Saturday, July 3, 2021

The residual dregs of fights/arguments and conversations while in the teleported state with Xponential teleporter (white male). I will not go into the sexism and racism of pornographic imagination today but it was also a point of argument "discussion" which was just me screaming and hitting him in rage from years of being put into a sex slave/porno image that has been superimposed upon me, while these "men" and their women are being paid to be prostitutes who pile filth and garbage upon me and my property as "proof" of their social-engineering "supremacy". I have to scream at one of them after the next that it is they who are the filthy whores and not me. They just continue to be paid to try to force this socialized stigma upon me as the US Government continues to fully embrace, finance and support this global but fascist Nazi/Imperialist structure even when the US is being infiltrated and colonized into Nazism, fascism, Totalitarianism and other forms destroying "Democracy" and Freedom. I also won't go into the fact that today is Independence Day for the United States and I'm writing about this because people seem to just let it go on and on. They are all going to be "celebrating" Independence while they are fully fostering in this contract out upon me and in every other way the imprisonment of the country and the subjugation to fascist, Nazi and other Mafia and Europ-a Imperialistic overtake. There is another factor I have related to my mind programming tormentors, which is that the years of torture, violence, every kind of terror act towards me has not "programmed" me to accept this system but has instead radicalized me, not to the point of being an anarchist willing to create carnage on a huge and deadly level but nevertheless, all the people who were shouting about injustice have now taken precedence in my information and media consumption over the mainstream blotting out of injustice that permeates media and cultural awareness (up until this last few years of the cancel culture and woke culture, which does not mean that I "embrace" it fully but a heightened awareness has arisen out of these cultural phenomenon).

POSTS PUBLISHED ON MY FACEBOOK PAGE TODAY WHICH HAVE SOME BEARING TO MIND CONTROL PROGRAMMING AND SOCIALIZATION. 


1. Gender and Race and Art.


SAINT SAENS--THE SWAN--violin version with piano accompaniment. 




How I choose the violin as my instrument: at a University of Illinois Youth musical competition held at one of the Halls of the deep underground buildings of that institution, my mother held me by my 7-year old hand and drifted me past doorways where other children, up to age 15 or so, were performing recitals and being judged and awarded. I passed by flutes, cellos, pianos and children playing but as I got past a door with a packed little room, a "Black" African-American female, around 12 years old, was playing The Swan and I stopped and stood nearly mesmerized.

First, it was the very best performance of that piece I have ever heard. I was hypnotized immediately by the sweetness and the capabilities of the violin in that one performance and I never knew who that woman/girl was and don't know where she has gone.

I began playing violin the next year when my mother took me to get my instructor, James Star, who played 1st Violin and was the First Chair of the University of Illinois Symphony. His compassion and lack of racism brought me to a point where I was then transferred to a European-based immigrant who taught me the hate and hostility of racist-based European traditions as the Germans who were part of the symphony I later played with at age 13 worked to use mind control to eliminate me as competition with the usual "I'm better than you" hissing with violence at me that Germans so love to use as their tactic of intimidation.

I can't express how badly I was drugged (and still am). I then quit playing violin because also some of the adult male orchestral leaders were giving me sort of sexualized nudges to one another and despite the fact that I was a virgin I understood that there was something seriously amiss.

Since that time I have not focused on any performer in that genre but instead I focus on the composer and the conductor and the orchestra and always have listened to studio recordings, absolutely avoiding the various performers except for a very few, who later I realized I did not actually like. Until David Garrett, that has been the case. He is an exceptional performer and I am grateful to him for "turning me on" to that world again but those politics remain which drove me from that world.

As for finding any video on YouTube that is not either an "Asian" performer or a white male or female--I cannot find any Black performers playing this but I owe my entire gratitude to that "black" female and how I would like to see many other races being put into lead position.

for some reason I never was turned on to the various famous Jewish violinists--I don't know why. Perhaps an emotional or psychological block.

This has been my very personal and opinionated post for the day.

I have therefore chosen the piece The Swan which only shows the musical score and not any performer as this is as gender and racial neutral as I can get when listening to and enjoying classical music. I cannot listen to any music and not find some kind of element of programming or racism or think of these issues and try to ascertain if the piece is racist or just a great piece of music with only artistic merit and intention. Not all music is racist not all musicians of course I am just referring to this most classical mode of expression which is rooted in the cultural theft of identity like so many other concepts and places of consumer and cultural misappropriation.

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Sorry if this opinion makes people angry or offended. (lol).

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...Then I took up drumming in Junior High school and discovered that the cock rock n roll scene is even MORE RACIST AND SEXIST. not lol because that is a predominant cultural institution and milieu that reinforces racism and sexism in world culture, or it has been infiltrated and taken over as such by fascists and racists who steal and rob all alternative scenes so any real alternative movement is quickly absorbed into fascist, sexist and racist conglomerate opportunism--that is the state of culture and art--or lack thereof.

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Kyrie Eleison/God Have Mercy God Have Compassion.


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2. "Good" Jewish "slaves" of the 4th Reich/my family members and much (not all but very many) of the entire diaspora that I have had contact with in all these years of being targeted.

This subject has been broached only in very vague and slight reference in the below little set of paragraphs I wrote earlier. There only the most nascent of references to this acceptance of operating under the orders of the larger criminal organization that controls so much of the planet, which appears to be an absolute Nazi system with other versions of autocratic/Totalitarian and other 'isms" thrown in--call it what you will the meaning is essentially the same, for my purpose since they want to traumatize me then endless references to Nazis are used as psychological weapons but I think for any target any other branch of this organization will be used to terrorize based upon the endless variations of violence imposed on various groups by other groups--too many to mention. The psychology of victimization is a broad mini-universe of association.
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"Central Florida had deadly condo building collapse in 1981 that killed 11 people." Orlando Sentinal. June 24, 2021.









This building collapse in Cocoa Beach, Florida in 1981 is either THE building my father was partially in control over as a kind of financial officer/lawyer for the firm out of Milwaukee who also participated in this new boom in construction in Florida--or it was some other project that collapsed while under construction but there are no others listed on the search engine I scoured to find information on.

I was either a Senior or Junior in high school and not very close to my father in terms of having contact as he was often in Florida and I was also occupied elsewhere as well. I would meet with him and he explained to me that this building in Florida he was the lawyer representing the financial company which financed this construction had ordered him to appear in court to justify the case for his firm. He explained to me personally as I sat mute because I knew nothing about such matters, that the real problem was that the concrete company had used different strength of concrete instead of paying for the more expensive concrete they chose a cheaper brand and at lower cost and different strength than that which had been laid out in the construction planning. My father had to sue the people responsible for this problem or they reached an out-of-court settlement. He never told me exactly what happened in this situation he only explained to me personally what had really happened. It was absolutely not the fault of my father or his company but of the CHEAP and COST-CUTTING grift of the construction and other personnel responsible for paying for the construction materials. Again, as I have almost no knowledge of this kind of construction and the terms associated with all the enterprise of these forms of building, I can't detail this in a precise way. The FACT that the concrete had been wrongly swapped for cheaper materials has NEVER come out to the light of public scrutiny probably to hide the cascade of lawsuits that would have overwhelmed the companies actually responsible, plus Manslaughter or even murder charges as well. it was all covered-up in other words, which is probably why my father never told me the outcome and when I asked he shrugged my question off and changed the subject.

The people who would know more about this subject are my two brothers and they probably would not divulge this information because they are good followers of this hate organization/terrorist conglomeration which has awarded them for their services of participation in every crime possible they could commit for their promotion.

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I could add a lot more to this post about my father and his targeting by this Nazi/fascist organization where, like Weisselberg, he had to bear the brunt of responsibility and deal with the foibles of others, which I think could be related to racism and targeting but I won't. Just a little hint, my father then quit this firm and began working for the U S government and was targeted in a very similar way although what could have been a catastrophe he personally averted by taking the US Government to court and winning a land case against their own version of the same kind of corruption and incompetence.

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Turning the laptop off restarting--I just did 2 resets yesterday=4 hours, then 1 recovery, spent another hour fighting to toggle off any conceivable port of entry for hackers--using everything I am able to afford, which is nothing any longer---and then MONTHS OF this disgusting English rapist yelling screaming punching me in the face raping me so violently my body convulsed an embedded object in the multiple layers of hard poison that his partners, who he loves and calls more beautiful his great friends, but sticking to me non-stop as they laugh while he punches me in the face-then asking me for ideas, constantly then yelling at me to shut up--anything I think that is elaborate or intellectual he begins violently yelling at me to shut up, his partners the wealthy English who sit silently as well as the american "I'm part English" who have been showered with applause oscars awards for stealing my ideas and then covering up the theft with destroying all evidence of what I have written, leaving me for hours per day fighting JUST TO TURN THE WIFI ON is almost like a miracle if I can use it without it being blocked, attacked or turned off--and when I am fighting to get ANY SINGLE THING DONE in any capacity as a survivable entity on this planet, the every single thing I do is blocked, hacked, rewritten and all that I try to accomplish is blocked, destroyed and anything I think is used to attack me and is stolen if the hateful rapist abuser endless parasites need more ideas. This is something like 4 months of the next abuser violent life-threatening rapist literally turning my hair grey after his violent yelling abuse and rape, after the german parasite came punching raping abusing my face my body endless death threats--and senators are rushing yelling screaming threatening to kill me, and I am just one person defending myself and am surrounded by hate endlessly and always. 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Teams of actors and politicians have rushed to join in, raping abusing and calling me names endlessly abusing me and instantly being interviewed on major news networks on the same day or the next--featured in documentaries and etc on and on, and this english abuser rapist is being championed, is probably undoubtedly being handed as well as his cohorts out of London and england (germans russians etc all backing him, teams of euros are behind him, he is the english-speaking terror chaos agent sent to "break and crush" me for just fighting back--just defending myself and having ideas that they can sell off as their own--giving me nothing but taking all they can away from me. As with all the others, the beautiful flowering plants are half dead withered and black, after I throw plants away and buy more, this english hateful leech on me has them slowly killed--and he's there literally almost 24 hours a day abusing me. 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