Thursday, July 15, 2021

My posts have been very angry and bitter -sounding in recent weeks. The increasing hate and ugliness of my tone is due to being raped constantly and then tortured after my body and sexuality is pried open by this German man who returns it with more violence as he goes off partying and laughing over it all. I can't look him up on the internet any longer to see how many new tours and gigs he's obtained in just the last few weeks. The protective barrier I had formerly for my spirit to remain in some kind of decent state is being breached as he's opening up my emotions only to dig in as much hate and insult and physical assault and emotional and sexual abuse as possible. I can't stop the technology nor him. He's determined to obtain his every contract sucked out of abusing me for I have no idea how long. I am thus writing in a very bitter and nasty tone; it doesn't help with the celebrities who have raped and tortured me for years laughing and thrilled about this violence and rape being inflicted upon me by my "enemy" a German as they surround him with awards and praise and invitations. He's so thrilled to be part of the Whorewood gang he's probably on some 7th heaven by now. I am here embittered and tired and feeling absolutely drained. I reacted in a most disreputable way when I was attacked in public because my nerves are distraught over this rape and endless exploitation and lovelessness and abuse and the sick situation that people are just laughing and thrilled to read and watch as I fight constantl for over a decade to get one rapist abuser after the next off me and they just are taking turns congratulating each other at their billionaire parties as I sit fighting to stop from being over-charged for a shipment of my credit cards because they have poisoned, drugged, raped and abused me nightly and daily for years and I can't cope with financial and any kind of business any longer. All phone calls are blocked all transactions are met with abuse or lies or discrimination. No one still intervenes. I wait for the flooding and hope that I will survive whatever comes and that this organization is destroyed and actual caring people put into power instead. But for now it's dumbass whores who I must deal with and the do-nothing followers who adore them. I feel like I am the only person who has this mentality but I know there must be others I can't even get around anyone to discover who they are, much less try to find some sympathetic group--all targets are left without any support system people always just turn away. In this state then I must say I can't wait for Europe to sink and for America to have that shift of power so people who care are put into positions of power. Generally though when there are crises only the worst fascists obtain power. I hope this will change. Otherwise I am stuck writing these posts and feeling like I sound bitter and nasty. I really don't want to do this. I really want my cat returned and for this group to be forced to pay me for my own house that is decent and not attacked and clean and around people who won't bother me in a place I really love. I don't know why this is so impossible for anyone to simply try to fight for me to obtain as I am blocked in every attempt at self-sufficiency.

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Heavily drugged in deep sleep mode, then raped by a big "strong" man with muscles, bound in macho rape culture bravado and all the exploit mentality, the poisons that I am continuously fighting to get out of my body, which his "friends" had injected pumped and poured into my food, my bladder, injected etc and he has made me feel absolutely exhausted and sick because once more, this group is having a man determined to get his free deals and awards and prizes by abusing and torturing mutilating and raping me,--and again, as this whorewood group knows because I have written of it for over 16 years--the rape while I am in deep sleep mode, or in any mode asleep or awake (now only while in deep sleep mode) pounds poison deeply into my body---yes, they all know, and they keep bringing some "gonna get the deal" the go-getter to rape me pounding poison into my body while I can't brace for it, threatening me and so ill from detox already the early part of the day before sleep, I could not fight back with screaming rage rushing and physically fighting to get them off me in any way I can, but usually they pin me down in deep sleep use brain-afflicting technology to force extreme sexual fake desire and then pound the poison in, hitting me all the while and I have no idea where I am, what is going on my entire body is suffused with drugs and poisons and mind control blasting into my brain to alter brainwaves into any state--hate, anger or fake lust which I try to stave off but he is hitting me punching me and abusing me endlesly--every day my life force energy is drained almost completely by this group, and Hardy in particular as he is determined and this group is urging him to get this deal by forcing himself on me with torture hate abuse death threats and rape--as they sit back smug and smirking as usual. I am (or was, I am writing this latler) very very sick all day--could not move, not do anything as usual all I plan every day is stopped by their endless attacks on my computer so i can't check on aqnything I need to do it requires hours while they yell abuse and threats at me---&...courtesy of mechanical arms operated by terrorists on one side of the wall inserting them through the flimsy particle board barrier between my room and next, disguised as being the interiors of wall-to-floor cabinets--huge protruding structures through which the mechanical arms can be inserted--just one portal the room is covered from floor to ceiling with holes and tiles, panels that are opened from the other side (I have heard the "click" of one of the panels being shut while I was in a lighter sleep state, and they had inserted a cockroach in the corner of the upper ceiling where the panel was opened. I then covered that wall with colored paper which they then splattered brown stains on so I had to put all kinds of cheap wall stickers to conceal the brown spots on the formerly beautiful pastel colored panels which should have appeared something like a color mosaic of sorts---) anyway---drugged excessively while in deep sleep, and then viciously raped. I was in a healing sleep state and could not fight any longer, as physical violence is a daily event with me fighting furiously to get more hateful users abusers off me, as they cling on as long as they can (50 years, 60 years, every moment of every day, week after week, day after day on and on non-stop rotation of people who had drugged me into a seminal near-semi-conscious waking state to be "Friended" with hostile enemies. They lurch at me now glaring with demand to be abused and accept the societal conditions they helped to formulate by destroying each and every single thing I have done to secure my life stability in any way possible they have all used the rigged system which is embedded with their agents to destroy all that I do. The "blame the victim" advocates for the perpetrator group are having a field day stating that I am weak and just blanketing up the inimical failure that I have personally allowed to happen, rather than this is a fixed system of non-stop sabotage which is protected from all scrutiny and transparency or reporting on all levels of society, pulling all levers.

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