Friday, July 16, 2021

A little bit of insight into my situation: I am not "miserable" although extremely stressed. -I write of the negative because throughout the years I have learned that if I write something positive or that I feel good the terrorists increase the attacks so I remain low-key about how I feel fine if I have a few little amenities. The terrorists have allowed me a few basic things that keep my spirit half positive (not half-empty negative but this organization wants me empty and completely devoid of hope and joy and health and beauty--they keep me alive to obtain a baby out of me, and I know how vile this organization is so I face absolute torture to death. Yet for now I am only being tortured slowly to death with stress-related diseases at my doorstep. Yet I am half-positive and not half-negative the glass is halfway there somehow!).

 I write to alleviate the stress, it gets stuck in my body I must relieve it by writing I have nothing else I am stuck in a paralyzed physical state most of the time (partially-paralyzed).  One of my reliefs is my laptop and internet connection, which terrorists who broke into my room yesterday as I was out shopping tried to create an accident so the laptop would crash on the floor. They tied the wire of the mouse which was connected and plugged in, to the clothing rack next to my door which I maneuver to a position next to the wall, but then once I am ensconced in my room I push it against the door (plus inserting a series of items into the cracks of the door and I have had to learn that I must make sure they can't be pushed out by mechanical arms--the terrorists are so expert at this terror game that they can make everything appear as if it hasn't moved with the mechanical arms moving things from the inside of the room.--people should be wary they should be extremely worried and concerned and they are not.)

so they latched the wire around the round and very large screw that alters the position of the rack--the entire room is so cluttered by now because I can't use any cabinets or closets that I didn't see that the wire was wound around the clothing rack because the clothing of the rack hid the wire--as I moved it the laptop and the tray holding it crashed onto the table and almost onto the floor. I just saved it barely.

These are the types of attacks, they are all like the operatives themselves, always concealed and always hidden and the operations are always to have surprise attacks from every hidden angle at all times upon the target.

The "Left-Hand" approach of the terrorists, the entire group of them, is always a slithering sly lying approach of deception. This goes along with the guise of the celebrities who pose as being humanitarian in all their tax-break charitable events and movie roles when in reality their real role is to cause havoc and chaos and destruction--as ordered with or without their cognizance as their greedy and over-arching desire to achieve endless deals and awards overtakes all other considerations like moral ethics. 

That is how "the game" is supposed to be played: not just a "rat race" but completely free-for-all but unequivocal aspiration that transcends and in the cases of the people teleporting me, overrides all considerations such as empathy, compassion or concern for the long-lasting effects of following such orders. Like the poorest minions who attack me from a "Developing country" I believe that all the years of their brown-nosing for power and success has lead the aspirants to be as over-joyed in the thrill of torture and sadism as the lowest on the ranks of the hierarchy who can't wait to inflict their misery upon anyone else if it's concealed and even more so if they get their cherished promotions out of it, where they could not otherwise obtain these roles if they were conscientious and caring individuals. En masse they are a force of inhospitable hate and deviant death squad organization. 

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One entire hour of fighting to click on one single item and fearing I would lose the information I kept fighting until the page froze, entirely. Turning the laptop off restarting--I just did 2 resets yesterday=4 hours, then 1 recovery, spent another hour fighting to toggle off any conceivable port of entry for hackers--using everything I am able to afford, which is nothing any longer---and then MONTHS OF this disgusting English rapist yelling screaming punching me in the face raping me so violently my body convulsed an embedded object in the multiple layers of hard poison that his partners, who he loves and calls more beautiful his great friends, but sticking to me non-stop as they laugh while he punches me in the face-then asking me for ideas, constantly then yelling at me to shut up--anything I think that is elaborate or intellectual he begins violently yelling at me to shut up, his partners the wealthy English who sit silently as well as the american "I'm part English" who have been showered with applause oscars awards for stealing my ideas and then covering up the theft with destroying all evidence of what I have written, leaving me for hours per day fighting JUST TO TURN THE WIFI ON is almost like a miracle if I can use it without it being blocked, attacked or turned off--and when I am fighting to get ANY SINGLE THING DONE in any capacity as a survivable entity on this planet, the every single thing I do is blocked, hacked, rewritten and all that I try to accomplish is blocked, destroyed and anything I think is used to attack me and is stolen if the hateful rapist abuser endless parasites need more ideas. This is something like 4 months of the next abuser violent life-threatening rapist literally turning my hair grey after his violent yelling abuse and rape, after the german parasite came punching raping abusing my face my body endless death threats--and senators are rushing yelling screaming threatening to kill me, and I am just one person defending myself and am surrounded by hate endlessly and always. The one and only thing I have left on this planet my cat they stole years ago whenI fought to get the next murdering rapist (depp and heard) off me from pounding more poison as deeply into my body as possible--and so they tortured my cat most beloved wonderful and beautiful animal and showed a photo of her fighting not to drown they threw her in the swimming pool and took photos of her fighting for her life not to drown--before sending her to baryshnikov who has teams of dogs chasing her, as she screams in terror and they fractured her rib cage for me calling the rapists who were murdering me, poisoning me laughing about how "fat" I had become as they had hardening murder poisons laced with horrific drugs poured into my food as they pounded the poison into my body every day laughing as I fought to stop it--then the 24/7 torture began and has not stopped for the past 16 years YEARS non-stop daily torture and abuse. Teams of actors and politicians have rushed to join in, raping abusing and calling me names endlessly abusing me and instantly being interviewed on major news networks on the same day or the next--featured in documentaries and etc on and on, and this english abuser rapist is being championed, is probably undoubtedly being handed as well as his cohorts out of London and england (germans russians etc all backing him, teams of euros are behind him, he is the english-speaking terror chaos agent sent to "break and crush" me for just fighting back--just defending myself and having ideas that they can sell off as their own--giving me nothing but taking all they can away from me. As with all the others, the beautiful flowering plants are half dead withered and black, after I throw plants away and buy more, this english hateful leech on me has them slowly killed--and he's there literally almost 24 hours a day abusing me. I can give one example of how blank and hateful he and his fellow english bigos truly are: one of the actors began violently raping and threatening me for writing a comment that slightly disagreed with what the american blonde woman had said about a shakespeare play--he rushed raped abused threatened my life yelled for hours as I fought the next hater and fought to get him off--for just demonstrating my own mind and thoughts on shakespeare which was not a light subject--I always received A's in college for my writing on shakespeare by the way, just saying. but the threat to them that I should have ideas and not just say nothing and not demonstrate my own talent or mind, as their take-over of the united states, in combination with the push for white fascist nazi supremacy is fully ongoing, and this is one of the facets not only to cut out education but to silence people like me so only their ordained critics and bigots have the only "say" or word possible, even for my own private thoughts. This next english rapist who so violently abused and raped me that part of the embedded filth that the aamerican nazi fascist mafia teams had poured pumped and injected into my body having one euro-rapist abuser after the next pound the poison into my body; thusly instructing this next one so blank and conformist all I see is blank hate and power machinations coming from him, not a second of any intelligent or interesting thing he has to say to me as with all. I was listening to wnyu archives and one show called passport, from around 2011 had a show with some electronic experimental music; one musician out of germany was playing a skewed version of a very classical-sounding piece. I listened and recognized the song and piece, but was a bit unsure (I had heard it in 2010, so a long time ago and it was in a collection from the artist). the endless leeching of my life every moment that this man who has made my hair turn solid white in front of my forehead from his violent rape death threats and 16 hoursa per day of abuse, yelling at anything I do that is above basic half-brain dead mediocrity, the only level they want me at, but they are still torturing me to obtain ideas through trauma rape and torture drugging and abuse. To continue: I was listening, the DJ said that this was a German artist who transposed a piece from Vivaldi and I thought to myself, in conversation with this hateful bigot I want no conversation with, but he is literally "in my head" for about 1/2 of every single day, literally from the moment i wake up to at bed, in my sleep, its' more than 12 hours per day, of death threats of smashing my head in of pornographic sexual abuse comments of asking me for ideas perpetually because I actually try to learn something every day, I have always tried to have a stellar career this group has poisoned me to the point of my body being paralyzed in internal equivalent of cement while they torture me endlessly untilI scream out ideas or "converse" with them because they are literally leeching off my thoughts my energy and life every moment to get this disgusting contract this insidious insult to humanity this lowering of all standards which thousands flock to---and I thought to myself, almost conversing with the leech energy drainign grey-hair making violent pornographic hate rapist out of england and his "aristocrat" "High class" supposed "superior" haters that it actually was a piece by Bach--what else would a German play they are all always referring to Bac-

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