Tuesday, March 9, 2021

I cannot express how difficult it was to write my last post (and every post). The hacking is miserable, the brain-altering tech renders me incapable of thinking clearly, as if I am spinning around and dizzy and can't write what I had intended. LIke my head is disconnected to my body. Then after much struggle hacker terrorists just simply delete words and rewrite and paste fragmented sentences together so it's unintelligible. Then the people attacking me steal the ideas which they read before hackers alter what I have written, so only they actually get what I have written and what is published appears like a jumbled mess. They claim credit and then continue the slow murder and destruction of my body, home, finances and life. And yet, I am sitting here alone as i have been for years. Today I was as usual very ill from detoxing from the poison these people have put in my food. I write because I have always wanted a career in writing and in something creative like this, which is being stolen from me every time I attempt to write and used for someone else's production and creative concept which they plagiarize and obtain profit from. yet I strive to continue to write despite all these obstructions. When I watch a movie like Nomadland which makes the much more sinister Americans appear as calm, nice and pithy is a kind of vomitous experience which I yearn to try to dissect in a writing spree which comes out, due to hackers, as another disjoined kind of hyperbolic rambling rant. It is not. I cannot write under these conditions.

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Going on 3 hours of a literal battle with the hacking on this system to download FOUR videos and convert them to mp3. I must click on everything at least 6 times in various functions to get anything to work. Every time I click on the URL line the entire page freezes, spins and I must get up and do other things after hours of waiting. The slowness of the download requires over 20-30 minutes for one video to download. The conversion takes over 20 minutes as well. To get the video link to copy into the youtube downloader app requires restarting the computer because the system is (hacked) frozen, copying and pasting turns the system into a frozen nightmare--every click results in something else happening. Literally clicking on items repeatedly as nothing happens or two things happen at once. If I get on this system at a very odd random time in the middle of the night, it works perfectly, quickly and only that lasts for about 7 minutes, tops.//That i have to live with all this vilence from shit scumbags in repetition ugly dirty white trrash filth apes andpigs and whores and rapists and bigots from Whorewood and congress rushing to assault abuse insult and threaten my life punching raping beating and stealing stealibng destorying and going off being congratulated hugged embraced by presidents--in a row, one after the next all happily engaged in assaulting me for my entire life--my family viciously having me poisoned beaten raped put in accidents denied health care leaving me to die a slow horrible death--and they have operated with the shit from America to have my income cut off and with no chance to have the disability benefits reinstated they are waiting, as they told me years ago they are "waiting" (without saying for what, so I knew they were waiting for me to die) and I'm here just fighting to download videos finally screaming after more than 2 hours going into 3 and now it's almost 3 complete h ours of just trying to download videos and convert 3 of them, now after 45 minutes of trying to get one single video to copy and paste into the video converter aand the page is now freezing---everything just froze as this is going on and on freezing. I just reset the system YESTERDAY I do this every other day resetting the computer for hours.

  I'm sitting here with no fucking way to get a single thing done in any financial sense and for anything--all is literally blocked from...