will very soon shortly thereafter (and some of them NEVER stop). Some of them who never stop are ones I NEVER clicked on in the first place, they just latched on to me, like the poisons do. Like the poisons they latch on and are tasteless and odorless but congeal and become compressed toxins I can't get out unless I diametrically oppose them to try to break them off.

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The black poisons, if I ever get to the layers of the deep hard plugs, after a day or two it takes for the black liquids to soften enough and get through all the conduits for me to detox--they then stick to the toilet bowl--even if I flush for a few hours the black streaks remain---that is how much these poisons are capable of internal destruction to the structure--latching onto bone and tissue--my spine is completely skewed. This group (from decades ago and until recently when I was not able to block the terrorists in this condo from breaking in and raping me while I was teleported and completely unconscious, as they would adjust my spine and hips out of alignment and then insert fungus and semen into my vagina--which was rape, not just through the mechanical arms which they are doing now). That is what the A-list celebrities and Trump have been doing to me for years and years and years and being awarded for it. If anything, they are more noxious and disgusting than the stinking, black deadly poisons. Spiritually they have been dumping their toxic waste and hate into me via this hate teleportation contract, some are addicted to it on an energetic and psychological addiction level to the hormone high and the need to vent their hate out upon someone and not appear as ugly and toxic and sleazy and nasty as the poison that they are--this teleportation spectacle of human degradation remains a most popular sport for politicians and celebrities alike.
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However, for one day I am providing you voyeurs with a detailed sort of description of the poison, it should sound a little gross unless you are fascinated with scatological details on a sexualized level (some are, I think).
As for the human behavior content, apparently all that I describe is of no shock value to the readers who think that actors and politicians are entitled to this kind of venting toxic hate out upon an innocent target--whom they find any rationale to continue to torture because they are addicted to dumping their psychological toxic waste into me every day, as often as possible. I have been told that I am the "only one" this is happening to (I don't believe it) and if only there were more perhaps they would stop using me as the one and only dumping group for their toxicity and hate which is like poisons that latch on and glue my body, skewing my life and body, twisting everything into a hapless deformed state, and then keeping me paralyzed and stuck while their hate is a poison all in itself. Every day and night this continues, and with the never-ending poisoning through these surreptitious means of mechanical arms entering into my room and the poisoning capabilities that are possible with millions of "gang stalking" terrorists performing every poisoning act possible through all means and ways--I am stuck like this. I am detoxing on a physical level, constantly, the poisons and I am writing about their toxic hate which is a form of detox from the hate that my body literally cannot tolerate to keep retained inside--

I keep writing, they keep poisoning me. More and more very sick and toxic people join in to vent and pour poison on me. Every day it appears to be more and more and more of them, sitting in those infernal rows of chairs watching as the next comes to scream, hit, threaten, violate, rape and assault literally non-stop from one to the next.

People are in such need for this technology that no politician or person in society will do anything to stop this terror upon me, and the technology is being developed to further more victims because the "go-getters" of society need people to torture very, very badly.

So I am writing about this shit today. AS I have been doing every day. I have written about this stinking shit situation more often than I can shit/detox from the literal physical poisoning, because it's so latched on to my body interior. I can't get rid of these people who feed off terror and torture with this teleportation and surveillance technology. Plus they feed off my hyperbolic reaction while I am under non-stop drugging. This is their "drug" of hormone-feeding off abusing someone else and having no legal or societal repercussions.
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WHILE I am forced into the never-ending poison detox struggle for my life, the teleportation sessions involve one person after the next screaming in fascist violence into my face, while I can't look away, it's similar to being tied down and getting raped, tortured and beaten and verbally abused while on "truth serum" drugging and tech-brain-altering double-pronged torture systems. The fascists, i.e. Graham out of S. Carolina violently screaming at me, with Greene playing a double-Janus two-faced saccharine sweet with violent threats and sexual assault--hateful, nasty, fake, all like a death goon squad. Yelling so violently at me, the nightly teleportation skits are so violent--the Southerners putting death and murder skits into my deep sleep state with violent yelling into my face while I'm drugged so I react--screaming at them in rage to get off me, one after the other in a non-stop sequence of them. All going off giggling about how much fun it is to "get" the "radical liberal" and whatever else--they undoubtedly use worse terms in the private laughter sessions they all conjointly have after they teleport and jointly torture me--but taking turns, like police taking turns beating a handcuffed person who has not committed any crime, but finally is reacting with anger after YEARS of the same hate going on--now they use my reaction as "Justification" for increased violence. All this lowers all my immune system response to the poisoning, my lymphatic system, my overall body's defense system is always on the brink of collapse from sheer violent verbal and yelling assaults while I am in a sleeping or barely waking or drugged up but waking state while in this room fighting to clean endless stinking piles of goo and filth sprayed and put on every single thing possible (curtains, the walls, the floors, all clothing, my hair my body).

I noticed this morning that the insertions of silicone into my thigh on the right side, just above the patella--to appear like a cyst, has increased in size. Either more silicone was injected while I was asleep, or the leg massages I am doing to try to rid my thighs of the poisons that have accumulated there so my legs look like chunky cellulite covered bumpy logs--(they use to be very beautiful, in my former very athletic lifestyle of daily 2 hour exercise--for years + bicycle riding and walking and going out dancing after the 2 hours of exercise per day). Now, for over a decade I have not even been able to do simple stretches, until recently after a bit of help in stretches because my body became so out-of-alignment that I could not bend any longer).
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The skin on my hands look like poisons have been lathered on them--it's worsened even though I have taken more steps to heal the skin. I have been put out by literally falling unconscious due to the harsh detox and my loss of healing capability--so I fall into a deep, healing sleep after detox either after exercising and then detoxing more of the black chunks latched into my back, with the black thick syrupy liquids pouring out and sticking to the toilet bowl or my body if I finally get a bit out--and so ill I pass out and am unconscious. Every night I put gloves, layers of socks, with rubber bands tightly wound around my wrists to stop the insertion of metal objects under my cuticles and fingernails (some of which are now permanently mutilated from years of this going on every single night). My feet the same. My head I wrap in 4 layers of materials wound around and fastened and knotted to stop the insertion of mechanical arms under anything that is slightly loose--because I tried to protect my head for months and my hair kept falling out until I wrapped layers and layers of protection around my head so no mechanical arms, no matter how thin, could penetrate. The result is no oxygen to my scalp which requires oxygen to heal--and during the day I must also keep my head covered with a huge plastic wrap so that from behind they can't spray more toxic hair-destroying chemicals into my hair while I sit in sickness unable to move, in front of this laptop, struggling to use the laptop; too sick to read, think or concentrate on anything).
But.....these are just descriptions and there is much more to the daily struggle to not be  poisoned and tortured to death. The celebrities and politicians think this is a jolly good time for the good ole boys and girls to vent their hate out on "radical liberals" and "Jews" and upon "me" while I continue to fight every day for my life. For all reasons I have stated above and in the next post and in all these posts I have written for all these years. It goes far beyond just wanting promotions for personal gain. It's toxicity runs so deep it's a societal problem. I see this in the killings of unarmed citizens and in the mass slaughter of innocents who then must immigrate desperately to foreign countries to try to survive the poisoning of their societies by what used to be my own society in what  used to be called "Globalization". I just call it all The 4th Reich by now.
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Extreme drugging/nervous system attacks via implants along my spine & into my brain--8 hours of literal non-stop abuse from this English And nazi team of another senator from congress, the same rape enabler who is the front-runner face of anti-violence against women and me2 rape culture to oust the jewish weinstein so her company and the rest can overtake h-wood --antisemitism so openly expressed that obviously Nazis and virulent racists are behind this contract out on me. My brother stating that only I will experience violence, with his full participation and that Germans are trustworthy not racists it can't happen to him. for using sexual and physical violence against me instantly after more than 30 years of never having seen him, never contacting him except for him smirking about a situation the nazis forced on me, he is lunging at me to gain more promotions and allowance to get everything for free for handing me over to murder, essentially. Me, drugged so badly I cannot stop reacting to every question, hours of asking me for ideas as the English scriptwriters and director and the endless leech parasite this ugly sinister putrid creep female who is endlessly pushing violent beef-body-build "men" out of europ-a-land to violently rape me, the more abusive and humiliating the more they are praised and awarded; she is the representative for the United Nations and for Chuck Schumer in all legislation against rape and domestic violence against women. Put deliberately there really to give permission for rape if it's racist-based rather than anything else. beloved so greatly by the grateful rapist thugs surrounding her, the minority minions lavishing praise making antisemitic comments at me--Jews in particular are very hostile and laughing smirking it can only happen to me, not them. The drugs are so insidious that are injected pumped into my bladder while I sleep--must get up every night to alleviate what they inject so I am drugged--it is a nasty horrific murderous chemical and drug forcing hate, along with extreme shifts of my brainwaves I can't even control my breathing--my entire spine is coated in hard chemicals in which microchip implants directly affecting my spine are buried from the 3 complete surgeries I have had---(the hardening poisons made my spine crooked, the terrorists fractured my vertebrae while I was unconscious after they orchestrated mostly harmless "accidents' and in the deep brain implant state, I am rendered completely unconscious and unable to feel anything (drugged to the extreme the next morning with pain killers and numbing chemicals). 8 hours another day of this ongoing with me finally screaming in rage fighting and hitting the people responsible for this--the senator who came years ago to abuse yell fascistically at me, now threatening my life for having rushed to physicall attack him after shouting to go away go away go away. They all remain until I rush at them lunging in fury. The dirty nasty sick female who is connected to the English monarchy has been relegated to bring every fascist nazi english abuser and hater to assault me possible in the celebrity zone, there are so many---all are clamoring to get this contract and to participate from all minorities in congress who rush at me violently to white supremacist congress haters--this one very close to the source of much discontent for those slated to be excluded from life in general---very pompous about his entitlement to torture have me raped and poisoned, they all are. My brother smug and behaving like I am still being beaten and abused by him at the age of 14 when I left the hate situation my family had adopted because my mother was trying to get "in" with an "Italian" but American married man, the "Italians" in this tiny family-controlled cul-de-sac had installed mircophone relay systems so they could listen to my family abuse me (this was in 1978 before the internet) my brother was so violent I phoned the police and left that house the next day--forever. I saw him a few times, I had the blank mind controlled drugged assumption that he had "grown up" but alas, he lives in the perpetual abuse state having ensured I am stuck everywhere I go as he is promoted for endlessly ensuring my destruction, lack of health care. My family offered me an inheritance in a creep way 2 years ago, I saved the money but declined to have any further contract with them as they were abusive just in connecting me to the lawyers distributing the inheritance (I got the absolute lowest amount of all members)--and this they used to have social security cut off my income and it's been off for 6 months while I am fighting to have it reinstated and they worked with the 4th Reich to have this done. I was screaming at him in rage, as the hate parasitic rape cheerleader who is beloved by all senators presidents her sleazy and disgusting 16 years of stealing my ideas so her blank and hateful lack of personality can be embellished by my years and lifetime of reading and study, so that nazi white supremacy can appear like it has originality and any kind of creativity outside of endless repetition of murder revenge and upcommance plots which they rotate every year in their awards categories, until they latched on to stealing my ideas, and now torturing me as I scream ideas because they are so revolting their image their ugly sinister presence is so revolting--and I cannot stop responding instantly to their endless probing questions intermixed with extremew murder threats and then inquisitive questions and every thing I do, from going to the bathroom eating taking healing powders all my exercises for healing I created they are stealing and using as their own invention; so much that I do is original and not a copy I learned, they are stealing torturing and asking for ideaws literally non-stop. I cannot stop talking I can't stop responding. the drugs, my body is like enmeshed in not being able to breathe independently the technology and drug interface is so overwhelming. The smug and smirking dirty ugly sick skank sits smiling as I scream and fight for the 2nd year in a row of literal daily screaming and rage at English hate bigots assaulting me for over 8 hours per day--0the rapist who beat tortured and mutilated me, has had my plants killed is threatening my life then making sleazy sexual comments, sitting next to this foul and dirty ugly sick creep skank always they are partners probably as with all the men who rape me she tries to suck my life force energy out by having sex with them as well. Some of them at least--they sit next together all the men who rape me next to her, after she has had me poisoned nearly to death, still fighting to heal every day. My body aging rapidly she is laughing, the men make endless sneering comments about my breasts while I am naked as they sit for hours watching and commenting on all I do. Once i finally "break" after the 6-8 hour mark of literal non-stop literally every single second for over 6 to 8 hours without a moment of them shutting up for one single second with death trhreats abuse insults and probing questions I scream finally to shut up and die I scream hit them rush violently. It is torture and the senators are smug threatening to kill me constantly for lunging at them screaming to get off me to fuck off that they have already been killing me via poisoning and torture for years. It goes on and on. I might be able to "ignore' them if they were not drugging me so severely and my body racked with implants along my spine forcing a reaction that overwhelms my breathing and concentration--the implants are definitely in my brain and along my spine---without a doubt they force my muscles to spasm while people are slamming doors--the effect is unmistakable and has happened for years in this same sequence I do not flinch at noises like this, it is artificially created generated and forced upon me. They are so ugly and appear so rancid rotten stupid ugly and sick I scream that they are disgusting that I never want anything like them around me not for a minute much less 8-10 hours per day,e very day, then stupid sick teleportation skits of hate death and homelessness and me being abused, being put in stupid situations in an "edit" mode so I am waking to being in some negative situation in the middle of a posture I never created, like a movie edit stopping and starting my consciousness can be started and stopped with a press of a button in that state.//I am trying to work a way to not be overwhelmed, because these filthy sick creeps are meaningless scum in my opinion but I react as if I can't stop, and I literally cannot. //I ordered a music player and they blocked everything possible for every music player--this one supposedly came with no memory but they had it jacked-up so the memory is invisible but it is hacked and is turned off remotely like all the rest of the players they continue the death and torture deep sleep states. My body is aging my hair greying my body withering because of the energy this ugly sick skank sucks out smiriking and laughing. They keep asking me for ideas then destroying my finances so I have nothing. I am still waiting for the decision from social security whether my disability payments will be reinstated or not. They lied to me for 6 months, my family had my inheritance taken away and then my disability as well; this was a ploy it was not some random accident and they just arrived when I was being violently raped by the last lrapist from europigapeland with ugly skankalina presiding as they "made love" to each other sitting next to one another attacking me mutually--now it's the next one, the same thing but his English is much better so his verbal abuse is for 10 hours or more per day--endless extreme violent threats, violent abusive ugly rape, supposedly implying that I "deserve" it for fighting to save my life from this. My brother doing everything he can to protect the 4th Reich and that only I wil lbe a victim of any racism never he. I went into, in truth serum drugged torture microchip enhanced stress hate truth serum mode how nazis are definitely pursuing another genocide against jews and in america they want to pour in and create nazification of the already nazified and ocmpletely overtaken america by europigape nazi filth, and I am trying to quell this as much as possible. The denial is pure stupidity this ugly sinister creep I want nothing to do with, he creeps me out I am so disgusted by him it's a visceral reaction of disgust--and his smug pomposity that he's going to get more and more and more out of murdering me smiling stupid sick ignorant--denying that nazis are taking power that they want to destroy jews. I keep shouting how stupid he is, he threatens to break my arms. If there is, as I said today, any person the most violently and murderously inclined towards me it will be my family--as they are so groomed to murder me and have been working to achieve this with full applause endless promotions money poured into them as being symbols of jewish nazi partnership---they are the most threatening and the most dangerous--and so sick and stupid it's unbelievable trying to explain how they are putting nazis into power who will take away their homes if they want lebensraum--all I say they deny and shout with whining insult that I am stupid--I remind them that I lived in Germany for over 5 years because they were trying to kill me by having a metal rod made loose in my spine so my uncle bill could get "permission" to publish his gay magazine echo in Phoenix so they had me body fractured so I had no choice but to return to them, asking for help and health care--they made sure I got nothing they tried to put me in prison for a charge of theft of jewelry (I had no car, the situation was at night miles away from me with no car and buses all stopped and etc) and they had just killed the italian american mafia thug my mother had married talking the same night he died on the day he was leaving her and the house they had jointly purchased he wanted to save since he poured the bulk of the deposit from his money--and etc.. in a murder frenzy they were--I left with a metal rod loose in my spine and had to try to survive this until I left america for germany in 1991--I told him that i had to go to germany for years to try to survive the last murder attempt they had made on me, and I speak german lived around germans only speaking german met nazis know their mentality they have not changed their edicts to kill all jews and jews in america are a target. Told I was a stupid bitch death threats and it can't happen to him, only to be because i'm a "bitch" etc my disgusting brother and his nasty spawn brought to torment me, completely programmed to ask me "why" germans are intent on another genocide, which I said to him a few days ago, he was given a script for what to repeat so the english fuckers sitting on those chairs could steal the screaming ideas I spewed out unable to stop reacting--smug ugly shitalina smiriking adn smug the violent abusive fardy the tom actor not a cat or cool sitting next to his "Lover" as I know that is the endless program of dirty energy leech shitalina--and it goes on and on> I am trying to not react bvut when I do react after the 6 hour mark I become violent to get them off me, then they all threaten my life and it goes on and on--information and ideas they are taking down as I scream them and scream and fight. My hair turning white my body aging and breaking it's murder. I am still paralyzed from the poison they all poured into my body as they had the poison raped into my body and then torture so I can't heal--it's murder.