Saturday, July 3, 2021

The residual dregs of fights/arguments and conversations while in the teleported state with Xponential teleporter (white male). I will not go into the sexism and racism of pornographic imagination today but it was also a point of argument "discussion" which was just me screaming and hitting him in rage from years of being put into a sex slave/porno image that has been superimposed upon me, while these "men" and their women are being paid to be prostitutes who pile filth and garbage upon me and my property as "proof" of their social-engineering "supremacy". I have to scream at one of them after the next that it is they who are the filthy whores and not me. They just continue to be paid to try to force this socialized stigma upon me as the US Government continues to fully embrace, finance and support this global but fascist Nazi/Imperialist structure even when the US is being infiltrated and colonized into Nazism, fascism, Totalitarianism and other forms destroying "Democracy" and Freedom. I also won't go into the fact that today is Independence Day for the United States and I'm writing about this because people seem to just let it go on and on. They are all going to be "celebrating" Independence while they are fully fostering in this contract out upon me and in every other way the imprisonment of the country and the subjugation to fascist, Nazi and other Mafia and Europ-a Imperialistic overtake. There is another factor I have related to my mind programming tormentors, which is that the years of torture, violence, every kind of terror act towards me has not "programmed" me to accept this system but has instead radicalized me, not to the point of being an anarchist willing to create carnage on a huge and deadly level but nevertheless, all the people who were shouting about injustice have now taken precedence in my information and media consumption over the mainstream blotting out of injustice that permeates media and cultural awareness (up until this last few years of the cancel culture and woke culture, which does not mean that I "embrace" it fully but a heightened awareness has arisen out of these cultural phenomenon).

POSTS PUBLISHED ON MY FACEBOOK PAGE TODAY WHICH HAVE SOME BEARING TO MIND CONTROL PROGRAMMING AND SOCIALIZATION. 


1. Gender and Race and Art.


SAINT SAENS--THE SWAN--violin version with piano accompaniment. 




How I choose the violin as my instrument: at a University of Illinois Youth musical competition held at one of the Halls of the deep underground buildings of that institution, my mother held me by my 7-year old hand and drifted me past doorways where other children, up to age 15 or so, were performing recitals and being judged and awarded. I passed by flutes, cellos, pianos and children playing but as I got past a door with a packed little room, a "Black" African-American female, around 12 years old, was playing The Swan and I stopped and stood nearly mesmerized.

First, it was the very best performance of that piece I have ever heard. I was hypnotized immediately by the sweetness and the capabilities of the violin in that one performance and I never knew who that woman/girl was and don't know where she has gone.

I began playing violin the next year when my mother took me to get my instructor, James Star, who played 1st Violin and was the First Chair of the University of Illinois Symphony. His compassion and lack of racism brought me to a point where I was then transferred to a European-based immigrant who taught me the hate and hostility of racist-based European traditions as the Germans who were part of the symphony I later played with at age 13 worked to use mind control to eliminate me as competition with the usual "I'm better than you" hissing with violence at me that Germans so love to use as their tactic of intimidation.

I can't express how badly I was drugged (and still am). I then quit playing violin because also some of the adult male orchestral leaders were giving me sort of sexualized nudges to one another and despite the fact that I was a virgin I understood that there was something seriously amiss.

Since that time I have not focused on any performer in that genre but instead I focus on the composer and the conductor and the orchestra and always have listened to studio recordings, absolutely avoiding the various performers except for a very few, who later I realized I did not actually like. Until David Garrett, that has been the case. He is an exceptional performer and I am grateful to him for "turning me on" to that world again but those politics remain which drove me from that world.

As for finding any video on YouTube that is not either an "Asian" performer or a white male or female--I cannot find any Black performers playing this but I owe my entire gratitude to that "black" female and how I would like to see many other races being put into lead position.

for some reason I never was turned on to the various famous Jewish violinists--I don't know why. Perhaps an emotional or psychological block.

This has been my very personal and opinionated post for the day.

I have therefore chosen the piece The Swan which only shows the musical score and not any performer as this is as gender and racial neutral as I can get when listening to and enjoying classical music. I cannot listen to any music and not find some kind of element of programming or racism or think of these issues and try to ascertain if the piece is racist or just a great piece of music with only artistic merit and intention. Not all music is racist not all musicians of course I am just referring to this most classical mode of expression which is rooted in the cultural theft of identity like so many other concepts and places of consumer and cultural misappropriation.

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Sorry if this opinion makes people angry or offended. (lol).

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...Then I took up drumming in Junior High school and discovered that the cock rock n roll scene is even MORE RACIST AND SEXIST. not lol because that is a predominant cultural institution and milieu that reinforces racism and sexism in world culture, or it has been infiltrated and taken over as such by fascists and racists who steal and rob all alternative scenes so any real alternative movement is quickly absorbed into fascist, sexist and racist conglomerate opportunism--that is the state of culture and art--or lack thereof.

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Kyrie Eleison/God Have Mercy God Have Compassion.


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2. "Good" Jewish "slaves" of the 4th Reich/my family members and much (not all but very many) of the entire diaspora that I have had contact with in all these years of being targeted.

This subject has been broached only in very vague and slight reference in the below little set of paragraphs I wrote earlier. There only the most nascent of references to this acceptance of operating under the orders of the larger criminal organization that controls so much of the planet, which appears to be an absolute Nazi system with other versions of autocratic/Totalitarian and other 'isms" thrown in--call it what you will the meaning is essentially the same, for my purpose since they want to traumatize me then endless references to Nazis are used as psychological weapons but I think for any target any other branch of this organization will be used to terrorize based upon the endless variations of violence imposed on various groups by other groups--too many to mention. The psychology of victimization is a broad mini-universe of association.
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"Central Florida had deadly condo building collapse in 1981 that killed 11 people." Orlando Sentinal. June 24, 2021.






1981 Cocoa Beach, FL building collapse (my father was legal representative of construction company).



This building collapse in Cocoa Beach, Florida in 1981 is either THE building my father was partially in control over as a kind of financial officer/lawyer for the firm out of Milwaukee who also participated in this new boom in construction in Florida--or it was some other project that collapsed while under construction but there are no others listed on the search engine I scoured to find information on.

I was either a Senior or Junior in high school and not very close to my father in terms of having contact as he was often in Florida and I was also occupied elsewhere as well. I would meet with him and he explained to me that this building in Florida he was the lawyer representing the financial company which financed this construction had ordered him to appear in court to justify the case for his firm. He explained to me personally as I sat mute because I knew nothing about such matters, that the real problem was that the concrete company had used different strength of concrete instead of paying for the more expensive concrete they chose a cheaper brand and at lower cost and different strength than that which had been laid out in the construction planning. My father had to sue the people responsible for this problem or they reached an out-of-court settlement. He never told me exactly what happened in this situation he only explained to me personally what had really happened. It was absolutely not the fault of my father or his company but of the CHEAP and COST-CUTTING grift of the construction and other personnel responsible for paying for the construction materials. Again, as I have almost no knowledge of this kind of construction and the terms associated with all the enterprise of these forms of building, I can't detail this in a precise way. The FACT that the concrete had been wrongly swapped for cheaper materials has NEVER come out to the light of public scrutiny probably to hide the cascade of lawsuits that would have overwhelmed the companies actually responsible, plus Manslaughter or even murder charges as well. it was all covered-up in other words, which is probably why my father never told me the outcome and when I asked he shrugged my question off and changed the subject.

The people who would know more about this subject are my two brothers and they probably would not divulge this information because they are good followers of this hate organization/terrorist conglomeration which has awarded them for their services of participation in every crime possible they could commit for their promotion.

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I could add a lot more to this post about my father and his targeting by this Nazi/fascist organization where, like Weisselberg, he had to bear the brunt of responsibility and deal with the foibles of others, which I think could be related to racism and targeting but I won't. Just a little hint, my father then quit this firm and began working for the U S government and was targeted in a very similar way although what could have been a catastrophe he personally averted by taking the US Government to court and winning a land case against their own version of the same kind of corruption and incompetence.
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Clumps of hair continuously falling out when I brush my damaged destroyed hair, what is left of it from years of fungus semen and hair-follicle destruction chemicals slathered into my scalp by the whorewood group STILL welcomed to inflict death upon me in covert, slow mechanisms of undetectable torture, information extraction and violence. Once more Gavin Newsom literally under threat of continuous torture-to-death by his ally Tom Hardy asked me for a tarot reading about whatever--his premise to run for president. I instantly told him to stop the near-death torture that he and hardy have been giggly and sexually completely turned on with derision rape and torture sexual emotional and physical abuse leveling my body hormone levels combined with endless murder poisons I am shitting out from decades of them pent-up inside layers of hard-as-rock poisons that were integrated with mind control drugs and other poisons to kill me undetectable--every day fighting to stretch and exercise while a panel of men who have raped tortured abused my cats insulted me with hate and derision then destruction when I defend myself--politicians rushing to threaten to have me killed for defending myself all sitting there urging me to hurry up and get the poisons out so they can achieve their agenda of forcing a baby out of me for next generation mind control experimentation and studies---forced out of me in a system of life-threat abuse rape and racist violence that is akin to lynch mob covert murder and destruction of american independence of racial equality which is enforced with malice and malevolent murderous violence by English Imperialists--Hardy a staunch Royalist and today after his endless hissing death threats while I was going to the toilet while I held any object his abuse that goes on literally every moment all day into the night then in deep sleep; now maybe 7 months of him after years of endless euro-apes rushing to do the same with shitalina and ugly dirty pig ape pitt using this contract to steal MY IDEAS so they appear as if they are not stupid dirty mediocrity prostituted nazi iconography ape scumbags----bringing in non-stop europigape shit whores who rush violently at me beating raping having me on my knees as they sexually torture and abuse me when I fight back shit like nancy pelosi (with newsom as part of her cartel plantation backed by italian fascist and brooklyn mafia genocidal murdering bigots---) and thusly, I collapsed in the past 10 days from huge chunks of poison that have been embedded and latched into my spine and hips into my skull extending into my entire skeleton in a labyrinth of complexity twisting tubes of the hard poison with pockets of stinking foul black poison pouring into my blood stream and literally ripping cellular muscle tissue and internal skin out of my body---I collapse very often on my bed unable to keep my head up in a sinking drugged sickness often they gouge the cuticles cut them out (hardy had this done at the onset of his terrorism and rape and beatings and non-stop death threats for the first few months---actually, more than half a year of daily and nightly torture from this odious thug completely welcomed to abuse me into fractured mental states of sobbing and crying to stop raping me get off me shut up screaming as ugly shitalina sits watching smiling and laughing ugly dirty pig ape pitt smug and determined that his years of going to the oscars for the ideas his group of shit stole from me--from Once upon a time in whorewood to spotlight to blonde to babylon and tv shows he has producted (i.e. about bob marley) and just for having inflicted mutilation tortrure abuse and rape upon me his dirty trashy mediocre partner shitalina has gone to the oscars for stealing ideas verbatim that i wrote maria malificent another movie about cambodia and multiple movie themes and concepts she has stolen from my writing--using my words verbatim as her "feminist" pitch for the United Nations during the Nazi regime ousting jewsw from whorewood such as weinstein, etc etc. I fell asleep because huge hardened chunks of death and murder poisons I had twisted out of the sides of my back into the lateral framework of the sagittal plane---and I literally could not move I could not wrap the layers of protection around my head as I do every night; I began wrapping my head for the past 2 days but not having taken a shower for over 5 days I finally was able to wash the tell-tale greasy stink that was sprayed and rubbed into my scalp which they do every time I cannot protect my body. My hands are huge and ugly from chemicals slathered on my hands, the cuticles having been literally cut out of multiple fingers and toes my hands and feet are completely deformed the skin hideously scaly from the moisture being completely destroyed---the months of working every day to heal are just reverted back to the horrific state my hair and scalp and body has been for years of not being able to defend or protect myself while I was so bloated and paralyzed with poisons latched onto my spine in every single possible contortion combination pulling in every direction simultaneously so drugged I could not understand movie plots and etc. Every day being tortured for more creative ideas so the dirty filth of europigapeland can use my ideas as their own to infiltrate the American market. Policitians rushing to join in making every kind of death threat at me as they profit and join into the endlessly corrupted media empire that the europigapes have either bought out and control from behind the scenes or have actually purchased or play controller roles therein. the Nazi network also demands that all obey all the dictates of their control. Thusly Hardy went at me today and it is instant energy-draining hate for this vile and filthy thug who appears only to be a mediocre mindless bigot with boxing training using it upon me. They smeared my hair so badly that the barely thin layer of hair covering the huge bald spot from years of my hair being so damaged for a few months after I fought off a german rapist who was especially violent and abusive and I called him a pig--dirty filthy arnold shit-negtger rushed to hug him openly in front of me putting his snake arm around the german stupid ape creep--who had been trained in the art of passionate violin playing by a wheel-chair bound Israeli Jew very famous--who happily gave this german lout lessons because Jews are supposed to service nazis, didn't you know? Instantly the Jewish man poured his videos onto my youtube channel but my hair began to fall out in clumps my scape was knobby from the hair follicles literally having been pulled out--hair removal technology was used on my scalp to literally pull hair follicles out. There is nothing I can do to regrow in these 80% bald patches on my hair but extremely thin 1/8 inch sprouts of hair have grown back after putting everything I can think of and purchase on the scalp. Gone---5 days of such sickness that as usual I was writing FURIOUSLY BEGGING FOR MY LIFE TO GET HARDY OFF FROM ABUSING ME TO DEATH while poisons were literally ripping out of my central nervous system, taking bits of nervous system cellular structure and muscle and flesh out and dumping murder toxins congealed into my body for over 40 years--this is what was done to me decades ago from multiple surgeries, just by the way. Somehow as a miracle someone got hardy from abusing me to death by making him stop for one day--the ape has returned because behind him are the English crown members of the wealthy "elite" pig ape cartel, who have proven to be stupid ugly dirty racist bigots with very little behind their assumption of intellectual superiority. They claim is bolstered by having me drugged into near comatose inability to understand, being manipulated by them mentally while I am in deep sleep state teleported to their houses where they play lying skits so I presume the situation is relevant to one concept but instead they are using word plays on the meanings as if I am consenting to their abuse and degradation skits. Little beyond power grabbing machiavellian mental mind screw mentality has ever been demonstrated by the english "elite" who rush to have their violent lower classes inflict the street fighting thuggery upon me in my vulnerable state while ugly shitalin and pig ape pitt sit smug because for over 16 years I have told them NO that I can't stand them by now it's in every subconscious state declaring how odious and repulsive and dirty and what parasites they are---still they persist because like hardy they are mostly mediocrity their pumped-up body images trained and coached NOT POISONED with hardening and bloating chemicals and not infected with racist bias intending to crush the spirit and pride of the groups they want to exploit (to death) such as Jews, blacks, etc (amplifying gays as long as they are mostly white or service them if they are otherwise--the one group that the Nazis abhored is now seminally welcomed into the 4th Reich which is homosexuality but only as long as it is in the private enclaves of the wealth orgy estates and private, not as any potential power group in society).//so, telling hardy with seething hate that he is disgusting--but i was watching something that was hacked into my youtube channel with Prince Charles and his spouse riding in some carriage to greet trump & frau nazi wife---and I said trying to be friendly trying to say something honestly positive that, yes that was beautiful and if I were english I would be proud of such a display. Instantly as if I had exposed a weakness or vulnerability hardy punched my breasts with violent hate saying "damn right" blah blah about english superiority and that I had belittled his culture previously--but I have never said that the beautiful buildings and the displays are inferior I have stated that their overtake of america using death squads and utmost racism and minorities who are blank and dumb control victims of racism fighting for a "piece of the pie" are their dumbed-down pawns; apparently america is comletely controlled by this group. The whites are in-training for the lessons to be learned in the psychological destruction of groups which pose a threat to their centuries of millennia of racist overtake of other cultures and societies (along with the rest of europe, basing much on Roman history and fascist and Imperialism the entire continent was the precursor to american slaughter and genocide of the Indigenous Indian tribes and everything else they could depose and steal from--which is the prevailing norm now regarding "minority" groups in America a similar pan-euro model of genocide is being trained through these mind control skits and Hardy is like the masses of the working class "soldiers" and for Hardy it is his huge chance to get out of playing thug roles and have the elite mark of distinction he is reveling in the money and profits and awards generated he is fixated into abusing me (to death) if he could. //NOthing can get him off me. The politicians are determined to get this contract, the democrats are working with the republicans in this private mind control hate scheme so they all "share" in the power structure and share dividends alike and no amount of change or resistance is possible even with the changing of horses the guard remains something of violent armies protecting the monarchy's interests (america now as a vassal colonized state of english imperialism german nazism french haute fascist fashion and italian mafia programming). I just have to add that Scorsese "won" some award for his movie about an American indigenous tribe of wealthy indian women who had inherited massive amounts of wealth due to oil being discovered on their native tribal lands--or those lands meted out to the tribes after the Euro-=colonists decimated slaughtered and destroyed and left them with nothing. This same principle of stealing all and giving nothing in return is the operating priincipal of this contract out on me. Besides that, the movie about some tribe with the actors who have rushed to assault me for decades (even before their open inclusion in this semi-closed circuit of terrorism absolutely controllked by fascist nazi groups mafia and organized criminality operating in smooth criminality with politicians who espouse every kind of benevolent concern about their sales-pitch group they are defending in public--screwing in private unless they can play or go along and play plantation subordinate). //The movie is based on the reality of this program into training Americans into the "Manifest Destiny" mentality of genocide of Indians (now people like me, the "tribes" they want to steal all from and destroy afterwards, sometimes intermarrying to gain acceptance and then slowly poisoning the victim to death, as the movie detailed it was another Nazi programming bs whorewood movie detailing the methodology of what is so benignly called "gang stalking" and "gaslighting". They use the same methods as were detailed in the movie of drugging and poisoning and mind controlling with "love" and then stealing the loot the land the oil the money and for me, it's ideas. Nothing but torture to death afterwards and having people moved out moved off eliminated silenced dis-empowered and then shot in the head if they fight back (one of the indigenous women was killed in such fashion because she began hitting her white tormentor abuser husband and thusly the white nazi cowboy network told the husband to prove his worth for white man's burden and so he shot her in the head in front of his buddies but that is like the token symbol of approval and that he never gave a damn in the first place, was always using her for usurpation of the oil and land for the "good Christian" men and women who went out to the rodeo after they slaughtered and took all over. This movie "won" but it was a programming device with Scorsese and the brooklyn mafia thugs like deniro all hailing back to Italy constantly with the gottis only stating that they are italian and etc--the same principle applies to shitalina with her english mommy aligned with the english crown, and hardy sits next to them all--newsom with "I'm Italian" pelosi, and etc etc the list is endless, the situation is never ending. I am writing this today just to detail their modus operandi in case one day people are fed up with how badly the country is falling apart perhaps they might recall how they used entertainment and worship of plastic-created mediocrity sleazy sexualized psychopaths in order to put in power a government that sold out for haute luxury for politicians in france and italy as their quid-pro-quo. treating americans like the indians the former euro colonizers so easily slaughtered and in american fashion justifying it all with hailing Jesus as "good Christians". Hardy never mentions Christianity he only references the English Empire constantly as his main focus of justification. Right now he has hacked a photo of Big Ben in London as the photo for my microsoft page which is hacked so badly that they are turning everything on and off so constantly it's about every 3 minutes. I watch and peruse the utter destruction going on every day not only in the U.S. but in terms of surveillance they are clamping down absolutely. They want an IMPERIAL control system of despotism. Therefore, they can barely get Hardy off me for even more than one day the awards and prizes he is obtaining for endless life-threatening abuse and hate has pushed his career into a huge spot I suggest--as with shitalina and pit ape pitt and anniston the dirty wife of pitt and the group of whorewood Reagan-era plants into that system to penetrate and bring in as much euro-centric facsist nazi imperialistic smug posturing sexulized and then never-ending in the headlines and sequels but MY IDEAS they have used as if they are not hateful life-screwming mediocrities while they have destroyed for over 16 years and much longer my every life-work for my success stolen and destroyed broken and killed off everything that was beautiful. My patio is lined with dead plants that had been gloriously flowering beauty plants slowly killed after months of me fighting to keep them alive as they are slowly killed, plant-after-plant. Dirty sleazy hardy yelling "you can have plants and your own garden" (If you just provide me with this endless award as all the men who rape and abuse me are all trying to abuse me into "submission" after the abuse is so violent and life-threatening their every word and action is so ugly dirty filthy and abominable that htere is nothing but me praying daily for their deaths).

In the past 10 days, I have written essentially screaming online begging to this this foul and disgusting oaf scumbag hardy off me--for mont...