Saturday, July 3, 2021

The residual dregs of fights/arguments and conversations while in the teleported state with Xponential teleporter (white male). I will not go into the sexism and racism of pornographic imagination today but it was also a point of argument "discussion" which was just me screaming and hitting him in rage from years of being put into a sex slave/porno image that has been superimposed upon me, while these "men" and their women are being paid to be prostitutes who pile filth and garbage upon me and my property as "proof" of their social-engineering "supremacy". I have to scream at one of them after the next that it is they who are the filthy whores and not me. They just continue to be paid to try to force this socialized stigma upon me as the US Government continues to fully embrace, finance and support this global but fascist Nazi/Imperialist structure even when the US is being infiltrated and colonized into Nazism, fascism, Totalitarianism and other forms destroying "Democracy" and Freedom. I also won't go into the fact that today is Independence Day for the United States and I'm writing about this because people seem to just let it go on and on. They are all going to be "celebrating" Independence while they are fully fostering in this contract out upon me and in every other way the imprisonment of the country and the subjugation to fascist, Nazi and other Mafia and Europ-a Imperialistic overtake. There is another factor I have related to my mind programming tormentors, which is that the years of torture, violence, every kind of terror act towards me has not "programmed" me to accept this system but has instead radicalized me, not to the point of being an anarchist willing to create carnage on a huge and deadly level but nevertheless, all the people who were shouting about injustice have now taken precedence in my information and media consumption over the mainstream blotting out of injustice that permeates media and cultural awareness (up until this last few years of the cancel culture and woke culture, which does not mean that I "embrace" it fully but a heightened awareness has arisen out of these cultural phenomenon).

POSTS PUBLISHED ON MY FACEBOOK PAGE TODAY WHICH HAVE SOME BEARING TO MIND CONTROL PROGRAMMING AND SOCIALIZATION. 


1. Gender and Race and Art.


SAINT SAENS--THE SWAN--violin version with piano accompaniment. 




How I choose the violin as my instrument: at a University of Illinois Youth musical competition held at one of the Halls of the deep underground buildings of that institution, my mother held me by my 7-year old hand and drifted me past doorways where other children, up to age 15 or so, were performing recitals and being judged and awarded. I passed by flutes, cellos, pianos and children playing but as I got past a door with a packed little room, a "Black" African-American female, around 12 years old, was playing The Swan and I stopped and stood nearly mesmerized.

First, it was the very best performance of that piece I have ever heard. I was hypnotized immediately by the sweetness and the capabilities of the violin in that one performance and I never knew who that woman/girl was and don't know where she has gone.

I began playing violin the next year when my mother took me to get my instructor, James Star, who played 1st Violin and was the First Chair of the University of Illinois Symphony. His compassion and lack of racism brought me to a point where I was then transferred to a European-based immigrant who taught me the hate and hostility of racist-based European traditions as the Germans who were part of the symphony I later played with at age 13 worked to use mind control to eliminate me as competition with the usual "I'm better than you" hissing with violence at me that Germans so love to use as their tactic of intimidation.

I can't express how badly I was drugged (and still am). I then quit playing violin because also some of the adult male orchestral leaders were giving me sort of sexualized nudges to one another and despite the fact that I was a virgin I understood that there was something seriously amiss.

Since that time I have not focused on any performer in that genre but instead I focus on the composer and the conductor and the orchestra and always have listened to studio recordings, absolutely avoiding the various performers except for a very few, who later I realized I did not actually like. Until David Garrett, that has been the case. He is an exceptional performer and I am grateful to him for "turning me on" to that world again but those politics remain which drove me from that world.

As for finding any video on YouTube that is not either an "Asian" performer or a white male or female--I cannot find any Black performers playing this but I owe my entire gratitude to that "black" female and how I would like to see many other races being put into lead position.

for some reason I never was turned on to the various famous Jewish violinists--I don't know why. Perhaps an emotional or psychological block.

This has been my very personal and opinionated post for the day.

I have therefore chosen the piece The Swan which only shows the musical score and not any performer as this is as gender and racial neutral as I can get when listening to and enjoying classical music. I cannot listen to any music and not find some kind of element of programming or racism or think of these issues and try to ascertain if the piece is racist or just a great piece of music with only artistic merit and intention. Not all music is racist not all musicians of course I am just referring to this most classical mode of expression which is rooted in the cultural theft of identity like so many other concepts and places of consumer and cultural misappropriation.

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Sorry if this opinion makes people angry or offended. (lol).

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...Then I took up drumming in Junior High school and discovered that the cock rock n roll scene is even MORE RACIST AND SEXIST. not lol because that is a predominant cultural institution and milieu that reinforces racism and sexism in world culture, or it has been infiltrated and taken over as such by fascists and racists who steal and rob all alternative scenes so any real alternative movement is quickly absorbed into fascist, sexist and racist conglomerate opportunism--that is the state of culture and art--or lack thereof.

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Kyrie Eleison/God Have Mercy God Have Compassion.


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2. "Good" Jewish "slaves" of the 4th Reich/my family members and much (not all but very many) of the entire diaspora that I have had contact with in all these years of being targeted.

This subject has been broached only in very vague and slight reference in the below little set of paragraphs I wrote earlier. There only the most nascent of references to this acceptance of operating under the orders of the larger criminal organization that controls so much of the planet, which appears to be an absolute Nazi system with other versions of autocratic/Totalitarian and other 'isms" thrown in--call it what you will the meaning is essentially the same, for my purpose since they want to traumatize me then endless references to Nazis are used as psychological weapons but I think for any target any other branch of this organization will be used to terrorize based upon the endless variations of violence imposed on various groups by other groups--too many to mention. The psychology of victimization is a broad mini-universe of association.
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"Central Florida had deadly condo building collapse in 1981 that killed 11 people." Orlando Sentinal. June 24, 2021.









This building collapse in Cocoa Beach, Florida in 1981 is either THE building my father was partially in control over as a kind of financial officer/lawyer for the firm out of Milwaukee who also participated in this new boom in construction in Florida--or it was some other project that collapsed while under construction but there are no others listed on the search engine I scoured to find information on.

I was either a Senior or Junior in high school and not very close to my father in terms of having contact as he was often in Florida and I was also occupied elsewhere as well. I would meet with him and he explained to me that this building in Florida he was the lawyer representing the financial company which financed this construction had ordered him to appear in court to justify the case for his firm. He explained to me personally as I sat mute because I knew nothing about such matters, that the real problem was that the concrete company had used different strength of concrete instead of paying for the more expensive concrete they chose a cheaper brand and at lower cost and different strength than that which had been laid out in the construction planning. My father had to sue the people responsible for this problem or they reached an out-of-court settlement. He never told me exactly what happened in this situation he only explained to me personally what had really happened. It was absolutely not the fault of my father or his company but of the CHEAP and COST-CUTTING grift of the construction and other personnel responsible for paying for the construction materials. Again, as I have almost no knowledge of this kind of construction and the terms associated with all the enterprise of these forms of building, I can't detail this in a precise way. The FACT that the concrete had been wrongly swapped for cheaper materials has NEVER come out to the light of public scrutiny probably to hide the cascade of lawsuits that would have overwhelmed the companies actually responsible, plus Manslaughter or even murder charges as well. it was all covered-up in other words, which is probably why my father never told me the outcome and when I asked he shrugged my question off and changed the subject.

The people who would know more about this subject are my two brothers and they probably would not divulge this information because they are good followers of this hate organization/terrorist conglomeration which has awarded them for their services of participation in every crime possible they could commit for their promotion.

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I could add a lot more to this post about my father and his targeting by this Nazi/fascist organization where, like Weisselberg, he had to bear the brunt of responsibility and deal with the foibles of others, which I think could be related to racism and targeting but I won't. Just a little hint, my father then quit this firm and began working for the U S government and was targeted in a very similar way although what could have been a catastrophe he personally averted by taking the US Government to court and winning a land case against their own version of the same kind of corruption and incompetence.

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Another mutilation report: sometimes I only realize the damage when the injection of numbing/pain killer wears off. Taking a shower, I realize that the soreness I felt in my right ear this morning upon waking was due to me having not been able to protect my head from attack while collapsing in toxic shock on my bed. I had done an exercise after many days of fasting which pulled on some of the very tight bands of poison latched in labyrinth fashion into my spine, connecting to my muscle line along my spine, what is left of it. Atrophied obviously underneath the hard poison which has been frozen in paralysis for probabyl 30 years or longer, with hardening poison injected into my body at around 2009 and culminating in endless paralysis. The poisons had been in semi-flexible stage most of my life, pushing up tissue and adipose (cellulite) making it appear just like my frame was larger, almost square like a man's body. The poison was flexible enough for me to feel the "bands" running along my spine but never understanding that I was being poisoned I was also continuously so drugged and under mind programming I just understood only that it was a result of the 3 major spine surgeries but had no idea it was due to poisons. But around 2009 the injections of an hardening agent were introduced into the daily poisoning regimin with attempts to murder me began in earnest. I was living around euro-haters and the poisoning was so extreme that if I bought food at a local grocer and the food had been pre-prepared by the grocer (i.e. deli section) I would get very ill vomiting after eating the poison was so extreme (not my normal to vomit I am referring to how they kept poisoning me continuously and then adding this extra hardening agent which acted in concert with the already established poisons--it was a staged and pre -planned operation the poisons have already been tested on countless people in the past so the end result is a staggered set of stages of putrefaction and then paralysis leading to of course death. All appearing "normal" for someone at a certain age, plus all the other maladies they created and forced upon me thusly a seeming health decline. This is a very popular form of murder by the way and I believe I have seen it in action many times in the past with relatives. The relatives had been good little boys and girls obeying orders from the nazi scum who marry them (take their money steal my inheritance, for example and my own siblings just assisted their nazi spouses in having my mother's inheritance stolen from me using the rump doge committee to just destroy my only security due to the disability THEY created and coordinated to force upon me. ) They stuck somethiinng into my inner ear last night. I collapsed because the poisons were "tweaked" under this set of layers of criss-crossing poisons interlaced into my vertebrae but running alongside my spine and connecting into my hips, and into my hip joints so paralyze me. 17 days of fasting (1 day in between to eat something to get rid of the disgusting poisons which accumulate due to the poisoning never ending so no matter how many master cleanse fasting I did, they kept poisoning me so the accumulation was always being rebuilt instantly afterward---on top of the plugs and hard layers which block digesstion and body movement and functioning. So, the poisons released into my bloodstream made me literally collapse, as has happened endlessly for the past 2 years while trying with all my strength not to fall into this comatose type toxic shock sleep but my musclles just collapse the spine is coated with this poison inches deep on both sides---it goes into my bloodstream it is connected into my brain--of course shitnigger the endless leech parasite sexually abused and attacked me in that state as I fought him off death threats from that ugy sick sleazy thug you all worship for his nazi thuggery and bs movie crap always about how great he is (a total lie everything he represents as a positive is a complete opposite of his actual agenda---but it's not his agenda he's just a bot following orders as are they all). //thusly, rather than dig into my cuticles for the 15th year in a row on an almost daily basis until all fingers are mutilated my toes are disgusting the chemicals they put on my toenails and the cuticles they severed out and broken my toes and etc---but, they justt inserted something so deeply into my eardrum or ear canal (not going to look up the biology of it) but behind this "plate" in my inner ear--the ear drum perhaps but it's a type of hard "flap "type piece at the very end of the ear canal where I can insert a cotton swab--whatever the name is the ear canal? it has a block to the inside of my skull whatever that hard piece is it can be manipulated to have something inserted behind it--they did this in the last trump shit regime under the orders of that fuck scum and therefore they have done it again rather than smear grease making my already mostly bald head shed more hair as they do all the time when I collapse--but last night they forced someting into my ear canal--the skin tissue leading up to the flap is inflamed and it's getting infected. It took me over 3 years to get rid of whatever they stuck in my ear the last time, around 2019--that was when the other austrian sick u gly rotten old man fuck assauled me for saying I don't what he thinks of my interpretation of mozart--that is all I said in response to him trying to steal more ideas out of me, asking me to interpret mozart as that ugly rotten scum took notes and then smirked while ice cube asked him (it was an orchestrated skit for his filthy promotion and that of rancid ice cube as well) but "what do you think of her interpretation" and the ugly nazi white trash said smirking "I have no idea what it meant" as I said without being able to monitor my thoughts, in deep sleep state as well so this was programmed into my subconsciousness I repeated it upon prompt: I don't care what you think" thusly they injected me with some virus I was deadly ill it felt like I was dyinjg they made my hair turn grey as this group of pig rat "men" have been doing either putting something in my hair to kill the follicles or just stress the poisoning with this virus, 1-2 months prior to the covid outbreak (nov 2019) was so extreme so exhausting a virus type sickness--which was injected into me within a day of this episode--ice cube punched me in the face, the rat austrian nazi then got me injected with some covid type virus, all the symptoms of covid I had before the outbreak perhaps it made me immune to the actual seriousness of the virus if I had been exposed to it. They then injected this thing into my ear canal and trump smirked and laughed in response as that ugly rat who starred in many tarantino shit nazi movies so famous for the violence and hate and smug come-backs ---and he was put in lead roles in movies and put in rolling stone because it's a nazi entertainment promoting goddamn rag paper--and thusly, this austrian other rotten fuck had a tree killed facing my patio then this beautiful cat taken away and has had me raped my hair mostly killed yanked out with hair follicle remover after fighting to get another german rat fuck scum off raping me and pounding poison into my body while doing disgusting dirty pornographic things as ugly shitalina watched laughing as shitnigger hugged this ugly filthy creep who plays violin, whom I had complimented as well the response as with this english skank piece of shit which shitnigger is going to pay to put in the position in a film they tortured me for the concept of--giving me nothing and continuing the torture wihtout end--the 75 people in the last month from that ugly sick rotten thug shitnigger (the other austrian rat nazi cockroach is this ugly dirty old man who played n django unchained the german rat fuck who really is just a rat fuck not an anti-racist--but the blacks are endlessly purchased by them to inflict antisemitism in america so the blacks can be blamed not the austirans or the germans who always claim they are not racist and not nazis any longer. Thusly, this ugly thug pig rat shitnigger who is such a foul and dirty ugly stupid sick thing that all I can do is write out a list of insults because of the longevity of his violence towards me for years and years and years profiting off it. He goes off laughing about what he is doing to me as he gets gets gets endlessly more and more but sits with his stupid ugly square dumb head as they torture ideas out of me while he has them screaming all insults at me instantly afterwards while this actual real stupid bitch fuck and the shit he brings with him like that ugly sick filth from depp are the stupid bitches--they scream these types of insults at me after torturing me for YEARS to obtain more original ideas--then claim them as their own get paid in millions. It is justt ongoing ongoing never ending these ugly filthy dirty shit so-called "men" are just allowed to wreak every kind of rape and torture their shit filth wives and daughters get get get more lead roles as feminists portraying the heroism that I actually am doing each and every single day and just getting mutilated by these mechanical arms operated by shit and filth brown and black people LIKE ICE CUBE and snoop dogg the sick hoggs who just perform every act of violence so white trash shit like shitnigger will give them more lead roles. The smug stupidity of them all but ask them for original ideas they have nothing to say, not a single word. All is given to these fuck whores all is taken away from me for being creative a threat to shit ugly pig rats like these so-calleld men and their shit filth women. And still, they will continue tomorrow and the next day and the next day they will never be pulled off me how can they be considered "superior" without having people to steall ideas from otherwise what are they? smug and stupid bodybuilders simple rhyming dumb scum playing tough and angry righteousness fighting against tyranny-their every bullshit role before they torture me to steal original ideas outside of the righteous victim wreaking extremely bloody revenge upon abusers. That is all they are all they play but in actually all they are is sleazy stupid fucks attacking innocent and in my case, an actual righteous person made disabled by their attacks (their collective group) as these worthless but way overpaid muscle-thug scumbags can inflict their sleazy hate to stop anyone but themselves and their shit blank stupid whore females as having ideas having any kind of actual soul and meaning they appear so empty and blank and rotten but their public appearances are contrived so they appear like they are filled with light and love and intelligence. How much of it is scripted I don't know.