Saturday, July 3, 2021

The residual dregs of fights/arguments and conversations while in the teleported state with Xponential teleporter (white male). I will not go into the sexism and racism of pornographic imagination today but it was also a point of argument "discussion" which was just me screaming and hitting him in rage from years of being put into a sex slave/porno image that has been superimposed upon me, while these "men" and their women are being paid to be prostitutes who pile filth and garbage upon me and my property as "proof" of their social-engineering "supremacy". I have to scream at one of them after the next that it is they who are the filthy whores and not me. They just continue to be paid to try to force this socialized stigma upon me as the US Government continues to fully embrace, finance and support this global but fascist Nazi/Imperialist structure even when the US is being infiltrated and colonized into Nazism, fascism, Totalitarianism and other forms destroying "Democracy" and Freedom. I also won't go into the fact that today is Independence Day for the United States and I'm writing about this because people seem to just let it go on and on. They are all going to be "celebrating" Independence while they are fully fostering in this contract out upon me and in every other way the imprisonment of the country and the subjugation to fascist, Nazi and other Mafia and Europ-a Imperialistic overtake. There is another factor I have related to my mind programming tormentors, which is that the years of torture, violence, every kind of terror act towards me has not "programmed" me to accept this system but has instead radicalized me, not to the point of being an anarchist willing to create carnage on a huge and deadly level but nevertheless, all the people who were shouting about injustice have now taken precedence in my information and media consumption over the mainstream blotting out of injustice that permeates media and cultural awareness (up until this last few years of the cancel culture and woke culture, which does not mean that I "embrace" it fully but a heightened awareness has arisen out of these cultural phenomenon).

POSTS PUBLISHED ON MY FACEBOOK PAGE TODAY WHICH HAVE SOME BEARING TO MIND CONTROL PROGRAMMING AND SOCIALIZATION. 


1. Gender and Race and Art.


SAINT SAENS--THE SWAN--violin version with piano accompaniment. 




How I choose the violin as my instrument: at a University of Illinois Youth musical competition held at one of the Halls of the deep underground buildings of that institution, my mother held me by my 7-year old hand and drifted me past doorways where other children, up to age 15 or so, were performing recitals and being judged and awarded. I passed by flutes, cellos, pianos and children playing but as I got past a door with a packed little room, a "Black" African-American female, around 12 years old, was playing The Swan and I stopped and stood nearly mesmerized.

First, it was the very best performance of that piece I have ever heard. I was hypnotized immediately by the sweetness and the capabilities of the violin in that one performance and I never knew who that woman/girl was and don't know where she has gone.

I began playing violin the next year when my mother took me to get my instructor, James Star, who played 1st Violin and was the First Chair of the University of Illinois Symphony. His compassion and lack of racism brought me to a point where I was then transferred to a European-based immigrant who taught me the hate and hostility of racist-based European traditions as the Germans who were part of the symphony I later played with at age 13 worked to use mind control to eliminate me as competition with the usual "I'm better than you" hissing with violence at me that Germans so love to use as their tactic of intimidation.

I can't express how badly I was drugged (and still am). I then quit playing violin because also some of the adult male orchestral leaders were giving me sort of sexualized nudges to one another and despite the fact that I was a virgin I understood that there was something seriously amiss.

Since that time I have not focused on any performer in that genre but instead I focus on the composer and the conductor and the orchestra and always have listened to studio recordings, absolutely avoiding the various performers except for a very few, who later I realized I did not actually like. Until David Garrett, that has been the case. He is an exceptional performer and I am grateful to him for "turning me on" to that world again but those politics remain which drove me from that world.

As for finding any video on YouTube that is not either an "Asian" performer or a white male or female--I cannot find any Black performers playing this but I owe my entire gratitude to that "black" female and how I would like to see many other races being put into lead position.

for some reason I never was turned on to the various famous Jewish violinists--I don't know why. Perhaps an emotional or psychological block.

This has been my very personal and opinionated post for the day.

I have therefore chosen the piece The Swan which only shows the musical score and not any performer as this is as gender and racial neutral as I can get when listening to and enjoying classical music. I cannot listen to any music and not find some kind of element of programming or racism or think of these issues and try to ascertain if the piece is racist or just a great piece of music with only artistic merit and intention. Not all music is racist not all musicians of course I am just referring to this most classical mode of expression which is rooted in the cultural theft of identity like so many other concepts and places of consumer and cultural misappropriation.

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Sorry if this opinion makes people angry or offended. (lol).

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...Then I took up drumming in Junior High school and discovered that the cock rock n roll scene is even MORE RACIST AND SEXIST. not lol because that is a predominant cultural institution and milieu that reinforces racism and sexism in world culture, or it has been infiltrated and taken over as such by fascists and racists who steal and rob all alternative scenes so any real alternative movement is quickly absorbed into fascist, sexist and racist conglomerate opportunism--that is the state of culture and art--or lack thereof.

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Kyrie Eleison/God Have Mercy God Have Compassion.


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2. "Good" Jewish "slaves" of the 4th Reich/my family members and much (not all but very many) of the entire diaspora that I have had contact with in all these years of being targeted.

This subject has been broached only in very vague and slight reference in the below little set of paragraphs I wrote earlier. There only the most nascent of references to this acceptance of operating under the orders of the larger criminal organization that controls so much of the planet, which appears to be an absolute Nazi system with other versions of autocratic/Totalitarian and other 'isms" thrown in--call it what you will the meaning is essentially the same, for my purpose since they want to traumatize me then endless references to Nazis are used as psychological weapons but I think for any target any other branch of this organization will be used to terrorize based upon the endless variations of violence imposed on various groups by other groups--too many to mention. The psychology of victimization is a broad mini-universe of association.
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"Central Florida had deadly condo building collapse in 1981 that killed 11 people." Orlando Sentinal. June 24, 2021.









This building collapse in Cocoa Beach, Florida in 1981 is either THE building my father was partially in control over as a kind of financial officer/lawyer for the firm out of Milwaukee who also participated in this new boom in construction in Florida--or it was some other project that collapsed while under construction but there are no others listed on the search engine I scoured to find information on.

I was either a Senior or Junior in high school and not very close to my father in terms of having contact as he was often in Florida and I was also occupied elsewhere as well. I would meet with him and he explained to me that this building in Florida he was the lawyer representing the financial company which financed this construction had ordered him to appear in court to justify the case for his firm. He explained to me personally as I sat mute because I knew nothing about such matters, that the real problem was that the concrete company had used different strength of concrete instead of paying for the more expensive concrete they chose a cheaper brand and at lower cost and different strength than that which had been laid out in the construction planning. My father had to sue the people responsible for this problem or they reached an out-of-court settlement. He never told me exactly what happened in this situation he only explained to me personally what had really happened. It was absolutely not the fault of my father or his company but of the CHEAP and COST-CUTTING grift of the construction and other personnel responsible for paying for the construction materials. Again, as I have almost no knowledge of this kind of construction and the terms associated with all the enterprise of these forms of building, I can't detail this in a precise way. The FACT that the concrete had been wrongly swapped for cheaper materials has NEVER come out to the light of public scrutiny probably to hide the cascade of lawsuits that would have overwhelmed the companies actually responsible, plus Manslaughter or even murder charges as well. it was all covered-up in other words, which is probably why my father never told me the outcome and when I asked he shrugged my question off and changed the subject.

The people who would know more about this subject are my two brothers and they probably would not divulge this information because they are good followers of this hate organization/terrorist conglomeration which has awarded them for their services of participation in every crime possible they could commit for their promotion.

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I could add a lot more to this post about my father and his targeting by this Nazi/fascist organization where, like Weisselberg, he had to bear the brunt of responsibility and deal with the foibles of others, which I think could be related to racism and targeting but I won't. Just a little hint, my father then quit this firm and began working for the U S government and was targeted in a very similar way although what could have been a catastrophe he personally averted by taking the US Government to court and winning a land case against their own version of the same kind of corruption and incompetence.

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Newsom-trump-musk social security gang-land theft of my money to render me homeless, hopeless and disabled with non-stop torture rape and poisoning while fighting to heal and stop the poisoning; that was just the beginning of the Obama-handed-prize-for-more promotions out of this contract out on me (not sure what Bush did, he has remained only as a very light cyber youtube hacker but the people out in front have been obama, trump, musk and then newsom---all have risen out of this contract out on me both presidents out of this contract out on me. They can't get enough millions and billions of dollars and just let m me heal and live in peace they must continue the contract out on me so all their family friends and their business partnerships (oh,I forgot the clintons, oh yes, big time nasty sarcastic hate out of hillary all profiteering off my torture) I can't really state why I am this most endlessly attacked person. there are people who are assaulted non-stop but my crime has been to fight being a torture sex rape abused object without fighting back that is my "crime" due to this nazification of america. They want "jews" to be absolutely a$$-groveling legal attorney lawyers defending the criminals as my family has done as jamie ratskin is doing in this contract (he is looking endlessly for more media interviews his yapping about the constitution has turned him into one of the biggest nazi frauds of the demo-rat party elizabeth warren as well they are such "pristine" human rights advocates infront of cameras--all former professors thusly their higher intellectual savvy has turned them into formidable lying foes of actual real democracy and integrity the corruption is rot underneath the huge warm orchestrated perfect human compassion lectures they give are the most nasty and ugly in teleportation; they all are it's a hoard of what appear to be brainless hateful protocol-following bots gone crazy like on the same crack drug high on instant money and fame and promotion). They cut my disability benefits; they are trying to make me homeless. They have told me by phone when I tried to change address to get the nasty dirty disgusting grip of newsoms endless murderous violent torture (the "slow murder" contract of abuse 16 hours per day using this tech, drugging poisoning so I am shitting liquid diarrhea and objects out of my body --i.e. gall stones becuase my digestion is blocked sufficating internally but mybody has been poisoned all my life so it has adjusted still being killed) while fighting to block the poisoning and to heal they abuse yell at punch slap abuse insult and yell at me literally day and night taking turns all day all night every day after day--newsom was slapping my face for eating the most cheap steaks from non-hormone injected animals so the meat was very hard--I had to hold the very small pieces of tough steak by hand and eat like that--newsom would slap my face for eating wiith my hands--this was constant just an example of daily being hit and then he had germans and english rape and torture me--his feminist so-called feminist wife has gotten her promotions for puting out her "feminist" and "women" documentaries--she just came at me last night calling me a "prostitute" for having worked at the Lusty Lady when I was being murdered by my Nazi-conttrolled family but it was a murder ordered by the nazi 4th Reich--people just like newsom and his wife, or the newsoms I should say I consider him to be a bisexual at best but so woman-hating I just think he's completely gay not to denounce homosexuality but only to say his version of it is hate cloaked as his "feminist" wife is another nazi programmed woman-hater using "feminism" as her "political" relevancy at having anything to "say" otherwise, she's just nazi in drag like her husband. They all have turned Social Security into a tribunal of political ousting of people not complying with their nazi 4th Reich system--thusly slowly murdering people rendering them homeless. While this group has indeed made me disabled they are trying to STEAL MY COVID MONEY because I saved it. They are trying to take it all away from me even when it was determined that I am able to save it by one of their collection agencies (from social security) by phone the terrorists who I am diverted to by all phone call hacking, whether they work for social security or not they turned a simple address change into hate harassment lying abusing accusing and threats. Demanding that i go in person to a field office to change my address correctly--they refuse to write my correct address and all mail is being blocked by newsom and trump the mail system I use is monitored they are blocking mail. They routinely block all emails so I receive not a single friendly email from anybody I write and get no response all. It doesn't matter as my entire life has been spent surrounded by abusers and attackers thusly it really makes no diffrence but all my outreach to people who had been friendly but under mind control I disassociated myself (they use subliminals to push people who are loving and kind away, on both sides they input hissing hate phrases about people to block all real love and support so people I try to reach who have never harmed me I get no response from but can't find their phone numbers or am not able to find them anywhere to double-check if they did receive my email or message and if they actually had or had not replied. I am only stating this as pertinent mail is blocked likewise--mail from government sources they should have sent me a letter weeks ago for my address change out of the newsom torture rape and abuse murder coven out of whorewood and california but all is blocked. Phoning social security is met by a type of harassment abuse interrogation which is loosely turned into what is called a "review" of your case--this is done by appointment and by phone, the rules have changed you do these reviews of your situation by phone. Now they are demanding that I go into a field office to request an address change and to get information on why my benefits are not being reinstated, nor any information on what conditions I must meet such as the amount of money in my account I must spend from my savings of covid relief and student loans before they reinstate my benefits. They, under instruction by musk, trump and newsom have yelled that all the covid money must be spent although social security deemed I am able to retain that money. I submitted an economic hardship request which was supposed to have been replied to by mail--no mail, no resonses and every request in the California area have been met by the field office agents HANGING UP ON ME in the middle of questions, abusive, nasty and lying to me. In Miami they sent me a letter of reinstatement on April Fool's Day, 2025 which was of course a "joke". It was an official letter from the Miami social security field office. Now I have moved to another State and by phone on the main phone line, a woman lied yelled abused me and yelled that her trick questions (which they never asked, she asked me extremely specific questions that I answered slighly wrong, giving the wrong month of the block of my money it was February but I said March because in my mind from memory of over a year ago the money was cut after the Feb payment so my mind connected March. She then yelled that she did not believe me could not confirm my identity--I had phoned because they wrote the wrong address and I was phoning to correct it. She then lied to me and told me to change my address online. If she did work for social security she would have known that SSI disability is not able to change online only SSA recipients such as retirees can change online. My family arranged for me to have this "freak accident" which was them having this metal rod popped out of the hook latched under my spine to stabilize the scoliosis fusion surgery which was created by my family having me poisoned and my body put out of alignment, a crime and murderous violent act the whorewood group shitalina and pig ape pitt and shitnigger and nancy piglousy and then newscum, in the background until I moved out of florida to california but they did this as well-to keep me crooked, injured bedridden disabled. But they forced this on me 3 months after I graduated college and then denied me all health care, hoping I would die from a metal rod literally coming out of my spine while they abused and tried to create a lie that I had stolen something (had not absolutely and obviously they are the thieves and criminal but with law degrees and they protect nazis and work for nazis, performing as much hate upon me as possible to get more deals and they are addicted to abusing me by now their entire lives revolve around it). To make this a bit shorter, not to endlessly emphasize the "victim" narrative but if there is any example of victimization my story is it this has been a lifetime of this endless hate attack to my body and finances and life. They then had her screaming at me to go in person to a field office and I told her that I am just changing my address, that I cannot change my address online because I am on the SSI program not the SSA --she was supposed to know this without reservation or instructing me to do this--I told her that I was merely changing address that had been wrongly written by the last yelling and abusive social security white female (all my years of being on SSI I have never once obtained a white person by phone for that agency, as far as I recall it's at least 95% formerly before musk got his filthy nazi paws on it for nazi culling of anyone they want exterminated) but always black women or men--mostly women. Always polite, helpful and professional always reliable and always correct. Now under musk who came to assault me at the beginnning of his doge committee assignment before the country realized he is a nazi f88ck abuser hateful exploiter and destroyer of america as I had written about him for years but people are always so beguiled by a fake greasy smile by a seeming "liberal" california tech dude (which newsom has been playing that same hand, his Hillary-emulting "feminist' blonde nazi wife as sinister as hillary but less intelligent, by far).//Therefore, not a single piece of mail which details how much money I must have for reinstatement. I kept sending faxes to a higher office within social security and newsom as he had done when I changed address out of the florida nazi trump dumpster they turned social security into--yellin abuse at me at offices by phone, then in california I was so drugged my online phone would not work newsom and trump had my computer blocked so badly I could not use it for a week while trying to change address from florida to california. I phoned the california field office after they played more rush-and-wait games--long story but I phoned the computer was so hacked I could not get a ring tone could not establish the call spent hours trying to make one phone call; once I finally got someone after 3 hours of trying tom ake one phone call, I was under severe drugging I was in a flustered "traumatized" state they inserted the mind control I asked the man if they had recieved my faxes he said yes and I began to explain before the connection was disconnected again that I had sent the fax for this particular reason (x.y.z etc) he interrupted me with a sneering hate tone, "you aren't letting me finish" as he slowly lumbered t hrough looking for the fax information. I was in a dazed drugged sort of hyper meth speed zone of drugging and stress I kept interrupting him although I could not control myself I could not stop speaking--they can screw the nervous system the brain and subliminal content along with traumatizing because I am fighting for my life now to not become homeless. He hung up on me. Months later after more rape and hours of torure per day, shitnigger just raped me last week endless violence from that filth bucket of sick stupidity endlessly asking me for ideas to claim as his filthy robot stupid self a lying manipulating ugly sick filth crap they adore in shit californication and newsom is a slick slime dirty ignorant fuck his endless repeat lectures so stupid and blank yet they love this shit in that state--and throughout america the level of intelligence is so low now in america. Thusly, I need a physical letter and I am unable to go into their field offices to get abused and yelled at without any real legal written form. If I go in and they lie to me, which they will, without written evidence I will be screwed completely. They are refusing to send me written information I must now use strategy to not be completely screwed by this group of rotten sick fuck "men" who have taken over social security. With the new ruling by the supreme court today to create a new jim crow era of voting redistricting against all black and minority representation (the apathy of these populations in not supporting stupid rancid cock rock rapper krap gangster rap LA sick frauds, the fake angry and fake black ghetto accents they put on for their black audiences is so unconvincing but the black population looks to these rotten dirty stupid fakes as their heroes of fighting racism--they are like the rancid minions of the wicked nazi witch obeying orders giggling like kamala hyena over having me raped and turned into a plantation "slave" so they can become the controller, perhaps controlled but that is the extent of their activism, pure rancidity. Otherwise,